"You must be Miss Chu, right?" the man asked me politely. "I'm Mr. Lu's secretary, Zhang Ling, and I'm here to deal with Joe's funeral. ”

I tried my best to calm and restrain in my life, "What do you have to do with Qiao Xun? What does Mr. Lu have to do with Qiao Xun? Qiao Xun has already settled in the ground, unfortunately, Mr. Zhang, you are a step late, if there is nothing else, please leave." This Secretary Zhang listened to my words, was silent for a while, and said: "Even so, I don't want to bother more, the entire treatment process and the funeral expenses, please Miss Chu make a detailed payment, I will transfer the money to Miss Chu's account." He paused again and continued: "In addition, Lu is always Qiao Xun's father. ”

I felt that my eyes were darkened, and all emotions seemed to explode at that time, and I cried hysterically at him: "Do you think Qiao Xun is an object? An item that can be traded with money without feelings? Qiao Xun's father? What did Qiao Xun's father do earlier? Who wants your money? I just want Qiao Xun, I just want Qiao Xun." ”

This secretary Zhang seemed to be startled by my momentary outburst, and he couldn't say half a word for a while. After being silent for a while, he left only one sentence of "Miss Chu think about it again" and left.

What happened to me, I am powerless to investigate. In short, I insisted on rejecting the money given by Secretary Zhang, or Mr. Lu, and returned to China with sadness. Professor F

iedma

They wanted to keep me, and even talked to me the day before I left. He said, Av

il, it's not your fault, science is not omnipotent, where science can't reach, everything can only be left to the Lord to decide. You are excellent, arguably the best student I have ever taught in my life. You're the youngest professor at P University, and your research is about to come to fruition, and it's going to be a result that will change the field and the world, so don't give up because of this, okay?

However, I can't even save Qiao Xun.

On the day he returned home, the sky in country M was gloomy, and Qiao Xun left on a sunny day, and it was always sunny after he left. I always feel that God has no eyes, shouldn't this situation be accompanied by continuous rain?

This rain finally fell, not when Qiao Xun left, but when I left. This is the first spring rain of the year in country M. For me, it was the last spring rain I watched in country M.

After returning to China, I began to have insomnia, always dreaming of Qiao Xun's pale smile on the afternoon he left. Later, I started taking medicine, but this time it was not a sleep aid, but an antidepressant. I have lost Qiao Xun, lost my love of scientific research, and now, even my optimism has been lost. It's fair to be naïve.

I have been living smoothly for the first 21 years, and I thought it was a kind of luck, but one day, a smooth life was knotted, and luck would turn into misfortune. From this point of view, this world is always fair, after the middle of summer, the cold winter solstice, no one will stay in the most beautiful years.

Before I was 21, I had never drunk alcohol. I want to keep a clear mind, a clear mind all the time. Now, I just want to lose my sobriety, to remain confused, to drown all my sorrows, all my worries and sorrows, in this cup of wine. Because, it hurts too much to be awake.

At least, that's what I was when Tan Yi found me. She picked me up and yelled at me, "Isn't it just a dead man, is it worth it for you to do this?" I laughed and said with a smile, "It's not just a man, he's Qiao Xun." After speaking, he lay on Tan Yi's shoulder, aggrieved, and tears fell, "They say I love Qiao Xun, how can I love him?" After sobbing for a while, I whispered, "If I love him, how can I bear to let him die and die in front of me? ”

Qiao Xun, how can I, how can I bear it?