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To your loved ones:

Parents, sister, little sister, if it really comes to this point, then I must die a well-deserved death, how fortunate I am to be able to dedicate myself to my ideals and beliefs. Therefore, you can shed tears for me, but don't be too sad.

Someone once told me that you are like a man who has everything. I didn't argue with him, I didn't tell him that I was the one who lost everything. Later, I pondered his words carefully, and it turned out that in the eyes of others, I was a very happy person, a person with a perfect life.

Mom, the person I am most grateful for in this family is you. Without you, I would have looked like I had lost my mother at a young age, rather than "having everything". I was a young rebel and broke your heart. I am not a good son, but I love you deeply, and it was you who gave me the opportunity to call my mother and gave me a warm home. You're the best mom and I love you, Mom.

Sister, you were the one who helped me the most when I was growing up. You're only two years older than me, but you're half a mother. If it weren't for your persuasion, I might not have concentrated on studying, I would have been in trouble with my parents, and I would even have left the family and walked away. With a strong and gentle sister like you, Sansheng is lucky. According to the customs of Hong Kong City, when the elder sister gets married, the younger brother has to carry the wedding car on her back. I longed for that day to marry you behind your back, hinting to your in-laws that you have a majestic and mighty brother, so that they will never dare to bully you. I was looking forward to it, but I was reluctant to do so. You are the best sister in the world, and I feel at a loss to marry anyone. But as long as you're happy, I'm definitely behind your decision.

Little sister, I've been with you for more than ten years, and we have disliked each other for more than ten years. You're clumsy, but you're cute. Sometimes I want to tell you, don't fight so hard, my sister and I have enough ability to make you live well. But then you think about it, you have the right to pursue the life you want, and I, who is an older brother, should be a helper. Although I still dislike you, I will not allow others to bully you. You don't have to worry, even if I go, the soul will protect you until you are too strong to need protection.

Dad, writing this, my eye circles suddenly became a little hot. In this family, I have the most conflicts with you, and I don't know what to say to you. I am the only boy in the Qiao family, and I know very well that everything you do is for my good. At the moment of life and death, there is no need to care about those contradictions. Dad, in fact, most of the ideal of serving the country in the army is out of worship for you. When I was a child, I loved to listen to the stories of the "big turtles", the stories of you hiding in the jungle, waiting to fight the enemy to the death. Yes, I adore you. Therefore, when the territory of the motherland is trampled on, when the safety of the lives and property of the people is threatened, I will definitely not flinch in any way. Although I am stubborn by nature, I can swear to heaven as I have said the above. I am the son of a scout, and I also want to become a qualified PLA soldier and become a ...... Your pride.

Of course, there is a death of man, which is lighter than a feather or heavier than Mount Tai. Since I chose to join the army, I did not hesitate to choose the latter. If my body can be used by others, please donate it for me, and I will exist in this world in a different way.

Finally, I beg you to be bold and not shed more tears for me, for I am always with you.

Mom and Dad, sister, little sister, although I have never said it, I love you very much. Perhaps, there is no time to love you more than now.

Qiao Nan Absolutely written

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To Lovers:

Dear Miss Wen, do you know that we live with a suicide note? Because death is so close to us, so close that there is no defense, so we must leave a last word in advance.

It's like that line in "The Pianist at Sea" - we laugh and say goodbye, but we know that goodbye is far away.

As for how I'm going to die, I don't know. But why did you die, I can tell you - "Death is not not enough to fear, nor is it not a pity, but the seven-foot body has promised the country, and it is difficult to promise Qing." ”

If you go to high school abroad, you may not be able to understand this kind of half-written sentence. But it doesn't matter, you just remember that I sacrificed my life for the country, and I can't stay with you for a long time.

I wrote a letter to my lover, but it wasn't you at that time - I don't worry about you losing your temper if you say something like that. When I talk to you, I always think of where to say, who made you my bosom love? In front of you, I don't need to hide anything.

I once had an unforgettable relationship, and I also had a relationship that was as plain as water. But my current love is you, and you are the one I want to spend the rest of my life together.

The life I live all year round is either a knife licking blood, or boring to the point of lacklustreness. There is no such thing as "freedom" in my world, and I have painstakingly left a little space in my mind, let's call it a "blank space of thought". This blank space, I can't wait to fill it with your thoughts. You're so interesting, if you fill it up, my life will be interesting!

When watching the two-part "Love In" series, I had doubts about how the hero and heroine could fall in love by chatting, but every time I see you, I also want to talk to you a lot. Even doing nothing, just listening to you talk about the scenery you pass by, that is also the ultimate pleasure, wanting to look into your eyes and hear that the world is old.

Every time we meet, we measure the hours in hours, and that's what I owe you the most. So far, I've never bought you an expensive gift, I haven't gone shopping with you, and we haven't even had a formal date...... But as long as we can spend the rest of our lives together, I will make up for it. What other girls have, I will satisfy you just as much.

Gathering and dispersing, I hope that the final outcome will be "together". There have been too many ups and downs between us, but the cruelty of Heaven is often unexpected. If that doesn't happen, I'm very supportive of finding a new lover. Just like my first girlfriend told me, don't give up hope, if you can live, live well.

There are a lot of jackals around you, but as long as there is danger, feel free to contact my comrades, don't worry, they will do their best to help you.

Hey, Miss Wen, if I really hang up, I guess you won't be able to forget me for a while. Then go to my grave and talk about it! Tell me where you have been, and what interesting customs and customs you have. At that time, my soul will definitely jump out, and a gust of wind will blow and tell you that you are still so funny!

If you don't come one day, I will be lost, but more than that, it will be a blessing. Between "never forget me" and "hurry up and forget me and pursue new happiness", I unconditionally support the latter.

At this moment, although I am writing a suicide note, I am thinking of you, and my heart is soft and calm. I hope that when you think of me, you will be filled with joy instead of crying.

I love you, and you are the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. May Heaven have mercy on me and give me the opportunity to call you "wife".

Qiao Nan is a masterpiece

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A handwritten epitaph

In fact, I can predict that the epitaph after my death is nothing more than "Qiao Nan, born in May 1985, an outstanding Communist Party member......"

Looking back on this life, I have never had true freedom, nor have I ever really pursued individuality. Therefore, on one last matter, I implore you to respect my opinion and write my epitaph myself.

A man who yearns for freedom, but is willing to obey orders;

A man who has gone through thousands of sails, but still chooses innocence;

A man who suffers from loneliness, but tries his best to embrace the splendid;

A person who is not good at expression, but is full of love and passion;

A man who is full of affection, but who sacrifices his life for the country.