Chapter 196: He feels guilty, and she feels bad too
In the early morning, when the first rays of sunlight shine into the room through the curtains, like a light shining into the heart, the gloom is completely dispelled.
Leaning on the sofa all night, Du Shiyan didn't fall asleep all night, and his eyes were locked on the figure on the bed.
It wasn't until the sky was white that Du Shiyan squinted for a while.
Maybe there was a calming ingredient in the hanging bottle, Gu Xiaoman slept peacefully all night, but in the blur, she always felt that there was a hot eye staring at her, just like when she was forced to endure the whole night that night, his scarlet eyes kept echoing in her mind, and the low roar kept lingering in her ears.
Slowly opened his eyes, a soft sunlight hit his face, squinted slightly to adapt to the warm light, and suddenly, a face shrouded in sunlight appeared in front of him.
Eyes as bright as obsidian, deep eyes were looking at her for a moment.
The moment they met his eyes, Gu Xiaoman's heart trembled slightly.
"Awake?" His hand gently wanted to caress the side of her face, but as soon as he raised his hand, Gu Xiaoman subconsciously wanted to dodge, but the pain all over his body was severe, and the movement caused his whole body, and the coldness in his eyes flashed.
Du Shiyan's hand trembled suddenly.
She was dodging his touch.
The air instantly condensed, Du Shiyan's heart shook suddenly, his fingers tightened slightly, and he slowly clenched his fists and hung down at his side.
Although his expression was extremely restrained, Gu Xiaoman also noticed that his performance really made him feel ugly, and he couldn't help but nodded, wanting to pull the corners of his mouth, but as soon as he moved the wound on his lips, he was affected by a sharp pain.
With frowning slightly, Du Shiyan immediately restrained the embarrassment in his heart, and asked with concern, "What's wrong?"
His tone was urgent, and his eyes were full of guilt.
She didn't really blame him for last night's incident, but her heart was like eating coptis, bitter and painful.
Especially that child, her first child, her child with his, was just gone.
She hadn't even gotten acquainted with the child, she hadn't fully accepted the identity of a mother, and the child was gone when she wasn't ready for anything.
The hand subconsciously wanted to touch the lower abdomen, but when she noticed the man standing in front of the hospital bed, she could only give up.
After all, the child is gone, and he feels uncomfortable, how can she let him live in guilt all the time.
Taking a deep breath, Gu Xiaoman shook his head with a smile and said softly: "It's okay, it's just that I touched the wound." ”
As soon as he opened his mouth, Gu Xiaoman realized that his voice was hoarse.
Coughing lightly and straightening his voice, Gu Xiaoman propped himself up and wanted to sit up.
Sensing her intentions, Du Shiyan immediately supported her and helped her up, "What do you want to do?"
Glancing at him in embarrassment, Gu Xiaoman said embarrassedly, "I'...... I want to go to the bathroom. ”
When the words fell, when Gu Xiaoman was not ready to get out of bed, Du Shiyan directly bent down and lifted the quilt on her body, and picked up Gu Xiaoman with both arms and walked towards the bathroom.
Gu Xiaoman didn't even have time to exclaim, and the person had already arrived at the door of the bathroom.
Walking to the door of the bathroom, Du Shiyan stopped and looked down at Gu Xiaoman in his arms, "Do you need me to help you?"
Help?
Gu Xiaoman shook her head awkwardly, even if she had already done the most intimate action, but after all, this kind of thing was the case, she was embarrassed after all.
Shaking his head again and again, Gu Xiaoman's face was flushed with embarrassment, "No, no, I can do it myself." ”
Without forcing her, she was placed next to the toilet, and Du Shiyan turned around and walked out of the bathroom.
He was standing at the door, she was still embarrassed about this kind of urgent thing, turned around, Gu Xiaoman wanted to close the door, but Du Shiyan stretched out his hand to block it, "Open the door, you call me if you have something." ”
But he was right next to him, how could she be that.
But in the face of his determined eyes, Gu Xiaoman knew that he had made concessions, and she was no longer without measure.
The fingers made a turning motion, Gu Xiaoman's voice softened a little, with the girl's characteristic shyness, "You turn around." ”
"Good. ”
When the words fell, Du Shiyan turned around.
Looking at his back, Gu Xiaoman's expression slowly cooled down.
This is the VIP suite of the hospital, except for those instruments, the whole ward is like the presidential suite of the hotel, even the bathroom here is larger than her previous room, the overhead light, the dim light on the body, the paleness of her face is covered up a little.
Looking at himself in the mirror, the dense traces from the neck to the hospital gown, subconsciously glanced at the man at the door, such a proud man, has been standing at the top of the pyramid, but at the moment he is standing at the door of the bathroom waiting for her.
Is she to blame him?
Obviously told himself not to blame him, he was already very guilty, but when she thought of the child she had placed so much hope in, her attitude towards him was indifferent and alienated that even she couldn't control.
She didn't know what to do with him.
It is both he who gives life to his children and he who deprives them of life.
The trembling hand slowly stroked the lower abdomen, where there was once a life, just twenty hours ago.
But now, she's ......
There were tears in her eyes, and her uncontrollable tears rolled down the corners of her eyes until they fell into her mouth, and even her heart trembled with bitterness.
Standing in the doorway, although he didn't see her expression, he could almost feel her pain when he heard her subtle movements.
His fingers clenched into fists, their tips piercing into his palms, and the pain struck him to suppress the urge to turn around.
Manman, I will repay them again tomorrow for all that I have suffered today!
The lower body hurt so much that Gu Xiaoman couldn't even move his steps.
The pain was like a blister on the heel and a puncture, and after being punctured, I had to continue walking, and I gritted my teeth with every step I took.
Squatting down slightly, the feeling of falling hit again, and the despair of that night came again.
Because of the pain, Gu Xiaoman's fingers were clenched subconsciously, and even the neatly trimmed nails were embedded in the flesh, and she didn't seem to be able to perceive half of it.
The face that had just eased lost all blood again, and the pale complexion, with the green tendons on his forehead that could bear the pain, burst out.
Taking a deep breath, Gu Xiaoman forcibly suppressed the sharp pain in his whole body before it eased.
Du Shiyan, who was outside the door, heard her heavy breathing, and immediately turned around and rushed into the untrial.
As soon as I rushed into the bathroom, I saw that she was getting up in pain, stepped forward with long legs, lifted her pants, and then flushed the toilet, maintaining the posture of carrying her in just now, and carried Gu Xiaoman out of the bathroom with a horizontal hug.