Looking for a Lover's Daughter (Family Ethics Novella) Zhang Baotong 2017.2.21

We longed to see each other every day, but when we really met, we were about to break up before we could say a few words. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info There were a few times when we really wanted to see each other, and I couldn't give up, so I stayed in her radio studio. Because by the end of the day people had almost gone home, there was hardly anyone in the compound. The two of us were huddled together on her single bed, lingering and loving. She even cried and told me that she had dreamed several times that I was recruiting and leaving here. I swore again and again that I would take her with me even if I was recruiting and leaving. I think as long as I am with her in this life, I want nothing more. We were really naïve and ignorant. We always slept late when we were together, had to talk a lot, and when all was said and done, we stopped talking, and we were more intoxicating and intimate when we weren't talking than when we were talking. But it's risky to do so, and if someone else finds out, you'll be discredited and ruined. So, together we are always like thieves. And as soon as it was dawn, the birds began to chirp in the tree in front of the window, so I hurried up and got dressed. At this point, she opened the back window, stuck her head out to look out for a moment, and then asked me to jump out of the window.

Although it was only a few times, it left a deep impression on me. Even though I had been looking for that good feeling since then, I couldn't find it anyway.

Later, soon after, I was taken away by someone from my father's unit. I left from the survey team's station, because the recruitment was at the end of the year, and the recruitment quota would be invalid at the end of the year, so as soon as the recruiter came to the survey team, they took me away. I didn't even have time to go back to the brigade headquarters to see her again and say goodbye to her. My luggage and suitcases were taken away by my brother later. After returning to Changsha from Linjiang and going to the Provincial Labor Department to complete the transfer permit, I only stayed at home for one night, and the next morning, I was taken on the train to the north by the recruiters.

Sitting on the train, my heart was sad because I had not been able to keep my promise, to take her out of the country, or even to say goodbye to her. But, I know she'll understand and understand sooner or later. When I came to Wuhan, I changed my car and came to Xi'an. I worked in the Xi'an railway unit for two years, then I was admitted to the university, I went to school for four years, I became a teacher again, then I got married and had children, and then I was transferred to the district education bureau to work, until now I am the deputy director. Looking back suddenly, twenty years have passed in a flash. In the past 20 years, I have recalled that innocent and beautiful relationship countless times, and wondered if my beloved girl was living well. But I didn't hear from her. How many times do I want to go back to that haunting hometown and see the innocent girl who has given me so much affection and love. However, due to various reasons, it did not work out. The main reason is that I am embarrassed, because I feel that I have deceived others, and I dare not face her again.

After the divorce, loneliness and irritability tormented me all day long, and my feelings of longing and nostalgia became more and more intense. So, I decided to revisit the old place, to see the places where I used to go to the countryside, to see my first love.

I know that the countryside has changed a lot, and many families have built brick houses and even buildings. Yingmei's family will naturally be good, she is the most delicate girl in the Chaling Brigade, not to mention looking for a national worker, just looking for a partner in the countryside, and she will not be an ordinary person.

As soon as I returned to Changsha during the winter vacation, I took the train to the Chaling Brigade of Baitang Commune in Linjiang. Not much has changed here. The mountain is still the mountain, the river is still the river, the fields are still the fields, but the houses in the village are no longer adobe houses, but brick houses with magnetic sheets. The people I knew in the past have grown old. The children of the past have grown into adults, the adults of the past have become old people, and many of the old people of the past are no longer alive. Walking to the front of the brigade department again, the sign hanging in front of the door was no longer the Chaling Brigade of Baitang Commune, but the Villager Committee of Chaling Village, Baitang Township.

I brought a lot of biscuits, fruit, candy and cigarettes. First, I came to the house of the landlord in the past, the landlord man was dead, and the landlord's wife was also seventy years old. My son, who used to be only twelve or thirteen years old, is in his thirties, and all the children are in elementary school. I gave the old man and the child 100 yuan each, and left some fruits and cigarettes for the landlord's son, and then went to my best friend Xiang Lin's house. Xiang Lin was already the village head, equivalent to the secretary of the brigade in the past, in charge of the seventeen natural groups within a radius of several kilometers of the entire Chaling Village.

We hadn't seen each other for more than 20 years, but the first thing he said when he saw me was that Yingmei was gone. When I heard this, I chuckled in my heart, and tears welled up in my eyes. I'm here to see her, and this wish has been hidden in my heart for twenty years. But when I came here, she wasn't there. I wiped my eyes with my sleeve and asked, "What's wrong with her?" Xiang Lin said, "She has tuberculosis and has been gone for seven or eight years." I said, "Tuberculosis is not a serious disease, why can't you see it well, and besides, she is still so young?" Xiang Lin said, "She has been sick for a long time, has no money for treatment, and survives to death." I said, "Her husband, and her family, why don't you think of a way?" Xiang Lin sighed and said, "Her parents are old, and they are so poor that they die of old age." Her husband doesn't have any skills and can't make money. "I thought if I knew she didn't have the money to go to the doctor, I'd find a way to send her money. However, this can only be if. It's just that I haven't been here again for many years, I don't know anything about Yingmei's situation, and I thought she was living a very good life.

After dinner at Xiang Lin's house, I offered to go to Yingmei's house to have a look. Xiang Lin took me to Yingmei's house. I've been to Yingmei's house before, but it's her mother's house, and now I'm going to her own house. Xiang Lin took me into the neighboring village of her mother's house and said to me, "Look, which house in the village is the most dilapidated, is Yingmei's house." So saying, he led me to a pond. Next to the pond is a four- or five-room house, and the adobe of the walls has been clearly weathered, giving the impression of the Great Wall at the border. The gray tiles on the house are also old, as if they have been eroded by wind and rain for thousands of years. In the countryside, a house is the façade of a family. Whether a family is rich or not, how is life going, as long as you look at his house, you can almost understand it in your heart. However, I really can't figure out how Yingmei, who is beautiful and competitive, could make herself such miserable, but what makes me most puzzled is how Yingmei could contract a disease like tuberculosis. Because the disease is almost extinct in our country.

When I came to Yingmei's house, it was dark but the lights were on. I think maybe it's no one at home. But Xiang Lin said that Youliang usually doesn't go out at night, and as he spoke, he shouted into the half-open and half-closed room, "Youliangyou, a distinguished guest is coming." ”

Someone inside immediately replied, "Do we have any distinguished guests in our house?" and a man shrugged his shoulders from the house to the door, like a lame man. I hadn't seen this person, but the man shouted at me, "You are Liu Jiancheng." So saying, he went into the house, lit an oil lamp, sat me down at the little stool, and handed me the hookah on the table.

I was stunned and thought to myself, what age is it, how can anyone still smoke hookahs, and even if there are, they are still sixty or seventy years old. I waved my hand to indicate that I would not smoke, and then took out two boxes of King Hibiscus cigarettes from my backpack and gave them to him. He thought it was too heavy, only one pack, but I still insisted on stuffing two packs of cigarettes into his hand. He's going to cook for me. Xiang Lin said that I had already eaten at his house. He hurried to pour me tea.

Drinking tea, Xiang Lin said to Youliang, "Liu Jiancheng became the director of education in a big city. Then he said, "Do you know, Liu Jiancheng has had love with Ying Meizi in the past." I was afraid that this would irritate Youliang and make him feel uncomfortable, so I immediately corrected him, saying, "We were still young at the time, and we just talked together a lot, and it wasn't love." ”

But Youliang still looked a little sad and self-reproachful, he smoked a cigarette with his head down, and said to me after a while, "Yingmei, she is gone, only blame me for not having the ability to save her life." Xiang Lin immediately said to me in an explanatory tone, "The more people have no money, the more they have to carry it, after Yingmei's death, Youliang himself got sick again, fell down, and tripped his leg. ”

While they were talking, two girls came in from outside. The eldest girl is about fourteen or fifteen years old, and although her clothes are old, she is handsome and very quiet, just like Yingmei poured out of the same mold. The youngest daughter is about eleven or twelve years old, and her appearance is thin, although she is not as quiet and elegant as the eldest daughter, she is lively and smart.

I took a box of candy out of my backpack and handed it to the older girl, but the girl refused to ask for it. Xiang Lin said to the girl, "Take it, this is your uncle, your mother's good friend." When the girl heard this, she took the candy in her hand and went into the back room. When my youngest daughter saw me taking something out of my backpack, she stood by and waited. I took out a small box of cakes and gave it to her. This is a specialty I brought from Xi'an. The girl took the cake and jumped into the back room.

I said to Youliang, "Your two daughters look like Yingmei, beautiful and smart. ”

Arirashi said to me, "There is also an eldest daughter who also looks like her mother, and now she is working outside. ”

Xiang Lin said, "Although Youliang's family is poor, the three daughters are more beautiful than the other. You didn't see the boss, but she looks more beautiful than Yingmei. ”