Chapter 84: It seems that everything is on track
Hey, time flies so shortly, it's like it's only been a day. Flipped through the calendar and looked at the time displayed on the phone, Shaoyang, are you doing well? How can you choose to stand in the same place like a fool and refuse to take a step? Why do you still refuse to move, always waiting for me to come back in a state of conviction. Time seems to stand still and I can't hear anything, the street lights in front of me are out of order, and when it gets dark, I can only move forward in the dark, not daring to look back for fear that someone will deliberately scare and fear me, admitting that I can't do without you, it's because I got too much love when I was by your side, and I couldn't take care of myself, so that I suddenly became an idiot in life when I was alone.
Occasionally, I come to the place where we started, and occasionally I see your figure in the distance, sighing deeply at the big tree, carefully hiding in the dark and observing your side face, it is still so impeccable, but after leaving the hospital, it seems that your body is no longer as strong as before, and it is a little thinner to make people feel distressed. It is clear that you miss me all the time, and say to the tree that you will wait for a miracle no matter what, my dear boy, you are an out-and-out fool, because of your persistent heart, you have made me overturn the balance boat that I have managed to maintain in my heart again, I can't do anything without you, everything about me and even my day is the same as you, I hate to lose each other again.
What it would be like to look at the world from the air, you and I would be like the sky and the clouds against each other, and one day we would meet again. Whether I walk towards you or you come to me, living under the same sky, you and I will continue to meet, maybe when we say goodbye, there will be tears in our eyes, who is in the end do not let go of the weak hands, only by persevering, can we go to the end, out of the most desired way of life. Whether it's me Wu Shaoyang or you Song Shiling, even if we haven't seen each other yet, our hearts are connected into a line, which is pulling our every move, and we have a good understanding and tacit understanding.
Always blame myself for not knowing how to manage love, only your departure made my heart instantly understand that without a beloved around will become so unsteady, I knew so, I shouldn't let go should be holding on, like a fool until now I know what regret is, you have been lying to me, with my unconditional trust in you will play me around, once I think about it, I will become more and more sad, knowing that this is impossible, now only left me with pain, this wrong beginning, really look at your original idea is too simple, what should I do how to make up for the mistake in order to see you againI don't want to continue to pass by, I want to have you, it's not you now, it doesn't make any sense, it makes me sad, today's time, all of you are still spinning in my mind.
As if being encased by an invisible rope, people quickly have a sense of suffocation, the floating heart becomes depressed again because of you, there is no news of you, except for self-blame, in addition to secretly not being found depressed, there is no other feeling, this moment, there is no warmth to surround me, the sense of security in the soul is decreasing every day, the loss of enthusiasm, the absence of reason, only sitting on the chair as if enchanted with broken thoughts, from time to time staring at the photo with you, as if looking at each other continuously across two time and space, no matter how fierce the inner emotions are, each other is clear, light a cigarette, the fire is fleeting in the nightThe white smoke rings that came out were ruthlessly dispersed with the wind blowing in the evening, just like missing you, so deep but still messed up by sudden events.
The storm is coming very violently, I want to shout to the whole world, just for the goal of you, I don't want to make a big fuss, no longer talk on paper, since it is you even if there is a cliff at the bottom in front of me, as long as I can see you, I am willing to jump down and let the footsteps approach you again. Enveloping my life, you are the only one to welcome into my world, I want to immediately take away you who are about to leave, I don't want you to wander in the world with nothing to do, the future grand plan that we have depicted between us, I need to have you by my side, continue to imagine with me, I don't want to let you distance away from me, I am willing to swallow everything in the dark, for you to be stable in this world, and the years are quiet.
There is always a starry sky in my heart, counting the stars to find the brightest, I see it as if you have been watching me closely in the night sky, the life of the nursing home is peaceful and peaceful, if there is a rare opportunity, I will invite you to experience life together. I also think about that day every day, I don't know if you have had breakfast after you have bought nothing? I dream of the scene of that day, I will always struggle to wake up in regret, it takes a long time to relax when I sit on the bed, and I will always inadvertently become annoyed and even cry because of my cruelty to you, I think I may be sick, serious lovesickness, even if I pretend to be indifferent in front of her, but the embarrassing and want to restrain the behavior is impossible to hide. In front of my eyes, the starlight flowed, intoxicated in the memory of the four eyes, my heart was shining, the deepening night, the cold winter wind, took out the scattered fragments that had been precipitated for a long time but cherished and preserved, and turned them into the two most dazzling stars, flashing with light, comparing one as Shaoyang Star and the other to Shiling Star.
Time back to the day when Song Shiling ran away again, she returned to the nursing home without danger, and she took a deep breath the second she got out of the car, yes, since she has made such a choice, there is nothing to be afraid of, she cheered herself up, Dean Xiao also respected her own opinions, so when we meet later, it is better to continue chatting in the same way we got along before.
But as soon as she took off her shoes and entered the door, Song Shiling saw someone in the kitchen who was cooking something, gurgling, and when she got closer to see what was going on, Song Shiling saw the dean was heating the milk, the liquid was bubbling in the milk pot, and the fragrance of milk had spread throughout the kitchen.
The dining table was already filled with a lot of freshly made snacks, Song Shiling was a little surprised, after all, the dean had never been so generous to herself, and women spent their lives in frugality, presumably because her choice was to stay in the nursing home, the dean would be in such a good mood, of course, it was just her speculation, as for whether it was uncertain.
The sound of the iron door being opened had already been noticed by Dean Xiao, and she didn't need to deliberately look back to confirm, she knew that only Shiling would have the curiosity to come to the kitchen to see what she was doing, like her own child, she loved to ask and eat.
Dean Xiao didn't look back, and said coldly, "Are you back?" "
Thinking of her mother when she was a child, she was also so gentle and considerate, and her tone was the same, which made Song Shiling's eyes full of happiness, she rolled up her sleeves and came to the dean and asked, "I'll help too." "
Although she was an adult, the girl's voice was still milky, melting the dean, just as Wu Yu was also deceived by her, but the work in her hands was already being done, and the dean had to joke, "Just help eat." "
Song Shiling was stunned for a moment, and pouted dissatisfiedly: "Dean, you are making fun of me." "
The dean covered the pot, but left a gap to prevent the milk from spilling out because of the high temperature, and as soon as the girl's voice fell, the woman couldn't help laughing, "What a smart child." Sit down, the milk is almost ready. "
Dean Xiao still didn't raise her head to work by the sink, Song Shiling sat obediently at the dining table and quietly witnessed the woman doing something very seriously with her back to herself, the aroma of milk was fragrant, and people couldn't help swallowing saliva, Song Shiling put her hands on her cheeks, and her thoughts had already wandered into the distance and couldn't stop, as if this was her real life, and being a bodyguard in the entertainment industry, it seemed that everything was on the right track, and she was going to the direction of a dull life.
Turn off the heat and pour the milk into the glass, the temperature is too high, Dean Xiao has a hand disease every time he serves something or pours something, his hands are easy to tremble, Song Shiling naturally couldn't sit still and wanted to step forward to help, and then reached out to help the dean support the milk pot, also out of kindness but was so worried that he forgot that the milk pot had just come down from the stove. She was slapped on the paw by Dean Xiao, every time she didn't have a long memory, the woman stared at Song Shiling, a little angry, "It's very hot, why don't you always have a long memory?"
Although she didn't get angry, Song Shiling was a little embarrassed by Dean Xiao's words, she wanted to take care of things but didn't know what danger was waiting for her ahead, she was always so reckless, but fortunately, the dean carefully poured the milk into the glass intact, and the liquid finally didn't stay in the milk pot, and the two of them suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.
Seeing that the dean was still not angry with her, Song Shiling smiled and begged for forgiveness, "Okay, dean, don't be angry, I won't have a next time." "
After the girl finished speaking, she leaned her head on the dean's shoulder and rubbed it, like the docile orange cat outside the courtyard, which made the dean's heart melt in an instant, she pinched Song Shiling's face and said with a smile: "Okay, what will I do next time?"
What are you going to do next time you run away?
I don't know why, Dean Xiao said this, Song Shiling's eyes were instantly blurred, and in a trance, she seemed to see Wu Shaoyang standing in front of her, holding the man's arm with both hands, auditory hallucinations, it must be auditory hallucinations, but she couldn't slow down, as if that sentence had been deeply in her heart and constantly asked herself, wanting her to give a complete answer to this question.
Her face became worse and worse, and the dean thought that he had said something that had hit Song Shiling's self-esteem, so he deliberately recalled it, and there was nothing! She shook the girl, but the child still didn't react, "What are you thinking about this kid!"
The volume seemed to have increased by five decibels, so frightened that Song Shiling hurriedly escaped from the memory, she looked at Dean Xiao pretending to be angry and frowned, and when she really let go of her hands and kept apologizing, seeing Song Shiling's Yuan Shen return to her place, the dean returned to her previous amiability and asked the girl if she had thought of anything sad just now? In fact, it doesn't count, at most it can only be described as regret, Song Shiling shook her head and just said that it was okay and didn't say more.
The dean understood and did not continue to ask, the two walked into the dining room together, sat at the dining table, she slowly handed another glass of milk to Song Shiling opposite, the girl took it, and drank it weakly in her heart, and then picked up the chopsticks to get the food in front of her, if you say the truth, it is that she is dying of hunger.
After a while, the quiet atmosphere was suddenly broken by the dean, and the woman looked up at Song Shiling, who had forgotten herself, and didn't know whether to say a sentence or not, for fear that the child would not be able to react if she said it, and she was afraid that she would be alone after seeing the child finish her busy work and would not talk to anyone.
"Shiling. In the end, the woman chose to ask questions.
Dean Xiao suddenly called her, in Song Shiling's memory, it would not be good for the general dean to call her like this, so she immediately raised her head vigilantly, "What's the matter, Dean?"