I haven't understood, it's you who have changed your mind, I tolerated you because of my fault, but why did you put on a mocking face, is it because of myself, because I am stupid, because I love you, so now that you have changed your mind, you think that my love for you is not worth mentioning, is it true that our relationship over the years has not made you miss a little? It's because you cheated on yourself, so you forced me to divorce, although I was at fault first, but I have always maintained it, and you directly chose to divorce, you have to leave because you fell in love with someone else, I don't understand, don't you feel guilty about me? Like me, you feel that you have failed the other party's guilt, you cheat! You feel that you are not wrong at all? Cheating on anyone will directly play with your life, isn't it? I choose to be silent and write off because I love you, but what about you? Even if you change your mind and feel that we didn't miss us in the past, then out of respect and guilt, shouldn't you be gentle with me? I hope you are because hate is easier for people to let go of than love, I am not as good as you, I chose love, so I can't let go of you. If this affection is not enough to prove that you should be gentle with me, then I am the father of the child, and your ex-husband is enough for this reason! You are blinded now, I know, but you really love me. It's just that you don't feel in love anymore, I really can't sleep because I'm angry with you, I can't eat, my heart hurts all the time, I can't breathe, and now I need to take medicine every day to make myself breathe more comfortably, is this really the result you want to see me?

Today is February 6, 2020, and I haven't slept for two nights, and I'm always in a daze when I wake up during the day, and I don't know what I'm looking at, and my mind is full of images of us together.

Every night when you close your eyes, it's all you, and it's you in your dreams.

Meat, I really miss you so much, I try my best not to bother you, but my heart really hurts, I regret why I didn't accompany you more in the first place, I regret why I didn't cherish you well, I miss you so much, meat.

I really miss you, my heart hurts, it hurts, I don't blame you, meat, I deserve it, I deserve it, how I wish you could come back, look at me, I'm really pitiful, you said let me try to forget about you and let go of our past. I really can't do it, I love you so much, I don't know why I love you so much, I love you so much, I love you crazy, but you don't want to look at me again.

I tried my best to suppress my restless heart, and I really regretted it, I regretted it. But it's too late, and I don't even have the qualifications to stay by your side silently.

I think you're doing well, I'm afraid you're not doing well, I'm really conflicted, I always want to try desperately to get you back, but you haven't given me a chance, you've been avoiding me, it's all my fault, I really know it's wrong, meat.

I am willing to wait for you, quietly and quietly, but I just ask you not to avoid me, and talk to me like an ordinary friend, even if it is enough. I really love you, meat.

Your departure makes me feel like I have nothing, I really want to hold your hand, your amorousness, betraying my love, I used a world, but in exchange for ashes, how appropriate.

I saw you again in my dream, but you still forgot about me in my dream. I just looked at you silently.

The night passed like this, and my heart became calmer and calmer. A person who is selfish enough to be self-centered in everything, I really can't understand where he makes you feel better than me. People say that love is blind...... If you want me to say, love is blind.

Whether you speak or do things, you are not a person worthy of lifelong trust, and you are like blind. Go ahead, who made me a stranger.

This stranger will only look at you silently and wait for you silently. Of course, if you have another son and a half daughter in the future, it will be the end of eternity!

The twilight was low, the silence was faint, and it was a long sleepless night.

Looking at my phone, I couldn't find a place to let go of my feelings, and I couldn't help but feel tired.

There are thousands of life, all kinds of sorrows, but I don't know the geometry of life, and I don't know the sorrows of life.

There are few stars, the dark starlight is faint, the heart is faint, the pain is bursting, and the sleeplessness in the middle of the night seems to have become my most comfortable time, and I always inexplicably remember the beginning of sorrow and joy.

There is crying, there is laughter, and it is toxic.

I found that the thoughts in my heart seemed to have turned into spring mud, and I was deep in my heart, and the pain in my heart was willing to be dissipated like smoke as soon as possible with the brand.

The love that can't be let go, the more and more real, the more and more empty and fantastic, a sentence I love you, a few months of annual rings, a sentence of blessing you, the soul will accompany you for the rest of your life!

I don't regret it, I love eternity!

At 4 o'clock in the morning, I still couldn't sleep, my body was seriously overdrawn, my eyes were blank, and my mind was dizzy.

At the moment, I am sitting on the platform, enjoying the sub-zero temperature, so that I don't want to be cranky.

An hour passed, and nothing but tears were left behind.

Nobody understands me! Nobody wants to sit quietly with me.

Suicide, self-harm, once again protruded in my mind, it is really boring, this world is ruthless, the world is heartless, good people do not live long, where is the meaning of my existence? I am not even worth a grain of dust, at least I can be blown by the wind, and I can't, nothing.

This night, I dreamed of you again, so uncomfortable.

I really don't want to harass you anymore, but it's really hard to torture myself.

I'm just a clown, hehe, in my dream, I still paid with my life to protect you. Maybe I was born to die for you. It's so pitiful, loving you makes me feel inferior, and loving you makes me helpless.

How long will I have to endure it, this torture is really torturous. But what can I do, because I want you to be good. I don't want your family, I don't want you to be hurt by me anymore, I can only continue to endure silently. There is no other way.

I've found an effective way to suppress my thoughts and resist the uneasiness in my heart.

That's busy!

Busy to the end, busy to the end, exhausted only drowsiness, nothing else.

Although the body seems to be under great pressure, it is better than hurting yourself by restraint. Because you'll never receive a word from her.

I was happy this night because I didn't dream of you.

In the dream, I went back to my youth, and I was so happy to talk and laugh with the girl who was deep in my heart.

I once chose to stay away because of responsibility, and this miss is a lifetime!

Maybe I shouldn't have been so confused back then, otherwise I wouldn't have lost so badly!