When I woke up, my nose was filled with the strong smell of disinfectant water. I slowly opened my eyes, in the white ward, Gu Xizhou curled up beside me, his hand held my hand tightly, he leaned on the side of the bed and fell asleep quietly, his eyelashes trembled slightly, I was afraid of waking him up, so I gently withdrew my hand, but I didn't expect me to move, he was still awakened. He immediately sat up straight, and I looked at him, his eyes were deeply sunken, and his whole body was much haggard. I couldn't help but feel a little distressed, and opened my mouth to comfort him softly: "I'm fine." ”

He put my hand back in his palm and held it tightly, and said, "The doctor said that you have low blood sugar, and you have been resting badly lately, so you fainted." ”

I nodded, then asked him, "Do my parents know?"

"I know, they've been here, and I've persuaded them to go back, saying they'll always be here to watch you. Gu Xizhou's voice was very soft and light, for fear of accidentally scaring me.

"What time is it?" I asked him.

He took out his phone and looked at it, looked up and said, "It's only five o'clock, you can sleep for a while." ”

"I can't sleep, you talk to me for a while. ”

Gu Xizhou nodded.

"He, what did he say to you, how could he come out and faint. Gu Xizhou's expression was a little forbearing, and a little angry.

"He didn't say anything, I fainted, probably just because I was too tired lately. I said comfortingly.

"Mingyue, you didn't tell me anything. Although Gu Xizhou asked, it was in an affirmative tone. I looked at him and shook my head with some difficulty.

"I heard that you are investigating the Gu Group. When this sentence came out of his mouth, it made me panic for a moment. I should have known that no matter how careful I was, he would always be aware of it, how he could lead the Gu Group after so many years in the shopping mall, and he didn't even have this vigilance.

I smiled lightly and replied playfully, "I said I just cared about you, do you believe me?"

"I believe it. The two words without hesitation made me stunned.

"I just wanted to know what happened back then that made you make that decision, and I know none of you want to tell me, so I decided to find the truth myself. "I told him and the circle, until now, as if there was nothing more we could not say.

"At that time, you said that you should be my light, uncover the black cloth covering me, and let me be the real bright moon, I think you are sincere, even later," I couldn't help but pause at this point, "You said such cruel words with another woman in your arms, and I also believe that you were sincere when you said that." ”

"You left without asking anything, I thought you believed it. Gu Xizhou looked at me, his eyes full of pampering. I'm not really sure, sometimes I can't see anything in his eyes, sometimes I see a lot, probably we think what we see is what we want to see.

"I just felt that if you made your own decision, then no matter how reluctant I was, it didn't make sense. "My cowardice and cowardice make me stop, I long for an ordinary life all my life, find a good-tempered man to have children and live a life, I hope that there are no waves in life, I hope that the years are quiet, so all things stop at the results given by others, do not fight or grab, I hope to be able to steal the ordinary. It's just that there is a father like that, telling me how to live an ordinary life. Since you can't, why not give it a go, perhaps, it's not a bad thing to fight.

"At that time, I was too young, when I made some choices, I chose to give up on you, I felt that I was not capable of protecting you, there was an abyss around me, I couldn't let you stay by my side and fall with me," Gu Xizhou slowly began to say his thoughts, and I listened quietly, " Every time I feel physically and mentally exhausted, I will drive to see you, just downstairs, watch you go home, turn on the lights, take a shower, turn off the lights, you take a shower quickly, you can wash it in about fifteen minutes, you walk to work every day, when you pass by the bun shop, you will buy a steamed bun with cabbage filling and a cup of soy milk......"

These things that I didn't feel at all came out of Gu Xizhou's mouth so clearly, and I looked at him blankly for a while and didn't know what to say.

He continued: "Although you are a pet doctor, you don't have pets, so I raised Xiao Yueyue, I think, when you come back to me in the future, we can be parents directly." ”

At this point he looked at me and laughed, and I smiled and asked him, "How can you be so sure, if you come back to me, I will definitely come back." ”

He shook his head: "I'm not sure. ”

After a while, he repeated: "I'm not sure at all if you'll come back to me, but whether you come back or not, you can't change my mind, after meeting you, I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with others, without you, I'm ready to die alone." ”

I touched his head: "Do you know that loneliness is the most terrible thing in the world, I don't want it." ”

Gu Xizhou looked at me: "Now that I have you, I finally don't have to do the most terrible thing in the world." ”

......

"Are we reconciled?" Gu Xizhou asked me with a smile, and I nodded. He smiled like a child, and I smiled happily, even if it was difficult to go forward, this moment of smile was enough to resist the gloom.

"Then you are not allowed to see Lu Cheng again in the future. "He asserted his sovereignty.

"I thought you didn't care about his existence at all, you didn't show it before. I looked at him with a smile.

He whispered in my ear, "I'm afraid I'll scare you away." Then he kissed me on the earlobe, although there had been such an intimate act before, but after all, after five years, we were still a little rusty, and I actually blushed.

"Then you're not afraid now. ”

"Don't be afraid, now you are my ......"

At seven o'clock in the morning, I called home to report that I was safe, and my parents said that they were packing up at home, and since they had been caught, they decided to move home. I said go back and help, but my mom said no, they found a moving company, didn't need to help, and let me recuperate in the hospital.

I didn't like the hospital, and neither did Gu Xizhou, so we happily decided to go home. My original apartment was empty before it was leased and it was not easy to rent out, so we decided to go back there first.

When Gu Xizhou saw me, he usually drove by himself, but today he called a driver. He held my hand in the back seat, and although the driver was staring ahead, I still felt a little embarrassed. I tried to pull my hand back, but he held it tightly and wouldn't let go.

"Someone's there. I whispered in his ear.

"You look like you're flirting with me right now. Gu Xizhou smiled lowly.

My face turned even redder, and I let him hold his hand, and no matter what he said, I stopped talking to him. After arriving at the apartment, I thought Gu Xizhou had business to deal with, and when he took down a large box from the car, I looked at him in surprise: "Who are you?"

"Of course I moved in with you, you are not in good health now, how can I let you live alone. "What Gu Xizhou said is reasonable.

I said helplessly: "But I'm just hypoglycemic, and I'll be fine if I take a few days of rest." ”

Gu Xizhou ignored me and moved the suitcase upstairs directly, and I asked in the back: "Do you know how many floors you have, you can go directly." ”

Gu Xizhou didn't look back and said, "Seventh floor." ”

I stood there and looked at him, stunned for a moment, and that familiar feeling appeared almost unexpectedly the moment I nodded. The familiar Gu Xizhou also turned back into the domineering and wanton self at that moment. I lowered my head and smiled, in fact, this is also very good, the previous awkwardness was swept away, and I even felt that today's sky is exceptionally blue and the sun is extraordinarily bright.

I slowly followed him into the elevator, probably still a little unsure, and after I got into the elevator, he breathed a sigh of relief.

At noon, I sent a message to my parents, saying that I was fine, I had been discharged from the hospital, and I wouldn't go back to bother them in order to complete their two-person world. Naturally, my mom sent me a message saying that I hadn't been able to walk all day long since I was so old. In the past, when I was single, they always sighed and urged me to find a boyfriend, but now they don't urge me, and they don't ask directly. I asked Gu Xizhou while eating: "What did you say to my parents, they trust you so much." ”

Gu Xizhou smiled mysteriously: "I won't tell you." ”

Maybe Gu Xizhou is their long-lost son, and I am probably just the future daughter-in-law.

At my urging, Gu Xizhou finally left the apartment to go to work. I'm worried that if he continues like this, someone from the company might come to me with a kitchen knife. I feel that it is time for me to go back to the clinic as well, hypoglycemia is not a serious illness, pay attention to rest and nutrition, and I will recover soon. But Gu Xizhou didn't agree, the only condition for him to go to work was that I would rest at home today, and I couldn't resist him, so I could only compromise.

After Gu Xizhou left, I was too bored, so I cleaned up the house and found a book to read. This is a book that my father gave me a long time ago, and he said that I could meditate, and I took it out from time to time to turn a few pages, and now I have turned more than half of it. Many of the truths in it teach people to be tolerant, probably to repay grievances with virtue. In my father's heart, I always hoped that I could be more tolerant and forgive people and things in the past. But sometimes life doesn't need to be forgiven, leaving aside the relationship and not interfering with each other is already the best ending, why bother with this extra move, to have a peaceful and friendly drama, to a forgiveness that you and I want, this is too embarrassing.

Reading the book and reading it was in a daze, the mobile phone suddenly rang, I thought it was Gu Xizhou who called again to ask about the situation, and was about to pick it up and scold him, but it turned out to be Lu Cheng's voice.

After not seeing him for a few days, Lu Cheng lost a lot of weight. When he said on the phone that he wanted to see me, I hesitated, but I agreed, although I always said that it was impossible, but now it is different after all, and it can give him a real reason to let go.

He took a sip of his coffee, like Sven. I was the first to speak: "Are you alright, you look a little haggard." ”

"It's okay, it's just that I've been a little busy at work lately, and I haven't had time to take you to dinner these days......"

Lu Cheng was still chattering, and I heard myself say, "I'm with Gu Xizhou." ”

His shining eyes darkened, sinking to the bottom of the bottomless lake. I faintly can't bear it, Lu Cheng is an excellent person, he treats people gently and politely, arranges everything properly, and gets along with people very carefully, but it wasn't him at the beginning, and it won't be later.

"I should bless you. Lu Cheng said this bitterly.

"He's good. When I said this, the light in Lu Cheng's eyes disappeared completely, although I couldn't bear it, but, one day, we will all let go of the past and look forward, Lu Cheng will finally let go of me and meet a more suitable person.

Lu Cheng asked me with a wry smile: "Aren't you afraid?" By Gu Xizhou's side, he has been very ruthless in the business world over the years, and he has formed a lot of hatred, there was nothing around him that could make people grab the handle of revenge, but once it is rumored that he has a girlfriend, you can no longer live a peaceful life, I remember you said before, you just want to live an ordinary life, and with him, there is no stability and ordinariness at all. ”

"I know what you're saying, and that's what I've been hesitating about, but the path he's taken is so lonely that I want to stay with him, even if it means I can't live a 9-to-5 life anymore. You know, I don't have any dreams, I don't have any pursuits, the only thing I want is to live this life in peace, but after meeting Gu Xizhou, all this seems to be gone, but I won't back down. Even if there is an abyss beside him, I am willing to jump down and fall with him. ”

Lu Cheng took a sip of the red wine in front of him, looked at the front with ethereal eyes, and then said: "Actually, I always knew that I had no hope, because it was not me who met you first, you look soft and weak on the surface, but you are very persistent in your bones, you met Gu Xizhou at the beginning, and it will only be Gu Xizhou in this life, even if you will not be together, in your heart, it will only be him." ”

It turns out that in their eyes, I am such a persistent person, so fortunately, my attachment is only used for love, not for family affection, if I am as obsessed with the past as Gu Xizhou, then I may still be in those shadows now.

"Then why did you ......" why you didn't give up, I still didn't ask, all this is meaningless now.

"Why do you want to confess?" Lu Cheng took my words and said them, and I could only nod.

"I just thought, even if there is a zero zero and one hope, I have to give it a try, even if you can't completely forget Gu Xizhou, but as long as you can be with me, even if there is always a corner in your heart that I can't go in, it doesn't matter, as long as you are by my side, it doesn't matter. It wasn't until today that I saw clearly that Gu Xizhou is not a corner in your heart, he occupies all of your ......"

Lu Cheng looked a little sad, obviously he hadn't drunk much, but his eyes looked a little confused at the moment. He looked at me and said, "Mingyue, if one day you don't want to give up your ordinary life for Gu Xizhou, come to me, I can take you to live an ordinary life." ”

I didn't respond to him, I felt that he should find a good girl to live his life with, instead of giving him these useless hopes and waiting for that zero and one possibility.

This meal took a long time, Lu Cheng drank a few glasses of wine, didn't eat much, I listened to him all the time, and I didn't eat anything, although he walked normally, not like he was drunk, but I was a little worried, and I still called Didi for him. When Lu Cheng said goodbye to me, he asked me softly, "Mingyue, can you hug me?"

I shook my head: "Still no, Gu Xizhou will be angry." ”

While I wasn't paying attention, Lu Cheng had already hugged me. I had to stay where I was and let him hold me like this, and after a while, he let go of me and said with a smile: "Then I will be angry with Gu Xizhou again, after all, he snatched you." With that, he turned around in style.

My acquaintance with Lu Cheng originated from a blind date, and it was probably my mother who was forced to do it at that time. I actually understand that she is just afraid that I will not be able to take care of myself alone, so I will go to every blind date obediently, and then I met Lu Cheng. He has a gentle temperament and a very good voice, and I felt that this man was suitable for his wife and children at home when he saw him for the first time.

After eating, I asked him, "Why did you come out on a blind date?" He has good conditions, there should be many people who want to be with him, and now he actually came out on a blind date, which makes me have to be curious.

"Because I haven't met the person I want to spend my life with. He replied so bluntly that I was stunned for a moment.

"Since you haven't met yet, can you pretend to be my boyfriend and help me go home and calm my mother's heart. I asked him tentatively.

He took a sip of his coffee, looked at me with a smile, and said, "Okay." ”

After taking Lu Cheng back home, he lived a clean life for a long time. My mother has always been free-range to me, and when I was in school, I didn't interfere with my choice of major, and I didn't interfere with how little I ate to lose weight, but after I reached the age of marriage, I was particularly worried about my marriage, and I felt unaccustomed to it for a while, but fortunately, Lu Cheng temporarily relieved me of this siege.

Later, Lu Cheng stopped eating at home, and when my mother asked me, I said that I had broken up. My mom felt that I had just fallen out of love and was not too pushy, and gave me some time to be free. Since then, Lu Cheng and I have rarely been in touch, and we will text each other to express our blessings during the New Year's holidays.

I always felt that Lu Cheng wouldn't like me, he is such a gentle person, he should like a gentle and sensible girl, who can quietly accompany him to read, tidy up the housework for him, and give him a warm embrace after he is tired from work. Anyway, it's not someone like me who is covered in thorns. I was shocked when he said he liked me, I just thought it was a joke, but I didn't expect him to take action, I once felt quite sorry for him, such a good person, how could I be ruined by me, if I didn't ask him for help, he probably wouldn't be confused by my appearance. I'm so wicked that even I want to smack myself in the mouth.