I don't know how long I cried, but in the end, no more tears came out, my voice was hoarse, my vision was blurred, and my scalp was tingling.

It was as if my heart had been thrown into a great abyss full of darkness, and I could not find a sense of security and fell into this great fear.

And pain is like thousands of ants, gnawing at the most vulnerable places in my heart.

I even felt like breathing was a difficult thing to do, and I just felt like the strength in my body had been sucked dry by something dark, and all I had left was a shell.

After a burst of pain like ten thousand arrows piercing my heart, I woke up a little, but my whole body was still numb.

In the numbness, I finally asked Han Lu in a trembling voice, "Where is she buried?"

"In her hometown, Enshi. ”

"Go, go now!"

Han Lu seemed to be worried about me, and turned to me and asked, "You...... Will it work?"

I nodded and signaled that it was no problem, and Han Lu didn't say anything more, and after typing the navigation on my phone, he set off.

Before getting on the highway, Han Lu went to the gas station to fill up my gas, because the road was more than 600 kilometers away.

It was already evening after leaving the city, and according to the navigation tips, we arrived in Enshi around five o'clock the next morning.

Although it is only 600 kilometers, there is a section of the mountain road that will slow down after arriving in Enshi.

After getting on the highway, I sent a message to An'an Li, telling her that I had something to do and couldn't come back tonight, and of course I didn't tell her anything.

On the highway, Han Lu said to me: "Adong, why don't you sleep for a while, we have to change the road for such a long distance." ”

I shook my head, still without any emotion, and said, "I can't sleep, you can open it first! ”

After being silent for a long time, I suddenly said to Han Lu, "Brother Lu, I'm sorry for you!"

Han Lu glanced at me, smiled and said, "Don't say such things, I can somewhat understand your mood at that time, and blame me for not telling you earlier...... Actually, I always thought you knew. ”

"I don't need to say anything more, it's actually my fault in the final analysis, I shouldn't have believed you at the time......"

I sighed and continued: "Chen Yi is a good woman, it's a pity that I can't have her in my life, I hope she can live a better life in the next life!"

"I'm glad to hear you say that, it looks like you're coming out. ”

Naturally, I didn't get out so quickly, but I was just deceiving myself!

I didn't say anything more, leaned my head against the window, and just stared out the window into the darkness.

At about twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, Han Lu and I briefly ate some instant noodles in the service area, and then replaced me with a prescription, and Han Lu slept in the back for a while.

When I drove it, Han Lu repeatedly asked me if it was okay, he was afraid that I would not be in the state, and I also replied to him very seriously.

I don't have any form, but I don't joke with human life.

Han Lu slept until four o'clock in the morning, and I had already gotten off the highway and was exercising on the winding and rugged mountain road.

Han Lu was woken up by the bumps in this rugged mountain road, and when he saw that the navigation was still dozens of kilometers away from his destination, Han Lu was suddenly shocked: "Damn! Why is it four o'clock, why don't you wake me up?"

"It's okay, it's not here yet, you can sleep a little longer. I said.

"No, no, you quickly pull over and drive for me, I'm in good spirits now, this mountain road can't be a joke." ”

It's true that this side is full of mountain roads, and the roads are quite narrow, especially when it is difficult to drive, and I am really not in a good state right now.

For the sake of safety, I didn't insist on continuing to drive the last dozens of kilometers and replaced Han Lu, but I was still not in the mood to sleep, and I was still in a trance.

Han Lu saw that I wasn't sleeping, so he chatted with me: "Adong, do you remember how long it was the last time we came here together?"

"In her sophomore year, Chen Yi celebrated her twentieth birthday. ”

"It seems that you still remember," Han Lu smiled, and said again, "I also drove at that time, and I still remember driving my father's old Crown, and at that time this road was not as good as it is now, it was a whole bumpy road!

Thinking back to that time, I couldn't help but laugh too, but the smile was far-fetched.

I couldn't help but light a cigarette for myself, opened the car window slightly, and the cold wind in the early morning in the mountains poured in from the window, which made me sober up a lot.

Because it was autumn, it was not so early in the morning, although it was almost five o'clock, but it was still dark outside, and the whole mountain road was just one car.

Because the road conditions were unfamiliar and it was a mountain road, even though there was no car, Han Lu didn't dare to drive fast, and kept maintaining a speed of forty miles.

It wasn't until half past five in the morning that I finally arrived at my destination, a small county town located in Enshi City, which is Chen Yi's hometown.

However, Chen Yi's hometown still needs a journey, not in the county seat, but in a small mountain village.

We parked our car in the county town and prepared to wait for dawn and then buy some incense wax paper candles.

I still didn't drowsy at all, and I didn't want to talk, so I just sat like that, not even daring to think about it.

But even if she forced herself not to think about it, she still couldn't control it, thinking of how painful Chen Yi was before her life disappeared!

I'd rather Han Lu hadn't told me this, to believe that she was still alive......

I have always felt that life should not be so fragile, especially a person like Chen Yi, who is so good and kind, why is God so unfair to take her life?

Or is it really just "a thin life"? It can only be said that she is really a woman with a hard life, because she has never been truly happy, and she has not lived for herself for more than 20 years.

I once heard her say that her mother was not so kind to her after she remarried, not to mention her stepfather, I heard that he was still an alcoholic, he beat her when she got drunk, and even peeked at her taking a shower once.

She also helped her family wash clothes since she was a child, and every day when she came back from school, she had to go to the mountains to carry firewood and collect pigweed......

Thinking of this, I was so sad that I shed tears, and my heart ached even more.

I don't know how long it took, the sky finally dawned, and some breakfast shops opened one after another, Han Lu went to buy two breakfasts, I was still not in the mood to eat, but Han Lu ordered me to eat two buns and a bag of soy milk.

After the shops selling incense wax paper candles opened, we bought some things and went straight to Chen Yi's hometown.

Twenty minutes of driving finally came to this mountain village, I haven't been here for almost ten years, the change is quite big, not as dilapidated as when I first came here, every house in the village has been covered with two-story small buildings, and the walls are also painted.

The village is very beautiful, and it has the feeling of a small bridge and flowing water, but we are not here to visit, and I have no intention of enjoying the beautiful scenery.

Han Lu had been here, so she naturally knew where Chen Yi was buried, so we didn't stop for a moment, and followed Han Lu through the country roads overgrown with weeds to a cemetery.

Before I reached the cemetery, Han Lu pointed to the cemetery and said to me, "Ah Dong, Chen Yi is buried there." ”

When I saw that graveyard, I didn't have anything in my heart, but after Han Lu said this, my heart suddenly sank, and I stopped, I suddenly didn't want to see her grave, and I didn't want to face this tragedy of yin and yang.