She has always been gentle, and even when she says such things, she is quiet.

Shen Nan didn't follow her words, still holding her hand.

Eleven sighed faintly: "Nanyan, this will only make me feel that the life that is not good is a little more difficult." ”

I know too many things today, and the impact is too great, Shen Nanyan has roughly figured out Eleven's stubborn temperament, and knows that it is not good to force it too hard, so after Eleven's words came out, he groaned slightly, and temporarily let go of her hand.

As she said, if he pressed too hard, it would only make her reject him even more.

Moreover, about her car accident, the matter of her eyes, she chose the simplest words to describe to him, he still has a lot of doubts, whether the car accident was an accident or man-made, why did she save the little girl, her doctor is not reliable, her eyes are ......

There is still no chance of recovery.

And so on and so forth, and he needed to figure it out.

"I'll accompany you to the garbage and then I'll send you back. ”

Eleven's words of refusal came to her lips, but Shen Nanyan spoke one step ahead of her: "Eleven, you should know that if I don't want to, I can appear in front of you in a hundred ways all the time." ”

is strong and domineering, mixed with a hint of coercion.

Eleven could say something more than agree.

But at the same time, she thought that Shen Nanyan's paranoia was probably related to knowing her eyes just now, maybe it would be fine after a while.

……

Back at home, Eleven sat on a recliner in her bedroom, her distraction as the phone rang.

Putting away the clutter of thoughts, Eleven picked up the phone.

It was He Yunsheng, who hadn't called for a long time.

At the beginning, she had a problem with her eyes in a car accident, and she told He Yunsheng without thinking too much, so when she had to stop studying in the hidden country, He Yunsheng came to Prague to see her once.

The scene was chaotic that day, He Yunsheng, Xu Qing, her sister Ye Xingchen, and Dr. Luo were all there.

Teacher He has always been steady and indifferent, and he even cried at that moment.

She said, Eleven, if the teacher hadn't advised you to go abroad, wouldn't such an accident have happened?

She said, Eleven, if you know that this will happen, the teacher would rather work hard and teach you these things in person than let you go abroad.

That day, He Yunsheng said a lot, and Eleven's deepest impression was that sentence: Eleven, what can I do in the future, is your talent going to be completely buried like this?

To this day, when she receives a call from He Yunsheng again, she can still remember the sadness of the teacher when she said these words.

"Teacher. ”

"Eleven, how are you doing?" on the phone, it was Teacher He's voice with concern.

Eleven nodded: "Teacher, I'm fine, don't worry." ”

"Well, that's good, the purpose of my call is to tell you that in a while, a friend of mine will come back to Jiangcheng, he is a famous doctor in medicine, maybe it will help your eyes, do you want to see him?"

Eleven pinched the phone and didn't speak for a while.

She didn't know what to say, whether to say yes or no.

If she agreed, she didn't want to go back to Jiangcheng for the time being, and if she refused, she felt too ashamed to be so good to Teacher He.

Probably seeing her hesitation, Teacher He added over there: "Eleven, I know that you are actually reluctant to come back to Jiangcheng in your heart, but don't worry, this time it is to see a doctor, and it will not delay your time too much." ”

Eleven lowered his head and put his hand on his lap and tapped gently: "Teacher, in fact, it's not so repulsive, it's just that I'm back in Jiangcheng now, and there are so many people I know there, I think it's a little difficult to do, but since the teacher is so dedicated to my affairs, no matter what I say, I should eliminate these problems and go to meet the teacher's friends." ”

"You can think like this, the teacher is relieved, the specific time is waiting for me to discuss, and I will inform you when it is decided. ”

Eleven hummed: "Hard teacher." ”

He Yunsheng sighed in a low voice: "If you don't have to work hard, Eleven, you are the only student who has been taught by the teacher for so many years, I know how much talent you have, if you don't cure your eyes, this will be a thing that the teacher will regret for the rest of his life." ”

Eleven sighed, in her life, she has met a lot of fortunate people, Shen Nanyan rescued her from the fire, her sister Ye Xingchen has protected her for many years, and the teacher He Yunsheng is sincere and treats her as a daughter.

In fact, sometimes think about it, this is good enough, she should learn to be satisfied.

"I won't say anything about thank you, I'll go see the teacher when I get back. ”

He Yunsheng said with a smile on the other end of the phone: "Eleven, the teacher has no children, and it is already the happiest to have such a caring student as you." ”

Eleven lowered his head and said in a soft tone: "If the teacher doesn't dislike it, I will maintain this friendship with the teacher for the rest of my life." ”

He Yunsheng smiled and said, "Okay, good." ”

The two talked for a while before hanging up.

He Yunsheng said that she would inform her in advance when she decided when to meet, and in this case, she didn't need to think about it in advance.

The eyes are completely blind, and Eleven appropriately reduces the number of trips.

There are only a few things to do at home every day, listening to the Himalayas, tidying up clothes at home, and calling Dr. Luo to report his physical condition.

As for the project she was responsible for with her classmates in the hidden country before, she also handed it over, but now she can't see it with her eyes at all, so she can't help them anymore, so she simply fucks it out, and she always can't help but be stunned every time she thinks about it.

As for Shen Nanyan, he hasn't appeared since that day, and Eleven doesn't know what he thinks, but if it keeps going like this, it may be a good thing.

On this day, there was no milk in Eleven's house, so she went out to the supermarket to buy it.

But as soon as he walked out the door, Eleven noticed something unusual.

She stood still, not moving, her gaze falling into the distance.

"Is that you?" ”

Shen Nanyan stood not far away, his deep gaze fell on Eleven, and after a long time, he took a step and walked in front of Eleven.

"Well, it's me. ”

"Why did you follow me?" Eleven asked feebly.

"I don't worry about you going out alone. ”

Don't worry about her going out alone?

Eleven didn't know what to say, and only felt a little helpless in his heart.

"Nanyan, after knowing that one day I would completely lose my memory, I started practicing, and now I can basically travel alone, you don't need to be so ......"

Eleven originally wanted to say that he was worried, but when the words came to his mouth, he couldn't say a word.

The meaning covered by these two words is too unusual, and it is inappropriate for her and Shen Nanyan to say these two words.

"This is outside, there are so many unforeseen accidents, Eleven, I can only rest assured when I see you all right. ”

He was sincere, and Eleven suddenly didn't know what to say.

Under such a stalemate, Eleven went from constant silence at the beginning to clear thoughts later.

"Nanyan, I only feel a big burden when you are like this, I don't like it, and even hate this kind of entanglement, Nanyan, can you understand when I say this?"

Her voice was quiet and she spoke slowly.

Shen Nanyan's gaze was momentary: "Eleven, you hate me?"

"It's not that I hate you, I just don't like this, Nanyan, you should know, I'm quiet, and your behavior like this will only make me feel like my life is a mess, you know? As soon as you show up, my original plan will go off track, I really don't like this. ”

"Eleven, what are you afraid of?"

Afraid of what?

Eleven bowed his head, his face dark.

"What am I afraid of? I've told you a long time ago, Nanyan, that previous marriage, there were you and me, there were reasons for all of us, I knew I was in some ways extremely paranoid, but now I really don't want to think about getting back together. ”

"Is it because I make you feel untrustworthy?" he said, his eyes dark.

Eleven pursed lips, it can be understood in this way.

At the end of the topic, Shen Nanyan still stubbornly sent her to the supermarket to buy something, and sent her back to you.

He didn't say a word anymore during the whole process, just accompanied her.

Eleven refused to no avail, so he had to follow him.

At the door of the house, Shen Nanyan looked at Eleven.

The expression on her face was dull, and there was not much fluctuation.

The two were relatively silent for a long time, and Shen Nanyan finally spoke in a low voice to break the deadlock.

"Eleven, I can't give up on you, but since you mind what happened in the past, then I will make you change your old opinion of me from now on, and I will do my best to make up for the wrong things I did in the past. ”

Eleven remembered that in the early days, she had always thought that Shen Nanyan had an indifferent temperament, and rarely had entanglements, but now she found that there seemed to be something wrong with her previous cognition.

This man was stubborn, and she had no way at all.

If Shen Nanyan really did anything wrong with her, then at these times, she should ignore him and not even meet him.

But no, Shen Nanyan in the past did everything very well except not love her.

Now that Shen Nanyan has feelings for her, she can't say anything harsh to him.

So Eleven thought, leave it to time.

After that, she chose to ignore and continue, and Shen Nanyan didn't seem to care, she didn't care about her coldness, and she always followed her.

At the beginning, Eleven really decided to ignore Shen Nanyan.

When he arrived in the supermarket, Eleven realized what a big mistake he made by letting Shen Nanyan follow him.

"Eleven, your body is relatively weak, buy more to replenish your body. ”

“……”

"Eleven, the milk you picked is not good, come and I'll pick it for you. ”

“……”

"Eleven, these daily necessities are of inferior quality, if you want to change the daily necessities, I will help you prepare them again. ”

"Enough. After Shen Nanyan followed behind him for the Nth time, pointing fingers at the things he bought, Eleven finally became angry.

She let go of the cart in her hand, stopped, turned her head sideways, and yelled at the man on the side, "Shen Nanyan, what are you going to do." Do you have anything to do with me buying my stuff? Who are you to me, is it your turn to dictate here?"

Eleven's voice was a bit loud, and most of the people in and out of the supermarket were women.

Seeing her yelling at a handsome and extraordinary man like Shen Nanyan, the women around her cautiously discussed that they looked at Eleven.

Eleven also noticed.

Look at those women looking at Shen Nanyan again, eager to pounce.

Suddenly, I felt that the anger that was ignited by Shen Nanyan just now seemed to be even worse.

She glanced at Shen Nanyan with great dissatisfaction, didn't even care about the cart, and walked directly to the fruit area.

Shen Nanyan, who was still standing in place, looked at Eleven, who had left in a negative mood, and then looked at the people around him.

The face is subconsciously softened.

He looked around at everyone who was still looking at him: "My wife is more likely to be jealous, please don't look at me anymore." ”

After the words fell, Shen Nanyan pushed the cart and walked in the direction where Eleven had left just now.

His little wife can't see, and she should be taken care of.

And the women behind him.

When he heard him say his wife, a disappointed expression immediately appeared on his face, how could such a good man get married, it's a pity.

And Eleven, who was walking not far in front of him, heard his wife, and a sense of powerlessness suddenly rose in his heart.

She didn't know how many times she had told Shen Nanyan that they were not husband and wife anymore, they had divorced a long time ago, and she would still call her that.

It was all as if it were a kind of irony.

She walked ahead and kept picking up her pace.

……

At home at night, Eleven talked to Ye Xingchen on the phone.

In order not to worry her too much, Eleven didn't choose the video.

On the phone, Ye Xingchen's words were gentle: "Yiyi, my sister will come to see you after this time." ”

"Don't worry about me, sister, I can take care of myself. ”

"But now that you're like this, my sister can't rest assured. Ye Xingchen's words were difficult to hide his worries.

Eleven probably knows that no matter what he says, his sister can't rest assured.

"Sister, Teacher He gave me a phone call, saying that she had a medical friend who wanted to see me and help me look at my eyes. Eleven whispered that she should have told her sister about this as well.

"Teacher He, when is it, are you going to come back?"

"Well, Teacher He has always been so good to me, since she helped me get in touch, I should go back no matter what I say, whether it is useful to my eyes or not. ”

Ye Xingchen on the other side of the phone was also silent for a moment: "It's okay, I'll be very happy if you come back once, when will you come back when you call me in advance, and I'll pick you up." ”

nodded a little, and then thought that Ye Xingchen couldn't see her expression when he wasn't by his side.

"Okay, I know, sister, I'll tell you in advance when I'll come back. ”

Over there, Ye Xingchen's tone was full of joy that could not be concealed.

"Well, think you're going to come back again, it's been a long time since you decided to leave. ”

For a long time?

In fact, it really hasn't been too long, it's just that a lot of things have happened since she went abroad, so my sister feels that this is a long time coming.

"Sister, when I come back, let's go see my parents together. ”

Thinking about it carefully, it seems that it has really been a long time since I have seen my parents again, so Eleven said that Ye Xingchen agreed.

"Okay, we'll go together when you come back, I think it's true that we haven't been to see our parents for a long time. ”

Eleven hummed, Ye Xingchen was silent for a while, and suddenly asked, "Is Shen Nanyan still with you?" ”

Eleven didn't expect Ye Xingchen to suddenly mention Shen Nanyan, she was silent for a moment: "Well, we've all met in the past few days, and he also knows about my eyes." ”

Ye Xingchen was surprised: "He also knows?"

Eleven replied softly, "Yes." ”

"And how did he react?"

"I was surprised that he really didn't know anything about my car accident, and if we weren't all here, he probably wouldn't have known for the rest of his life. ”

Ye Xingchen acquiesced, she knew that Eleven's assumption actually existed.

"So did you say anything more?" On the phone, it was Ye Xingchen's cautious voice.

Eleven was silent for a second, and then said: "Actually, he didn't say anything, he just repeated again and again that he loves me now, and he won't let go of me no matter how he says it." ”

"And do you believe him?"

"Naturally, I believe it, sister, there is no need for him to lie to me. But that's not the most important thing. ”

"Yiyi, my sister didn't understand what you meant. ”

Eleven sighed silently: "Sister, I am a sentimental person, many times I am an extremely extreme idealist, Shen Nanyan said that he loves me, but I am thinking, how much does he love me." ”

"Are you afraid that he doesn't love you enough?"

Eleven chuckled and said: "Sister, although I am young, I have experienced half of what I should have experienced, I can accept the first failed marriage with Shen Nanyan, but I can no longer bear the second separation." ”

These words are direct, Eleven believes that Ye Xingchen can understand it.

"Yiyi, are you afraid? He doesn't love you that much, he used to be with him, and then he did it again. ”

People who are related by blood are much easier to communicate with than others, and my sister has said the main point in two sentences, and Eleven naturally has no other words.

She said with some emotion: "Sister, Shen Nanyan does have a lot of different meanings for me, but this does not mean that I will be desperate and stay with him forever for the rest of my life." ”

"And now, what do you think now?"

Ye Xingchen thought, you can't always maintain such an impasse.

This sentence was asked in Eleven's heart, she pursed her lips, for a long time, and said lightly: "Maybe slowly, there will be some answer." ”

People who are related by blood are much easier to communicate with than others, and my sister has said the main point in two sentences, and Eleven naturally has no other words.

She said with some emotion: "Sister, Shen Nanyan does have a lot of different meanings for me, but this does not mean that I will be desperate and stay with him forever for the rest of my life." ”

And now, what do you think now?"

Ye Xingchen thought, you can't always maintain such an impasse.

This sentence was asked in Eleven's heart, she pursed her lips, for a long time, and said lightly: "Maybe slowly, there will be some answer." ”