Xu Ling no longer celebrates his birthday, birthday is just a group of people getting together for a meal, he will go home on the first day of the Lunar New Year to accompany his parents for a meal, Xu's parents also feel that Xu Ling is different now, but no one will take the initiative to mention that incident, now his son can live so peacefully, no longer do anything angry, the old couple is already very satisfied.

"However, Xu Ling is not young anymore, isn't this going to get married?" said Xu's mother worriedly.

"Don't say it! Don't mention marriage, don't make the child sad anymore! Wait! It's good after a long time!" Xu's father was also worried, but he understood that Xu Ling was thinking, and not mentioning it now is to understand and tolerate the child!

Xu Ling was busy for a while after the New Year, finished filming the scenes that should be filmed, finished the notices that should be done, and then said to Li Qing and embarked on the journey to Tibet.

At this time, it was already May, Xu Ling drove alone, he took the Sichuan-Tibet line directly, arrived in Chengdu, rested for two days, bought some equipment, and set off.

Xu Ling drove alone on the road, thinking that there was only one person now, he couldn't help but feel lost, Bai Yi had been gone for a year and a half, but Xu Ling still couldn't let go, he wouldn't show anything in front of others, but when he was alone, Xu Ling would magnify this sadness and thoughts about Bai Yi infinitely.

When he walked to the toll station, he thought of three years ago, when he eloped with Bai Yi, he was caught by the old man when he walked here, Xu Ling seemed to go back to the past, he would rather the old man always disagree, not let him be with Bai Yi, and he didn't want to go to today, Bai Yi is gone, and he is left alone.

Xu Ling parked the car on the side of the road, sat in the car and cried loudly, miserly Xu Ling would never cry like this one day in his life. He thought that he could give Bai Yi happiness in this life, compensate for her lack of love, spoil her, get used to her, and give her a simple and happy life, but he didn't expect that because of himself, Bai Yi took his life on the line!

Xu Ling cried and slapped himself, giving himself several slaps, he hated himself, hated himself for tying Bai Yi to his side, but he didn't tie it all the time, let others take advantage of it, in the final analysis, it was he who harmed Bai Yi!

After Xu Ling finished crying, she wiped away her tears and continued to drive in the direction of Lhasa.

When the car arrived at Hoh Xili, Xu Ling stopped the car, leaned on the car and smoked, quietly looking into the distance, the sky seemed to be closer, the blue sky and white clouds were so beautiful, the sun was warm and shining on his face, Xu Ling took a deep breath, the air here was so fresh. Xu Ling waited for a long time, not knowing if he could see the Tibetan antelope? Xu Ling didn't want to give up, and when the sky was getting dark, he finally saw the brown-red dancing shadow in the distance, and Xu Ling finally laughed happily......

"Chan'er, I've finally arrived at Hoh Xili, I have seen the sky here for you, I have seen the white clouds floating in the sky, I have breathed the air here for you, and I have seen the beautiful Tibetan antelope for you! It's a pity, you can't see it anymore and you can't feel it! I'm sorry for you!" Xu Ling seemed to be talking to himself, but in fact he was saying to Bai Yi in the sky.

Xu Ling continued to drive again, and found a hotel to stay in at night and prepared to go to Lhasa the next day.

In the middle of the night, Xu Ling was hungry and wanted to go down to see if there was anything to eat, so she put on a coat and went downstairs!

The hotel front desk attendant is receiving guests, Xu Ling woke up in the middle of the night a little confused, when he went downstairs, he only saw a single female guest checking in at the front desk, Xu Ling could notice this woman, because this person's package is too tight, now it's May, this person is wearing a long coat and trousers, not to mention, with a thick mask on his face, a pair of sunglasses at night, a hat on his head, and a thick shawl scarf, the whole person is covered tightly!

Xu Ling saw it from a distance and felt a little strange, but he didn't have the habit of looking at other women, and he didn't take a second look at so many beautiful female stars every day, but it was such a strangely dressed woman.

The woman carried her luggage and walked to the corridor on the other side, Xu Ling bought some snacks and instant noodles at the front desk, and went back.

Xu Ling drove to Lhasa early the next morning, and the first destination of his trip, he had to go to the Jokhang Temple first.

When Xu Ling arrived at the Jokhang Temple, the sun was already high, and Xu Ling felt a strong burst of sunlight after getting out of the car, and he felt that his skin seemed to be a little hot.

Since that time he burned himself, Xu Ling felt that he had resistance to fire and all hot things in his heart, and he deliberately didn't get close to everything about fire, even cooking was an induction cooker. And all the hot stuff, I used to love hot tea, now it's all cold drinks. He hates everything that is hot. Including the sunshine that can be seen every day.

Xu Ling adjusted his mood, carried his backpack and began to walk towards the Jokhang Temple. Along the way, he could see believers praying for blessings while walking, taking a step, kneeling down and kowtowing, and then throwing themselves into the ground in a five-body shape, which was particularly pious.

Xu Ling looked at it from a distance, there were many such believers in front of him, and he didn't know what desire they had in their hearts to make themselves so pious. Xu Ling thought that Bai Yi once said that faith is a very cruel thing, and the most devout believers have something in their hearts that cannot be solved, there is no hope, only faith can give him an invisible hope, and only such an invisible hope can give this desperate poor person hope to live.

A person who has no hope really doesn't know how to live, and even if he does, it's just like a walking corpse.

Xu Ling feels like a walking corpse with a little thought now, all his reason and thoughts are given to the people Bai Yi left behind, those things, the band that Bai Yi formed, the people Bai Yi cares about, the dreams that Bai Yi wants him to chase, and the studio that now belongs to Xu Ling.

Hehe, sometimes, life is really helpless! You can't be casual anymore, you can only force yourself to take the responsibility you have to bear!