Han Lu seemed to understand my feelings, and he didn't rush to pull me over, standing with me, then tore open a pack of cigarettes and handed me a cigarette.

"Rest for a while, walk a long way, smoke a cigarette and go down. ”

I took the cigarette, and he took out a lighter for me to light it, and then the two of us big men just stood in the cold wind, staring at the graveyard less than 200 meters in front of us and smoking.

I threw away the cigarette butt when I didn't smoke, and after stepping on the cigarette butt with my foot, I said to Han Lu: "Let's go, let's go!"

The cemeteries in the countryside are not regular, they are all scattered, some of the better graves are made of stones, and some are just a small dirt slope.

But when Han Lu took me to see Chen Yi's grave, my whole body collapsed.

I didn't expect that her grave turned out to be a small dirt slope, not to mention made of stones, and there was not even a tombstone.

I even thought that Han Lu was in the wrong place, and asked him deliberately, "Are you sure this is Chen Yi's grave?"

Han Lu looked to the left and right, nodded with great conviction, and said, "That's right, this is Chen Yi's grave." ”

"No, why don't you even ......?" I stopped and sighed.

Han Lu patted me on the shoulder as a sign of comfort: "I was like this last time, it is said that her family didn't give her a good funeral, so she buried it casually. ”

I can't accept that the woman I once loved couldn't even get a little benefit after death, she was hard enough in her life, and now that she has died, she must have a good tombstone!

Looking at this small, low dirt slope in front of me, I didn't feel good in my heart.

Immediately after that, his nose was sour, and tears couldn't help but flow out.

Han Lu squatted down, took out the sacrificial offerings we bought from the county town, and laid them out one by one.

I really didn't feel good in my heart, and immediately said to Han Lu: "No, I want to help her renovate the grave." ”

Han Lu didn't reject my idea, and nodded in agreement: "Yes, I also have this intention, let's finish this matter when we come here this time and go back!"

I let out a "hmm", then squatted down and lit the sacrifice with Han Lu, and then knelt down in front of the grave and kowtowed three times.

I didn't stand up immediately, but said to myself in front of the grave: "Chen Yi, I came to see you, I'm sorry, I only know your news now...... I don't know how to describe how I feel at this moment, I really can't believe it's real...... You're too stupid, why didn't you tell me earlier that you had this disease, why didn't you go to the hospital for treatment?"

I took a deep breath and felt a lot of tightness in my chest, and after a long pause, I continued, "You! You're always like this, you only think about what others are doing, but you never think about yourself...... You were so worried that I knew about you and was sad, you acted in this scene with Han Lu, your heart is too ruthless, really, too ruthless! After so many years, I still have a grudge against you, and now I look at it, I was wrong, I think...... I can't forgive myself for the rest of my life!"

As soon as she said this, Han Lu gently patted me on the shoulder, as if to encourage me.

I paused for a moment before continuing, "What do you want me to say, Chen Yi...... I can only say goodbye, you must be good in that place! I will complete your unfinished dreams for you, and you once told me where you want to go, and I will help you go...... I owe you, I owe you all my life......"

After saying that, I had three heads kowtowed in front of her grave.

"Adong, okay, don't do this...... If you are like this, Chen Yi will not be happy over there, you should be stronger. ”

I closed my eyes, let out a long breath, and slowly stood up.

A gust of wind blew, carrying the smell of paper money after burning, and I couldn't help but be in a trance again.

I don't know how long it took me to get out of that extreme state, and then I left with Han Lu.

On the way back to the entrance of the village, I asked Han Lu, "Do you know where Chen Yi's parents live? ”

Han Lu nodded and said that she wanted to say it, but then said: "But I don't know where her family lives, I said last time I came to the county seat, and I don't know where I am in the county seat." ”

"Then let's go to the village and ask, there may be some clues. ”

After returning to the village with Han Lu, we went directly to the village office in the village and found the village chief.

The village chief thought that we were here to invest, and he welcomed us with tea and fruit, and asked us what we were going to do.

I knew that the village chief had misunderstood us, so he got up and said politely: "Director, we are actually here to find someone, Chen Yi is from your village, right?"

Knowing that we were not here to invest, the village chief was not so enthusiastic, but he still said to us with an attitude of serving the people: "Yes, Chen Yi is from our village. Who are you?"

Han Lu immediately chimed in: "We are her college classmates. ”

"Oh......" The village chief nodded, and after a moment of silence, he said, "Didn't she die of cancer a few years ago?

So I answered, "We went to her grave just now and saw that her grave was a small dirt slope, so we wanted to help renovate her grave, but we couldn't find her family, so we wanted to ask if you can contact her here?"

When the village chief heard this, he nodded and said, "That's right! ”

I hurriedly said, "Can you give it to me?"

The village chief then called out to the clerk in the office inside to help me tell me the contact information of Chen Yi's mother.

In less than a minute, he got the contact information of Chen Yi's mother, and then the village chief suddenly sighed and said, "You are her classmates are so good, but her family is ...... Hey!"

The two sighs of the village chief also made me understand that Chen Yi's family didn't care about Chen Yi at all, and there was not even a tombstone after his death.

I stepped aside and dialed Chen Yi's mother's phone, and after a while, I said, "Hello Auntie, are you Chen Yi's mother?"

"Which one are you?"

I smiled and said, "I am Chen Yi's college classmate, we are now in your hometown village, and we went to incense Chen Yi just now." ”

"College classmates? Who are you? She's been dead for so long, why did she suddenly come to her classmates? What do you mean?"

I didn't beat around the bush and said straightly: "That's the case, we want to renovate Chen Yi's grave, and we hope to get your consent, you see?"

After all, I was doing a good deed, I thought she would readily agree, but unexpectedly, she said mercilessly: "I don't think you can find anything to do! It's been three years and you're still renovating! Don't have nothing to do with us......"

Seeing that she was about to hang up the phone, I immediately said, "Auntie, you don't need to pay this money, we just need your consent." ”

"No, no, no, don't find me trouble!"

After saying that, she hung up the phone directly, and when I called again, she hung up directly with me, and then blocked me directly.