At dusk, the path from the cafeteria to the dormitory was filled with stalls one after another. These are all from outside, the school has been chased many times, and even hired four or five more security guards to be responsible for driving people, but they can't stand the students' liking, and over time these small vendors in the school have become a kind of tacit approval.

There are materials for selling everything, eating, playing, and going to graduate school. The stalls were closed until very late, and some of them were withdrawn at 11 o'clock at the latest.

An uncle who sells night lights speaks quickly and hands the half-packed cat-shaped night lights to a little boy on the side, whose mother is busy haggling with the stall owner.

"Can't this be cheaper?"

"Eldest sister, you're almost done, this is the purchase price, I can't make a dime. ”

"If it's ten yuan cheaper, the people next door will also sell it, and they all look similar, but your family will be so expensive. ”

“……”

The little boy blushed and tugged at the corner of his mother's coat, looking like me asking for crayons in front of the window.

It was the first time my mom had run away from home, and she took me and my aunt, and in her desperation, I was clamoring to buy crayons from the toy store. A small box, a dozen yuan at that time was not a small amount for a child. Of course, she won't buy it for me, and after she promises, she will have whatever she wants in the future. I secretly held the hard corner of my backpack, the box of crayons, fifteen years late.

"What are you looking at? Lost all day?"

"Hmm...... It's nothing. ”

Wang Yuan stuffed a piece of pineapple into my mouth, "It's super sweet, the aunt who sells fruit didn't lie to me." ”

I chewed it, it was indeed quite sweet, and the sweetness was a little greasy.

In the blink of an eye, the mother and son who stayed in front of the stall had already left, looking at the small night light on the ground, it seemed that the little boy didn't get what he wanted.

"Oh, I said what do you keep watching, so obsessed?"

"Yuanyuan. ”

"Good...... Why do you suddenly call me that?"

"Your pineapple is so tired. ”

She sneered and hit me twice, "You want to buy a night light?"

The boss, who was sorting things out, heard it and shouted loudly: "Little girl, take a look?"

"That's, Big Wolf's. I pointed, and he handed it over immediately, and kept introducing how to use it, what the quality was, and even where to buy the goods was told by him with a mouth.

I pressed the switch, and the broken points of light in the glass cover floated up and down, and in the middle was the happy face of the gray wolf, which was a little abrupt in it. I paid for it, and fiddled with the night light in my hand in boredom, and the little boy had been staring at it just now, and if I could become him now, I would have jumped up with joy.

"Yuanyuan, will I call you like that in the future?"

"Well, it's not impossible, I have to get used to it, hey, aren't you too drunk?"

"Hmm. ”

“…… What did you drink that day, what did you call that man, Zhang Zhiyi? almost scared people. I'm telling you, try to drink as little as possible in the future, there were so many men last time, what if there was an accident?"

"Hmm. I replied unintentionally.

Rare to have time to get together, we went to the bubble tea shop, ordered two milkshakes, the temperature remained high at night, I was still wearing a coat, and the waiter who delivered the milk tea kindly prompted: "There is a special rack for clothes in the back." ”

"Take it off. Wang Yuan reached out to unzip me.

I avoided it and whispered, "Cold." ”

She took a big sip of the milkshake, her loose eyes drooping on the bridge of her nose, like an old tailor.

"You won't really fall out of love, right? Look at the fact that you are not in a state for a day today, and you were still absent from class yesterday, do you know that you have to take the retake exam if you miss school three times, but fortunately there were two negotiation classes yesterday. ”

"I miss my mom. ”

"Poof—how long has it been since you've been home, and you're still skipping school?"

I thought about it for a moment and said slowly, "It's been a long time, it seems like more than ten years." ”

I want to go back to the house I was 14 years ago, sit and watch my mom choose the dishes, listen to my dad nagging, even if I quarrel with my brother every day.

I really want to go back...... If only I could have been sensible earlier...... No, now I'm still a kid who doesn't understand anything and needs protection in the eyes of everyone.

"Ah, the ice cubes are finished...... I stirred the milkshake in the cup, lowered my head, my bangs fell out to cover my reddish eyes, and Wang Yuan continued to gossip on the side.

"Speaking of which, your boyfriend looks very good, and he is very good, I talked to him that day, and he asked me if we had a lot of classes that day, did you sleep in class, and told me that if you fell asleep, you would have to pinch to wake up hahaha. ”

"I knew that nothing good could come out of his mouth. The corners of his mouth rose unconsciously, and he didn't know whether to cry or laugh for a while.

"Speaking of which, I haven't seen him with you much, hey, maybe we don't spend much time together, and I don't see you much. ”

He ...... It's busy. ”

I wrapped my coat tightly and drank all the milkshakes in the cup, the cold liquid stimulated the nerves in my teeth, and a chill rose in my heart.

On the way back, flipping through the address book over and over again, I wanted to call my brother and tell him the contents of the letter. For so many years, he had been thinking about why his mother only told me when she left, only promised to come back to see me, but he didn't know anything. Because of this, in the first few years after my mother left, my brother and I had a lot of fights, and I was bullied by him a lot. From time to time, I was scolded by him for no reason, and he never coaxed me when I cried...... As time went by, I gradually understood that he was not targeting me, he just couldn't accept the fact of being abandoned, whether it was him or me, we were all the same, it was Grandma Li next door who said that there was no mother to have a child.

Waiting for the connection, in just a dozen seconds, I organized the language, and I thought about it countless times in private, but the words came to my mouth, but I couldn't open my mouth.

Fortunately, no one answered. Organize your thoughts and wait until I see my mom before telling him, it should be better. In case she doesn't have a good time, I'm afraid my brother will be uncomfortable.

If she had done well, I think I would still be uncomfortable, and I didn't allow her to have a family of her own...... The dependence on her in that memory is a selfishness rooted in the depths, and I can't imagine what other people call her mom.

I hope she is unhappy, but I also hope that she is happy, in the final analysis, I have not sorted out my feelings for her for twenty years. Maybe I can't figure it out all my life, who called her the one who gave birth to me.

Sitting on the bench, I caught a familiar figure through the gap of thousands of traffic, and the mother-in-law who picked up garbage stood alone in the middle of the road waiting for the red light, she still pushed the stroller, bowed her head and said something to the children inside, laughing and laughing.

I've seen her a lot, but I've never seen her smile like that. Barely having drunk all the water, my stomach swelled, and just as the lights changed, I trotted over and slipped the bottle into the pocket she was carrying.

Again, she pulled out a small thing, this time not sugar, but a compressed biscuit.