Still waiting for Zhang Baotong's translation on August 14, 2018

My life was never a fairy tale, and my childhood was not a happy one. So, my life is not happy at all. All of my boyfriends broke up with me after three months of contact with me. I felt that God was cursing me. I'm twenty years old, and I don't know if these problems are coming from me or from my family. All I know is that I have a gap with them, and I have given them so much pain.

I was depressed about my life and didn't think about it seriously. I met someone who was introduced by a friend. A week later, I became pregnant with his baby. It made my sad life even more sad. My life is full of darkness. I even asked why God wanted me to live in the world. Why don't you let me die quickly? I don't think I deserve to live, and I'd rather die than suffer. My child's father didn't love me, but because of my parents' pressure, he married me. For a year after we got married, although I had been trying hard to win his love. But he had a lot of girls around him, and he often brought them for me to see.

One day, I couldn't take it anymore. I told him never to come back because I didn't want him to stay with me anymore. He literally never came back. I went back to college and worked hard to finish my studies so that I could get a job to raise my daughter. I love my baby and I want to give her all the love I can, even if I'm just a single mother. I was very happy after graduating from university. Since then, I have dedicated everything I have to my children. It's been two and three months since I broke up with my child's father. Deep down in my heart, I hope that one day, God will give me someone who loves me, accepts me and my baby, and my past, and loves me forever. I'm always praying because I crave joy.

On May 16, 2009, I was cleaning my house while logging in to Juyou.com. A guy named Rising sent me a message telling me that he wanted to get to know me better and wanted to get my number and email address so we could get to know each other. I didn't think there was anything wrong with that, so I agreed. But I didn't take this guy too seriously. Because his profile shows that he is from London and is very handsome. Anyway, he's very handsome, and I don't think he's going to be interested in me. I sent him the email address and we started chatting. He asked me if I could be his girlfriend. I thought he was playing a game with me. I hesitated at first, but decided to give it a try. I reminded myself to set a boundary, because I thought he might just be trying to play with me. When we chatted the next day, he told me that he was very happy when I agreed to be his girlfriend. I made a condition to him that if I found out that he was just joking or teasing me, the relationship would end immediately. He promised him that he would be loyal to me.

Since that day, he has been keeping his word. Although our main means of communication are online chat, texting or phone calls, it makes me feel loved. He introduced me to his parents and I could talk to them online. His parents were amiable people. They kept telling me how much their son loved talking about me. Our relationship lasted four months. We talked about everything, and he promised to come to see me after graduating from college in October. He is the most gracious and lovely person I have ever met. He always texted me and told me he loved me. He would call me at midnight and tell me he couldn't sleep because he was thinking about me. In our relationship, I learned to love him. The boundaries I had set were gone. I love him very much. I never thought I would love someone so much, even if I hadn't met him personally. I've only seen photos and videos of him. We chat every day. Even though he was busy, he found time to talk to me every day, even if it was only for thirty minutes. Although we are thousands of miles apart, we have to talk to each other at least every day.

He called me in September and said he could come earlier. He said he would be here on September 29 instead of in the second week of October. We are all looking forward to the moment when we are about to get together, and we are very excited and happy. He offered to marry me, and I readily agreed. I knew he was the right guy for me. He promised him that he would never leave me and that he would always love me. He often said to me that only death can separate us. For the first time in my life, I felt loved, cherished, and cared for. I feel very happy. I thank God for hearing my prayers and giving him to me. He is a praying answer.

We chatted again on September 28, the day before his flight. In the UK, it was the morning of the day. He told me his flight was at 8 p.m., but he was in a hurry to leave right now. He told me he had to prepare for the flight.

I remember I had said to him, "Honey, please don't leave me." ”

He replied, "Okay, dear, I'll stay." ”

He went on to tell me that his parents were already preparing for our wedding and that he had bought me an engagement ring. His mom gave us wedding rings. I was surprised, but happy. He told me that we would be married in three weeks. At that time, I felt like I was the happiest woman in the world.

Before he left, I told him I would be waiting for him at the airport, and he said, "Don't be late, honey. ”