"No, I didn't, you overestimated me, Gu Hao. Tang Meiwen's face was a little distorted in the dim light, and she sighed, "In the afternoon, I just talked about my experience over the years, my life seems to be magnificent, but the joys and sorrows can only be appreciated by myself......

After graduating from university, Tang Meiwen returned to his hometown. At that time, it was the tide of going abroad, and her parents asked someone to apply for a visa, but she felt that there were no people and things worth remembering in China, so she went to Europe with her family and cut off contact with all her classmates.

Although the parents have no culture, they have a hard work that does not admit defeat. The family first stayed in France for a while, and her parents did odd jobs everywhere, and although Tang Meiwen graduated from a prestigious university, due to the language barrier, she could only find a small job in a Chinese restaurant.

Although the family's income is not high, they are struggling with all their strength with the dream of staying in Europe one day.

Later, my father became tired and sick.

In order to treat his father, he spent all his savings, but his father still died. The death of his father brought her mother and her permanent residency in France. There are gains and losses in life, and Tang Meiwen felt the cruelty of fairness in the world for the first time.

A few years later, Tang Meiwen and his mother settled in France and owned their own house and car, which was naturally much better than in China. In 2000, China's development level still lagged behind that of developed countries in Europe. Although it took too much effort and my father's life in the early stage, in my mother's eyes, everything was worth it.

Mother found another man, French, and Tang Meiwen disliked him very much, disgusted him for being sloppy, dirty, and lazy. But the mother believed that he could bring them good luck and more opportunities. As a result, he was an alcoholic, often beating his mother after drinking, and after repeated domestic violence, his mother couldn't bear to break up, but he beat him until he vomited blood and was hospitalized.

He even harassed Tang Meiwen while his mother was in the hospital, and cursed that Tang Meiwen and her mother were bitches who deserved to be bullied by him. Tang Meiwen was very calm and sensible to avoid his harassment, and she did not call the police, but contacted two black men by phone, telling them that she put 1,000 francs in a garbage can and asked the two black men to clean him up.

In order to prevent accidents, Tang Meiwen risked 1,000 francs being swallowed up by two black men and did nothing, but she got the bet right, and after the two black men took the money, they intercepted him under an overpass and beat him severely.

He was not lightly injured, and he stumbled to the hospital alone, only to fall into the river and drown halfway through.

After the incident, the police traced it, but neither found the two blacks, nor did they implicate Tang Meiwen. But the two blacks wanted to continue to ask for money from Tang Meiwen, threatening that if Tang Meiwen did not agree to their demands, they would report it to the police.

Before leaving, she called the tallest of the two negroes and said that she would give him 1,500 francs to clean up his companion with the shorter negro. If he didn't agree, she would give the short black man 1000 francs and ask him to beat him. Because a short black man is willing to hit him for 1000 francs.

The tall black man agreed.

Just as the tall blacks and the short blacks were killing each other, the police came down from the sky and they were arrested. Only then did the two blacks know what happened to Tang Meiwen and decided to tell the truth. But unexpectedly, Tang Meiwen had prepared evidence in advance to prove that she had nothing to do with the matter, and after the police investigation, it was determined that the two blacks were framed.

After Tang Meiwen calmly got out, he left France. Not liking the chaos and decay of France, she came to England.

In England, Tong met an Englishman named David, and they fell in love. Mother is a lot more honest, no longer yearning for foreign love, and also warned Tang Meiwen not to trust foreigners, due to the huge cultural differences, what you think you pay is your willing dedication in their eyes. Since he is willing to do it for himself, it has nothing to do with him, and he will not admit it or be grateful.

Soon, Tang Meiwen experienced the pain of his mother back then. Soon after Davy fell in love with her, he abandoned her and fell in love with her best friend. David's reason is very good, he doesn't love her anymore, and the best friend who falls in love with her can't help himself, they really love each other, and I hope she can bless them.

If it were in China, it would definitely be considered betrayal and cheating, but in David's eyes, it was just a normal feeling of love and unlove. If the feeling is gone, you have to break up. Tang Meiwen couldn't understand it, and asked his girlfriend to theorize, and his girlfriend said that they really love each other, and if they marry David, she can get permanent residency in the UK, hoping that she can understand and support her.

Well, although Tang Meiwen was sad, he also had to accept the reality. Since then, she has decided never to fall in love with foreigners again, not that foreigners are unlucky, but because of cultural differences, Chinese women always like to treat themselves as a vulnerable group, and always feel that they pay 1 point, and men should return 10 points, because they love each other with their youth and life.

But she never thought that the other party was not loving her with her youth and life?

Slowly, Tang Meiwen deeply understood the cultural differences between the East and the West and the difference in the understanding of male rights and feminism. And women's rights in Europe and the United States are things that men can do and women can also do, and men are polite to women, not as a matter of course, but only as an obligation.

Tang Meiwen grew up slowly, and she met a Chinese named Fu Xuewen again, and the two fell in love seriously. Fu Xuewen came to the UK earlier than her, studied in the UK, and when he met her, he had at least ten years of life in the UK.

Generally speaking, there are not many Chinese students who stay in the UK for employment after graduation, and the UK is not very friendly to Chinese students. Basically, if you want to find a good job in the UK, the possibility is extremely small. Of course, it is also related to the poor employment environment in the UK.

Fu Xuewen works for a Fortune 500 company and earns as much as £5,000 a month, which is considered an out-and-out wealthy class. And Tang Meiwen's income is only 1,200 pounds, and she has to support her mother, which is stretched every month.

The two have been in love for more than a year, and they have reached the stage of talking about marriage, but they broke up because of a trivial matter!

The reason for the breakup was Tang Meiwen's mother.

Fu Xuewen clearly told Tang Meiwen that if he married her, he could bear her living expenses, but he would not be responsible for her mother's expenses, and he married her, not her family.

Tang Meiwen disagreed, her mother sacrificed too much for her, and now in a foreign country, if she doesn't care about her, she doesn't even have a job, how can she survive? Although now her mother has become very decadent, smoking and drinking every day, doing nothing, or playing mahjong with a group of old men and old ladies in Chinatown, but in the end, she is the mother who gave birth to her and raised her, and she cannot abandon her.

After rounds of quarrels, Tang Meiwen was exhausted, and she finally understood that Fu Xuewen spent the most important growth stage of his life in the UK, although he is Chinese, he has a British heart, behavioral habits and ways of thinking, which have been Westernized, and he is unwilling to afford her mother's life, and he also has his starting point. She can't force him too much, since she can't change her, and she can't change her reality, she can only choose to break up.

After breaking up with Fu Xuewen, Tang Meiwen has been single until now. It's not that she doesn't want to look for it, but she knows that whether she is looking for a Westerner or an Easterner, she will meet the right one again. There are cultural differences and conflicts of values with Westerners, and the same is true with Easterners. She belongs to the halfway abroad, not only retaining the Chinese cultural heritage, but also trying to adapt to the Western cultural customs, some nondescript, so that she can neither truly integrate into the Western culture, but also unable to return to the Chinese tradition.

Slowly, Tang Meiwen became a woman with an independent personality and do-it-yourself, at least she has achieved real equality between men and women on the surface, and she can do everything that a man can do. She has become easy to stop asking for help, but she also knows that she is still an Eastern woman in her bones, and she still can't be a Western woman's true complete independence on the material and spiritual level.

Three years ago, my mother died. Before dying, her mother took Tang Meiwen's hand and told her that she now regretted going abroad very much. After all that I have experienced in Europe, in retrospect, I might as well have spent my life in a remote mountain village in China. In the experience of going abroad, the pain is far greater than the happiness, and the loss is far more than the gain. Hopefully, after her death, her ashes can be scattered in the fields of her hometown.

In order to fulfill his mother's last wish, Tang Meiwen returned to China with her ashes and returned to his hometown after being away for more than ten years.

When she returned to her homeland, she was shocked to find that her hometown was no longer what it was when she left, and the rapid development of the economy had given her hometown a new look, with high-rise buildings rising from the ground, and the backward and outdated appearance of the past was completely gone. And the wealthy villagers, who have buildings and cars, compared with her income abroad, she is an out-and-out poor person!

Not only material poverty, but also spiritual poverty. She was hesitant and helpless, and she couldn't find a sense of solidity in England, but in her hometown, she was at ease, as if she were one with the earth. She finally understood that after being away from her homeland for so many years, what she was thinking about was the smoke of her hometown and the sound of the countryside.

Tang Meiwen decided to stay.

After working in her hometown for a year, Tang Meiwen left her hometown and came to the capital, which only calmed her anxiety for many years on the spiritual level, but on the material level, there was no way for her to welcome the new students more calmly. The capital was her favorite place back then, and it was also the place where her youth and love testimoned.

It is impossible for her lost youth to come back, and perhaps, the love she once missed can still be met.