There is no one in this world who can't live without anyone, and if there is, probably that person is really an out-and-out madman. I'm fantasizing about being that kind of crazy person right now.

"I'm going to have a fight with him today. He saw another woman's drawing, and he was angry, incomprehensibly angry, and when I asked him if he had been in a relationship with that woman before, he didn't deny it. ”

It's strange that I'm talking to a guy about these things, and I don't feel embarrassed at all. The only thought I had was that it was good to have someone who could listen to me.

Xu Weihu asked suspiciously, "Are they okay now?"

I didn't answer. There was a moment in my heart that I was very grateful to that scumbag of myself, and what I asked Zhao Yilun was: 'Have you ever been in a relationship?' instead of 'Do you still like her?'

Just flinch......

"Are they really okay?"

Xu Wei's eyes widened, and the paintbrush was casually thrown into the paint bucket, "You don't know?"

"Hmm. ”

"Ah, your hands are swollen, I'll take you to the hospital to bandage them. ”

I leaned over my shoulders and didn't let him grab my wrists.

"For a moment, I really wished that the snake that had bitten me was poisonous. ”

"Crazy, aren't you?!"

"If that's the case, I guess I can't even think about him now. "In that case, all the nerves are gathered in the fingers, and the only thing I feel is pain, and I think about going to the hospital soon, will I die?"

If that were the case, I wouldn't have to think for a moment why he didn't come, why he kept running away over and over again, why he never showed up when I wanted to see him the most.

"I tell you, sooner or later, this kind of thing will have to be asked of him, otherwise it will only get worse and worse like a thorn. I and my object, ah, no, when I was with the object in front of me, every time we had a difficult problem, we used post-it notes......"

Post-it ...... That's what I heard. Zhao Yilun and I also communicated like this for a while before, and if we can't see each other, we must know where the other party is and what they are doing.

I forgot to write a post-it note, I forgot to tell him what I was doing! Will he be waiting for me at home, will he be in a hurry, will he be afraid that I won't be able to go back?

"Su Ke, where are you going!"

I looked back sluggishly, when did I get up? I didn't notice it.

"I'm going home, I'm almost done. I'll go first!"

Will he really wait for me? I want to see him anxious, I want to see him angry, I want to see him laugh, I want to hear him.

I used to think that I was the most passive person, I didn't dare to fight for what I liked, I didn't dare to take the initiative to reconcile when I was angry, and I didn't dare to ask the teacher even if I encountered a question that I couldn't do and hindered the face of the poor student. I'm ...... now What's wrong?

Running madly on the deserted streets, the sound of footsteps falling on the road, mixed with the atmosphere of disorder, there is no rhythm to speak of.

It doesn't matter if he did anything wrong or not...... I want to stay where there is him. I can ask nothing, just wait for me, Zhao Yilun. Wait for me, let me see you as soon as I open the door......

I ran weakly, trembling and entering the code on the door, what should I say to him when I open the door?

"Click-" The door opened, and there was no one inside.

The heart that hung in the air fell to the bottom. I was afraid that he would not find me, but I never thought that he had not found me at all. He didn't make a single phone call, he didn't send a single text message. Just now...... I have been afraid to look at my phone and have been deceiving myself.

I returned to the room reluctantly, and the page of the notebook was sandwiched between the pictures I had drawn, the one with Zhao Yilun's back. Pick it up and look at it carefully, regretting why I only drew the back in the first place, if only I had a straight face, after all, we didn't even have a group photo, I didn't even have a picture of him.

If it ends like this, in a few days, I should forget what he looks like, will he forget me? When I think of him forgetting the way I look, I really feel very unwilling, what are the days we have together?

Before I forget him, I hope he doesn't forget me, otherwise it would be too unfair to me, and as someone who has been abandoned many times, I don't want to be abandoned again.

I put the painting on the table and noticed the two words written on the back, Su Ke.

I know that handwriting all too well, it's his. He didn't write someone else's name, not Lin Weisheng's, but mine.

How crazy am I to that I actually dialed Zhao Yilun's phone for two words.

"Zhao Yilun. ”

There was silence on the other end of the phone. I took a deep breath as I stepped on the ground barefoot, but there was still no response on the other end of the phone.

"I didn't want to make this call, I thought you'd explain it to me first. You don't want to talk about the past with Lin Weisheng...... I can not ask, I can not know anything, but ...... Don't be so untrustworthy, I said you weren't allowed to leave me alone, even if I left first, you weren't allowed to go......"

After a pause of more than ten seconds, the person on the other side still didn't speak, and I was a little annoyed.

"Do you know what happened to me tonight? Didn't you say don't you want to go out alone at night? I went out tonight, why don't you come to me?"

"I've got to say something when I call you, even if it's just a word, please say something, just gasp, let me know you're listening to me!"

"I just want to stay where I have you...... Please, come back, I won't ask anything. ”

When I met him, I was wrapped in a coat that was not thick or thin, but he wanted to cover me with a quilt. It was so warm, so warm that I didn't want to leave. If he really doesn't plan to appear in front of me in the future, I may freeze to death in the snow.

My heart was pounding like a broken machine, and by the time I said those words, I had already made up the idea of abandoning everything, that I could have no face, no pride. I'm afraid I can't live without him for the time being, and I can't get used to life without him.

Why don't you speak?

"Talk, are you listening......

"Forget it, you're going to treat me as drunk. ”

Just now, did you fight for yourself?

Then ...... There is nothing to regret. I've said what I want to say to the best of my ability, but I haven't met the person I want to see the most.

"I'm hanging, what I just said, if you feel uncomfortable, forget it. ”

"Do I have that bad memory?"

"Huh?"

The moment I lost my mind, my phone slipped on the floor and made a 'clang-' sound, and my whole heart fluttered.

Zhao Yilun was standing behind me, and I heard everything I just said.