Xia Xingchen made the most daring decision, Gu Yi'an told her, what you let go is not called happiness, what you can grasp in your hands is happiness. "Can you give me a chance to let me stay with you for one night, I don't ask for anything in my life, I just want to have a child with you. I can't do it now to take advantage of people's danger......",

Xia Xingchen knew that as a single mother, she had to bear a lot of public opinion pressure in society, but she loved someone for the first time and was willing to give it a go. If she always wanted to be a traditional woman, then she didn't want to control her emotions anymore.

Gu Beihuai has always known that Xia Xingchen has a high degree of self-discipline no matter what kind of occasion he is in, even when they are on a private date in the past, and he will never do anything out of the ordinary. Somewhat shocked, he said, "Are you drunk? What are you talking about? What happened to you?",

"I'm not drunk, I don't have a moment more determined than I am today when I listened to my heart, I used to live too hypocritically, thinking that as long as I had dignity, I could be happy. But when I actually got it, I realized that it wasn't like this, and I lost the only person I ever loved the most in my life......"

Xia Xingchen cried in front of him for the first time. is as arrogant as Xia Xingchen, and she is born with the strong heart of a strong woman. No matter how Gu's father humiliated her at the beginning, or how she persecuted her with a lowly life, she gritted her teeth and said to herself that she would rather shed blood than tears. But today Xia Xingchen cried!

"I'm not invincible, I'm just...... For a long time, I learned to observe words and emotions and put away my temper. Because someone has told me that no one wants to be willing to accommodate another person's bad temper. I was afraid that others would be unhappy because of my small emotion, so I was always cautious, so I appeared to be generous. ”，

Xia Xingchen seemed to be telling him what was on his mind for the first time, and he used to think that Xia Xingchen was the same kind of person as himself. When you encounter something unhappy or unbearable, you just bury it in your heart and carry it.

"But I'm so tired, I'm so tired of pretending to be like that, I'm a human being, I'm not a god. I can cry and laugh, why can I only laugh, I don't even have the right to cry?" ，

People are like that, when they had nothing before, they would desperately become the people who were looked up to because of poverty, in order to get rid of that little bit of terrible self-esteem.

But when I walked at the peak, I found that the perfect person was given too high an evaluation by the outside world, you have to be excellent in everything and always stay sober, because if you don't go to the heart, you can become the laughing point of the whole network tomorrow. It's as if her world lives only in the comments.

Gu Beihuai didn't know why she thought of Lu Nansheng, she always seemed to be a memorable existence. She always seems to write her joys, sorrows and sorrows very clearly, which obviously makes people feel pitiful, but she feels that the days with her are very easy.

"Someone told me that everyone should look for a way of life that is most relaxed. If you stretch yourself too hard every day, you shouldn't call it a human, you should call it a robot. ”

Xia Xingchen was still keenly aware of the words in his words, "Who is she? Lu Nansheng?" Xia Xingchen suddenly laughed, and smiled bitterly in despair, they were all divorced, and he couldn't forget her.

"Don't mention her name! I'm sure you're tired too, so sleep in the bed and you'll be fine when you wake up." Gu Beihuai stroked the corners of his forehead with some headaches.

"Why don't you mention it?Why do you avoid this topic when you mention her?I'm asleep, where are you going next?Are you going to find her?Or continue to think about her?......" Xia Xingchen rarely touched his bottom line, and it always was, so they didn't quarrel much. At least in his heart, Xia Xingchen has always been an obedient and sensible woman, and a person who knows how to measure.

"Xingchen, after so many years, you should know my bottom line" Gu Beihuai pointed to the end, which is the style he has always done. The wise woman should have shut up now, obediently go to bed, or leave his room, but she didn't.

"The bottom line, the bottom line, the bottom line! is this damn bottom line, has been binding me, if I had crossed this bottom line bravely, then I should be the one who should marry you now!", she has been living in the bottom line before, just like a woman with bound feet in feudal society, tying herself in that kind of social morality, and that kind of life is really enough.

She couldn't control her beating heart, and during the time she was separated from him, even her dreams occupied his face and his figure. But Xia Xingchen was the happiest among those people, because she had received Gu Beihuai's single-minded love.

"You're a good woman, and you deserve better. You believe me, wait, you'll meet the person who is dedicated to you, but that person isn't me, you know?" he still didn't want to look at her more, touch her more.

Xia Xingchen unzipped his dress in front of him, like a complete heart being dissected and changed...... Naked, holding it in the palm of his hand and handing it to him. The dress fell off her body and fell to the ground, Xia Xingchen didn't stop moving her hands until she put herself in front of him, and she put herself on the ground like a feather.

Gu Beihuai was indifferent even in the face of Xia Xingchen like this, but his mind was filled with what his reaction would be if this person today was Lu Nansheng.

"I said, it's not worth it for me. Don't do this in front of others in the future. Not everyone is like that, you know?" Gu Beihuai was facing it as if it was a statue, without any emotional waves, which made the last string in Xia Xingchen's heart completely broken.

But he still doesn't want her, he still doesn't want her Xia Xingchen! Gu Beihuai has already turned his body, "You put on your clothes yourself, do you hear it, if you don't want to be embarrassed." Otherwise, let Sister-in-law Li help you ......", Gu Beihuai was used to the condescending and threatening appearance of others before, and Xia Xingchen hated him the most.

Anyway, it's already like this, and she's not afraid of breaking the jar once, she didn't do what he said, but stood still and didn't move, "Okay, then you just embarrass me once, I'm not embarrassed enough for you, doesn't it matter, doesn't it? No matter what I do, you don't care, do you?", she looked at him and said.

Gu Beihuai knew what Xia Xingchen meant by this, and he knew her character. He knew that he could no longer afford to pay her back, and he was destined to have to owe.

put the dress that had fallen off on the ground back on her body, pulled the zipper up, took off her coat and buttoned it on Xia Xingchen's body. "You're really as stubborn as you used to be, you ...... temperament",

"You're tired today, and it's inevitable that you'll have some impulsive thoughts once in a while. But you have to remember not to be an example," he said in a joking tone.

Xia Xingchen hugged his waist tightly with his backhand, "I didn't, this is what I said in my heart, I can't fool myself." I tried to forget you, but I couldn't, and the more I tried to forget, the more I remembered. I envy Lu Nansheng for marrying you and sleeping on your side. Feeling your breath and being loved by you, I also thought, can't we really go back to the beginning?",

Xia Xingchen was thinking that if everything could go back to the starting point, she changed her mind. She will definitely not give up the love of her life for the sake of ridiculous self-esteem. Xia Xingchen was afraid that he would forget, so he showed him the three words Gu Beihuai engraved on his ankle: "My love for you is tattooed on my ankle like it, are you right? But you promised me, didn't you?",

She tried to evoke memories of him, even a little bit of the good they had been. "You've got it, but I've wiped it. Time is not a thing sooner or later, not because the sooner you appear, it will definitely stay in that place. Water under the bridge. Gu Beihuai let go of her hand, and she almost fell to the ground like an empty shelf without pillars.

Gu Beihuai looked at Xia Xingchen and said, "The Xia Xingchen I know will never humbly beg a man who doesn't love her, I still remember what she said before, she is the high-ranking Xia Xingchen, if she likes a person, she confesses to him openly and honestly in front of everyone, and she will never chase someone who doesn't love her in vain." I still remember that, what about you?", he said as he was about to leave here.

Xia Xingchen was afraid that he would leave her sight like this, and the next time he saw him again, he didn't know when it would be, and his character, would he give him the next chance to see her?

She stepped forward and locked the door, clasping the back of his head strongly, her red lips pressed against his. Looking at the world without her in his eyes, he closed his eyes. Gu Beihuai grabbed her wrist and wanted to push her away, but she stuck to his body like glue.

But in the end, he pushed Xia Xingchen away, the love that was destined to not give the ending was not good, and it would hurt to stay for one more second, so it was better to refuse decisively. "Xia Xingchen, do you understand? Let me tell you again, the person I love in my life is Lu Nansheng. I don't love you anymore, our love has long expired, maybe I didn't know what love was when I didn't meet Lu Nansheng before. But I now know very clearly that the person I am destined to be entangled with in this life is not you!",

The most hurtful words are still spoken, but the hurtful words are much more bitter than the love that is indulged in, like a fish that is used to staying in the water, and one day it will be difficult to live if it leaves the water that it is used to. People are the same thing, they are used to a person's existence, they are deeply rooted, and one day they want to be uprooted, which is equivalent to her life.