Chapter 262: Love Guts
During this period, Qiao Xiang made two long-distance calls to Zheng Xiaowen, and the content of the phone was nothing more than asking Zheng Xiaowen about his physical condition and some words of concern, and he didn't say a word about the stacks of language stuffed in his heart.
Qiao Xiang is definitely not, he doesn't want to say what he thinks in his heart to Zheng Xiaowen, he wants to say it too much!
However, in terms of his usual correspondence with Zheng Xiaowen, the atmosphere when the two of them were talking, as soon as he spoke to Zheng Xiaowen, he would think of the letter without reply, and the words he wanted to say from the bottom of his heart had already been blocked, how could he still say it?!
This is a business trip and on the phone, he can't just say it for a long time, and the words he wants to say from the bottom of his heart are even more like what he says!
Usually, when he says something ordinary in front of Zheng Xiaowen, he will stutter and blush, not to mention that this is a long-distance phone call. These two long-distance calls, he is still the same as usual, and he still can't say those love words that make him blush!
Among Qiao Xiang's classmates and friends, the most intimate and best people are Su Chen and Zheng Xiaowen. He didn't even say anything about this layer of heart that he pressed in his heart, and until now, Su Chen didn't know it! It is conceivable that in this world, who else will persuade him, and who else will enlighten him and help him!
Even if it is, some friends see that he is sometimes depressed and preoccupied, and they want to understand the situation and help him. But those friends won't ask anything from him, so they don't know where to start to help him!
Qiao Xiang thinks of Zheng Xiaowen every day, and he misses Zheng Xiaowen. Even now that he is studying in other places, he misses Zheng Xiaowen every day.
The night before yesterday, after he came back from the field, he was busy with the things he had to be busy with, yesterday at noon and this morning, he had already wandered around the west and east ends of the private school alley twice. Plus this time, it's the third time he's been around here.
Now, he came here by bicycle to turn around, and still, he couldn't get the guts to enter the private school alley, and he couldn't get the guts to approach the gate of the Zheng family. As soon as he thought of going up the steps of the Zheng family's gate and ringing the Zheng family's doorbell, the timidity in his heart that could not be expelled surged upward, surging into his heart, and he couldn't take a step.
At noon yesterday, Qiao Xiang thought to himself that Xiaowen's translation task must have been completed and he would return to work in the factory. After getting off work at noon, Xiaowen will definitely go home for dinner, and I will wait for her at the west exit of her house.
At about eleven o'clock, he arrived at the west exit of the private school alley, but he waited for an hour, only to see the Zheng family's father, riding a bicycle back to the private school alley. He waited all the time, but he didn't see Zheng Xiaowen.
He immediately urged himself in his heart: Xiaowen may be at home, go! Go to Xiaowen's house to have a look! When you see her, you will put out the words that you have accumulated for ten years for her, and not a word is left!
As a result, he pushed the cart and walked a few steps forward, thinking in his heart: It's past twelve o'clock, maybe Xiaowen and her family are eating. You Qiao Xiang went to her house at this time, what is the matter! Don't go, go another day, go home.
Qiao Xiang's heartfelt words, in fact, were that he had found a very reasonable excuse for himself! When he moved to the alley of the private school, he was already panicked in his heart. He was panicked, he knew very well in his heart: as long as he wanted to get close to Zheng Xiaowen, he would panic like this, and he would be so panicked that he couldn't say what he wanted to say.
Yesterday at noon, he didn't enter the gate of Zheng's house to see Zheng Xiaowen, and when he returned home, he was just a little annoyed in his heart, and there was not much movement.
This morning, he thought that it was Saturday, whether Zheng Xiaowen went to work in the factory or not, Xiaowen would definitely be at home. At nine o'clock, he dressed up in the mirror and went out happily.
Unexpectedly, he walked around the east end of the private school alley for two hours, not to mention going up the steps of the Zheng family's gate, he was so panicked that he didn't even enter the private school alley!
This time, he was so annoyed that he turned the head of his bicycle and rode back to his house quickly, went into his house and closed the door, and complained to himself:
Qiao Xiang, what's wrong with you? You went to her Xiaowen's house to work without panic, this thought of going to her for a showdown and talking about something, why aren't you yourself! Why are you so cowardly!
On the day of the trip to the mountain, you also saw clearly, although Yang Yilin and Qin Zixi, like you, often run to Zheng's house and are secretly chasing Xiaowen, but on the surface, no one is competing with you Qiao Xiang, and no one is robbing you Qiao Xiang!
When I went down the mountain that day, the group of friends, everyone saw that it was you holding Xiaowen's hand. At that time, no one knew that Xiaowen had a fever. You hold her hand, and no one says you're not, and no one glares at you, slanted at you, or stops you. I really don't understand, so what are you still afraid of! What are you still within?!
Qiao Xiang complained so much, and he didn't finish his grievances, he was still annoyed with himself and complained about himself:
Qiao Xiang, think about it again, on the day of the trip, when Xiaowen was in a coma, look at the performance of Yang Yilin and Qin Zixi? Especially the crying appearance of the two of them, why did they cry like that? Why did they call Zheng Xiaowen's name and shout like that?
Doesn't Yang Yilin usually call Xiaowen and 'Teacher Zheng'? But at that moment, why did he change it to 'Xiaowen' and shout 'Xiaowen'?
At this moment, if you think about the crying of those two people and the scene of those two people shouting, you Qiao Xiang is scared when you think about it!
Qiao Xiang, increase your courage, you have not been at home for more than 20 days, who knows if the situation has changed? Who knows what things have turned out of? Hurry up, if you don't hurry up, Xiaowen will become someone else's person!
Oh, what's wrong with me, how can I suddenly have a premonition in my heart, in my hunch, I always feel that Xiaowen has been robbed by others!Ah? Is this true? Is this premonition true, or is it scaring myself?!
Qiao Xiang, you don't care so much, you don't care if it's true or fake. If Qiao Xiang is still in the way of being embarrassed and retreating, your ten years of hard work and waiting are doomed to be in vain! Qiao Xiang, let me tell you, you can't just stay at home, you have to go to her!
Qiao Xiang annoyed himself, grumbling and muttering to himself, and he also persuaded himself:
Qiao Xiang, you face-loving Sven person, she Zheng Xiaowen didn't reply or mention the letter, you really don't have the face to ask or show your sincerity!
Oh? No, no, no, now the situation has changed! Qiao Xiang, you don't have the face to ask, that's what you thought in the past. That old thought is gone, you can't think like that now, you can't think about that letter anymore, there is no response!
I have a feeling that I have to tell you now that there is no time for you Qiao Xiang to think about it and make you Qiao Xiang wait! Until now, Zheng Xiaowen still insisted, not talking about the letter. She doesn't say it, you Qiao Xiang go and say it! Go, take out your nature, take out your chic, you go to her house now, and say it to her in person!
Qiao Xiang is always so resolute in his own little world, always so resolute and hard to persuade himself, always like this to cheer for himself, but as a result, he is always timid.
In fact, Qiao Xiang's timidity in the expression of love also belongs to the normal psychological range.
There are some young boys, they speak in front of their friends, and they really talk calmly and casually, even if they go up to the podium of the conference to speak, they do not take the script, they speak fluently, and they speak the Tao at the top, and no one is unconvinced.
However, these young boys, when they are in love, they will always be cowardly and blush in the face of the girl they like, and they will even be unable to say what they want to express, and the relationship will fail. There are not a few of them!
Qiao Xiang, he can be regarded as a boy in this range.
However, these young boys, if they change their love object, this object girl, and they take a fancy to this boy at a glance, this will be easy to do.
At this time, the boy's love object has changed, the environment for falling in love has changed, and the atmosphere of talking to the girl has changed. Then, the possibility of this boy's success in love is too much, too much.
If it comes to Qiao Xiang and Zheng Xiaowen, it is so difficult to communicate between the two of them, in addition to the reason for the letter, there is also Qiao Xiang's timidity. Being timid in front of lovers is a big deal!
Boys chasing girls, not only to be impressed with sincerity, but also to use skills to maneuver, love guts are indispensable!
If you don't have the courage to love, you don't dare to speak in front of your favorite girl, and if you don't dare to speak, you can't express your mind, so what kind of love are you talking about!
Qiao Xiang's timidity in the past few years is different from the timidity he had in previous years, in essence.
A few years ago, Qiao Xiang's timidity was due to his young age and his courage had not yet grown, so he did not dare to speak in front of Zheng Xiaowen.
Now, this cowardice of his is the result of his distraction!
Qiao Xiang's courage in front of Zheng Xiaowen was scattered, and there was also a reason.
Take this recent incident as an example, after returning from a trip to Sheep's Head Mountain, if Qiao Xiang does not go to study in other places, Zheng Xiaowen catches a cold and falls ill, and on May 5th, he will naturally go to Zheng's house to visit Zheng Xiaowen. When he visits Zheng Xiaowen and comforts Zheng Xiaowen, he will definitely take this good opportunity to talk to Zheng Xiaowen.
While he and Zheng Xiaowen are talking, they will definitely continue to be in the harmonious mood on Sheep's Head Mountain, and on the way back, that harmonious mood. He has no cowardice and no restraint, he will naturally be able to let go and talk to Zheng Xiaowen.