Chapter 52: Wishful thinking, willing to gamble and lose

"The poor quality of life is serious, if you don't want to eat takeout, then wait until you leave and find something to eat. ”

Eleven's voice was flat, and it seemed that the words were angry, and they came out of her mouth, but there was not so much disgust, and besides, she was still smiling all the time.

Simon had never come into contact with this lady before, but now that he saw it, he suddenly understood why there were different types of suitors around him.

Young, beautiful and talented, and speaking just right at all times, even if he is unhappy, he can still behave indifferently, expressing his own wishes, and not handling the atmosphere to a tense situation.

At this moment, Xin Meng suddenly wondered why Mr. Shen had to part with such a good lady.

"Mr. Shen, let's do it, I see that there are a few shops near Madame's school that are not bad, I'll go buy you something to eat." ”

Eleven raised his head slightly, and saw Xin Meng saying to Shen Nanyan with a smile.

The latter's face was still not good, but in the end he nodded.

After Xin Meng left, only Eleven and Shen Nanyan were left in the entire space.

She kept her head down, and the burning direct gaze on the other side made her feel a little fidgeting.

The excitement and surprise when I first saw Shen Nanyan had slowly calmed down at this moment.

Even if she had imagined how long it would be to see Shen Nanyan again countless times, it was also a fact that Shen Nanyan was sitting opposite her now.

Her eyes were indifferent, and she glanced at him from time to time.

He was still the same as he had been five months before, his face was deep and indifferent, and he sat there without saying a word, his bottomless eyes cold.

I don't know how long it has been, Eleven's hidden hands in the dark are clenched, but his face is gentle and tranquil.

"Have you been busy with things lately?"

Shen Nanyan was silent for a moment before replying: "Is there a time when the company is not busy? ”

The smile on Eleven's face froze, and then chuckled: "Also, it's me who asked strangely." ”

Shen Nanyan stared at her for a moment, and this gaze was a little unnatural.

"What's the matter, do I have something on my face?"

"When did you like clothes of this color?"

Eleven lowered his eyes, looked at the clothes on his body, and felt that Shen Nanyan's words were a little strange, what happened to these clothes?

The man looked away quietly: "It's nothing." ”

Doesn't she think it's glaring?

"Good. She answered.

Shen Nanyan didn't speak again, and Eleven didn't know what to say again, so he fell silent again.

Time passed minute by minute, and Eleven had thousands of thoughts in his head, but he could only sit with Shen Nanyan speechless at this moment.

The last thing that broke the silence was Shen Nanyan's cold sentence: "I saw Xu Qing send you back just now, are you together?"

Eleven raised his chin, and when Shen Nanyan said this, his tone was flat, and he couldn't hear what his emotions were at the moment.

She put her hands on her sides in a regular manner, and when her eyes fell on Shen Nanyan, she smiled a little bit: "Nanyan came here to find out if I have started a new relationship?"

Shen Nanyan's inky eyes fell on her face: "Ask casually, if you don't want to say it, you can not say it." ”

Eleven chuckled and said, "What's so bad about this." Her tone was very light: "Xu Qing and I are not together, and we will not be together." ”

Hearing this, a strange emotion flashed in Shen Nanyan's heart, and he inexplicably felt relieved.

"Why so absolutely?"

Eleven's eyes fell on his fingers, and his tone was light: "This, I really don't want to say it." ”

Shen Nanyan frowned, but he didn't say anything more.

"Xie Qianen will come to see you from time to time?"

At the mention of Xie Qianen, the smile on Eleven's face unconsciously expanded: "Well, after divorcing you, he often came to see me from time to time. ”

Shen Nanyan noticed the curvature of the corners of her lips: "You guys get along well?"

"It's not true, but I'm glad that he, as your friend, can still come to see me from time to time after the divorce. ”

"Eleven, are you complaining about me by this, have you never come to see you?"

Eleven had a surprised look on his face, as if shocked how he could say that.

"Why, since we are divorced, we no longer have any obligations to each other, it is actually best if you don't come to see me. ”

If he doesn't come, she won't have any hopes, and she won't suffer from gains and losses.

After saying so much, Shen Nanyan faintly sensed that something was wrong.

When she mentioned Xie Qian'en, the smile on her face was polite and polite.

The doorbell rang, and before Shen Nanyan could ask anything, Eleven had already gotten up.

"Probably Simon is back. ”

She walked towards the door, her pace extremely slow.

She is becoming more and more stable, no matter what she says or does.

……

After dinner, Xin Meng helped Eleven clean up and went back to the car, it was not early, and Shen Nanyan also came out of the living room.

Eleven followed him and sent him away.

"When are you leaving the Hidden Kingdom?"

"Tomorrow. ”

"Good. ”

Shen Nanyan looked at her sideways, and the expression on his face was obscure.

Eleven lowered her head and didn't pay attention, she said in a low voice: "When I go back, say hello to my grandfather on my behalf." ”

Shen Nanyan stood still and did not move, and when he looked up after eleven years of consciousness, he saw him staring at him indifferently.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

Shen Nanyan lowered his eyes, the corners of his lips were slightly raised, and his tone was extremely serious.

"It's been five months, have you ever regretted divorcing me?"

Eleven tilted her head, looked at each other, and after a long time, she opened her lips: "No." ”

Shen Nanyan stared at her for a long time, and she said the two words very firmly.

The meeting after five months ended with the word eleven.

Shen Nanyan and Xin Meng left together, Eleven stood in place, and his mind was still the grim face when Shen Nanyan left.

He seemed to be angry because of her answer.

But what's the need?

……

On the way back to the hotel, Simon several times set his eyes on the man on the side.

The man's thin lips were pursed, and his face was gloomy.

Simon pondered in his heart.

When his own president said that he was going back to the hotel, he was actually surprised.

In the past five months, although Mr. Shen has not been to the hidden country, he has not made a phone call.

But I never let go of Mrs. in my heart.

This time, he thought that Mr. Shen would stay for a while longer and accompany his wife.

From the time they meet to the time they leave, the whole process takes no more than three hours.

Considering that his own president is not bad to him on weekdays, Xin Meng organized his language and asked tentatively: "Mr. Shen and his wife haven't seen each other for a long time, why don't you stay for a while?"

Shen Nanyan said coldly: "She doesn't want to see me, why should I stay longer?"

Not waiting to see you?

Xin Meng recalled, from the appearance of Mr. Shen to the departure, Mrs. has always been very polite, and the smile on her face has never even disappeared, why is she not waiting to see her?

Of course, Xin Meng didn't dare to say these words in front of Shen Nanyan.

He only expressed it euphemistically: "It may be that Mrs. Shen hasn't seen Mr. Shen for too long, so it's a little unnatural, which makes Mr. Shen feel like this." ”

"Hmph. ”

Shen Nanyan stopped talking.

After five months of not seeing him, he thought she would regret it a little, but no, she didn't regret it at all.

Did that marriage really make her so repulsed?

Xie Qian'en's words are still in my ears.

Shen Nanyan suddenly began to reflect on the meaning of this trip?

Does he love Eleven?

What counts as love?

For a long time, he has always felt that there is still room for their relationship to turn around.

What she pursued was love, and she was divorced for five months, and she was not with anyone, but when he asked, she still did not hesitate to say that she did not regret it.

He suddenly didn't understand.

Is it really because of love and not love?

So, why did he want her to come back to him and continue that marriage with him?

If that marriage continues, will he be able to give her what she wants?

If not, why should he delay her?

……

The next morning, eleven didn't have class, and when the doorbell rang, she was listening to the recording on the couch.

Turning the recording off, she walked to the door.

Xie Qianen stood at the door, looking at her with a smile at the moment.

"Eleven. ”

"Xie Qianen, why are you here?"

She turned to the side and let Xie Qianen in.

"Come and see you, I have nothing to do when I'm idle. ”

"Isn't the filming of your artists here over yet?"

"No, I don't. ”

Eleven a little jaw.

In the living room, she asked Xie Qianen, "Do you want to drink water?"

"Don't bother, sit down and let's talk. ”

Since he said so, Eleven didn't force it.

"How's it going?"

Eleven shook his head: "It's okay, it's not very busy." ”

"Well, don't you want to go out for a walk? After you came to the Hidden Kingdom, it seems that you are even more homely than when you were in Jiangcheng. ”

"Count?" Eleven asked suspiciously, "The main thing is that I don't like to go outside very much, and it's good to listen to music at home alone and enjoy such a quiet time." ”

"You like it, but don't you feel bored like this?"

"No, it won't. ”

After a brief conversation, they fell silent.

Eleven felt that every time she chatted with Xie Qianen, it was strange, and they didn't have a good relationship, if you really want to talk about it, Xie Qianen can only be regarded as a friend of her ex-husband.

But Xie Qianen always came to chat and talk with her from time to time, and sometimes even brought her some small gifts, but she never received them.

She is delicate, and sometimes she will observe some of Xie Qianen's reactions, but he is always plain and does not feel anything abnormal.

Slowly, after a long time, she didn't have that mind anymore.

Xie Qianen is a person who understands advance and retreat, and he should understand many words if she doesn't say them.

"Nanyan came over yesterday, you know?"

In the midst of the confusion of thoughts, Xie Qianen's voice sounded.

"Well, he came over for a while. ”

Xie Qianen looked at her and said in a casual tone: "It's rare for him to come once, you didn't talk properly?"

Eleven smiled lightly and said slowly: "We are divorced, and we have been separated for so long, in fact, there is nothing to say." ”

"Would you? I thought you had a lot to say to him. ”

"No, there's nothing to say. ”

What do you want her to say, tell him that she still can't forget him after all the days he left, or tell him that she has been in the hidden country for five months, and what happened shocked her.

No, she won't say any of that.

They came here, everything was her choice, and she didn't blame him.

Xie Qianen just looked at her like that, after coming to Yinguo, she lost a lot of weight, and her temperament became more and more indifferent.

In the past, she was quiet and talked little, and only thought that she was so pleasing, but now he hoped that she would say more.

"You're going on vacation soon, do you have any plans to go back?"

"Nope. Eleven thought for a while: "It's troublesome enough to go back and forth, so I won't go back." ”

"Is your sister coming over there?"

"Well, my sister called. I should be here in a few days. ”

"In that case, I will be relieved to go back. ”

Eleven was a little surprised: "Do you want to go back?"

"Well, there are some things in the country, and I may have to go back for a while. ”

Eleven pursed her lips and smiled, although she felt that such a thought was a little too cautious, but Xie Qianen's return to China undoubtedly made her breathe a sigh of relief.

"If the country is good to develop, if it is not necessary, it is better to stay there. ”

She said shallowly, Xie Qianen looked at her meaningfully for a long time.

"For me, it's mostly pretty much the same. ”

Eleven didn't say anything, just laughed.

Xie Qianen didn't say anything more until the point.

……

After Xie Qianen, Xu Qing and others returned to China one after another, Eleven's life became a regular life of eating and attending classes.

In the past month or so, Eleven received a call from Mu Rong.

Mu Rong is the biggest gain of Eleven during her internship, and since she went abroad, she often received calls from Mu Rong.

Most of them asked her about her studies and physical condition.

Slowly, the relationship between the two got better and better.

"Mu Rong. She spoke softly.

On the phone, Mu Rong's happy voice said: "Eleven, I'm coming to the hidden country, when will we meet?"

"You've come to the Hidden Kingdom. Her voice was also a little more joyful.

"Hmm. ”

"Then I'll give you an address, and you can come to me. ”

"Okay, I'll come to you in the next few days. ”

"Good. ”

After Mu Rong finished speaking, he asked again: "Do you have anyone else there, will there be any inconvenience for me to go?"

Inconvenience?

Eleven smiled: "Where there is anyone else, I am the only one." ”

Mu Rong joked with a smile: "That's good, it's just you, then I'll come." ”

"Okay, just come and call me someday. ”

"Okay. ”

And so ended the call.

……

Mu Rong came to the apartment where Eleven lived three days later.

At that time, Eleven had just finished listening to a recording.

She has recently developed the habit of listening to books, and there are many books on the Himalayas, and many of them are useful to her.

Nowadays, with the development of technology, there are many ways to acquire knowledge.

Turning the recording off, Eleven gets up and opens the door.

As soon as the door opened, it was greeted by a hug.

"Eleven. ”

In the face of Mu Rong's enthusiasm, Eleven was stunned for a moment, but it was only for a moment, she stretched out her hand and hugged Mu Rong.

"You're here. ”

Mu Rong reluctantly let go of her, with a smile on her face: "Yes, I could have come over yesterday, but suddenly there was an extra trip, so it was delayed for a few more days." ”

Eleven can understand.

"It's okay, your business is more important, it's good to come whenever you come, I'll be here when you come anyway. ”

Mu Rong grabbed her hand: "We are becoming more and more sensible. ”

Eleven chuckled: "I'm in my twenties, and I should be sensible." ”

The two walked towards the living room, and Mu Rong suddenly felt a little emotional.

"Yes, you're twenty-three, and I'm twenty-seven now. ”

"Twenty-seven is not big. ”

Mu Rong was a little depressed: "Why is it not big, normal people have husbands and children at my age, you look at me, there is nothing." Hey, my youth is gone. ”

After contact, Mu Rong is really a person with a good personality, and Eleven is used to talking and chatting with her like this.

"While you are lamenting your youth, you should also thank the people who participated in your youth. ”

Mu Rong looked curious: "What is the reason?"

"People say that whatever you meet when you are young, you will create what kind of character, you are so cheerful and think about things clearly, it's really good. ”

"Is that really the case?"

"Hmm. ”

Mu Rong suddenly came up: "What about you, you have such a weak temperament, as if nothing can fall into your heart, what kind of person is your youth?"

Eleven was silent, wanting to deflect the subject: "What do you want to eat at night?"

How could Mu Rong let her get her wish, and after repeated questioning, she had to go on.

"I don't know what to say, since I was very young, I have been in contact with very few people, and besides, I have always had only one person in my heart, and many times, I don't care about anything else. ”

"Is that the boyfriend you broke up with before?" Mu Rong's question made Eleven silent for a moment.

It stands to reason that the relationship has developed to this stage, and she should tell Mu Rong about her relationship with Shen Nanyan, but she and Shen Nanyan have come to this point, and it seems that there is not much difference between saying it and not saying it.

"Yes. ”

"Then how much you like him. ”

How much do you like it?

Eleven weighed it in her heart, if a person's liking for a person can be scored, her liking for Shen Nanyan must be close to a full score, why is it close to a full score, because she pondered, if she scored a full score, then how to explain that she was so obsessed with divorcing him.

"I don't know, but my feelings for him have been around since a very early age, and my sister always said that maybe I liked him more than I liked myself. ”

"So what do you think?" Mu Rong propped his chin, his face full of doubt.

Eleven smiled and shook her head.

Mu Rong stared at her and suddenly asked, "Eleven, it's very painful to be separated." ”

"Probably, I don't seem to feel anything now. ”

At the beginning, it was really painful, I couldn't sleep well, I couldn't eat well, but after I came to the hidden country, I slowly got better.

"Hey. Mu Rong sighed: "What is it like to like someone for so long?"

How do you feel?

Eleven chuckled: "People say that liking is self-satisfaction, and liking for a long time is a habit and a responsibility." ”

"Is that how it feels?"

"I don't know, but there is a saying that liking is wishful thinking, and you have to be willing to gamble and lose. ”

When Eleven said this, there was a smile on his face.

But Mu Rong heard a little sadness from it.

"Forget it, let's not talk about these unhappy things, how are you doing, are you on school holidays?"