August 7, 2004 Cloudy

The adult world is, after all, complex and incomprehensible.

Xu Xiaoyu is actually not a bad person.

It's just obvious that she's not on the side of Weiwei.

I hate this kind of woman who destroys other people's feelings the most. Said slightly indignantly.

So Wang Duo just slept with her?

Glared at me slightly, you almost got into bed with her.

I suddenly froze, in fact, I thought that it doesn't matter if I am deceived.

What can I do if a beautiful woman throws herself into her arms?

I TM...... You have a girlfriend! Slightly suddenly said angrily, why are you also this kind of person?

I have nothing to say but silence.

I said, are you men just a woman to be able to go up? you, are you still human?

The more she talked, the more angry she became, and she almost wanted to come up and kick me twice.

I'm actually a little angry in my heart.

It's not that I'm angry with her, I'm angry with myself.

Since Shen Sijia lost her life, my values seem to have changed.

Love is ethereal to me. No one dares to say who we will be by our side all our lives, we are just looking for feelings in each other that can make us happy.

Then why did Xu Xiaoyu fall in love with me?

I don't know, and I don't want to dig into it.

I said sister, what do you care about me? I said to Weiwei.

……

Wei Wei didn't speak, but looked at me, and then turned away angrily.

After leaving slightly, I didn't go back to the restaurant to find Xu Xiaoyu.

The wine woke up for most of the time, and the ** in my heart was also extinguished because of the slight sudden appearance. Plus Weiwei's words made me feel uncomfortable, so I didn't go back to Xu Xiaoyu.

I didn't see Xu Xiaoyu at work today.

It was supposed to be her time on duty, but I heard another person at the front desk say that she changed shifts today.

Maybe I'm a little angry because I didn't say goodbye yesterday, I think.

August 18, 2004 Light rain

Wages are paid today!

Looking at the 800 yuan in my hand, I was a little excited.

It was my first paycheck in my life!

How do I use it?

To tell you the truth, if I had been before, I would have squandered this money.

But money, once earned with one's own hands, is precious.

No wonder the older generation always talks about hard-earned money, hard-earned money, this thing is really built with blood and sweat.

So I thought about it all afternoon, and couldn't decide what to do with it.

But my dad decided for me.

You will have to pay the tuition for the next semester. My dad looked at the newspaper and said lightly.

Why? I asked with some dissatisfaction.

My dad put down the newspaper, looked at me coldly and said, because you are eighteen years old and an adult.

When I'm eighteen, won't you support me? Am I still your own son?

This sentence is what I thought in my heart, and I didn't dare to say it.

But...... But......

But what do you think it's so easy for me and your mother to raise you? My dad said, don't talk nonsense, give the money to your mother, help you save it to pay for your tuition, don't take it yourself and spend it.

I was a little angry, but I didn't dare to attack, so I had to run back to my room.

But my dad's words are not unreasonable.

I suddenly felt a little cruel.

We are like a nestling with fuller wings, leaving the warm and comfortable nest and eventually learning to flap our wings and fly in the wind.

When we were children, we only saw the big birds flying happily in the air, but we never knew that they also fell and injured before they learned to fly.

Will I be able to fly?

I looked at the eight hundred pieces in my hand.

August 20, 2004 Cloudy

There were still ten days left to leave school, and I was finally free.

So Meng San came to me.

Brother Feng said, in order to celebrate the successful completion of your part-time job, go to his house for dinner tonight!

Third Brother...... I...... I was a little ashamed and said that my parents took all my salary, saying that I had to pay tuition. That's why I can't invite you...... I......

Oh, what are you talking about? Meng San smiled and said, We are brothers, who is different?

But I ......

It's okay, when did Brother Feng treat us badly? Don't think about it, let's go!

Although he was a little embarrassed, he followed Meng San to Brother Feng's house.

I'm here for the first time.

I knew that there was a so-called rich community in L City, but I didn't know that it was originally a villa area.

Brother Feng's home is here.

It's exactly the same as what I saw in the TV series. Gorgeous front entrance, spacious front yard. Walking in from the main entrance, a sense of luxury hits your face.

I tidied up my clothes a little nervously, for fear that I would look out of place in the environment.

Meng San saw that I was a little uncomfortable and smiled.

Don't be nervous, Brother Feng's parents don't live here, it's full of our own brothers.

Ah, his parents don't live here, where do they live? I asked, a little surprised.

I don't know, I don't live here anyway. Meng Sandao.

I've imagined countless times what it's like to be rich.

There is a big house with a single courtyard, a luxury car that attracts onlookers when you drive out, and a huge deposit that ordinary people like us can't imagine.

But in fact, the real rich have much more than that.

I can't imagine their lives.

It's like Brother Feng's house.

I thought this house was Brother Feng's home, but in fact, for him, this was just one of their residences.

Not to mention the interior of the house, it can be described as magnificent. The chandelier above my head in the living room alone is worth a lot of money.

I haven't seen them for a while since the last time I got rid of the man who "hangs me the most in the world".

So as soon as we got to the dinner table, everyone was drunk again.

After a full meal, Brother Feng announced something.

Brothers, we are now standing at the real peak of the fifth middle school!

Brother Feng is mighty!" shouted the fart god.

I want to thank you all for always being there for me, no matter how dangerous and unreasonable what I'm doing. But my brothers still believe in me and are still willing to go with me. I'm grateful.

Brother Feng said, picking up a glass of beer and drinking it down.

Next, I want to tell you that our gang will be disbanded on the spot today!

As soon as Brother Feng's voice fell, everyone present looked at each other, a little unable to believe what they heard.

Brother Feng, what are you...... Meng San was the first to speak.

Brother Feng, have we done something wrong? If we get into some trouble, won't it be over if everyone unites to solve him?

Yes, Brother Feng, we have experienced a lot of dangers along the way. But we are brothers, how can we say that we will disperse?" Zou Long also said.

I didn't speak, because I was too shocked to speak.

Brother Feng shook his head, and then said:

You misunderstood me. I'm not saying that we won't be playing together in the future, we're still going to play. I mean, you guys don't mess around anymore.

We're all adults soon, and there's still a lot to go on. I don't want you to follow me all the time like this, I hope you can each find what you like, what you love to do, and then live your life happily.

I've fulfilled my promise to someone and stood at the top of the five. Next, I will follow my own plan and complete my own ambitions step by step. But these ambitions are by no means easy to achieve, so I want to disband our small group. But from now on, you are still my Liu Chuanfeng's best brother. I hope you understand me.

Brother Feng finished speaking in one breath, leaving everyone speechless.

He was right.

We are about to become adults, and we are about to face the college entrance examination. There are many paths we can choose from.

If it weren't for the point of desperation, I don't think any normal person would voluntarily embark on the road of gangsters.

Brother Feng's meaning is very clear, that is, he has now reached the peak of school, and next, he has to take a big step towards his goal of becoming a social boss in order to finally complete his own ambitions.

And what such ambition brings, he himself does not know.

He didn't want his brother to be in danger, so he had this idea.

Actually, that's what I'm looking forward to.

It's not that I'm afraid to step into that circle, I just don't want my brothers to live a life of licking blood from the knife from now on.

I want my brothers to hug each other and laugh, not to watch them fall to the ground with blood on their faces.

Brother Feng's ambition is by no means something that can be achieved with a few fists. He was ready to face blood, and we weren't.

At the dinner table, everyone did not express their position.

Me neither.

Brother Feng just asked us to go back and think about it, no matter what decision we make, he will respect our own choice.

I'm going to keep messing around.

On the way back, Meng San suddenly said.

Zou Long's fart god and I both looked at him, but we were not surprised.

Meng San said that after graduating from high school, he went to work in Brother Feng's company, and he had already decided to hand over the rest of his life to Brother Feng.

What I didn't expect was that Zou Long didn't make a statement at the first time.

Isn't he Brother Feng's most loyal follower?

And the fart god, just like me. We all hesitated and didn't know what to do next.

Especially me.

I never thought I'd keep messing around.

My dream has never changed, I just want to find a stable job in the future, and then have a small home of my own, with a gentle wife and lovely children to welcome me home every day, and that's enough.

But I don't know since when, the brothers around me have long been an existence that I can't let go of and can't get rid of.

So how do you choose?

I do not know.