I have been in a new environment for more than four months, and I have long been familiar and accustomed to it, in the new environment, in line with the principle of saying less and making fewer mistakes, I rarely express my views clearly, and I rarely participate in discussions.

But it's like hiding yourself, putting on a mask, covering your mind, and pretending to be a harmless ignorant teenager, but in fact, you know best what you are.

But yesterday, I accidentally chatted with my roommate for more than two hours, and after the end of the conversation, I was very nervous and scared, whether I had exposed my "ferocity" to "evil", and whether these words would make him have a special feeling for me, so as to affect the rhythm of life in the future.

The facts showed that I was overly worried, and the next day my life was the same, nothing changed, and last night's conversation went away with the wind, and I also chose to forget.

But I regret it, although it is not as sensitive as said above, but I am more or less regretful, regret and a person to reveal too much, I don't take the initiative to understand other people's information or privacy most of the time, politely greet each other's basic information, I think it's enough, at the same time my clumsy mouth can't spit out any lotus, can make them feel happy and comfortable, so I am relatively silent, most of the time I listen to them.

As for my regret revealing too much, mainly from the inner "inferiority", I don't think I have anything to be proud of, of course, the inevitable contradiction is that I also feel that I am an excellent person, I regret a lot of things, I talk too much, probably because I feel afraid of being misunderstood, many times some of my ideas are not different from the public or mainstream social thoughts, as a "love to think" I have always felt that I am standing on a high ground and seeing farther than some people, and of course there is a certain amount of cold humor in these words.

I have always had simple thoughts in my heart, and rarely maliciously speculated on other people's words or behaviors, because I feel that I haven't figured out my own words yet, how can I understand other people's words, I sometimes feel that I am hypocritical, unreal, and humble to the dust!

Of course, having said all this, I still feel that yesterday's words were a bit too much, and of course it didn't have any impact on my life, so it didn't matter.