Xia Chen made no less than a hundred promises to Lin Gu about changing this topic. It's not the commitment that counts, it's the action. Instead of repeating promises, you can completely change yourself with actions. Speak up for yourself again and again, only enough childishness. Doesn't really solve the problem. The most important thing that Lin Koo taught her is that she should also give her all in her relationship, just like she does with every important interview. Because the result is worth it, you have to make him feel that he is worth it. Even if you have a whole world in your heart for him, you must give him enough security and tolerance to be able to rely on him with peace of mind. Xia Chen didn't know how Pygmalion managed to personify his needs. But Xia Chen knew what he needed to do to get his ideal self. Xia Chen didn't want to maintain the image of squandering money, wanton harm and indifference to people. What Xia Chen has to do is to live again. Moonlight was the first platform she started. She still receives daily letters from readers who are emotionally distressed. She scolded them on the radio, cried for them, and gave them all kinds of strange ideas. The communication with people fills Xia Chen's spare time. The person who created the legend of Yue Lao must have been a genius. The longer he gets along with people, the more Xia Chen feels that the connection between people is like a delicate fishing net. Xia Chen has always complained that her parents failed to give her a rich and comfortable childhood, but she has forgotten the comfortable and prosperous present she already has. If she doesn't give herself enough value, she won't have a comfortable and prosperous future. Those gentle feelings that have not been replied to are the beginning of Xia Chen's comfort and wealth. Maybe people can love the world with all their hearts, and then be hurt, and then they can open their hearts again and love the world with all their hearts. This is the fragility of human beings, but also the preciousness of human beings.

When Xia Chen found Xia Wu, Xia Wu blurted out, "You know everything?" Xia Chen was wondering if the question that Xia Wu wanted to ask himself was the same question as what he knew. "Full marks?" "It's a text-to-theory, and then a full score." It seems that you don't know either. "If his father is a role model, then Xia Wu is not only a role model, but also a new burden that oppresses Xia Chen. Originally, Xia Wu thought that Xia Chen might have to move mountains after Yugong, and began to move mountains in Yuxia once. In fact, Xia Chen just thought about it and gave up. Math, kill her and let her learn math.

"Don't always pick up those shallow loves to write about. There are others" This is Lin Gu's profound advice to Xia Chen, and Xia Chen thinks so. But Xia Chen's eyes and Xia Chen's pen can't help but avoid life and death, avoid parting, escape from pain, escape from heaviness, she will always rush to love in a panic, she always has to protect love in a hurry. "I've been thinking about death lately. What does death look like? What does it feel like to have a loved one die? "Indeed, Xia Chen never thought about death. Death is more like a part of Xia Chen's life. Xia Wu studied medicine because the medical level was not enough at that time, his mother died early, and what hit him even more was that after completing his studies, his father died of the same disease. He felt that his father's death was due to his incompetence and because he was not determined to engage in clinical research on cancer, so he fell into deep self-blame. Since Xia Chen was born, Xia Wu's self-blame has only eased slightly. Xia Chen is a test-tube baby, and there is a genetic history of hypertension and hyperlipidemia in her family, so naturally her body is very weak. In a year, she has to drink at least tens of thousands of yuan of medicine to maintain the normal operation of her body functions, of course, this practice also has another name, drinking medicine to continue her life. Different medicines have similar properties, so you can only choose to take them in different seasons and time periods. The only recreation during my illness was to look out the window at the flower fields and trees.

One day, Xia Wu suddenly brought back a puppy. Puppies are only the size of the palm of a hand. Curled up softly in the box. Xia Chen liked this puppy very much and made a small quilt for it. This dog is very spiritual, just making eye contact with Xia Chen seems to be able to read Xia Chen's mind. A puppy with a big palm was raised by Xia Chen to the length of half an arm. Xia Chen doesn't like to lead the puppy, and always secretly lets go of the leash that holds the puppy. She loves to hold puppies and rub their ears indulgently in her arms. The floppy puppy likes fruit the most, and she named it Doudou. Because she was watching "Little Doudou by the Window" at the time, she thought the name Doudou was particularly cute. What's even more amazing is that when Doudou is sad, not only will he let out a low whimper, but his eyes also seem to be able to well up with tears. Although Su Ru said that this was completely just Xia Chen's own imagination.

When Doudou was 6 years old, Doudou left. Xia Chen dug a pit in his own flower garden and put Doudou in it. After burying the soil with his own hands, Xia Chen wore his favorite peony-colored skirt and lay next to the small grave. Several boundaries were made around the grave with broken bricks. A small sunflower was placed on the grave. Xia Chen lay quietly next to the grave, holding the small grave in his arms, just like hugging Doudou in his arms. She lay quietly in the flower bed all day. Recalling this incident many times, Xia Chen was very curious about why he didn't cry at that time, because it was obviously the most painful and devastating moment for Xia Chen, and Xia Chen's performance was just lying quietly. When he was 15 years old, one of Xia Chen's friends died. Xia Chen was not very familiar with her, but he was still taken aback when he heard the news of her death. It is unimaginable that the person who was alive and kicking the day before is already lying in the cold soil at this moment. Obviously, Xia Chen was not at the scene, but the feeling she experienced when Doudou died appeared in her body. The cold, moist dirt clung to Xia Chen's skin, and Doudou lay in it, and it would soon turn into dirt as well. She could feel her breathing, the temperature on her body, and the only purpose of lying down was probably to pass that temperature to Doudou through the dirt, although it was impossible, although she knew it was impossible. At this time, that cold and slippery feeling appeared again. As if it never went away. Xia Chen's whole body became cold. Then there is the loss of voice, and finally the coma. It's the kind of coma that can hear sounds and see things, but all the body's action commands can't work.

Among Xia Wu's patients, there were also many who disappeared from the earth so quietly. Xia Chen sometimes doubts his memory, whether these people really exist, or just his own false memory. Obviously, not a false memory. The flowers they gave to Xia Wu, and the stories of the patients who came and went, all really showed that they really existed, and then they really disappeared. Xia Chen was very scared, Xia Chen was afraid that he didn't even have the right to live in other people's memories.