Wednesday, December 15th The weather is cloudy

As the days passed, my strength grew methodically every day, which is a good thing, because it means that I am getting closer and closer to the day of revenge.

But I don't know why, when I saw Edward recently, the hatred in my heart seemed to become less intense.

Even on many occasions, I developed a feeling of reverence for Edward, a sense of dependence.

This situation is very abnormal, and I vaguely feel as if something is wrong with my psyche.

Saturday, December 23rd The weather is cloudy

I've been reading books about psychology for the past month and a half because I'm wondering what's going on with me lately.

Eventually, I found the answer, I think I have a mental illness called Stockholm syndrome.

This disease, also known as hostage complex, or hostage syndrome, refers to a complex in which the victim has a favorable impression of the offender, dependence, and even assistance to the offender.

Logically, I knew what I was suffering from and could treat the symptoms, but after I consulted a psychiatrist online, his advice was completely.

What he said made me build a positive mindset and tap into my potential, and then I could understand the weaknesses of the perpetrator and establish a system to limit the perpetrator's evil.

If I could do all of what he said, would I still get this disease?

Hmph! I can only say that the current psychiatrist is too easy to make a little money.

Monday, January 18th Weather: Thundershowers

Ever since I found out I had Stockholm syndrome, I became very depressed and couldn't do anything.

Edward may have been aware of this, so he called me to his study today, and told me all his stories.

So I'm going to tell the story Edward told me in my diary from his point of view, because I think it's necessary.

I don't know exactly how many years I lived, maybe 700 years, maybe 800 years, or 1,000 years.

Time has passed so much that time has become a symbol for me, and I don't have to remember it even more.

And in my long life, I have experienced many things, such as the Hundred Years War that broke out between the Inhumans and the humans when they first appeared, and the small ones that our blood clan was forced to migrate under the suppression of the Holy See.

Some of these things used to make me happy, and some of them used to make me sad.

But as time went on, my nerves began to become numb, and it became difficult for me to find another thing that could pique even the slightest bit of my interest.

Because I've been through so much, so much so that I've experienced almost everything in the world.

Life went on in a meaningless way, and I was like the walking dead every day, not knowing what I was doing.

It wasn't until much later, when Lilith, the woman I was destined to be, appeared in front of me that my world was filled with color again.

Lilith is definitely one of the most unusual women I have ever seen, not to mention her beautiful appearance, her personality is even more down-to-earth and generous, and there is a rare childlike heart hidden under her intellectual appearance, which makes her seem to be so happy and positive forever.

And this, in stark contrast to me, has become the most important reason why she attracts me.

As long as I am with her, no matter what I do, I can feel joy from the bottom of my heart, and watching her every smile, the softest nerve in my heart can always be pulled by her.

I feel extremely fortunate that not only do I love Lilith, but Lilith also loves me very much, and in order to be with me forever, she chose to give up the light and become one of us.

Seeing that Lilith still had a very painful expression on her face after the first hug, I immediately stepped forward and kissed her, and at that time I felt mixed feelings, both regretting Lilith's efforts and being happy that she could always be by my side from this moment on.

In the days that followed, I spent a long time with Lilith, and that time was the best of my life.

I don't know if it's because I've committed too many sins that make me unworthy of such a happy life, so one day, the goddess of doom came to me so quietly.

It was a moonlit night, and Lilith was out shopping alone, and she happened to meet a knight of the Holy Order of the Holy See on the way.

Although Lilith had done nothing at all, the abominable knight stabbed Lilith in the heart with his sword mercilessly under the pretext of purifying all heretics, taking her fresh and beautiful life.

When the news reached my ears, it was like a bolt from the blue, and I immediately rushed out of the castle like crazy and rushed to the place where Lilith had happened, but I didn't even get to see Lilith for the last time.

Because the executioner of the Holy See not only killed Lilith, but also burned her body to ashes.

Later, the knight who killed Lilith was tortured to death by me in the most brutal way, but it no longer meant anything, because Lilith would never return.

The most painful thing in the world is not to have, but to have and then lose.

If Lilith had never been present in my life, perhaps I could have been silent in the gloomy world forever.

But when I finally found the meaning of life again, God ruthlessly took it away, which was too cruel, and I no longer had a reason to live.

However, as a child of Satan, suicide is not allowed, and even if I could be freed, my death would be rather dirty, which I could not accept.

So in order to get rid of it, I finally decided to find someone and let him kill me.

But if I find someone too casually, then my death will definitely become a laughing stock in the end, and just when I was struggling with the candidate, I happened to accidentally bump into you.

I have found that you are a child, but you have extraordinary qualifications, and if you can be one of us, it will be a matter of no doubt that you will surpass me.

So at that time, I had a thought in my heart, I can train you, and then let you kill me.

It's an idea that even I admit is very nasty, but once it comes to me, it never lingers.

So I finally put this idea into action, I killed your whole family, brought you back, trained you step by step from a young age, and you did not disappoint me.

I didn't understand why Edward was telling me this, but after listening to his story, I was mad on the spot, and the tragic death of my family was just a bad idea of Edward in order to seek his own relief.

I'm going to kill him, I'm going to kill him, I swear.

After reading Dick's diary, Ye Mengying was also extremely angry in her heart, for her own liberation, to destroy other people's originally happy families, this kind of behavior is not enough to describe selfishness, it is simply something that a scumbag would do to the extreme.

Thursday, October 28th The weather is cloudy

October 28 is a very special day for me because today is the day of my family's death.

In previous years, on this day, I would burn paper money in the most traditional way to honor my family, but today I decided to give my family a special gift, Edward's Dog Life.

Although I am not Edward's opponent in terms of absolute strength, I have recently learned from the Elder Gna of the Sinmore Clan a method of completely concealing my aura, and I feel that as long as I can use this magic to sneak up on Edward in a suitable place, I will definitely be able to kill him.

I've tested it many times before, and it turns out that Edward really can't detect me using this hidden magic.

After some consideration, I finally chose to choose the location of the sneak attack in the garden, where Edward would often go alone.

As night fell, Edward went for a walk in the garden as usual, and as he passed by my hiding place, my nervous heart almost jumped to my throat.

But he didn't notice me, and went on without noticing, and seeing this, of course I wouldn't miss this opportunity, and I bared my fangs and pounced fiercely.

Edward's reaction was very quick, but it didn't work, because I knew that I might not be able to sneak up on it with just the claws and fangs, so I had a silver dagger ready in advance.

So as soon as Edward thought he had managed to escape my bite, I stabbed him with the silver knife I had hidden in my sleeve.

Maybe I was too nervous, or maybe I wasn't as fast as Edward, so my long-standing stab didn't hit Edward's most vital spot.

But even so, my short knife still pierced his neck and caused him great damage.

As soon as I drew the knife, Edward fell to the ground clutching his neck in pain, and at this time, if I went up to Edward's heart and stabbed him again, I would surely fulfill my long-standing desire for revenge.

But when I stabbed the dagger into Edward's chest again, the tip of the knife was only a stone's throw away from his heart, the bits and pieces of my relationship with Edward for more than ten years suddenly appeared in my mind inexplicably, which made my body freeze all of a sudden, and the dagger in my hand could no longer pierce down the slash.

My revenge failed, not to my plan, not to Edward, but to my cowardly myself.

From Dick's subsequent diary, Ye Mengying learned that after Dick failed to kill Edward for the first time, Edward did not punish him in any way.

After that, Dick made several moves against Edward, but either because of his lack of strength or his soft-heartedness at the last moment, Dick failed every time.

This made Dick's mind more and more confused, and it was at that time that his insomnia began.

Thursday, July 8th The weather will be cloudy

It's Arnold Day every year, and it's actually just an insignificant holiday for me, but I never imagined that what happened today will make me unable to calm my complicated feelings until now.

Originally, Edward was going to go to the mountain with us to perform sacrifices, but because the werewolf leader Mutu was coming, Edward stayed in the castle for the last man.

At the beginning of the festival, I was very happy because it was very lively, but as time passed, I suddenly felt a little uneasy, as if something bad was about to happen.

As the uneasiness in my heart intensified, I had to make an excuse and leave the sacrifice site.

After that, I took a taxi called by the taxi app on Winnie's phone and rushed back to the castle.

Probably instinctively, as soon as I got back to the castle, I ran straight to Edward's study.

But before I could get closer, I could smell a thick smell of blood, which alerted me immediately.

Sure enough, as I got closer and closer to Edward's study, a man burst out of the study and stabbed me with a silver dagger in his hand.

The man's speed was very fast, and his movements were very neat, but compared to me, it was still a little worse, and I was already prepared, so I easily dodged the man's attack.

But then when I saw the face of the man who attacked me, I was so shocked that I almost screamed.

Because that person turned out to be my brother!

Although it was only a cursory glance, I was sure that the person was my brother, because after all these years, my brother's appearance was almost the same as when I was separated, and more importantly, the mole under the right eye of the sneaker was exactly the same as my brother's.

I always thought that my brother was dead, but now that my brother is alive in front of me, I know that he is not dead.

Both of my parents were killed by Edward in front of me, but I didn't see him kill my brother, and now I think it may be that Edward didn't know that our family was a family of four, so my brother got away with it.

But I recognized my brother, but my brother didn't recognize me, and I was a little sad, but I also knew that I couldn't blame my brother, because I was different from my brother, I was only ten years old, so I look completely different now than when I was a child.

When my brother saw that his dagger had not stabbed me, he immediately turned around and ran, and I had intended to catch up, but I did not, for I knew what my brother's presence and the smell of blood I smelled meant together.

I walked into Edward's study, and when I saw Edward who was tied to a chair and had no breath, it was hard for me to say what kind of mood I was in at that time, I only knew that the corners of my eyes were unconsciously moist,

In a daze, I began to clean up the scene, both to eliminate the evidence left by my brother and to make my depressed mood feel better.

Before I knew it, it was dawn......

In Dick's diary on July 8, he told all his experiences on the day of the crime, which allowed Ye Mengying to uncover most of the mystery that covered up the truth of Count Edward's murder.

Everything turned out to be as Lee had speculated in the tavern, Dick was an outsider who didn't know the situation, and it was only because the murderer was his brother that he cleaned up the scene.

And Dick's brother, Ye Mengying guessed that it should be Chen Shuisheng.

Sunday, July 11th Sunny weather

The Secret Service came again today, and they said that poison had been found in a wine glass at the scene, and they speculated that the poison could only have been made by those of us who lived in the castle.

It made me nervous, but I didn't care who gave the poison, but I was afraid that someone from the Special Administration would use this clue to find my brother's head.

Just when I was feeling very anxious, I received a phone call, and the voice of the person on the phone was so strange and familiar, although he didn't say who he was, I knew it was my brother.

My brother said he wanted to meet me, and although I wondered a little how he knew my phone number and what he was looking for me, it didn't matter anymore, and I was only excited and excited at the moment because I was going to see my brother, the only family I had left in the world.

Although I haven't decided what to say after meeting my brother, I believe that when we do, we will have so much to say to each other that we may not even be able to talk for three days and three nights.

Ye Mengying finished reading the last diary written by Dick, but at the end of the diary, Dick's beautiful longing made Ye Mengying suddenly feel so uncomfortable, her chest seemed to be pressed by something, making her breathless.

Dick thought that this meeting between him and his brother would be the beginning of a new life for them, but he did not expect that it would actually be the end of everything.

After a long time, Ye Mengying put away her sensibility, she took out her mobile phone and dialed Li Ye's phone.