Chapter 48 I feel sorry for your past (27) I want to be clean but not clean, and the clouds are hard to empty myself;
As soon as Su Yang returned home, he ushered in a stern rebuke from his parents. said that they went to their classmates' homes to discuss study matters, and they would go home soon, but in the end, they didn't return overnight, which made them very worried, for fear that Su Yang would have an accident.
No matter how beautiful and seemingly calm the environment is, there will be an undercurrent.
And no matter how peaceful a society is, there will naturally be dark and ugly, villains and villains.
Things in the world are not always absolute.
Su Yang didn't return overnight, and he didn't give news to his family, Su Yang's parents were really afraid that something would happen to him.
Fortunately, the next day, they saw him perfectly.
But even if he saw that Su Yang was fine, he still wanted to reprimand him harshly.
As the saying goes, beating is kissing and scolding is love. Their severe rebuke of Su Yang was naturally completely out of their concern for Su Yang and their love for Su Yang.
The only son, of course, they were afraid that he would be hurt, and even more afraid of losing him.
The most bitter parent's heart!
As for the severe reproach of his parents, Su Yang didn't care about it and didn't pay much attention to it.
Because at this time, his heart is not here at all, it is completely on the girl he met last night.
As soon as he got home, he lay on the bed that belonged to him, looking at the white ceiling above his head, he was distracted and thinking about things for a while.
Liu Yue's past, as well as the girl's suicide by throwing herself into the lake, pregnancy, abortion, and miscarriage......
For Su Yang, the series of things he experienced and heard last night and this morning were too shocking.
You know, he's just a high school student.
However, the girl was about the same age as him, but she had experienced so many things that she should not have experienced at this age......
He wanted to help her.
For some reason, there was a strong longing in his heart. He longed to help her.
Maybe it's unbearable, maybe it's pity, maybe it's sympathy, maybe it's because she was born exquisitely, which makes his heart ripple and ripple. In short, he just wanted to help her.
It's just that if you have an abortion or miscarriage, you will definitely have to have surgery, and where will the money come from? Moreover, you must not let your parents know about it!
By the way, what about her parents? Why did she never mention her parents, and where did her parents go?
As soon as he thought of the girl's tearful and weeping face, Su Yang felt a slight pain in his heart.
With a sigh, he got up from the bed with a "pout", took out his mobile phone, and began to call them one by one.
Each number is a classmate or friend with whom he usually has a good relationship.
He tried to see if he could borrow some money from his classmates and friends, with whom he usually had good relationships. If it can add up to a lot, the amount is still considerable.
And as the phone calls passed, Su Yang really borrowed a lot of money.
Some people say that if a person's life is divided into many stages, then the young age is undoubtedly the most righteous time.
This sentence is really not wrong. Good friends who are close to Su Yang, when they heard that he had something, they all took the initiative to do what they could.
Of course, this is also inseparable from Su Yang's usual character.
If a person's character is not good, and the people around him basically give a very bad evaluation, then who will easily lend money to this person? Who will believe that this person will repay the money, instead of becoming a bad man?
After making the call, he went out as soon as possible.
He immediately went to the homes of those friends to get the money.
Because it was Saturday, a rare day off, some of his friends were at home, and some were out to play. Therefore, Su Yang went out for a long time, for several hours.
After hours of traveling, he got all the money. Thankfully, two of my friends have been able to borrow a lot of money from him lately.
Looking at the banknotes that had been accumulated through sweat, he smiled slightly, and some hope was born in his heart.
What people fear most is that they have no expectation and lose hope. With hope and dawn, it is possible to create the future and usher in a new chapter.
At this time, for Su Yang, to help the girl and get her out of the predicament, the money in front of her is the initial hope. At the very least, the money will allow her to get rid of the burden in her womb and start living her life again.
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The ward, still snow-white.
As for the girl, she was still lying on the bed, still motionless.
She didn't fall asleep, she just didn't want to talk, she just didn't want to do anything.
Although she didn't look at the ceiling again, her eyes were still glazed and empty. It's as quiet as stagnant water.
She didn't eat for a day.
In addition to not being hungry, but also having no appetite.
I don't want to eat anything, I can't eat anything.
During this period, the middle-aged uncle who saved her with Su Yang last night also came to see her once and said a lot of comforting words.
At a young age, there is still a long way to go, and even if you encounter many misfortunes and difficulties, you should work hard to overcome them, rather than giving up on yourself too early. He said this to her earnestly.
It's just that she can't listen to it at all.
Now she is like ashes, her whole mental state is very poor, and she can't say anything in her ears, let alone in her heart.
At this time, there was nothing but darkness in front of her. In addition to being cold, there is only coldness.
She couldn't see the light.
There is not a glimmer of light.
Her body and mind were already bruised, her body and mind were already dirty, she hated herself like this, she didn't want to be like this anymore, she didn't want to fall into endless sinking and depravity again.
If there is anything in this world that can free her, it is death.
Only death can make her never see such a dirty self again. Only death can allow her to see her self as white and clean as white paper, flawless and immaculate.
The thought of death began to resurface in her mind.
Once again, she was ready to leave a world that disgusted her and made her feel extremely painful.
It's just that when she made up her mind, a person appeared in front of her.
Along with them, there are also a pair of eyes as clear as water, and a smiling face that is so gentle that it seems to melt people's hearts.
It's none other than Su Yang.
That's right, he came to the hospital again and came to see her again.
Sitting on the edge of her bed, Su Yang opened her backpack, took out one after another flat or crumpled banknotes, and placed them on the bed in front of her.
He looked at her, smiled and said very sincerely, "I don't know what your past is like, I don't know what kind of things you have experienced, just like you don't know my past, my past." However, no matter what kind of past, what kind of past, we have all come here after all, and we have come to this day. ”
There was a slight pause, and then he continued: "These are the money I raised from running a lot of places today, and I will pay for your surgery first." ”
With that, he got up again and headed out of the room.
“…… Why?"
Also when Su Yang walked outside the ward, the girl said with a trembling voice and a little excitement.
She didn't turn her head, still maintaining her original posture.
I didn't even blink my eyes. However, her voice reached Su Yang's ears clearly.
Su Yang couldn't help but stop.
He was slightly stunned, then turned his head to look at her, smiled slightly, and said, "There's no why, I just want to do this." I think that as long as a person with a conscience encounters such a thing, he will not stand idly by and see death. Who can bear to watch a beautiful and beautiful girl leave miserably like this? At least, I can't bear to. ”
With that, he turned and left.
She listened, and said nothing more. It's just that his mind is slightly in a trance.
And when Su Yang finished paying the money, he didn't leave the ward full of cold colors.
No matter how people come and go, people come in and people go out, and whether she says or not, he sits silently and doesn't say a word.
Until it was dusk and the sun was about to set, she couldn't help but ask him, "Aren't you going home?"
Su Yang nodded and said, "Hmm." ”
She raised her eyebrows slightly: "It's okay if you don't go home?"
"I think I'll be severely punished, beaten and scolded. But I have to guard you, I'm afraid of regretting it for the rest of my life, and I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. Su Yang smiled and said truthfully.
The meaning of his words is obvious, it doesn't matter if you don't go back, you will be severely scolded, and even beaten, but these relationships are far less important than you are at this time. Because I don't want to regret it, I don't want to feel guilty.
He was afraid that she wouldn't figure it out and do something stupid again.
To this, the girl stopped talking.
She fell silent again.
Her beautiful pupils were faint and dark at this time, and they seemed a little deep.