You are the scenery of my lifeZhang Baotong 2018.2.11

At noon, we found a small restaurant in the county town for a meal and asked for a few local stir-fried dishes, including smoked fish, bitter gourd and chili peppers. This allows us to relive the taste of the past and the long-lost taste. After eating, we went to the Miluo River again. The Miluo River is the iconic scenery in our memory, and it has been flowing in our hearts and dreams for many years, making us feel that the time was so clear and beautiful. As we walked along the wide embankment, she suddenly took my arm and made me feel very kind and warm, as if she had become my beloved lover.

Looking at the autumn sun and white clouds, looking at the fragrant rice flowers on the bank, looking at the white sails and light boats flowing down the river, and looking at the Miluo River Bridge in the distance at the head of the river, we are like indulging in a dream. She put her body on my shoulder, put her face to my ear, and said to me in a coquettish voice, if you weren't as breathable as a lump of wood, we would have been in love with each other. I smiled helplessly and said, I am Yulin Pimple, but you are so smart and beautiful, why don't you give me a touch? She said, I have slept with you, how do you want me to dial it? If it is someone else, can I sleep with him? I repeated in frustration that you are too perfect and tall in my mind, just like a goddess, let me look up and respect, how dare I be too close to you. She said, so we can only love each other on one side of heaven and earth.

Then she asked me how I was doing. I said what else can I do, just make do with my uncle. I asked her how she was doing. She said so-so, and she could get by. I said I want a divorce, can you live with me? We will love and love together, and make up for the lost years. She smiled and said, "Is it possible?" We're all old, and our children are older, so let's stop tossing. Besides, divorce is not an easy task. Speaking of this, she sighed and said that it was better to wait for the next life. I said you have a next life, but I don't. In fact, I'm just talking about this, our generation doesn't look at marriage and divorce as lightly as young people now, and if you don't love it, you will leave, and you will find it when you leave. Many of us don't have a good relationship as a couple, but it's not going on day by day. Our generation is like that, there are many aspirations and aspirations, but few people break the mold and turn it into reality.

Because Wang Yuxia was going to get on the train at seven o'clock in the evening, we returned to the hotel at four o'clock. We sat in our rooms and talked about some of the things that happened during the three days of the meeting. She said that Xie Dongfeng hugged Lin Feng and cried bitterly after seeing Lin Feng because he missed Lin Feng. Why don't you see you holding me and crying? I put my hand on her cheek and asked you really want me to do this? She said why don't you want to? But you don't do that at all. I said that you are not Lin Feng, and I am not Xie Dongfeng. You are more noble and dignified than Lin Feng, and I am more self-aware than Xie Dongfeng, so I will not and dare not be rude to you. She laughed again and said that's what makes you lovely and what makes you pathetic.

I said that this reunion and farewell, I don't know if we can see each other again in the future. Wang Yuxia said, we said that we will gather in Hefei next year, I don't know if you can come again. I said that you all live in Wuhu, and Wuhu and Hefei are very close, so it is easier to party. However, it is not easy for me to go once. But she said, otherwise, come here, and I will accompany you to Huangshan. I've been to Huangshan before, but if I go up to Huangshan with her, I will definitely feel different. I said if there was no special reason, I would go.

At five o'clock we went out for dinner again, and then sat in the room for a while. At six o'clock, I took her to the train station with my suitcase. As I walked on the road, she told me that she could have left last night, but decided to stay because she wanted to spend one more day with me. I said I'm the same way, if you don't leave, I won't leave first. When she heard this, she silently took my arm. We soon came to the station. After entering the waiting room for a while, the ticket gate was cleared. We came to the platform.

This is the last moment of the breakup, she took my hand and said, next year I will organize everyone to gather in Wuhu, you must come, I will accompany you to Huangshan. I nodded and said that in order to go up to Huangshan with you, I will definitely attend this party.

Soon, the train came into the station, and I handed her the suitcase to the car, and then watched her follow the flow into the carriage. Then the train started. I waited for the train to disappear into the twilight before I left the station.

Back at the hotel, it was already dark. All my classmates are gone, and I'm the only one left living here. I lay on the bed, thinking about the hustle and bustle of the classmates' gatherings in the past few days, and I couldn't help but feel a kind of loneliness and sadness in my heart, as if people came to this world and walked around, and finally had to leave alone. Spring and summer are followed by autumn and winter, after the hustle and bustle is loneliness, after aggregation is dispersion, and after passion is loss. The biggest impression I have at this class reunion is that I haven't seen each other for more than 30 years, and the young and bookish classmates in my memory have now become gray-haired, old-fashioned little old men and old women. This reality was unacceptable to me for a long time, but here's the thing: we're all old. After all, we haven't seen each other for more than thirty years. How many 30 years does a person have in this life? If we meet again after 30 years, I am afraid that there will be very few people to see.

But what I was most glad about at this gathering was that I met Wang Yuxia. She's the one I've loved all my life, and she's in love with me. It is a kind of regret in life that two people who love each other cannot live together, and they will often suffer the torture and pain of longing. But this kind of torture and pain is sometimes a kind of comfort to the soul, and I feel that thousands of miles away, there is a woman I love all my life, and that woman is also loving me.

I wanted to sit up and watch TV because I couldn't sleep, and then I saw a book next to the TV. When I looked at it, it was the book "You Are the Landscape of My Life". I wondered if Wang Yuxia had left the book here, or had she left it for me on purpose? So, I called Wang Yuxia and said "Old classmate, you forgot that book with me." She smiled and said, I'll give it to you. I said I never liked to read. She said you don't like other books, but you have to read this book well. I smiled knowingly and said, well, because you're the landscape of my life.