2 March 2003 Cloudy

When I came home yesterday afternoon, my mom told me that my grandmother was not well.

I was surprised. My grandmother has always been in good health, and she is only 70 years old, what's going on?

My mom said it might be cancer.

I gasped.

Is it the kind of cancer that can't be cured?

My mom nodded, then sighed and turned away.

I went to see my grandmother, and I was holding back my energy. The force that hit my tearful defense line hard, but I was pressed in my eyes.

Grandma, I shouted.

Yang'er is here?, she asked with a smile.

My grandma used to be very athletic. I remember when I was a child, she spent all day wandering out, buying groceries and cooking, and even helping my uncle take my little cousin.

During the Chinese New Year, my grandmother quietly stuffed me with a small red envelope.

Don't tell your parents, she smiled kindly.

Although the red envelope is small, it is crumpled and stuffed with money.

But now it's only been a month, and the grandmother, who is smiling and walking like a fly, has lost a lot of weight, and is lying on the bed with half-squinted eyes.

The doctor said that it was an advanced stage of stomach cancer, and it was only a month away.

I hugged her and couldn't help crying as I buried it on her shoulder.

But I whispered it to her.

When I got home, I locked myself in my room. My mom didn't bother me.

Lying back in bed, I didn't want to cry.

I kept looking through the old photo album, from my grandmother's dark hair when she was younger, to her gray hair in her fifties.

I found out that there were fewer pictures of her after that.

There are more of my dad, my mom and me in the picture.

This is the inheritance of life.

I feel that parents are like clouds in the sky, they conceive their children into rain, fall to the ground and merge into rivers, and then quietly disappear without a trace.

Grandma is really leaving us......

March 3, 2003 Cloudy

Shen Sijia could see that I was not in a good mood.

Today I had an extra glass of milk for breakfast in addition to two oil cakes.

Eat more, I see how you suddenly seem to have lost weight. She said with concern.

I didn't tell her about my grandma, and she didn't ask.

Shen Sijia is really a good girl, she never asks too many questions, she just treats me silently. Although a little nervous at times, overall, she is a considerate and sensible girlfriend.

But Chongshu behaves like a real friend.

What's wrong? Trouble with Shen Sijia? he asked.

I glanced at him, didn't I see that someone had just brought me breakfast?

What's wrong with that? Your dad is deducting your living expenses again?

I didn't bother to answer and turned my head away from him.

Okay, okay, don't pretend to be deep. I have good news for you.

With that, he pulled out a piece of paper.

There were many names written on the paper, including me and Chongshu.

What is it?, I asked.

Liu Chuanfeng's list of henchmen, he smiled.

When did I become his confidant?, I asked.

It's not relying on his brother's three-inch incorruptible tongue, he stuck out his tongue and shook it.

So what is this for?

This Saturday, Liu Chuanfeng's birthday, invite us to play.

No, I replied.

Why are you here, Chongshu is in a hurry, people invite us to look up to us. When the time comes, you can have enough wine and meat, and maybe you can send a beautiful woman to accompany you to drink.

I glanced at him with disdain, is the wine pipe enough for you to drink?

I don't care, do you want to go?" he asked.

I have something at home, and I can't go. I say.

There's a!" Chongshu said.

After hearing his words, I got angry and came up.

your big bird's eggs, why don't you understand something? I suddenly stood up and yelled.

Chongshu was a little stunned when I yelled at him.

I could tell from his face that he was surprised.

Yes, since we became brothers, I have never spoken to him in such a way.

But this time I'm really on fire. Even though Takaki didn't know what was going on in my house, what he said pierced my heart deeply.

At that time, I couldn't suppress my emotions. After saying that, I sat down abruptly again, my body shaking, and I was so angry that I couldn't speak.

What are you yelling at? I'm X! Chongshu also got angry, turned around and left.

After calming down, I regretted it a little.

After all, Chongshu doesn't know about my family.

But for the sake of face, I didn't apologize to him, I just hoped that he wouldn't take it to heart.

March 8, 2003 Rain

Liu Chuanfeng's birthday party still didn't go to me after all.

I still went to see my grandmother.

Saturday afternoon was the only time of the week we had off, and I didn't want to waste it and wanted to spend as much time as I could with my grandmother.

Grandma is skinny again.

According to my dad, she hasn't been able to eat anything lately, so she vomits a little.

Doctors no longer advised her to be hospitalized, saying it would be a complete waste of money.

My dad originally insisted that my grandmother be admitted to the hospital, and he wanted to do his best to keep my grandmother alive for a few more days.

But Grandma refused.

I don't want to die in the hospital, your dad died in the hospital back then, I know how uncomfortable he was. Grandma said to my dad.

After struggling for a long time, my dad had to agree to my grandmother coming home to recuperate.

It is said to be recuperation, but in fact, it has no effect. Grandma's body is getting worse day by day.

But I went, and she was still happy.

Since she was a child, she loved me and my little cousin the most, and she said that as long as we were well, she could do anything.

I hugged her again and cried on her shoulder again.

This time she heard it.

Don't cry, grandma can't be with you, you have to take care of yourself.

When I came back from my grandmother's house, my mom cried too.

Mom's life has been too hard, she said.

My dad was silent and turned his head to the side.

Things have come to this point, and I just hope that grandma will be more peaceful when she leaves. May the disease no longer torment her, and don't let her leave in pain.

March 9, 2003 Rain

Chongshu hadn't spoken to me in days.

We used to do everything together. Eat together, go to the hut together, smoke together, do everything you can together.

But for a few days, it was like a wall between us. On either side of that wall are two different worlds.

Go and apologize to him, Shen Sijia said.

I shook my head, he me off and asked me to apologize first?

He doesn't know about your grandmother, Shen Sijia said.

I told Shen Sijia about my grandmother and me and Chongshu, and she looked sad.

Forget it, let it be, I say.

March 13, 2003 Sunny

Due to my awkward relationship with Chongshu, the training of the football team has been temporarily put on hold for the past few days.

The team members knew that something was wrong with the two of us, and they didn't rush us.

Anyway, the league will not be held until April, so no one is in a hurry. After all, they don't really love football, they can kick when they can, and they don't kick and pull down.

But I'm starting to get a little anxious.

At the level of our current football team, if we don't step up the practice, the start of the league will be the beginning of our shame. Rather than that, it's better to retire.

But I suddenly remembered what Chongshu said before, he also wanted to have a good time.

Actually, I know that he doesn't want to win or even win the championship. He prefers the atmosphere of unity to honors that don't matter.

He's a guy who values friendship more than anything else, and he needs that friendship.

Thinking of this, I almost couldn't help but apologize to him. But face is not controlled by your reason. He doesn't come to me, I can't pull my face down to find him.

Hey, face, hehe......

March 16, 2003 Cloudy

It's boring math class again.

Looking at the math teacher on the podium who was talking non-stop as if he was telling a story, I didn't even bother to lift my pen.

I scored 45 points in the last math unit test, which is less than a fraction of the total score.

I'm just hehe, I'm such a smart brain, I don't call those numbers and symbols at all.

Shen Sijia's math scores are getting better and better, and he scored 126 points and ranked eighth in the class.

I took a pen and wrote down the numbers 126 and 45 and blacked them out desperately. I was about to be overtaken by my daughter-in-law, and this sense of loss was stronger than anything else.

When I was depressed, suddenly someone behind me stabbed me.

Taking the note from the man, I opened it nonchalantly.

"When are you practicing? ”

The handwriting was sloppy, but it made me very excited.

"Raise you a big bird's egg, it's 'itchy'! If you read more books, you just won't listen. ”

I happily wrote.

"What's nonsense, when will you practice?"

Chongshu also seemed to be in a hurry.

I laughed happily, "Afternoon!"

After passing the note, I turned my head back and looked at it.

Chongshu is also bored with his hands supporting his head, looking at the ceiling and looking idle.

Brothers are brothers, bedside fights and bedside and. Oh no, this is a description of a couple. Forget it, no matter.

I have to admit that Chongshu is still more generous than me. He also loves face, but he cherishes his brother more.

I need to learn from him, I think.

March 18, 2003 Sunny

The team started training.

Although I am still a weak chicken and have no combat effectiveness, the days of sweating and raining have made me forget some unpleasant things for a while.

Chongshu is making rapid progress.

From kicking the flying shoes to now barely being able to pass a decent ball, he has only experienced just over 20 days.

And our defenders are finally no longer chasing the ball.

Under my guidance, they started to learn to mark people instead of balls, and they became more and more like they were kicking.

Not to mention the goalkeeper buddy. Originally, he was a good basketball player, and his judgment of the ball path was very clear. Coupled with his height and long arms, it is almost impossible to hold on to his high-level shooting.

The team is moving in a good direction.

It's just that we have a new problem.

Our team hasn't unified the jersey yet, what do you think we should buy?

This question stumped me.

A team's jersey is an important part of a team's spirit. Looking at the teams in other classes, Class 4 is wearing a pure white Real Madrid uniform, which looks noble and elegant, which is very consistent with their strong temperament. The other strong team, Class 8, is a Manchester United jersey with a red shirt and black shorts. The Red Devils' temperament is also perfectly in line with their fierce style of play.

As for us, I'll really have to think about it.