There is a person who has not been in touch for a long time.

There is a person who hasn't called Brother Bin again for a long time.

There is a person who is always kept in the memory.

There is a person who has always been tenacious and at the forefront of life.

One person, one heart, guarding a lonely city.

—Epigraph.

Inadvertently flipped through his portrait, and suddenly remembered the years that had long since passed, and remembered the stories that had happened, and suddenly couldn't help but ripple in my heart, some emotion, some feelings. Let's tell his story - an extraordinary ordinary person.

I love my little sister Rui, maybe when you first hear this name, you must think it's a girl's screen name, because it feels too feminine.

I thought so at one point.

It's just that when I heard the owner's voice for the first time, I was really taken aback. Because it was a boy's voice.

I'm sure you've guessed how we met. That's right, it's the Internet.

In September 2012, I went to university in Hangzhou, and at the end of that year, I started writing words. It's not easy to create, especially for someone who has no experience and can't write essays well.

In the process of persevering with interest along the way, there are constant setbacks.

It is said that stupid birds fly first, and the 19-year-old self is incomparable with those who pee, love words, and love creation. The difference is not a star and a half. Therefore, I am also more soberly aware that in order to dream and complete a work well, I should work harder.

No one is born a master, I believe that there will always be a result of dedication, as long as you work hard, there will always be a moment when your dreams will come true.

However, I never imagined that the work I had worked so would one day be judged worthless.

The feeling of loss and frustration in my heart at that moment can be imagined.

It was as if a basin of cold water had suddenly poured over my heart, and I, who had been full of enthusiasm and high interest in creation, was very frustrated and depressed in an instant, and I fell into a slump for a while.

So, discouraged at that moment, under the repeated prodding of my friends, I threw myself into the arms of the game again.

In 2012, League of Legends became a big hit, and I followed the trend and started playing it.

The first time I downloaded this game was when I was at home during the Chinese New Year. At that time, a relative liked to play, so I downloaded it at home.

I played with it a few times, and I found it interesting, and then I gradually became obsessed.

Because my home network is connected, the area I play in is Netcom, and when I first log on to the game, the system recommends that the area for me is the Twisted Jungle, so I have been playing in this area during the winter vacation.

When I went back to school after winter break, I planned to join my classmates, but when I found out that they were all playing in the telecom zone, I couldn't help but give up. And as a newcomer, I didn't play very well, and I was also very vegetable, and I didn't want to pit them.

So, I've been fighting alone in the Twisted Jungle.

And because playing games takes up a lot of my time, I don't write novels as hard as I did when I first started writing, and I write very slowly. Sometimes I just write one or two hundred words a day, and many times I don't even write a single word.

People don't always stay the same, and so is the level of playing games. As I continued to spend time playing alliances, my operation naturally gradually improved, and at the same time, I began to meet different friends because of the game.

Maybe everyone was just alone at first, but after adding friends, we made an appointment to play together in the future. This way, you have a higher win rate when you play the game, and at the same time, it is much more fun to play the game.

And with the "masturbation" every day, there are more and more friends in the game.

Mo Motian, Yu Xiaoxi, Sunset (Maple IV Sunset), Fate (Restraining Tian's Fate,), Xiaoxi (Xiaoxi is very vegetable), I love my little sister Rui, Sick Mania (Crazy Heart,), Generosity, Sun, Dark Warrior, and Dark Warrior are brothers, Hawthorn a little, Dese's youth, Ouyang Jingzi C, tiptoe to touch the sun, Lost Demon, Cloud Chaser, rare and confused life, follow the party wholeheartedly, and then ......

We met in a huge network, and we got to know each other because of the same hobby and the same interest.

Although many people have long since lost contact after all these years, some people are still there and still connected.

Mo Motian, a Chongqing girl, is beautiful, and she is also a top student.

She is three years older than me, and her family background is also very good, in my opinion, she is a rich girl who is completely enviable. I still remember the first time I met her, she played Timor, I played policewoman, that game was extremely difficult, the time dragged on for about an hour, we pushed each other's crystals after beating the dragon again, and finally won the game.

When I turned on the black voice, I listened to her for the first time, and her voice was glutinous, with the cuteness of a child, cute and good.

The most impressive games, that was undoubtedly when she, me and Sunset played together, I still remember that at that time, we had to play more than 50 minutes in each game, and it was difficult to win until the late game. She is also the calmest of us, always able to analyze the situation rationally and give appropriate strategies.

We have a good personal relationship, she is a very literary girl, after knowing that I am writing a novel, I also showed her the first novel in my life - "Star Myth", she said that she likes the little tiger in it very much (a magical little white tiger in "Star Myth"), she thinks it is cute and cute, very attractive.

It was her liking for Xiaohu in "Star Field Mythology" that made me feel that my novels were not as unbearable as those commented by that person, and made me regain some confidence in my novels. In the second full-length fantasy novel "Blood in the Sky" written by the eunuch after the eunuch in "The Myth of the Star Field", there is a very important character, and I used her game name "Momo" as a name to thank her for her encouragement.

She got married at the beginning of this year, and although I couldn't be there, as a friend, I also gave red envelopes, although there were not many of them. I only hope that she will have a happy life in the future and no sorrows.

Yu Xiaoxi, he and Ouyang Jingzi and the dark martial artist are cousins. For a long time in college, I played black with the three of them. Because Xiaoxi and Ouyang both have jobs, we make an appointment to play together at night every day and open the dark together.

We all do our own jobs and never compete with each other because of which position we want to play. Xiao Xi basically plays the single sword Ji, Ouyang basically goes to the middle lane, and I am always in charge of AD, and the martial artist assists me. As for the jungler, it is often the classmates of the warrior and the dark warrior who are brothers. Don't talk big, when a few of us play together, the cooperation is still very good, and the tacit understanding is almost impeccable.

It's just that because of one thing, we finally broke up.

Sunset, although so many years have passed, we still occasionally play together. When I met Momo, we met him together. When I was in college, he was already working outside the home, supposedly as a small leader. My hometown is in Chengdu, Sichuan, and I have the same surname as Hu Shi and a lovely daughter.

Fate, if memory serves, knew each other when they ranked. We often play ranked together and have a good relationship. Once, a classmate from one of my college dorms went to Japan with his mother and came back with a perfume, and for some reason, he wanted to sell an extra bottle. As friends, as classmates, a few of us in the dormitory wanted to help him. So, in the WeChat circle of friends and in the QQ space, we all sent him a message to sell perfume.

Fate saw what I posted, and then he found me and said that he was interested in perfume and was going to give it to his girlfriend. Because of his trust in me, he first gave the money to my classmate through me. It's just that my classmate has been delayed in delivering the goods, so he can't help but be very anxious. Because, in a few days, he will leave his place of work and go home.

As an intermediary, I am also very anxious about this matter.

People live for a lifetime, honesty is the foundation. It was precisely because of the trust in me that fate would not hesitate to send the money to my classmate first. If the shipment is delayed, his trust in me will undoubtedly be lost. He will think that we are liars, saying that it is fake to sell things, and it is true to cheat people out of money.

I've always valued trust between people, and I can't let this get lost. In order for the perfume of fate to arrive in time, I am also urging my classmate. During this period, I even swore that if my classmate did not deliver the goods in the next few days, I would pay him back the money he paid out of my own pocket.

Fate heard me, but said I didn't need to.

In the end, the matter was resolved satisfactorily. I am really grateful for the trust he placed in me at that time.

However, a sister who is much older than me, who seems to have been in poor health, has a daughter. Perhaps because of my illness, after seeing the "Funeral Flowers" I wrote to my deceased aunt, I told me very sadly that she felt very sad after reading it, as if I was not writing about my aunt, but about her.

I know very well that a person who likes "Funeral Flowers" and likes my "Funeral Flowers" must also have a deep story in his heart that is difficult to tell to outsiders. Not long after we met, she read my article, and she said very seriously that she wanted me to teach her how to write. She told me that she, like me, wanted to put her short life into words.

I understand that only people who have actually experienced something will have the same thoughts as me. Just like everyone who likes the night, there is a heavy story hidden in their heart. That's not because of weakness, but just helplessness, helplessness for life and fate.

I am very happy that because of me, she can find some belonging through words, and she can find the meaning of her life through words.

She said, "Little master, I will always silently support your words."

For that, I would like to express my sincere gratitude.

Xiaoxi, whose real name is Li Yuan, if you remember correctly, it seems that the home is also from Sichuan, and they often masturbate together. I remember when I graduated from college, I said that I wanted to give her something, and at that time she said that she liked cups and wanted to buy one, but then she forgot about it and never delivered it, which was a bit regrettable......

In the end, it's him.

Because the name of the game is I Love Little Sister Rui, I and others always call him Rui when they play the game. Although, the name is a lot like a girl's name.

When I first met me, he assisted me, because at that time I especially liked to play ad, especially policewomen, EZ, Jinx, and female guns. I played that game okay, so I added friends.

The purpose of adding friends is very simple, just to be able to play games together, to have a companion, after all, playing alone is always a lot less interesting, less fun.

Of course, sometimes you get angry because of the game. Because of some mistakes that shouldn't have happened.

I noticed that he often had some shaky hands. Sometimes you could have killed your opponent perfectly, or successfully pushed off the crystal, but you were killed because of some undeserved mistakes, or even turned the tables by someone else.

I've always had a hard time understanding why this kind of problem happens so often, and it's really because of the level of the game.

It wasn't until one day that I really understood the situation.

Because we often play together, we care about each other very well. He also often chats with me on QQ, and chats with me about games and other things. But we haven't had a video.

Once, he chatted with me by voice, saying that he wanted to see me, and I said that since he wanted to see me, he would simply make a video, but he refused, he said that he was afraid of scaring me, just send him a photo.

When I heard this, I couldn't help but wonder and be amazed. I've never really come across a rejection video for fear of scaring the other person.

I was really puzzled by this and wondered what was going on with him.

It's just something that others don't want to say, things that are difficult for others to talk about, even if you're curious, it's not easy to ask.

And during this period,We're still masturbating almost every day.,Of course,I'll occasionally code words.。 My books and articles, and occasionally he helps me look at them. Every time he finished reading it, he praised it with all his might.

Some people say that when a person really pours out his heart to you, he or she really opens his heart to you.

One day in the early summer of 2013, I was idle at home during the holidays, and he once again came to me for QQ voice.

This time there was a girl's voice on his side, and he told me that it was his neighbor's child, because he couldn't go out, so the little girl would often go to his house to accompany him. At the same time, he also introduced me to the little girl, saying that I was the older brother who had been playing with him on the Internet.

Children, they are always curious about the Internet. She was curious about what I looked like, and wanted to see me, and after much deliberation, he finally agreed after I promised that I would never be frightened.

So, for the first time, I saw him in person. For the first time, I saw the real appearance of the guy who kept calling me Brother Bin on my black voice, YY, and QQ.