Walking into the noodle restaurant, Yao Shan had already taken off the sunglasses she was wearing. As I expected, her eyes were already red and swollen, and her face was ugly.

She looked at me and looked back. I also turned my attention to the man sitting across from her.

This man was wearing a pair of glasses, and his face was bookish, and when he saw my arrival, he got up and said to Yao Shan: "Shanshan, I hope you can think about it carefully, and then come to me after thinking about it, I'll go first." ”

The man nodded to me and left the noodle shop, and Yao Shan didn't even look at him the whole time.

I know this man, in the photo of the two of them hugging each other hanging on Yao Shan's car before, it is Yao Shan and him, and I also know that his name is Liang Zhenfeng.

I also seem to understand why Yao Shan is wearing sunglasses today, I think it's because of him.

In order not to rub salt on her wounds, I didn't ask Liang Zhenfeng what he was doing when he came to her, because I was really annoyed now...

"Have you eaten enough?" I asked, looking up.

Yao Shan sniffed, put on her sunglasses again and nodded, "Eat well." ”

"I'll send you back!"

"Good. ”

... ...

Along the way, the car slowly came to the school gate. After turning off the engine, Yao Shan unbuckled her seat belt, but she had no intention of getting out of the car.

I slowly rolled down the windows on both sides, looked at the school building in front of me, which had already turned off the lights, and asked, "Aren't you going back when you arrive?"

"I'd like to sit a little longer, okay?"

"Hmm!"

I don't know how long we stayed in the car, but I realized that it should be early in the morning.

The night is the most emotional time for people, and the messy things that the mind thinks about are also the most time, and at this time people are especially easy to fall into a state of emptiness. I think that's what I'm like, I don't know what Yao Shan next to me will think.

Looking at the crescent moon still looming in the night sky and the gentle breeze, this night looks particularly sad.

Finally, on this quiet night, Yao Shan opened her mouth: "Xiuwen, do you say that after the two of you are separated, can you still be friends again?"

"I don't know!" I replied, shaking my head, because that's what I've always been bothering me with.

How many people in this world who love each other can be friends again after separation? I don't think Mo Zhenzhen and I will not, I have loved each other, and I have also understood everything about each other.

Think about the two people who were once inseparable and vowed to live for the rest of their lives. Whether it is life habits or temperament, people who are too familiar to be familiar with each other.

Suddenly one day, she quietly left your life. At that time, you will feel that life is meaningless, and even eating and sleeping will feel like a special task.

Mo Zhenzhen and I have been together for ten years, and we have been in love for ten years, and we love deeply and hurt deeply. Like we are absolutely no longer normal friends. But I don't know what happened to Yao Shan and Liang Zhenfeng, so I can't answer her question.

"Then can you and your ex-girlfriend be normal friends again?" Yao Shan continued.

"Can't!"

"Why?"

With Yao Shan's question, I was silent for a while, and then I whispered: "I have been with her since high school... Everything that happened in the ten years that I was with her is engraved in our bones and has become an indispensable part of our lives... Suddenly one day, the person who carved your future in your bones leaves your life, and you will find that even if she is gone, what she left behind has become your life, and it will never linger, and you can only take it to your grave!"

"You're talking too profound, I don't understand. ”

I smiled helplessly: "Not all boyfriends and girlfriends can become friends after separation, it depends on whether the two love each other deeply... If it's just a play, the kind of play that solves physiological needs, after separation, it doesn't really matter if you are friends or not, because that person doesn't matter at all... Only two people who have loved each other dearly would think about it... So you loved each other dearly, didn't you?"

I looked at Yao Shan, who was wearing sunglasses, but she still avoided my gaze.

She looked out the window and whispered, "Maybe... Zhai Xiuwen, I have morning class tomorrow, so I'll go in first. ”

"Hmm... Go back and get some sleep, don't overthink it!"

"You should go back to bed early, too. ”

... ...

After Yao Shan left, I felt that the world in front of me began to hazy again... Late at night, it's always so confusing, people can't tell which is the truest self...

I didn't go back to Moon Bay that night, nor did I go home, but opened a room in a hotel not far from the school.

After washing, I curled up in the quilt, and my mind began to think crankily again.

This night, I lost sleep again, only this time, without the company of cigarettes, I felt as if time stood still, and my heart was slowly solidifying...

In insomnia, I opened the message on my mobile phone, typed Mo Zhenzhen's mobile phone number in the recipient column from memory, and sent her another message.

"Zhenzhen, you borrowed the two million from me, I will definitely pay you back in the next few days... Also, I hope that we will get along in the future, just like we did in Shenzhen for half a year after we broke up, not to contact each other, not to see each other...

We should all forget the past, forget each other, forget the joy and the pain that that city brought us... Even if life is fucking up, but you have to live a good life for yourself... May you be all the best in the future, cherish!"

I hung my finger above the screen, and I felt a tingling pain in my heart unconsciously...

Ten years of past, ten years of bits and pieces, we should have ended, it should have ended a long time ago, not dragged on to the present.

Time passed slowly, my fingers were slowly approaching the send button, when the flesh touched the top of the screen, I subconsciously closed my eyes, and a stream of hot tears in my eyes was gently sliding down the corners of my eyes...

We first met in 2005 on a stormy night. I struggled to pull Su Yi who was caught in the whirlpool, and after rescuing Su Yi, looking at me in embarrassment, you smiled. That was the first time we looked at each other. I was sixteen years old, and you were sixteen too.

In 2006, I won the City Boys' High School Basketball League with my varsity team, and that day, you were smiling more than I was.

In 2007, in order to vent my anger for the blind man, I went to fight with a group of gangsters who had nothing to do all day outside the school, and that day, I was beaten and my face was swollen... In the clinic not far from the school gate, you cried like a little cat while giving me medicine.

In the summer of 2008, we graduated, and you said you wanted to go to Beijing to see the Bird's Nest, and I said that I would take you there when I made money in the future.

In 2009, I sat cross-legged with you on the soccer field of college, you snuggled up to my shoulder, and we looked at the night sky together. I described to you the beauty of the night sky by the sea, and you said, when we are old, we will go back to Moon Bay to live. Then you can see the starry sky by the sea every day.

In the summer of 2010, I worked part-time to save some money, and it was the first time we went to Beijing. I accompanied you to visit the Forbidden City and see the Bird's Nest... You cried that day, crying fiercely, and you said that no matter how the world changes in the future, your heart for me will never change...

But you know what? It was also my happiest day, because you were happy, so I was happy... The night you went back, you gave me the most precious time of your life... Unforgettable!

In 2011, we were all immersed in hard work for our graduation thesis, and we had less and less time to get together, but every morning when there was class, you would come and bring me breakfast.

In 2012, graduation season, we stayed in Shenzhen... I remember it was our busiest year, but also the most fulfilling and energetic year.

We rented a one-bedroom apartment of less than 40 square meters in Shenzhen, and that day you happily told me that you were favored by a large company, and asked me not to work in the future, stay at home and be a housewife, eat your soft rice...

You know what? When you tell me this, my heart is already happy, like a kindergarten child seeing candy...

But that night, you were as tired as a dead pig, and you went to bed early.

In 2013, in the middle of the night, your mother called you, and at that time you thought I was asleep, so you ran to the balcony to talk to your mother all night on the phone, and once choked up... After talking on the phone, you secretly cried on the balcony all night by yourself, and you didn't dare to make a sound at all... The next day, I went to the company to advance half a year's salary and remitted it to your mother without telling you.

Hiding it from you again, I secretly found a part-time job, although I was very tired at the time, but I was steady.

Because I know that every time your mother comes to you, in addition to asking for money, she won't ask you more if you're doing well, so every time you celebrate the New Year, you go back to my home. Because you said my grandparents were very good to you.

In 2014, my grandmother passed away, and you hugged me and cried all night. I was so sad that I didn't realize it at that time, and you ignored me for a whole month, you said that I had no conscience, and that I would only take care of myself...

Actually, you know what? My grandmother is gone, and my heart is no less sad than yours. It's just that I see you're so sad that I don't want my emotions to affect you anymore... In the middle of the night when you were asleep, I sneaked to the balcony alone, smoked a cigarette, and tears kept flowing...

In 2015, a lot of things happened in this year, and it also changed our lives...

I remember that day after you answered a phone call, you have been depressed, and then I asked you, you didn't say anything, just said that you are not in good shape at work these days... I'm too busy with the company to take your feelings into account.

That day, you asked when we were going to get married, and I said, give me a little more time, and when I officially become a project manager, I will marry you...

I know you were a little disappointed when you heard this answer, but you didn't say anything more...

Afterward...... And then in less than a month, you left me without saying a word... Only one text message was sent to me: "Let's break up, goodbye!"

... ...

Half a year later, I quit my job in Shenzhen and returned to Yangjiang... My heart, too, died on that highway...

... ...

Goodbye, my old faith! Goodbye, the dreams I once had!