If life has a background music like a movie, then I want to insert a sad music for myself at this moment.

No, it can't be sad music, it seems like I'm too lonely, too weak. No matter what, it should be comedy or something, at least the sound of the sand sculpture doesn't sound so uncomfortable to me. From the first time I forgot to say that what I do best is self-soothing in addition to waiting. There are many things in my heart that I can't say, and I can only digest myself, and if I can't digest them, I can only comfort myself.

"Do you want tissues?"

I cried with earplugs, and Xu Wei's voice was also intermittent. There are no mirrors here, but I don't have to look at them, and I know I must be crying like a fool now. I hugged all the tissues in Xu Wei's hand and wiped my face indiscriminately, mixing snot and tears. I can't hold back my tears, and I can't wipe them away. I couldn't tell if I was wiping tears or if I was wiping away terrible emotions that I couldn't get rid of.

Xu Wei turned around, his eyebrows were twisted together, and he said in embarrassment: "Hey, I'm not good at comforting girls, as long as girls cry, I don't know what to do, don't cry." ”

I choked loudly and breathed heavily, "Then what can I do, I ...... Don't want to let ...... It flows out, but ...... But...... I can't hold back. ”

In my long life, I have never felt so wronged. It's like being a fool when I was uncomfortable before, and I can laugh so heartlessly. Now all the grievances have accumulated to this untimely evening eruption. I especially hate my current self, hypocrisy, and. Even if I comfort myself for being hypocritical, it's not a day or two, and it's not a month or two since I've been in a bag, but it's still so uncomfortable, and I can't live like before.

"Otherwise, I'll sing you a song, I was burned when I was a child, and my mother doesn't hurt when she sings, I'll sing it to you!"

"Ahem, ahem, ahem—here, listen!"

"Conquered by you like this—ah, conquered by you like this—"

Xu Wei's magic voice floated in the narrow alley, and after a few strange barks, the barking of dogs in the alley was like a timed ** that had been detonated, waking up the sleeping people wave after wave.

"Who, so lacking in morality, you won't let you sleep at night!"

"If you're sick, roar!"

"Bark and let the dog go again!"

"Look at your voice, you can bark better than a dog!"

“......”

He had a long mouth and forcibly withdrew the voice that came out of his mouth, which looked extremely funny.

"I'm going, I'm going, I'm going, I'm grinning, I'm telling you, I just wanted to sing the Qinghai-Tibet High School. ”

"Come on, you. "I only said these few words, and I could hear my own voice strangely. I picked up the sandpaper on the ground again, moved the place, and the snake left a shadow on me anyway.

"Really don't listen to me sing to you about the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau?"

"Don't. ”

"Then change it, how about singing unforgettable tonight? The classic of the Spring Festival Gala, listening to it will make you the same as the New Year. ”

"Forget it, didn't you say that this painting will be delivered by tomorrow afternoon, let's continue. ”

Xu Wei had a pompous smile on his face, and gave a thumbs up and praised: "Wow, it is worthy of being the pillar of our board newspaper group, it has only been a long time since I was bitten by a snake, I can cheer up so quickly, not bad, give you a thumbs up!"

"If you don't sing, I'm probably still crying. I picked up the palette on the floor and said softly, "Thank you." ”

"Wow, tsk, what's going on all of a sudden...... I'm embarrassed. ”

After covering the walls in white, we each picked up our paintbrushes and sketched the outline of the painting. I hold a flat-tip pen, and it is difficult to grasp the strength when I put down the pen, and many places that should be traced are black with one stroke. The only remedy is to wait for the paint to dry and then cover it with white and paint it again. I made five mistakes and revised four or five times, and the colors on the walls became strange. Normally, no matter how thick the tip is, I can find that balance point after three or four strokes at most, and when I put the pen down, it can be considered easy. Now the whole painting is almost ruined in the place where it was just drawn.

I couldn't calm down, and my drawings were a mess. I tried more than a dozen times, and the things I drew were still the same, the same as my mood, and they didn't get any better.

Xu Wei pushed me aside in disgust and calmly revised the place I had just drawn. After a while he sang happily about conquest. I know there's nothing he can't change.

I still remember the first time I met him, he carried a large bucket of diluted paint and wandered in front of the graffiti wall of the Academy of Fine Arts, until noon it was time for the security guards to eat. As soon as they left, he poured the bucket of paint on the largest graffiti wall. The thick color explodes like a colorful ** in the sun, very dirty, but the dirty is gorgeous.

On that day, he also sang about conquest.

I've always remembered his paintings, and I heard that he had a painting that he had been painting for three years, and I admired him from the bottom of my heart.

Squatting on the ground and washing the pen, my consciousness became in a trance, and it seemed that no matter how bad my mood was, I still dozed off when I should have dozed off. In order not to let myself fall asleep, I had to talk to him.

"Why do you ask me to paint at night, don't you have a lot of friends?"

"Hey-" he stood up and scribbled on the branch, "actually, I said don't hit me, it's ...... I tried them one by one, and you didn't sleep at that time. ”

"...... "I almost believed what he just said.

"Tut-tut, I can't help it at night, I've been struggling with whether I really like her, I'm nervous when I'm entangled, and I feel like I'm going to continue to struggle if I don't find something to do. ”

I handed him the palette and complained, "Cut, I thought you were doing something to me." ”

"I think you're pretty good, strong, and your personality is okay, although you don't look like the kind of beauty you look at at a glance."

I picked up the pen in my hand and threw him all over the water, he jumped to his feet and shouted: "Listen to me, people can't look relatively wrong, I said that you are not a beautiful woman, but you are very attractive, and if you see too much, you will unconsciously want to look at it twice." ”

"Crazy man, you. "Suddenly say these strange things. Fortunately, I understood him and poked it in time: "Don't act, I have a boyfriend." ”

His pen slammed, a large chunk of paint opened, and the whole painting became abrupt.

"When did it happen? I don't know?"

"Well, it's been almost half a year. I confessed to him: "Originally, I wouldn't have come out even if you looked for me today, but I had a quarrel with him, so I was in a super bad mood and needed to find a place to vent." ”

"Hey, hey, is it really okay to talk about other men in front of my brother?"

"Don't be poor, we're all the same, because someone we care about is uncomfortable, so we have a convulsion at night. ”

“...... Hey, you actually hit the nail on the head, hey, tell me why you quarreled?" he patted his chest confidently and said, "I've quarreled with my ex countless times, and we've all reconciled anyway, so I can help you anyway." ”

Do you really want to say it...... These words have never been spoken to anyone else. But today, I want to vomit for some reason.