September 1, 2004 Cloudy

I always felt that my high school career was incomplete.

Because I've never tried what military training is like.

When I entered the school, the school was repairing the playground, and there was no place for us to give military training, so we were exempted.

When I was a sophomore in high school, the school was renovating a new school building, and the playground was full of building materials, so I was exempted again.

It's now the third year of high school, but our first task is to prepare for the college entrance examination, so we are still exempted.

So looking at the military training of those juniors and sisters who entered the school in the first year of high school, to be honest, I am quite envious.

Especially those juniors, why do they all look so smart.

Su Qingqing knew that I liked to look at those beautiful school girls, but she didn't care about me, and even accompanied me to watch them.

Look at this girl, her legs are so long!

Look at that girl, her hands are so thin!

You see......

I said can you have a little consciousness of being someone's daughter-in-law, I have watched those school girls, what should you do?

I'll see it too. Su Qingqing said with a smile.

To be honest, she's pretty open-minded.

She never deliberately controlled me and left me plenty of personal space.

But why do I feel a little too little about me?

You're cheap. Meng San said.

Maybe. I say.

2 September 2004 Cloudy

Since I got along with Su Qingqing, it is difficult for me and Zhen Songni to be friends anymore.

We haven't spoken in months.

That's what I expected.

At first, I launched a love offensive against her, but in the end, she was not among the two girls who accompanied me through my three-year high school career.

I feel a little sorry, but I don't feel sad.

After all, if you miss it, you miss it, and you can never go back.

So every time Su Qingqing came to the classroom to find me, I never shied away from Zhen Songni's eyes.

Su Qingqing was also at ease, as if she was a member of our class. Basically, as long as she has her spare time, she spends it in our classroom.

It's the same with today's PE class.

We only have one PE class a week for the new semester, which is very valuable.

Coincidentally, our PE class was the same as Su Qingqing's PE class.

So after gathering for warm-up exercises, Su Qingqing came to me.

There are no sports in the general college entrance examination.

Therefore, the physical education class in our third year of high school is basically to give students more opportunities to get in touch with the sun and exercise, and we will not arrange some specific projects for us to practice.

This kind of physical education class has become a rare leisure time for us.

After the warm-up exercise, it was disbanded, so those who love to learn went back to the classroom, those who loved to play ran to play ball, and those who loved to engage in small movements went to the corner of the school to hide, and no one cared.

I can't participate in the school football league in the third year of high school, so Brother Feng no longer asks us to practice. So I led Su Qingqing, who came to find me, and drilled into the grove in the corner of the playground, and didn't care about anything.

If it weren't for the school, we don't know what we would have done.

But hugging and kissing is a must-have routine between couples, and we can't help but come to a set of vulgarities.

To be able to hold myself at this age, to be honest, I admire myself.

Why didn't you come to me after my friend's birthday party?" asked Su Qingqing softly.

I...... I'm not working. How can I have time? I laughed.

By the way, did you encounter any interesting things when you were working? Su Qingqing asked.

That's a lot...... I said, but I'll tell you about it later.

I heard that the front desk sister of the hotel where you work is beautiful. Su Qingqing pouted, you won't hide anything from others, right?

I think she should be talking about Xu Xiaoyu.

So I was shocked.

Not...... I pretended to smile calmly, there are so many stories about those beautiful girls, I can't afford to mess with them.

It is said that when a man is going to lie to his woman, his IQ can break 180!

What's the story?

Su Qingqing was really interested and asked.

So I made up a complete set of stories to tell her, starting from the life experience of the beautiful sister at the front desk, and talking all the way to the story of them being forced to follow a large sum of money in order to support their family, and finally ended up with no personal wealth.

Su Qingqing listened very carefully, and nodded or pursed her lips from time to time, so moved by those fictional poignant stories that she almost cried.

If it hadn't been for the bell ringing in time, I wouldn't have been able to make it up.

But stories are always just stories, never reality. What kind of person is Xu Xiaoyu in reality, I never have a chance to understand it in depth.

Hey, it's a pity......

September 3, 2004 Overcast

For the first time, I felt that Brother Feng was estranged from us.

In the afternoon, Brother Feng took a few brothers from other classes out of the school.

A few hours later, we heard about a group fight at a bar outside the school.

Obviously, it was Brother Feng's handiwork.

Although No. 5 Middle School is located in the west of L City, it is not a suburb.

Due to the existence of such a large university, the streets here are particularly prosperous. Bars, KTVs, Internet cafes, and a variety of snack bars and clothing stores can be found everywhere.

So this side has always been the fat meat that several major forces in the city are competing for.

Brother Feng finally stepped into the circle of this society.

Meng San, who had been saying that he wanted to continue to follow Brother Feng, was also excluded this time and did not participate in the action.

So Brother Feng really doesn't want us anymore?

The fart god said grumblingly.

Brother Feng has his own ideas. Meng San said, maybe he just didn't want his brothers to be in danger.

I agree. Zou Long said.

I didn't say anything.

But that sense of alienation is real.

Maybe Brother Feng is for our good, but maybe, he just doesn't need us.

Some are disappointed, but some are happy.

Thankfully, the peaceful life I've been longing for seems to be finally coming.

That's good, really.

September 7, 2004 Light rain

Meng San and Jiang Jie quarreled for the first time.

The reason for the quarrel is simple. Jiang Jie is the deputy class leader, and her academic performance has always been great. So she hopes that Meng San can also study hard, take the ideal university with her in the future, and then graduate, work, and face a new life that belongs to them together.

But Meng San refused.

He said, I don't plan to go to college.

Can't you do it for me?" Jiang Jie asked.

Meng San was silent.

So Jiang Jie ignored him.

Aren't you going to coax people back?" I asked Meng San.

Meng San shook his head.

I can't give her a future. He said.

I can see that Meng San seems to have made a big decision.

You don't want to mess around with Brother Feng, do you?" I asked.

Meng San looked at me with a strange look in his eyes.

It's the first time I've seen him so serious.

Xiaoyang, I'll be honest with you. You also know the situation of my family, I went to college to add a burden to my family, so it is better to come out early to work and earn money.

But......

I'm not good for schooling, you know.

Meng San smiled bitterly.

I don't know how to persuade Meng San, because I can't find a better way out for him.

Not everyone has to follow the rules and follow the path that their predecessors have walked.

Everyone has a different path.

It's like a fable I heard when I was a kid.

The little donkey wanted to cross the river to graze, and he asked the little squirrel, is the river deep? The little squirrel said, "It's very deep, and last time my cousin almost drowned in the river."

So the little donkey went and asked the old cow, is the river deep? The old cow laughed and said, "It's not deep, it's only up to the knees."

The little donkey didn't know who to believe, so he decided to try it himself.

When the little donkey got into the water, he realized that what the squirrel and the old cow said was not right. Because the river was just over its shoulders, it wasn't too deep and not too shallow.

So which path is right for you can only be known if you go and walk yourself.

Luckily, we're still young.

September 19, 2004 Cloudy

Not sure why.

After my junior year of high school, it seemed like everything was getting a little too fast.

Brother Feng doesn't go to school much anymore.

He is making great strides towards his ambitions.

And Meng San eventually followed him, so he didn't appear much in school.

Also following Brother Feng was Zou Long, which didn't surprise me.

Surprisingly, the fart god didn't go.

As one of the first three generals to follow Brother Feng, I was a little surprised that the fart god didn't go.

But at the same time, I'm also very happy that I finally have a good brother in school, so I don't feel so lonely.

I sometimes look at Brother Feng and their empty seats in a daze. Then I recalled the blood and passion we had when we were together.

But I don't regret not going with them.

Because that's not the life I wanted.

I just lamented that time had passed so fast, so fast that I couldn't get used to it.

The grove in the corner of the playground has finally become a good place for me and Su Qingqing to occupy exclusively.

But the loneliness when smoking alone is something that Su Qingqing's tenderness can't make up for.

I suddenly understood the original Chongshu.

The so-called brotherhood is nothing more than that.