At night, we drank some soju and let off on the balcony. I was reluctant to come, but Zhao Yilun's mother could detect any abnormal phenomena on his mother's body.

It's a strange feeling, obviously there is a heat in the body, but I still can't help shivering in such a cold weather, so I wrapped the blanket on my body. He looked out at the snowy landscape in the distance, and the top of his head was a large white flower.

His fair skin paled even paler under the reflection of the snow. Have you already had a phlebotomy, why do you look exhausted now, as if you are standing here and standing in front of me.

Suddenly, he reached out and held my hand tightly, with a smile in his eyes, "If you shiver again, the earthquake is about to happen, or let's go back." ”

"Didn't you say that it was inconvenient to go home with the smell of alcohol?"

"You're concerned about me, aren't you?" he pulled me closer, and the blanket almost fell off his body, and he draped it over me again.

"You........ Can you not do something so suddenly every time? "Shake my hand, bury your head in my shoulder, and pick me up from the ground on your own initiative........ These, without my consent, are so domineering and like to deny.........

"Got it. ”

“..... "This is the first time he hasn't said anything contrary to me, and I really don't understand what he's thinking.

"Do you know what my favorite thing is?" he asked

"me!" I replied without hesitation

"It's snow, snow, the kind of snow that can drown the world. His eyes fell on the falling snowflakes, but he seemed to be looking at something farther away. At that moment, I couldn't see myself in his eyes, or even the world.

I looked in his direction, "Is there really snow like that?"

"Perhaps. ”

Will we still be standing side by side like this and looking out at the snow, or will we blur the outlines of each other in our memories while the world is submerged.........

"Do you like snow?" he tilted his head and looked at me earnestly

"I didn't feel it before, but if you like it, I'll try my best to like it. ”

His face was red, it was the first time I had seen him blush. "How could you say such a thing? Shouldn't this be mine, my lines, how are you stealing the show!" He pretended to be angry, but the blush on his face did not diminish by half a point.

But who knows, in the days to come, I will fall deeper and deeper, everything he likes, I am not trying my best to like it, but I am trying my best to protect it.

When we were about to go back to the house, someone on the balcony next door called my name.

There was no light on, I couldn't see who it was, but I thought the sound was familiar, I got closer, and the man turned on the light.

Be....... Lu to the south. He was one of the students who returned to school early to assist the teacher in the project, and as a result, a highly myopic junior who smoked in private and couldn't see clearly, almost burning the entire floor. So Lu Xiangnan could only rent a house during this time, and Zhao Meimei helped him introduce him, and he didn't have time to tell me yet.

I swept behind him, and it was really strange to see Lu Xiangnan for the first time in college, without Liu Ruoning by his side, was it in the house........

"Just you?" I asked

Lu Xiangnan seemed to notice that I was looking at something, and he blinked, "It's just me, is there anything wrong?"

“...... Nope."

I lowered my head weakly, it seems that I still can't help it, but I've made a choice that has been passive in my relationship, haven't I, so I can only make my choice right, it can only be like this.

"He's ......." he pointed at Zhao Yilun, with a hint of awkwardness in his eyes.

"I'm Her ....."

"He's my roommate in the same room!" My voice was loud enough to overshadow Zhao Yilun's, and my hands were shaking as I lied.

Zhao Yilun, he should have an ugly face now, I don't dare to look back at him.

Lu Xiangnan asked: "When did it happen, Zhao Meimei said a few days ago that it was just the two of you?"

"Now it's three. I replied in a low voice, when I turned back, Zhao Yilun was gone, was he angry, and would he come to me in the future?

The blanket on his body had fallen to the ground at some point. I squatted down and picked it up, it was covered with snow, and I held it in my arms.

But why should I lie, even I don't understand.

Lu Xiangnan propped up the fence on the balcony, he didn't notice the real abnormality at all, and teased; Your roommate doesn't have a very good temper, if you are wronged, you can come to my side, do you want to think about it?"

How nice it would have been a month ago........

"No, he's fine. "We didn't talk a few words, and I didn't know where my heart was.

Pushing open the door behind me, the whole room was dark, I didn't take my phone when I came out, I couldn't see anything, I almost tripped over, and I didn't bother to pick up the slippers on my feet.

"Zhao Yilun," I called his name, "are you there?"

There was no response, and it seems that he really left. If it were me, I would have left without hesitation.

I staggered to the entrance and turned on the light, only to see Zhao Yilun sitting on the sofa.

"Why don't you say a word if you don't leave?" I walked over barefoot, I didn't know what I stepped on, I was very awkward, and I couldn't help but gasp.

"Hey, sit down across from me, don't you have something to say to me?" he said to me, staring at the table without squinting

As if he was angry, betting on when he would look back at me, I stood diagonally across from him.

"I....... I didn't mean to say that, and I don't know why, probably, I'm not ready to introduce you to others. ”

I continued, "I don't know how to hide my feelings, the person I just had, the person I've liked for five years, I don't know how to isolate him from my memory. ”

But it's ridiculous, isn't it, I don't dare to move forward, and I'm reluctant to retreat, obviously only these two directions are correct, but I just go to the right.

"But I've chosen, I think, when I really accept you, I'll be honest with myself, at least then I won't feel ashamed of anyone, just because I like you. ”

It really got to that point, just because I liked you, that's all.

"It's awkward, right, I think so too, but Zhao Yilun I've been so awkward since I was a child, and I never take the initiative to choose anything, although I'm not ready when you choose me, but I'm very happy in my heart, when you say that there is someone who can remember, I also think it's very good, you can take the risk to pick me up, all of this, I'm very happy, but, but I just can't forget him, I've tried before, it's really hard to like him, I can't understand what he's thinking, I don't even know what he likes, I don't dare to ask, ask everything about him, he's always surrounded by a group of people, and I'm just myselfWe are different, so I can't continue to like it, but I think it's unfair to you, and it can even be said to be excessive....... I shouldn't just care about my own feelings and throw you aside, if you feel awkward, then we'll split.... ON "

He walked straight over, picked me up and threw me on the sofa, with a bit of reprimand in his tone, "I just told you not to stand barefoot on the ground in the morning, why can't you remember?"

In the midst of my breath, I realized that I had already burst into tears.

Why are you crying, is it because you are too lonely? These words have not been said to anyone but him, friends, family, Lu Xiangnan....... I can't find the right person.

Only he could hear the voice of my heart.

He crouched down and gently wiped the tears from my face, just like the angry man he had just been.

"You've made a choice, don't think about denying it for the rest of your life. ”

He lowered his head and kissed me.