Both sides of the road are lush green, and even if you deliberately look for a little red or pink in the green, you will not be able to find it.

Before I knew it, it was summer, and a few days ago, I shouted cold clothes at night, and now I can't wait to kick the quilt under the bed at night to eliminate the hot feeling lurking in my heart.

Under the scorching sun, I went to the Z University Library to check the information, and happened to meet Zhao Meimei. Speaking of which, she hardly went back to her accommodation, and occasionally went back to change her clothes.

We chatted around the corner. It's kind of funny to live under the same roof and now have to discuss this kind of topic.

I proposed to her, "If I want to pay the rent, I'll pay it for three months, right?"

"No, I don't. ”

Slightly surprised. I thought she would agree, maybe I thought she was too stingy before.

She hugged the book in her hand tightly, and her expression was incredulous: "Didn't your boyfriend already pay? ”

When I heard this, I almost threw the book out of my hand! Five years, he is not sick, I will graduate in two years at most, besides, who ...... Let him pay?

Ms. Zhao also announced an even more explosive news, saying: "I'll move out next month." ”

"Where to move?"

She doesn't speak. For a moment, all that was left was the sound of books being held between the two rows of shelves. Perhaps, I shouldn't ask more, and it's still a little difficult for me to take the initiative to get close to girls. The middle is like a veil through it, so strong that it can't be broken. Actually, it's not that I can't break it, it's that I don't have the courage to uncover it.

She took my arm and we went into the seminar room.

When the door is closed, you can't hear the sound outside, and the sound insulation effect of the seminar room of the Z library is still very good.

I glanced at Zhao Meimei, who was tying her shoes, was she going to say something, and it was worth occupying a separate seminar room.

"You ......" she pulled back from her chair and sat down, but she couldn't speak.

I moved forward slightly and caught a glimpse of Gone with the Wind on the table.

She picked up the book and landed neatly on top of the pile of review materials, this time opening her mouth with less twisting.

"I remember the first time I saw you was in high school, and you were lying on the door handing Lu Xiangnan a book, which seemed to be "Gone with the Wind". I can see you at the door every two or three days after the shift."

“…… "Of course, I don't know what stupid I'm pretending. Maybe I didn't want to be mentioned before, but when I stood at the door of Qingbeiban to search for Lu Xiangnan's figure, I was really scared.

I'm afraid that when I see him, he's discussing model airplanes with girls I don't know, or he doesn't see me standing in the doorway at all.

"You must have liked him since high school, right?"

My heart sank, I thought I was hiding it well, but I didn't expect it to be seen.

"Why did you bring this up all of a sudden?"

"It's nothing, it's just talking about first impressions. There was a hint of tiredness embedded in her smile, and she stretched out her hand to compare her forehead: "At that time, I remember that you should have bangs, right?"

"Well, indeed, if you don't say it, I don't remember it myself. ”

"I think we're quite connected, it's ...... Thank you, though it doesn't look like me a little bit. But the day my mom left, when I thought the sky was going to fall, thank you for being by my side. ”

I was stunned, for the first time in my life, I couldn't tell what it was like to hear the words 'I'm glad to have you'.

She wants to be grateful, and it should be Zhao Yilun. That day, when I was thinking about what my relationship with Zhao Meimei was suitable for me to do, it was Zhao Yilun who helped me make the choice.

Look, I'm really just an ordinary person, the pattern is not that big, and in that situation I can't do it without prioritizing myself.

"I've wanted to tell you this for a long time, but I'm not used to telling others what I'm thinking...... Sometimes it feels like we're quite alike, and we're not bad at revealing our truest side. ”

I could feel her caution in letting out her inner emotions.

I remember when I was a sophomore in high school, I played with Zhao Meimei in the school's drama performance, and we created our own script.

I play the role of a gentle and amiable teacher, caring for students: "Sometimes telling others what is in your heart is also a kind of emotional regulation. Maybe you can tell me. ”

The student played by Zhao Meimei should have agreed with the teacher's suggestion, but she revised her lines during the official performance.

"Can't do it. ”

I thought she had forgotten the words, so I came to the rescue: "Why?"

"Because, I don't have anyone I can trust, I don't know who to talk to. ”

Her thoughts were dragged back by the sound of the air conditioner overhead, and she couldn't help but think, does she have someone worth talking to now? Or did she keep it in her heart until those grievances were unhappy, and those secrets were dusty and moldy in the dark corners......

was in the crowd all the time, but when I looked back, I found that I had been alone all along.

That feeling, as it should be called, loneliness.

Perhaps none of us wanted to pay too much attention to this slightly sad topic, so we hurriedly skipped it.

She joked as usual: "Your boyfriend is quite handsome." ”

It's rare for me to show off shamelessly: "yes, I think so too!"

"Haha, look at you like that, it's like you've hit the jackpot. ”

"Indeed, I feel the same way, as if meeting him is really like winning the lottery, and it consumes all my luck. ”

Such a sentence came out of nowhere...... It took me a long time to realize what I had said.

She mentioned Lu Xiangnan again...... and my final choice.

"Liking is not necessarily appropriate, but being suitable can sometimes be a liking. This is a quote I read in a book, and I think it's a good gift for you. ”

I don't need to explain, I can see what she means. A person's thoughts about the other are not completely dissipated so quickly, and it is also a good choice to learn to actively forget while waiting to be consumed.

"Liking is not necessarily appropriate, but being suitable can sometimes become a liking for you." Reciting this sentence again, I thought of Zhao Yilun. Are we tied to each other because we like to be together, or are we tied to each other because we fit in?

Maybe Zhao Meimei is right, it is suitable, and it can also become a kind of like.

I went out with a thick stack of books, swept over at a glance, and noticed a slightly bent back. With the clattering of the stroller, I saw my mother-in-law picking up garbage again.

This time, instead of children, the stroller was lying in a pile of garbage. She put all the bottles and cans she had picked up. It was too full and many bottles fell out.

As soon as the wind blew, scattered bottles flew everywhere.

After a moment's hesitation, I stacked the books aside and bent down to reach for the bottles. I picked it up and handed it to my mother-in-law, and met her eyes, but somehow, I couldn't see a little light in her eyes.