Also known as "Marriage is the Grave of Love" Zhang Baotong 2016.7.4

The afternoon sun shone in through the window and onto Eloise's desk. There are some scriptures and famous books on www.biquge.info desk. The Aristotle's Epicurean was still open, but Eloise was looking at the white feather that was in the book.

When Abelard saw Eloise's preoccupation and liking, he said, "Do you like it?"

Eloise nodded, and said, "I like white feathers, which give a feeling of purity and fluttering, like a thought that can fly freely in the sky of the heart." ”

Ablaar said, "Hold it between your pages if you like, so that my thoughts may fly in your heart." ”

Eloise smiled softly and said, "So that whenever I see it, I think that you are in my heart." ”

When Abelard heard this, he took Eloise in his arms, kissed her, and said, "May I be in your heart forever." ”

Eloise put the feather in her book and tucked it away, and then suddenly said, "My dear teacher, since you know everything, I ask you a question that has been bothering me. I asked my teacher when I was in the monastery, but she reprimanded me severely. Can you help me with that?"

"Of course, what is the problem?" Abelard asked.

Eloise said, "The scriptures say that God created Adam in His own image, that is, God should have the same genitals as Adam, but why is it that there is no such record in all the books?

Abelard had never thought about this question, and as he listened to Eloise's question, he frowned and thought for a while, and then said, "I think God is actually a man created by Adam and Eve. This man later became a god, and in the hearts of the mortal men of later generations he was a man, and in the hearts of ordinary women she was a woman. ”

Eloise asked, "Then God will kiss a woman's genitals?"

This was the problem, which surprised and surprised Abelard, and even made Abelard blush. He thought that such a surprising and hot question could only be imagined by Eloise. He closed the book slowly and unnaturally, and replied as he thought, "Maybe yes, if God he is in love with this woman." ”

Eloise continued, "If God can love women, why do the priests still practice abstinence?

Abelard found the question more difficult to answer. He smiled at her and replied paradoxically, "God will only open the gates of heaven for those who have good intentions, and those who have bad intentions can only go to hell." Actually, he didn't answer her question because he couldn't answer it.

Through this incident, Abelard has even more respect for this beautiful girl who is only sixteen years old. He felt that she was indeed extraordinary, and that although she was young, she was able to think of so many problems that people had never even thought about. And Eloise also felt that this teacher of hers was really a genius in the world, there was nothing in the world that he didn't know, and there was no question that he couldn't answer.

That night, Eloise dreamed that she and her teacher, Abelard, were lying on the lawn and kissing. Yes, she has fallen in love with this teacher, who is twenty-two years older than herself. His handsome and elegant appearance, his otherworldly speech, and his admirable erudition all fascinated her. And for Abelard, the most desired and anticipated time of his day is with Eloise. As long as he is with her, no matter what he says, what he talks about, even the most boring nonsense and the most annoying trivial things make him feel very fresh and interesting. In fact, what they talk about most together is the exploration of religion and love, ancient and modern. He knew he was deeply in love with her. Although he knew that he should not fall in love with this girl who was 22 years younger than himself, and besides, he was still a priest, and the world would not allow their "abnormal love", but he could not control the name "Eloise" from constantly appearing in his heart and mind. He felt that she was a part of his life, and that without her, what was the point of his life's existence.

They first get along day and night, and then they have a heart-to-heart relationship. Under the guise of teaching, they have fallen in love with all their hearts. Although the book is open, their mutual confiding is more of a gentle word than an interpretation of the book. There are far more mutual kisses than their conversations. Their hands barely turned the pages, but lingered on each other's chests. Love makes them look at each other far beyond what books attract them. Sometimes, in order to avoid the suspicion and suspicion of her uncles and servants, he would make a reprimanding voice and make the appearance of scolding her. But the punishment was only out of love and not anger, and this tenderness and love were incomparably sweet and fragrant. All in all, driven by love, they are trying all kinds of lingering entanglements.

The joy and joy of love filled the pair with passion, and this passion became more and more fanatical, so that they became more and more unable to extricate themselves. To poor Eloise, she had been completely controlled by this wonderful feeling, and her whole body and mind were pretended to be the teacher whom she respected and loved so much. She regarded him as the closest and most inseparable relative in the world. In the evenings, they were together in class, but when he left her, she would lie in bed and think about him, reminiscing about the experiences they had had had together.

Except for her uncle's family, she has few relatives and no friends in this world, and she has grown up in loneliness since she was a child. Except for her uncle, no one will care about her and love her. However, uncle's love is a kind of family love, and it cannot replace the love of parents or friends. Therefore, despite her uncle's love, she is still lonely in her heart. And Abelard's love made her feel that there are such sweet and beautiful feelings and happiness in the world. So, once you fall in love, you will be unable to extricate yourself.

In the morning she went to Abelard's lessons, but in the afternoon she was left alone in her study, for her dear teacher would not come to teach her until after supper. Therefore, she often sits alone at the desk in the study, staring at the sunlight and scenery outside the window in a daze. Sometimes they think about their sweetness last night, and sometimes they eagerly wait for the night to come. It was as if the meaning of her whole day was to wait for that exciting moment in the evening.