&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; The unfamiliar white space, the unique smell of Laisu water, and the quiet atmosphere that makes people panic, in early summer, hurriedly close their eyes, and deceive themselves, all fake, this is a nightmare.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Early Summer would rather she never wake up, she childishly thought, as long as she didn't open her eyes, she wouldn't have to face anything.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; She could hear the doctor asking if she was feeling better, she pretended to be unconscious, but her fingers couldn't help but grip the white sheet tightly, because she heard the doctor saying to Ou Jinyu: "After losing a child, the mother's psychological reconstruction will be more important??????

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Her ears blocked out all sounds, leaving only the chaotic sound of her heartbeat, ringing in her ears again and again, dull pain in her chest with each deep breath, then relieved, then waiting for the next round of pain, wireless repeat, vicious circle.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; After a long time, she closed her eyes and asked, "What about my child?"

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; The man was silent there, his outstretched hand hanging in the air, but he was not qualified to fall, "I'm sorry??????"

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; He didn't know that his momentary confusion could cause so much damage, and when the doctor told him that their child was gone, he leaned against the wall all of a sudden, and he had no strength, what he had done to her and the child, and now he didn't know what else he could say except sorry.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; "Where's my child?

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; How could the child be gone, they were all lying to her, he was still in her body yesterday, she could even feel him listening, he was gasping, his existence was only so short in her life, too late to ask her to love him, too late to tell him that she cared that way.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Curled up tightly, her stomach hurt, it hurts, she knows there is no more peace, it's a debt she owes, she owes the child.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Ou Jinyu's gaze never left that face, but she didn't even want to look at him, it was the first time he saw such a deep despair on a person's face, she barely shed tears, but this made him even more afraid, almost humbly begging, "Early summer, I will satisfy you whatever you want, please, don't do this!"

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; The corners of Chuxia's mouth only twitched a few times, but she didn't make a sound, she knew that she couldn't give him what she wanted, she whispered, "I want to drink porridge." ”

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp;Ou Jinyu was stunned for a moment, and then said ecstatically: "Okay, what do you want to drink? Abalone porridge, lobster porridge, or vegetable porridge? I will buy everything and ask you to choose it." ”

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; In early summer, Ou Jinyu waited quickly out of the ward before slowly opening her eyes, her bloodless lips moved slightly, "I want to be free." ”

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; When Ou Jinyu came back, all she saw was an empty ward, and the porridge in her hand fell and spilled on the ground.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; "No matter how much it costs, how many people you send, you have to find someone for me!" Ou Jinyu yelled into the phone like crazy, he now understood that what Chu Xia wanted was just to leave, just freedom.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; No one knows that in early summer, she returned to her hometown Fengcheng in a hospital gown, Ou Jinyu had already bought the family's original house back, and every day she nested in a familiar space, watching TV, sleeping, cooking for herself, and then going to bed again.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Every afternoon, she would lie on the sofa with half-squinted eyes, the sun shifted a little bit on her body, she looked out of the familiar window, and in a trance it was like seeing the face of the year, the way he stood in the snow, the shallow lines at the corners of his eyes when he laughed, and the gaze he inadvertently threw over, at that time her heart beat faster for this glance I don't know how many times, his voice, his expression was like her breathing, her blood flow was deeply engraved in her body, and it was derived with the division of each cell, she knew that she could not forget it in this life, but she had to give up。

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; They could no longer face each other, every minute and every second together was a kind of mutual torture, but she knew that all the desperate injuries were their terrible alternative love, he was right, she was a leopard like him, and her bloodthirsty fangs hurt herself when she fought.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; After searching for a full twenty days, Ou Jinyu stood tiredly in front of the most impressive house in Fengcheng, the clothes on his body were no longer ironed for the first time, and he didn't even notice that one of the cufflinks fell off at some point, and the cuffs were so open, exposed on the outside of the suit jacket, looking a little embarrassed.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; He tried to insert the lock with the same key he had used back then, twisting it gently, but he froze, he feared that his hopes would be disappointed again, and he didn't know where he was going to get her back if she wasn't here.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Walking in gently, the small figure was in the sofa, breathing shallowly, the small nose was slightly moving, the skin was greasy in the sun, and the fusion was general, and everything in the skin texture was magnified several times, Rao was so he still saw her good skin with zero pores, it should be as soft as a baby, that kind of touch has been lost for so long, Ou Jinyu couldn't help but lie on her face, her skin under her hand was cold, and the cold remained in his palm, she was still so afraid of cold.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; His warm embrace hugged her cold body, the sofa was too small, she slept uncomfortably, her bent legs were always adjusting her posture, he carefully put her on the bed, and when she took off her shoes, he realized why her feet were so cold, he even had an urge to pull her up and scold, curled up on the sofa alone on such a cold day, didn't even know how to wear socks?

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; He clenched his fists fiercely, but quickly let go, slowly held her cold little feet in his wide palm, rubbed back and forth, thought for a while, he unbuttoned the cardigan, put her feet inside, the sudden cold made him shiver, he was stunned, because this series of movements was so unfamiliar, not at all like he Ou Jinyu did.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; He stared blankly at the sleeping face, and said softly but with a heavy heart, "I just want your feet to be no longer so cold in winter, because I can warm you ??????"

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Stop, he was dumbfounded, why can you only be so calmly opposite each other when you are asleep?

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; "In early summer, I will give you the freedom you want, but what I want, you will never be able to fulfill it again in your life." ”

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; When I woke up in early summer and saw Ou Jinyu, I instinctively moved my body back, Ou Jinyu smiled bitterly in her heart, she was so afraid of me?

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; "You don't have to be afraid, I won't hurt you anymore, I've already signed the document on the table??????" Ou Jinyu couldn't say anything, the words he thought of were like a broken mirror reflecting their tragic past, magnifying all the scars, he thought, maybe it's time to let go, maybe, this is to love her.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Chu Xia silently held the name, for the first time she felt that her name was so difficult to write, every stroke she wrote very hard, like an unbearable goodbye, she said goodbye to not only a marriage, but also to love herself so hard, from today on, she will never love someone with all her strength again.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp;Ou Jinyu saw her write her name without hesitation, without any nostalgia, and her heart that had been sinking for a long time became impetuous again, "Are you so impatient??????? In early summer, can you be smarter without me by your side?"

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; His voice trembled, in fact, he almost said, fool, can't you tell the difference between divorce and separation? Don't you see the three-year period? In the early summer, you are still a fool, but I am even more stupid than you, three years, three years can make you come back?

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; It's all over, early summer is relieved, the goodbye sticks to her mouth for a long time, but she decides to give up, the best ending between them is that there is no more relationship, she just whispers, "I'm gone." ”

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp;"Hmm. Ou Jinyu replied, he heard the sound of the wheels of the suitcase clattering against the ground, and suddenly turned his head to look at her back, seeing that she was getting farther and farther away from him, his eyes were suddenly sour, and there was a liquid called tears that slid to his mouth very little, and he said to her deeply: "In early summer, I used to say that I would not want you to leave me unless I die, but now?????? I realized that this was worse than death. ”

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; He suddenly blocked his eyes, and felt her steps with his heart, I said that no one is allowed to enter and exit freely in my world, you enter, you must not leave without my permission, but now I acquiesce to this separation.

&bp;&bp;&bp;&bp; Standing there in early summer, but still looking back, she knew that she couldn't see anything around this corner, but she still turned around, Ou Jinyu, goodbye, I still love you so much, so God asks you to seal all my memories.