Also known as "Marriage is the Grave of Love" Zhang Baotong 2016.7.4

As we mentioned earlier, in the midst of the flower-filled wilderness, on the banks of the Seine outside Paris, there is a monastery surrounded by blue-gray walls: the abbey of Argenteuil, where Eloise lived since she was a child. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info this is a convent. A convent is a convent where the abbot is a woman. Moreover, the monastery is basically inhabited by nuns. Convents generally have a walled courtyard that includes many houses with balconies. In fact, these were the living rooms of the nuns in the monastery, which were controlled by strict regulations.

Because of the early death of her parents, Eloise was sent to live in this monastery as an illegitimate daughter. She had studied in this convent since she was a child, and was the best student in the convent, and it was because of her intelligence and beauty that Fulbert, as a priest, brought her back to his home and raised her as his beloved daughter. Because of Abelard's tragic experience, she was sent to this monastery for life. She spent most of her life in this monastery. Therefore, this monastery has an extraordinary meaning for her.

From the time she was sent by Abelard to the abbey of Argenteuil, she spent thirteen more winters, summers, springs and autumns here. Now she was the abbot of the monastery, and she was only twenty-nine years old. This was her third year as abbot. The young abbot changed the old atmosphere of the monastery and gave the monastery a breath of freshness. Therefore, the people in the monastery respected her very much. Just when she wanted to further improve the atmosphere and canons in the monastery. They are in trouble like never before. Their monastery was to be repossessed by the abbot of St. Denis.

In the Middle Ages and for many years to come, many convents depended on male convents. Because the property and land of the monastery belonged to those large male monasteries. The Abbey of St. Denis is the same monastery where Abelard originally lived. Although Abelard has left, many people there still hold a grudge against him, especially those who held power in the monastery, and they hated to put him to death. I don't know if it has anything to do with Abelard, but now the abbot of St. Denis has ordered all the nuns to be expelled, the monastery to be recovered, and all their property to be returned to the abbey of St. Denis.

The current abbot of St. Denis, one of Abelard's fellows, sent them a notice that they must all leave the abbey of Argenteuil within a week. So, in the past few days, there has been chaos in the monastery, and every day many nuns come to her crying goodbye, to her relatives or to find support. Every time she sent away a sister, her heart would ache once, but she couldn't help it. Because she didn't even know where the road was.

She also made rounds around the convent as usual, and more than half of the dozens of nuns had gone, and more than a dozen nuns lived in the convent. Some of them have lost their parents and are homeless, some are old and have nowhere to go, and they are all very poor people. Eloise knew they weren't going to leave until the last moment. As the dean, Eloise was very sad because she was unable to protect them and provide them with shelter. So, she just walked around the aisle in front of their house, not daring to enter their house, or even afraid to see them.

Back in her own room, she thought she should pack her bags and get ready to leave. However, she looked at the contents of the room and felt that there was nothing to prepare. She came in empty-handed, and when she left, she was afraid that she would be empty-handed. In the past few days, she has been worrying about others and seeing them off. However, what should she do, she still has no bottom in her heart. So, she went back to the dean's office and started thinking about it.

She had only two close relatives in this world, one was her uncle Fulbert, who was permanently expelled from the church, but in fact he was reinstated after only two years of expulsion and continued to hold a key position in Notre-Dame. However, after that incident, she didn't want to go back to him. She wanted to rely on Abelard, but he had not heard from him for more than ten years, and she did not even know his whereabouts and whereabouts, and even if she did, she could not take refuge, because he had already concentrated on meditation and could no longer be with her. Therefore, this incident has made her upset and overwhelmed for days, and there is always a feeling that the end has come. As usual, she hid in her rector's room, watching the statue of Jesus praying silently.

At this time, Sister Cornelia came, and when she saw Eloise, she said, "Abbot, I am leaving." ”

Eloise took the hand of the good sister, who was two years older than her, and asked, "Where are you going?" for she knew that her parents had died, and her brother had already started a family. She was literally homeless.

"I want to go to my aunt's house, where I can cut my hair and become a nun," said Sister Cornelia, wiping tears from her eyes. It's just that I can't bear to leave you, my good sister, my Eloise. ”

"I can't bear to leave you," said Eloise, tearfully, "for I don't even have anyone close to me." ”

Cornelia said, "But why don't you go to Abelard, he's so famous, maybe he can help you." ”

Eloise shook her head, and said, "He has never written to me in all these years, nor has he ever come to see me, and he seems to have forgotten me." Where are you going to tell me to find him?"

Cornelia thought for a moment and said, "Then let me help you." ”

Eloise said, "How can you help me?"

Cornelia said, "Leave it alone, I have a solution." ”

"Then you're not going to your aunt's house?"

Cornelia said, "I'll leave when you're done." Otherwise, I can't rest assured of you. With that, Sister Cornelia left the recten's office with a cloth bag. Eloise sent her downstairs and stood in the aisle in front of the door, facing the dirt road leading to Paris.

In the sun, the monastery was still silent, the cold wind blew from afar, and then departed into the distance, wildflowers swayed in the wind, and a dirt road stretched out into the city. Not far away, the banks of the Seine are confusing and confusing. In her confusion, she seemed to see a carriage speeding from a distance, but when she fixed her eyes, it was empty. Soon, she saw Sister Cornelia. She was walking briskly down the dirt road. That path was her path of hope and her path of destruction. Because she can never return to the beautiful and longing past from this road in this life.