Chapter 5, Section 5 Blue Heart's Apology
A conversation with Bai Keran completely unlocked the barrier in Lan Xin's heart. Once the blocks are lowered, everything is sunny. The smiling expression returned to Lan Xin's face, this long-lost smile had been lost for twenty-eight years.
On this day, Lan Xin took out the new mobile phone given by Qin Shi, and after a few days of exploration, she is now able to operate this smartphone proficiently. At the moment there was a magazine in front of her. The beautiful article "Respect Me for the Rest of My Life Without Sorrow and Joy" in the magazine was secretly in her mood, and she read it silently: I always want to ask you, are you okay? It seems that time has never moved forward, it seems that you are still by my side, never really left. Memory is sometimes sluggish, even if people go to tea and cool, they are reluctant to forget, and they always feel that if they remember you for a second more, they can love you for a second more. I have imagined such a picture thousands of times in my mind, with you, home, the red sky and the brilliant galaxy. But then, I just walked alone, occasionally tired, occasionally stopped to miss you, and regarded the love of you as my deepest secret. Love, sometimes it's really helpless, I will regret that I let go of your hand at the beginning, you smiled so happily, but the person next to me is not me. It turns out that love can be replaced, no matter how much we have longed for a lifetime, if we don't stick to it until the last moment, we have failed each other. It's just a little sad, passing by your world, missing you, just a little unwilling, you who love me so much, still don't belong to me. In the past, they each toasted a cup, and the rivers and lakes went to both sides. I will do it first to respect this cup of affection, I will respect you for having no waves in the future, and I will not be sad and happy for the rest of my life, and we will never mention the past.
Perhaps she was infected by Berry Silk's beautiful text, Lan Xin wanted to extract some sentences from the beautiful text and send it to Qin Shi, she opened WeChat, and there was only a picture of Feiyu's handshake in WeChat. She chose a smiling expression and typed a line: Qin Shi, are you okay?
Looking at it again after a while, there is a message about the return of Feiyu in WeChat, a poem. She read it carefully.
"Greetings"
Open WeChat's circle of friends/So much joy and sadness wake up from the depths/The years are rushing/We are just two trees staring at each other/Close but far away/"Are you okay", your greeting/It's a whip/It hits the softness of my heart/
It is no longer a teenager who is no longer the twilight drum and morning bell/Some of the former close friends have also been hidden behind the time/The circle of friends has slowly decayed at any time/And my insignificance has precipitated as an obstacle to warmth/I have long since imagined that there will be someone to take me in/There will be that love to warm my coldness/Even a sincere greeting/It is difficult to reach my low years/
And at this moment, your greeting is a touch of autumn color in the wheat field/Guide me to look back on the ordinary passing years/Let me see that the flowers and plants are still withering/The fruits are still drooping and still abundant/This time is steep/Eliminate old grievances/Also eliminate new sorrows/The sunshine also came to me little by little
"Yes, Qin Shi, I have now eliminated old grievances and new sorrows, I will never misunderstand you again, lose my temper with you, my heart has come back to life, our topic will no longer have any taboos, we can talk about poetry, scenery, life, many happy and unhappy things, and that dusty relationship", Lan Xin stared at the screen of the mobile phone dumbfounded, like a girl thinking about her heart, a smile always hung on her face.
She typed a line of words to Qin Shi in WeChat again: "Why do you write like this, 'There will be that love to warm my coolness', I don't agree, we are all your relatives, Yuejin, Zicheng, Keran, and Beibei are not your relatives?", and sent it out.
"Agreed, you are all my dearest and dearest", Qin Shi's reply came.
"Qin Shi, I always owe you an apology, I sincerely apologize to you today, you have to forgive me"
"I'll just treat you as the little wayward girl you were twenty-eight years ago, and I can accept everything about you"
"Including my arrogance?"
"Occasionally, I can feel your willfulness and arrogance, have you ever felt it?
"I knew that you were the only one in the world who could tolerate me the most"
"Blue heart, it's you who have sunshine in your heart"
"'The sunshine also came to do it for me little by little', the meaning of your poem is to treat me as 'sunshine'", Lan Xin turned the topic to Qin Shi's poem.
"You, Brother Yuejin, Zicheng, Keran, Beibei, and of course you, Blue Heart, you are all the sun that I defeated death"
"Only you can treat me as a ray of sunshine, I have always wanted to be a sun, with my light and heat to shine on others, but the reality is that I have always been a moon hiding behind the sun, and they all ignore my existence"
"No one will ignore your existence like this, it's good to have it in your own heart, why care about other people's opinions?"
"I care, Qin Shi, I care more about what you think of me"
"Don't mention us, you will be angry when you mention our past, I don't want you to be angry all the time", Qin Shi learned his lesson and changed the topic in time, "How are Zicheng and Weiwei getting along?"
"Now Weiwei is not very entangled, but often sticks with Keran, Weiwei's family may have seen that my family jumped into such a problem, and they didn't urge us to buy a house, and they didn't force us to get married."
"That's good, save Weiwei from going to Zicheng unit to make trouble again, mention the house, I heard Keran say that he has a suite that he wants to transfer, you can go and see it, if it's appropriate, it's settled."
"Keran told me, I've also seen the house, it's all very good, but Keran doesn't owe us anything, why take advantage of him?"
"That's the case, Lan Xin, you're still the same as when you were in college, you're really unreasonable when you're unreasonable, there are so many ways to buy a house, did Zicheng fancy that house?"
"You don't know, Zicheng is a little bad about this child, that is, he lacks his own ideas, and when adults say it's good, he says it's good."
"In that case, I will discuss with Zicheng, I owe Zicheng a meeting gift, if Zicheng does not object, I will call the shots"
"Qin Shi, are you crazy, right?
"You can also be unreasonable to your eldest brother, like you are to me?"
"Qin Shi, you are different from your eldest brother"
"Of course it's different, Yuejin is your husband, I'm just a passerby", Qin Shi's words were inevitably mixed with depression.
"Qin Shi, it's not what you understand. What you don't know is that you are the only man in my life who can vent my emotions, you swore that I was allowed to be unreasonable to you for the rest of my life, and you forgot? I am also willing to be unreasonable to you for the rest of my life, but I can't for Yuejin, his promises are empty words, and I have never taken them to heart."
"I'm still so rude when I'm old", Qin Shi snorted Lan Xin.
"I do", Lan Xin said softly.
Lan Xin still didn't want Qin Shi to completely touch his wounds, so he put down his phone and went to boil medicine.