Turned off the computer, sat still on the chair for a long time, Song Shiling's hands were still banging on the desk, although her eyes were staring out of the window motionless, but her mind was reviewing whether the choice she made was inappropriate, if the dean was flawless, she would not say so much, no matter how she wanted to evade responsibility, Song Shiling still concluded that the result was her own problem.

Because of the injury of her right hand, Song Shiling, who is used to using her right hand, was insisted by Dean Xiao on resting in the room and did not need help, so she was naturally guilty, and she was injured just after returning to the nursing home, which is no different from not coming back, the laughter of the old people downstairs instantly reached her ears, and she clearly heard the sound of her grandmother clapping and laughing, it seems that once people forget their troubles, they will no longer be in pain, just like their grandmother, they forget everything, and it is not the best choice to spend their old age peacefully. Dean Xiao sat in the middle of the old people, holding a storybook in his hand and telling them a story, the old people were like children eager to absorb knowledge, although their eyes were no longer shining, but they couldn't help but raise their hands to ask why the left one was why the right one was what was particularly cute.

She didn't choose to go downstairs to see, but sorted out her clothes in the room, cleaned the dust that had accumulated by the window, and the activity at hand had come to an end, and Song Shiling was very worried in her heart. I thought that if I was busy, I could leave the tangled problems behind, and I couldn't hide from the fifteenth day of junior high school, so it was better to just make a decision and it didn't matter what the consequences would bring to myself in the end, but the idea at the moment became very intense and decisive, but when it came to the critical moment to prepare for action, I finally dropped the chain.

The second hand of the bedside clock clicked and turned, Song Shiling decisively dropped the pen, lay on the soft bed in a large font, closed her eyes, and suddenly thought of the picture of being with Wu Yu in the hospital, and never forgot it. Growing up, her boyfriend has finally become the most important person for herself, and compared with her grandmother, Song Shiling instantly felt as if she had become a white-eyed wolf.

She reached out and picked up a pillow from the other side of the bed, hugged her into her arms and hugged it tightly, she felt cold, felt lonely at this moment, as if a person had no contact with the outside world except for her grandmother, she admitted that such a peaceful life was very good, but she did not have the character of the previous generation, she couldn't bear everything, and the heat of three minutes was consumed mercilessly by herself. Song Shiling thought of Wu Yu, remembered the burning temperature of the man's palm holding his body in the dark atmosphere that night, Song Shiling remembered what Wu Yu said to herself, and his calm and firm eyes looking at him, the thoughts and the emerging face became clearer and clearer, and the girl who couldn't help it still wanted to reach out to touch the unrealistic illusion, and finally couldn't help it, the illusion was completely gone, like waking up from a big dream, everything was in the world without him.

Well, without him, there is only a world of old people. Even though she has a warm atmosphere, Song Shiling always feels that the position around her is empty, and the empty space in her heart makes her throb from time to time and her breathing is not smooth.

Song Shiling, who was sitting on the bed, sneezed again, I don't know if it was a cold or someone talking about herself behind her back, the girl felt very uncomfortable, and the idea of planning to sleep suddenly struck, just lying down, Dean Xiao called her name downstairs unexpectedly.

"Shiling, come down to eat. "

Unconsciously it turned out to be noon, Song Shiling slowly got up, looked sideways at the alarm clock at the bedside with a helpless face, 12 o'clock, time flies so fast, the speed of the blink of an eye just finished the breakfast digested in an instant, the stomach gurgled on time, couldn't stay, with the sound of the wind blowing the window, she lifted the quilt and got out of bed, put on slippers and walked out of the bedroom to the dining room.

Sitting in the designated seats, the dean and the old staff were working with each other to distribute the bowls to everyone present in turn, and then the rice was also served into the bowls. The delicacies were eaten with relish, and Dean Xiao sat opposite Song Shiling and always added dishes to the girl from time to time, but the girl kept thanking her, but did not stuff the food in the bowl into her mouth.

Dean Xiao was worried about Song Shiling, so he quietly asked, "Is it uncomfortable?"

When Song Shiling heard this, she immediately shook her head and signaled, "No, it's delicious." "

There is no shortage of rice in the bowl, and the dishes are even more indescribable, if Dean Xiao picks up the vegetables again, the small bowl in front of Song Shiling will hold up a small mountain, and the dean still can't help it: "Did you eat too much this morning?"

didn't wait for the girl to speak, and after a while, the sentence was irrepressibly "delicious" From the mouth of a young man who has just come to work, he gave a very pertinent evaluation, he didn't care about his handsome image, and gave a thumbs up to the dean, because three meals a day are under the chef of Dean Xiao, and the employees who have worked for many years are no longer strange, but this young man is very supportive, and the behavior of the words he naturally said made the older generation can't help laughing, but except for Song Shiling, she didn't know how to eat this lunch, and she didn't even care about the fragrance of her favorite braised pork ribs, but just put the chopsticks into the rice fiercely, and the soul of the person had already flown to the sky。

"Shiling?" Dean Xiao, who didn't get a response, was a little worried, Song Shiling didn't speak, her eyes were blank I don't know how many times she repeated it today, how many times she was bumped into by herself, no matter how she explained it to the child, Shiling didn't change after all.

The unintentional amplification of his voice attracted the attention of the young man, he raised his eyes to look at the dean, and then glanced at Song Shiling, who was two or three people away from him, and a righteous thought popped up in his mind - he wanted to help the dean.

"Sister Shiling, the dean called you. He swallowed the rice in his mouth, and called Song Shiling's name loudly to make her come back to her senses immediately, and the listless Song Shiling stood up only to find that the table was full of people, looking at herself with her eyes, worried and confused, and unpleasant, without hesitation, she immediately stood up and apologized to everyone present, Dean Xiao saw that the child did not eat a few bites, so he motioned for her to go back to the room to rest, in order to prevent some employees from being unhappy in the dining room because of Song Shiling's behavior, only let the junior avoid the current occasion first, what to say, if there is no tricky thing tonight, she will go to the bedroom to talk to Song Shiling。

Song Shiling, who knew about it, nodded, helplessly, she had to turn around and go back to the room and continue to lie on the bed, in a daze, as if this state was her favorite, no sorrow and no worries, occasionally thinking about the past many years ago, occasionally recalling the happiness and profundity when she and Shaoyang confirmed the relationship together, no one bothered her anymore, it's good.

Occasionally, there would be a happy conversation in the dining room downstairs, as if she had just been there to make the atmosphere gradually awkward, and now she turned back to the room, and the atmosphere changed back to the original morning, for some reason, Song Shiling, who was sensitive in her heart, began to blame herself, she began to think that it was a wrong choice for her to come back at the beginning, even if Dean Xiao supported herself and was willing to be her backer, but she was careful enough to act when she first arrived, for some reason there are always some aunts who are narrow-minded, and always point fingers and scold them for nothing to do, especially when the dean goes out, she is even more depressed and unreasonable, Every time I eat, I will sneer at myself from time to time, Dean Xiao is not invisible, but it is difficult for older people to change their outspoken, outspoken personality, the only way is for Song Shiling to learn to be patient, in order to have a bright future. The more she thought about it, the more uncomfortable she became, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, left the soft bed, sat at the desk again, turned on the computer, clicked on the email sent by Wu Yu not long ago, and didn't even want to go back and click to reply to the email, at this moment there was a kind of courage in her heart that was dominating the brain, so that Song Shiling finally did what she wanted to do the most earlier, contact Shaoyang, and tell him that she was really doing well, but this time, she also wanted to add a few more words, if she could, I really want to see him again, I am sorry for the last time in the hospital without saying a word and dodging her eyes, this time she is unwilling to hide everything, she wants to blurt out all and vent it all, and Wu Yu is also qualified to know all this, since he has decided to live in a nursing home, even if the two can't be together often, Song Shiling doesn't care, she also hopes that he can understand, and she also wants him to be indifferent.

Is it too late to reply to your email now? I just clicked on the email three days ago and read it all over and over again, tears can't stop flowing, trying to force myself to swallow the sadness into my stomach, but the body refuses to let myself bear it alone. I'm sorry, all I can do is say I'm sorry to you, push you out of my world and be an outsider to see me suffer alone, escape from your path and open up a new environment to live again, you should have spent the rest of your life with me, but my cowardice, my entanglement and even indecision have hurt you and myself at the same time.

We are like an unfinished story, only a third of the way I want to stop writing and re-develop a new story, you and I are ending before that with sadness to play you and me missing, familiar melody, the same missing formula has not changed, when the night comes, I have the same tacit understanding with you, with the worry to comfort our tired day, want to live carefree with you, beautiful dreams let us work together to create it again.

Time flies so fast today, in my opinion, I almost spent the day in a daze, nothing did but made a lot of mistakes, fortunately the dean did not blame me on the spot, and I am glad that the dean can understand me, in my life, in addition to my parents and you, as well as Aunt Man and Uncle Shuyuan, who raised me before, the dean is a new person who understands me, so that I have a very happy time during this time, forget a lot of troubles, and reduce the pressure that comes with me. Shaoyang, don't blame me for abandoning you ruthlessly, I don't want to make you absent-minded at work because of my emotions, I'm ashamed, and I don't dare to meet you in a short time, I volunteer in a nursing home, don't worry too much, I am stronger than others in my ability to be self-reliant, believe me, and I believe that we will meet again at some point in the future, no matter how far we go, the sun will always stay in the sky above us.