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Xu Ling began to settle down, and slowly, step by step, walked into the hall. This journey is not long for Xu Ling at all, but every step he takes, Xu Ling recites his wish in his heart. is very pious in his heart, Xu Lingxing doesn't believe in anything, only believes in himself, but since Bai Yi left, Xu Ling also began to look for a reason and hope to let him live, and began to pray to the Buddha like Bai Yi.
Xu Ling does not seek the next life, nor does he seek the mundane things of this life, he does not ask for this life to be with Bai Yi in this life, only for the Buddha, I hope that Bai Yi is still alive, and he lives well in any other place, even if he can never see Bai Yi again in this life, he can no longer have Bai Yi in this life, he does not regret it, he does not force it, as long as Bai Yi can live, it is Xu Ling's greatest wish in this life!
Xu Ling understands that his wish is a delusion, an infatuation, a delusion as Buddhism says, Xu Ling knows that he is a complete layman, erotic, greedy, and obsessive, Xu Ling has experienced it, and now he is alive and has broken the first four, and there is still one idiot left! Xu Ling can't live so unworldly! Until now, Xu Ling feels that in the red dust, only this idiot is the most difficult to quit, that is the heart knot, it is buried in the bottom of the heart are obsession, just ask how many people in the world can really break this obsession in their hearts? Xu Ling felt that only this idiot could quit it really hard!
Xu Ling looked at these believers who were crawling on the ground, and felt a little envious in his heart, they may really be begging for the next life, begging for the next life not to be so painful, for the next life to be transcendent, for the next life to be able to become immortals. But Xu Ling does not seek the afterlife, he has no delusions about the afterlife. I don't want to ask for anything for myself, he has nothing to ask for himself, without Bai Yi, he is already living without desire in this life!
Yes, in the face of life and death, everything is a trivial matter!
Xu Ling walked outside the main hall, there were many people in front of the hall, there were devout believers, there were mortals, all of them kowtowed in front of the hall, Xu Ling also stepped forward and knelt in front of the Buddha, thinking silently in his heart,
I Xu Ling is not a believer, just a mortal person with delusions and obsessions, you are a Buddha who is high above the otherworldly, and mortals are born with pain, I Xu Ling has only one obsession in this life and this life, I hope Bai Yi did not die in that fire, I hope Bai Yi is still alive in this world! I use all my fate with her to exchange for old age, I have nothing to do with Bai Yi in this life, in this life, in the next life, in the next life, and Bai Yi in the next life, I just want her to live, live well, that's enough!
Xu Ling knelt three times and bowed nine times in front of the Buddha, the expression on his face was particularly pious, particularly serious, and no matter what Xu Ling did in this life, he had never been so serious as now.
After Xu Ling bowed, he got up and was about to leave, and saw a special figure not far away, it was the woman, the strange woman she met in the hotel, or covered herself tightly, although the altitude here is high, but the sun is abundant, and it is not cold, Xu Ling wonders why this woman covers herself so tightly, so there is something wrong with her face? Disfigured? Is there something long? That's why you came here to worship the Buddha?
Everyone's wish is the same, want to ask what they don't have now, or what they have lost, Xu Ling can't help but feel that this woman is actually quite pitiful, but thinking about her wish is also a little small, at least it is a little small for Xu Ling! If Bai Yi is alive, even if her face is disfigured, Xu Ling will not dislike it, and she is willing, as long as this person is here, it will not be as difficult as it is now!
Xu Ling walked out while thinking, under the sun, there was a wind blowing, the shawl on the woman's body blew away, Xu Ling glanced at the woman, the wide shawl spread out, showing the woman's true figure, Xu Ling's brows twitched, this figure is too familiar, he will never forget it! This is clearly the same as Bai Yi's figure and height! Could it be that the Buddha has appeared?
Xu Ling had doubts in his heart, but this doubt made him doubt his own eyes, there was no doubt, he hurriedly pushed aside the crowd to find the woman, but under his feet, there were people coming and going in front of him, Xu Ling couldn't walk over the kneeling people, waiting for him to bypass the crowd and walk over, he couldn't see the woman anymore, Xu Ling was anxious to look inside and out for a long time, but he didn't see the figure, and finally felt that he was dazzled, and began to doubt his eyes, suspecting that he was thinking too much.
Xu Ling sat in the car, thinking about that figure all the time, and finally didn't give up, drove back to the hotel where she stayed last night, and went to the front desk to ask about the woman yesterday.
"Oh, that person! I remember her, but I can't give you the specifics!" said apologetically.
Xu Ling knew that the waiter was embarrassed, and begged earnestly, "Please! I just need a name! I see that she is very similar to a long-lost friend of mine! I will ask the name, and I will not ask anything else! Okay?" Xu Ling sweated anxiously, took off her glasses and mask, and said anxiously.
"Hey, are you... You're that actor, right? I've seen your TV series!" The waiter suddenly recognized Xu Ling.
Xu Ling said flatteringly, "Yes! You see that I am not a bad person!
The waiter thought for a moment and whispered to Xu Ling, "Then I'll make an exception! You're a star! You won't fool me about anything! But I can only tell you that her surname is Xu, and her name is three characters, do you look similar to your friend?"
Xu Ling didn't say anything more, thanked the front desk attendant, and turned to leave. That's not Bai Yi! But it's quite fateful, and it was the same as five hundred years ago!
Xu Ling no longer bothered about this woman, it seems that she is really stupid and suspicious! Bai Yi has been gone for a year and a half, if he is alive, he will definitely come back to find himself! What is wrong with him? Seeing a person with a similar figure is like this? I didn't even see my face, I was really stupid!