Dear Shiling, I don't know how many times I mentioned you in my diary, since you said goodbye, as long as you have free time every day, then the rest of the time will be at my disposal. The mobile phone is turned off, the email is never replied, I can only write the strong thoughts of you through pen and paper, I think only in this way, when my heart is most painful, it can give me the greatest relief as your second generation. The diary has now become my food, my medicine, the only thing that can sustain my fading will, and it can suppress my anger that I have nowhere to vent, and all I do without Shiling by my side is boring.

The wind crept into the room through the window, like a knife that was so sharp that it cracked between you and me. The weight of this affection has a deep place in each other's hearts, and the closed ears and eyes, no matter what, will emerge from each other's faces together, and will pass quickly, and it will not take too long, and I believe that we will all forget the unpleasant past and welcome the dawn that has just arrived. Shiling, I will wait for you to come back, I also know that the thirtieth email written for you has been secretly opened and browsed in the middle of the night, I don't know what your emotions are, in my heart you may be full of apologies, bad emotions can not be filled with anything, as if soulless human beings walk on the empty streets, my mind always thinks, will I be able to see you in the lotto, push away the world I don't care about, anything is difficult to change without you.

Every time I hold my breath, I hear the old rumor that as long as you silently recite the name of the person you like ten times in your heart, the person you like will appear in front of you. I really want to stare at you Song Shiling's familiar face again, as if the whole world is still, only a white light shines on your and my whole body, and look at each other deeply again, looking at each other without words, just talk quietly in our hearts, we all know that we really miss each other every minute. May the wind carry my whisper through your ears, and may the sudden cold light rain turn into tears that I shed day and night because of longing and bring it to you, and complain to you about how boring and difficult it is to be in your absence.

My heart is still towards you, loving you has never been my most tiring thing, I can't empty my heart, I can't put unknown people into my heart, I just want you, I just want you to live all the time, let my heart have you, shelter you from the wind and rain, don't let you suffer the pain you shouldn't have. My dear, don't forget the love that can't be stopped, in the dark night, I always feel that there is a glimmer of light that is illuminating me, and my heart is beating faster than the previous rhythm along with the light, as if that light is your existence, but quickly deny it, because it always feels like you are going ahead of yourself, and you are going through the unknown with curiosity first.

There are two pupils silently watching me, looking back from time to time as I walk, as if I know my heart, very worried and curious, even if each other is getting lost on the way away, and I am still very sure that you will go back the way you came and continue to walk on my path of searching, or, my choice was correct from the beginning, it is a shortcut to find your God, in order to let me find you quickly, in order to let me establish an incomparably strong sense of responsibility to protect you and take care of you, only in this way will you be willing to give me your hands again, you will not hesitate to entrust your life to me, and will not give yourself free time to rest for a while, I understand that you can't wait, and you can't wait. If it is the only way of fate, if we can meet again, then I don't mind how late the goodbye time is, as long as we can meet and love each other again, turn around and run to each other again, don't let me keep shedding tears in my sad dreams, I hope that when the relationship is renewed, you don't try to escape from the gentle circle I have set up, let me love you to the fullest.

Far away like a hurried company employee, leaving a stomach of regrets, leaving only an empty room and a sad individual, I can't move a single step, as if the future of hard-won love is too important, obviously a fearless person, but in front of you, I am very small, want to treat you as my world, urging my diligent steps to catch up with your pace, presumably only in this way will you notice my shining point, even if the light comes late, but it will never go out.

I want to see happiness again that you can put the truest smile on your face, think that all because of me will make you have such a reaction, the idea of hugging you is getting stronger and stronger, the hug in the ward that night makes us unforgettable, unwilling to let go of your hands, unwilling to break free from the shackles, hug each other closely in a tacit understanding, please slow down or stop and look back at me, I still love you, more than I like it every day deepens, this heart it has become extremely capricious, if I can't see you in a short time, it will make me breathless, several times almost because you fell to the ground, several times almost thought that I was going to fall into a dangerous swamp。

The premonition of waiting for a reunion became stronger and stronger, as if one day when I opened my eyes, your face met my eyes, which made me happy, and my eyes were once again full of sweet and beautiful hearts. As long as you are by my side, the white moonlight born from the heart is compared to you, like a bottle of life-saving medicine that saves me, gradually dyeing my broken heart, and stitching up my wounds again, so that the scars that scab everywhere can be recovered as soon as possible, and then I will hold your hand to prevent the crowd from breaking you up and me on the winding and rugged road, if you can reach the other side of peace and tranquility, how tired and hard I will be alone, you will only be the pillar by my side, just be the pillar by my side.

There is no choice but to wait for you quietly, the tears of the old man are stained with frost, and the other end of time is moving rapidly, urging me to hurry up and stop hesitating, so that the journey of stopping in place or walking slowly is no longer realistic. The same sky at different times we are doing what we think is very worthwhile, you may not be the same as me, you are secretly holding back and regretting it, but the love of relatives makes you even more inseparable, and you want to do your best to help your grandmother so as to give up me who should help you take care of everything, sweet love becomes sad, as if the split couple is still entangled in emotional topics, I want to give my heart to you so that the obsession disappears in an instant, for me to light your way this time, so that you no longer feel afraid and lonely, because all have me。

"Do you still have feelings for Xiao Wu now?" Dean Xiao's question caught Song Shiling off guard, fortunately she didn't drink milk, otherwise she would have to waste a piece of Dean's kindness for breakfast.

There was still the last piece of toast left on the table, Song Shiling didn't say a word and took it decisively, the movements in her hands still didn't stop, but her eyes were dodging the dean's gossip eyes, and her tone was very insufficient, "Dean, since I chose to come to the nursing home, I naturally let go of my feelings and put the obligation to help the elderly in the first place." "

Thinking that he could successfully prevaricate to the dean, he didn't expect Jiang to be old and spicy, obviously he didn't believe everything she said, but his little reaction was caught, and Dean Xiao really poked mercilessly, "Come on, now there is no relationship between superiors and subordinates in the dialogue between you and me, tell the truth." "

Almost swallowed by the toast, he quickly drank a glass of milk, and then explained sincerely but very falsely: "Dean, I am also telling the truth where I lied to you." "

"Did you break off with the boy?"

This time the busy movement of her hands suddenly stopped, Song Shiling did not continue to be upright, she was reluctant to Wu Yu how to completely disconnect from contact, even if she could not see each other for a while, but there is a TV, a computer and a mobile phone, she can go to see the latest developments about Wu Yu, she can go to watch variety shows when she thinks about him, laugh, etc., it's not that there is no room to see each other again, but it is indeed her fault to say goodbye, she will find time to explain to him, grandma is delirious, the work in the nursing home is very busy, Song Shiling has no intention of caring so much, since the dean asks so bluntly, the girl can only be honest and frank, "Nope. "

After hesitating for nearly two or three minutes, Dean Xiao felt that Song Shiling was distracted again, his eyes were confused, and he was obviously missing the boy. As an older generation, she really wanted to see with her own eyes what Wu Yu's child looked like, and Shi Ling, who had taken her captive, was fascinated and unconscious, and she didn't even speak fluently since they met.

Song Shiling and her got along during this time, she is a filial grandson who values righteousness and feelings, in the face of family affection and love, in the entanglement, he finally breaks off to take care of his boy, is willing to run around alone and enjoy loneliness, or young and heroic, the woman does not want the child to make the wrong choice, and spends her life in the nursing home where the elderly come and go, if you have happiness, you must be brave to chase, brave to grasp, as the saying goes: The mountains and rivers are exhausted, and there is no way out, and the willows and flowers are bright and another village.

The dean blurted out all her inner thoughts, word for word, she wanted to make Song Shiling wake up, if everything now she is very sure that she is right, then she has nothing to say, if the opposite is not, sort out everything in her heart as soon as possible, I believe that a miracle will happen.

There are still a lot of words still waiting for the opportunity to say it slowly in my heart, Song Shiling knows the dean's kindness, and she also knows that she is always entangled in the choice of right and wrong, she doesn't want to be like this, but things must have a beginning and an end, and there seems to be no good result in this stalemate, but it is like moving corn and hugging watermelons and finally the bamboo basket is an empty monkey, and only after getting the end does she regret that she was not at the beginning, and her thoughts are piled up, so thinking about it, Song Shiling's heart is full of sadness in an instant, and she turned her face to prevent Dean Xiao from seeing her embarrassed expression at the moment, and not letting the woman catch her tears that are about to fall。