For a long time, I was an outsider, an outsider through and through, I was just a person, never included in any intimate relationship, I was always outside my parents, outside my family, outside of friendship, outside of love, my future was uncertain, and I couldn't see the way I came back.

What kind of loneliness is that, in fact, now that I think about it, I probably excluded myself from others, drew a circle casually, isolated all relationships, tried to isolate all unknown injuries, and finally found that it was actually covered with bruises, and that circle was a barrier drawn with my fingers in the blood donation group, what I wanted was for a person to slowly bleed dry, and finally die in the circle, never looking back, and not caring where the road ahead was.

But one day, not only the sunshine but also the wind and clouds, took me out of that circle, my body gradually healed under the tolerance of love, I was cramped and didn't know how to do it, I sincerely wanted to go back to that circle, even if it was bloody, in fact, I had long been used to it.

But after all, I am an "outsider", the emotions between my parents make me feel superfluous, even if their relationship is not very good, maybe they are also circled, defined between the word husband and wife, but at the same time, including my father and son, mother and son relationship, I live in a daze, I am half an "insider".

In the relationship with my sister, I have always been a younger brother and need to be taken care of, she is too strong to be taken care of by me, but she has her own secrets, I don't know which lucky person has her "insider" relationship, and I can only be regarded as half an "insider" after that.

Among friends, I think they are all very light, and there is nothing worth saying about it, which can be regarded as "gentlemen's friendship is as light as water". If it is two circles, then it can only be said to be adjacent, and it cannot even be tangent.

In the collision step by step, I bumped into him, that's love, it's just for me, my heart hurts after separation, in this relationship, I didn't treat myself as an outsider, I can declare to the world that I am not an outsider, I am his lover, we love each other, of course I don't need to be so excited, I have all the joy and have a unique relationship.

When you are alone, everyone else is an outsider, even if you have one foot in someone else's life, and when two people are together, there is no outsider.

Welcome to my world, two people together, no outsiders.