That night, Zhao Meimei never returned. But Zhao Yilun still wants to leave, he came this time to say goodbye to me for a short time, and we won't see each other for nearly half a month, and his condition seems to have deteriorated. He said these words to me without forgetting to half-joking, probably to say goodbye in a relaxed way.

It is said that only a very small number of people can suffer from this disease, and I had never heard of it before I met him, and naturally I could not feel the pain hidden in the darkness.

He said, "I promise you that I will come to you after the treatment Monday." ”

It seems that my mother also said something like this, and I was most afraid of people saying things like "I promise you", "we promise", and this fear of being forgotten prompted me to quickly grab his hand the moment he turned around, "Don't lie to me!"

Don't make me wait any longer, that's what I'm best at and what I hate the most, how I want to refuse a wait if I can, but there's a voice inside that roars, you don't dare.

Yes, I don't dare.

We made a reflex that didn't match our age in the slightest, and the next time we met, whoever didn't stand still would be stupid. Because he or she doesn't know that the other person is the most worthy of waiting in the world.

He leaned into my ear and whispered, "Rely on me a little more, because I'm relying on you." ”

"Okay," I smiled heartily.

We, for each other, are the most worthy of waiting in the world.

I watched him disappear into the snow and the end of the night.

The following week passed quickly, and before I knew it, there were already many students returning to school. At the school stop sign at the west gate of the school, I met my roommate Wang Yuan. She struggled to move around with her heavy suitcase, and the middle-aged woman next to her was scolding her in a dialect, and she glanced impatiently at the school to see me.

She greeted me with an excited look, "Su Ke Su Ke, why did you come to school so early?"

"There's nothing to do at home. ”

"yes, haha, I think so too. She deliberately quickened her pace and distanced herself from her mother.

We were talking aimlessly, and she didn't seem to want to introduce her mother to me, so my aunt came up to me and asked, "Is this your classmate?"

"Well, Mom, stop nagging, I'm really annoying!"

"Tell me you can't do it anymore, you see what kind of mess you are loading, it takes a lot of effort to pick it up......"

"What did you say about the final credit, why can't I understand it?"

"The girl's family doesn't have a long memory when she goes out, so she puts on a pair of woolen pants on such a cold day, and she will die!"

“.........”

All the way was her mother's scolding, we walked on the path full of fallen leaves, she couldn't help but complain, "My mother is so troublesome every time, she said that if she comes out, don't be so loud, just don't listen, really!" She turned her head and said commandingly: "Mom, can you make a quieter voice, there are others in public!" She didn't use dialect, she used Mandarin.

"Why are you talking?"

"........" is again an endless quarrel.

I couldn't help laughing, and Wang Yuan asked inexplicably, "What are you laughing at?"

"It's a good thing to be able to quarrel with my mother. ”

"You're really speechless, Su Ke, are you serious?"

"Really, when did such an honest and kind person as I ever lie to you. ”

"........." I feel that the expression on Wang Yuan's face is the same as my expression when Zhao Yilun jokes with me. Looks like I've been infected by him.

We went back to the dormitory together, and I was packing up my things to move from, while Wang Yuan was making the bed, and her mother was sitting there complaining about our pig's nest-like dormitory.

"Your sister-in-law's house, why don't you know how to clean it up, how dirty it is, is this a place where people live?"

"Hey-yo-my mother, this windowsill hasn't been wiped in a few lifetimes, this ash, this guy is so damn. ”

"Whoever drips water, I don't know how to pour it out after a winter vacation, it stinks. ”

“.........”

In the repeated complaints, Wang Yuan and I looked at each other and smiled.

I will never forget the act of her mother pulling a wad of money out of her old bag when she was leaving.

Although she has been scolding her before, and she has been reluctant to give up when she left, the money is pinned on the worries and expectations of her children outside.

Some love, even if it is not said, even if it is loved in another way that is difficult to accept, it is still the most cherished in this world.

Even the air was silent in the cramped space, and I dragged out the large plastic box under the bed, wondering how to get the books back. If you don't live in the dormitory in the future, it will be embarrassing to come back and get the books and meet them, but if you take it yourself...... That's too much!

"I'll help you. Wang Yuan's voice floated above her head, and she had already made the bed.

"Huh?" hasn't she always liked to be involved in other people's affairs, it's good to me, but to the rest of the dormitory, the classmates in the class hardly talk much, and they stay in the study room every morning and evening, and they haven't come back a few times at noon, how can they suddenly say that, it's strange since I met her just now and said hello.

"I said, I'll help you. "Apparently she had the courage to say it, and we didn't usually have much in common except for the first row of professional classes.

"Well, thank you then. I smiled happily, and although I was uncomfortable at first, I didn't hate it, but I liked it very much.

She came down from the top bunk and stepped barefoot on the ground, and I reflexively opened my mouth and shouted, "How can you not wear shoes?"

There was silence, as if a flock of crows had flown by........

“...... Oh," she hurriedly put on her slippers, a smile on her lips.

We went out of the dormitory door together, she helped me hold a super large collection box, along the way I asked her if she was tired and wanted to change me, she was very bold, "Little case, I am a strong man in our house." ”

I cast a skeptical look at her, "Really, you're so skinny?"

"To tell you the truth, I'm from a small place, and I have been working hard since I was a child. ”

“...... What kind of strength work?"

There was a hint of hesitation in her eyes, and she spoke for a long time, "Picking up garbage, selling vegetables or something, especially in winter, my dad and I were chased by the chengguan all over the street." ”

"It seems that it is really not easy, otherwise how could you work so hard and take the top ten majors every time. ”

“....... "Hey" she looked at me with a strange gaze, and then laughed heartily, "I knew that you were different from others, so I hated them and didn't want to talk to them, hey, do you know, the first time I told people about my family, I thought they would treat me well, but in exchange for a semester of indifference and neglect, that semester happened to be the first semester of the college entrance examination" She bent down and put the box heavily on the ground, panting.

"So I failed in the college entrance examination," she said lightly.

How long has it been since her heart has been exposed to others, and the girl who loves to laugh so much has to isolate the world due to the pressure of life.

"Actually, I'm not afraid of your jokes, I said this to make myself live a little clearer, in the future I want to stay away from this city, go to a place where no one knows me, live a good life, work harder, I don't want to be a replica of poverty. ”

"Nobody wants to be like that. ”

"Haha, that's right. She really picked up the box and beckoned me like a strong man, "Go faster, you can't do this, if the chengguan comes, you will be arrested hundreds of times." ”

"Why don't you say that you won the first place in the last school sports meeting with 5,000!"

Since that move, our relationship has come into full swing, and we are fortunate that we are able to reveal our truest selves to each other in the context of the big picture.

Although, I knew she had some kind of purpose, and the dorm room after I left was no different from her, she didn't want to be abandoned, she didn't want to be really obscure, just like me.

But we are not refugees huddled together for warmth, she later told me that we are comrades-in-arms who fight side by side and live together in this damn and helpless world.

This kind of claim may sound like a sand sculpture, but when you think about it, it feels pretty good.

When I arrived at the apartment, I almost collided with Lu Xiangnan and died. He sat on the floor picking up the messy lab reports, and all the unsightly things in my box were scattered on the ground.

I saved up socks that hadn't been washed for ten days, underwear I just bought, and ×× brand sanitary napkins.......

This must be the scene of a large rollover, and I consoled myself to calm down, to calm down.......

Wang Yuan leaned back and closed with a smile on the side, "Hahaha, Su Ke, you can do it, you can save socks better than me"

I'm full of black lines, is this the time, if you don't mind, Guinness will make another show that doesn't wash socks, you go and create a miracle!

Lu Xiangnan was also embarrassed, he didn't know whether to pick it up for me or not, and his hand hanging in the air floated.

I quickly put the mess into the box and urged him loudly: "Aren't you usually very busy, don't worry about such trivial things, let's go!"

Wang Yuan's eyes widened on the side, "You know each other?"

Lu Xiangnan picked up the pack of sanitary napkins and put them in the box, and whispered: "It's as so-so as high school, but fortunately, I was the one who hit me today." ”

"It's you who are even more embarrassed, and you said that you won't help me. "My face was hot, and I wanted to find a crack to get into.

"Okay, Master Su is right in everything he says, and he can't refute it. ”

"Less poor mouth!"

"Honestly, what's embarrassing, I bought it for you when I was in high school. ”

I only choked out one word, "Get out!"

"You two are going to have a good rhythm. Wang Yuan, who had big nerves, leaned over and intervened.

It's even more embarrassing...

Lu Xiangnan coughed twice, "When I passed downstairs just now, I saw a rice cracker for sale, thinking that if you like it, I will buy more, if you don't mind, bring your classmates to try it." ”

"Okay," Wang Yuan responded with a mouthful.

I sighed, and the sighs of my life were all forgotten by her sand sculpture expression.

But if you go, Zhao Yilun will be unhappy, although he can't see it, I can lie, but I won't do that.

If you don't go, this relationship that has been hidden for five years can only stay in place, it will not end, and it will hurt others.

I opened the door, poured water for Wang Yuan, and cleaned up briefly.

Wang Yuan sat there quietly, and suddenly sighed, "It's good to be able to move out, I want to do this too." ”

"You will only be better in the future, you will not get worse, and those who love to giggle are not bad luck. ”

"Hey, I didn't notice that your mouth is quite poisonous. ”

"There's so much more you haven't noticed. ”

We teased for a few minutes, and it was almost noon, when Lu Xiangnan called us over.

When he was about to close, Zhao Yilun sent a good afternoon.

A week he said goodbye, morning, noon and evening, when he left that day, he deliberately emphasized that it may not be very convenient to type, and it is not convenient to call under the supervision of the doctor, I replied with a large paragraph of text to ask him to pay attention to the body, and deliberately added a few words at the end, no need to reply.

This time, I wanted to tease him, saying that I was going to my neighbor's house for dinner, and I received a reply.

He replied in seconds, "You dare!"

I went out smiling.