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Fold the willow and wave his hand, regretting not to miss the opportunity, and have been repeatedly frustrated

Shortly after the Spring Festival in '96, Xu Gang set off as planned. On the day of leaving, Ling Feng went to the station, the railway station after the Spring Festival has resumed the passenger flow of the past, Ling Feng bought a platform ticket and sent Xu Gang to the car. After settling his luggage, Xu Gang said that he wanted to smoke a cigarette and got off the train with Ling Feng and came to the platform.

"Xu Gang, you should have funded some travel expenses for your trip, but you are shy in your pocket, so I can only buy you something to eat. Ling Feng was very unhappy in his heart.

"What are you talking about? We don't need it, we haven't paid for months, right?" Xu Gang lit a cigarette as he spoke.

"I opened it once a year ago. Ling Feng replied in a low voice.

"Just the little money you opened......" Xu Gang said halfway through and didn't continue.

Ling Feng lowered his head, the reality under the enthusiasm of youth was so cruel, since the second half of '95, due to the shortage of funds for coal purchases, the gas company could not pay wages on time, and it was common for it to drag on for two or three months. Ling Feng still clearly remembers that at the New Year's Day party in the first year of the University of Electrical Engineering, a female classmate recited a self-created poem, and the last two sentences were "Eighteen years old, we are eager to be self-reliant." Because, it is a shame to live on your parents. But now that he is 26 years old, who is helpless to say to him.

"Your unit will be put into production this year, and everything will be fine. Xu Gang knew that his words were inappropriate, and immediately spoke comfortingly.

"I hope you take care of yourself when you're away from home, and send more letters to your home. Ling Feng inevitably had to give advice to his friends who were going to travel far away.

"Don't worry, I went to Shenzhen to make a lot of money, not to suffer. Xu Gang is still full of confidence.

The bell rang as the train was ready to start.

Xu Gang snuffed out the small half of the cigarette in his hand and threw it into the trash bin in front of the cement pillar of the platform, and then opened his arms and hugged his friend in front of him, Ling Feng also made a gesture of response, and heard Xu Gang's last goodbye at the moment of physical contact.

"You are a person with faith, don't be too bitter about yourself, find a girlfriend as soon as possible. ”

Looking at Xu Gang who turned around and got on the train, at Xu Gang's waving arm when the train started, and at the train that was gradually moving away, Ling Feng was at a loss in his heart.

25 years old, that is, 24 years old, is the second natal year of life. As the old saying goes, "If you commit Tai Sui in your natal year, Tai Sui should sit on your head, and woe will be woe if you don't have joy." Therefore, the old people believe that the Tai Sui year with bad luck is a "threshold" in life, and it is not suitable to get married in this "threshold year". It is considered normal to marry before the "threshold year", while young people who have not yet married after the "threshold year" are considered to be older youth.

Ling Feng is the youngest in the family, and he is a very obedient child in the eyes of his parents. Due to introverted personality and emotional matters, Ling Feng rarely communicates with his parents. Therefore, they don't understand each other's thoughts, parents don't understand their son's lonely heart, and their son doesn't understand their parents' commitment to the deceased. Ling Feng still remembers that in 93, during the conversation between his parents and chatter, he learned that a middle-aged woman who worked in a foreign trade company not far from her popsicle stall at that time had mentioned to her mother that the girl also worked in a foreign trade company, with a quiet appearance and the same age. As a result, the mother rejected him on the grounds that her son had just graduated from university and his job was not stable.

Ling Feng's parents are four years apart, and when his mother retired, his father also responded to the call to retire from the leadership position early. Not long after retiring, the old couple started selling popsicles, and at the beginning they were still rushing around, selling where there were more people, and selling where there was a lot of excitement. Later, it was fixed on the street not far from his house. Ling Feng has been the main force since the first day his parents sold popsicles, and as long as he has time, it is common to load goods and watch stalls. When it comes to the age when it is time to find a partner, it is normal to be liked by a girl, but how much her mother rejected before the age of 25, Ling Feng does not know. As soon as her 25th birthday passed, especially after the Spring Festival in 96, her mother immediately changed greatly, and she was tall, short, fat and thin.

The first girl Ling Feng was introduced to was a gas station attendant, and the girl was quite good-looking, but she was short. When they met for the first time, Ling Feng and the girl felt that the girl was just on his shoulder, and the girl's flared pants were probably a pair of high heels. Ling Feng was dating a strange girl, and he was inevitably nervous, and he didn't know what to say. Fortunately, the girl took the initiative, and when she asked this and that, Ling Feng only needed to answer truthfully. When he got home, his mother hurriedly stepped forward to ask about the situation, but Ling Feng only replied "It's okay", in fact, Ling Feng's mind was turning over and over the girl's height. A few days later, Ling Feng came to the Xisantiao Road gas station to wait for the short girl to get off work. The short girl was a little surprised to see Ling Feng when she got off work, but she still politely asked Ling Feng and walked all the way. The short girl arrived home, and she didn't let Ling Feng into the house, but just made an appointment for the next meeting.

Ling Feng has always been sincere to people, and he is extremely reluctant to do anything to hurt his friends. Now when dating short girls, always tell yourself, "If a short girl is interested in herself, then don't worry about the other person's height." Just as Ling Feng was trying to convince himself to accept the short girl's height, there was a message that the short girl was "gone". Looking back on the four meetings with the short girl, Ling Feng was a little confused, he got along well, why didn't he get along?

It didn't take long for the aunt who introduced the short girl to find her mother again, she felt a little unhappy about the short girl, and she came specifically to introduce her girlfriend to Ling Feng. The girl introduced this time works in Konka TV Factory, and although her appearance is average, she is well-dressed and tall. Through conversation, I learned that this tall girl also graduated from the fifth middle school, one year lower than Ling Feng, but Ling Feng did not have the slightest impression of her. Ling Feng made a beautiful mistake when he met the tall girl for the second time, and that was on the way home to send the tall girl home.

"You don't know Ruolan in the Russian class, she is in the same class as you. Passing by the Fifth Middle School, Ling Feng asked casually without thinking about it.

"I know her, she doesn't know me, who doesn't know the school girl. The tall girl's answer was sour.

"I didn't mean anything else. Just ask. Ling Feng knew that he had lost his words, so he hurriedly made up for it.

The tall girl didn't say anything more, and she didn't pay attention to Ling Feng until she got home. Ling Feng knew that he had committed a big taboo, and he shouldn't have a beautiful girl in front of a mediocre-looking girl, but there was no way, the words had been spoken and could not be taken back. In the following period of time, Ling Feng went to wait for the tall girl at the gate of Konka TV Factory almost every day, but he never saw anyone. Ling Feng was not reconciled, and continued to wait for the rabbit, and finally waited for the tall girl but also waited for a clear refusal. Refusing in person, it was the first time that Ling Feng encountered it, and his self-esteem had a feeling of being hurt.

Ling Feng's virgin has no experience, and her ability to resist rejection by girls is still very strong. After two failed relationships, Ling Feng was not depressed, he believed that the girl who was destined for him would definitely appear at the intersection not far away.