Ou Jinyu returned to the familiar villa in despair, everything here was still the same, but he felt that there was no taste of home, it turned out that the home was not a house, but the person in the house.

He wandered slowly from room to room, his steps lingering in front of one room, his hand on the doorknob but a little hesitant, and it took him a long time to twist the handle gently.

That small room was very simple, the walls were made of special sound-absorbing materials, it was the piano room used to practice at home in early summer, and there was an open sheet music on the music table in front of the window, and the page number on it stayed at 27 pages, and his hand slowly caressed that page, did she practice here in the end?

He turned his body and looked around in circles, this space he had never entered before, today was the first time, but he suddenly found that he felt very comfortable here, no wonder she liked it, because such a confined space would make people inexplicably feel a sense of security.

He sat in the place where she often sits, and in his right hand there was a lute, which she often used, and one of the strings of the lute was broken, and he twisted the shaft little by little to remove the strings, and the strings shrunk into a ball in his palm, and the halo of metal flickered and jumped, touching the string in his heart, and the aftermath was lingering, but it was difficult to find the sound again.

The strings swirled in the man's palm, round and round, and became a medium for him to recall that day, when she frantically played "Five Heroes of Langya Mountain" downstairs.

"Early Summer ??????" The man gently pressed his palm between his eyebrows, and between his hand and his head was a string that represented longing.

The bell rang for a long time, and Ou Jinyu walked slowly towards the study, and when he picked up the earpiece, he heard Jiang Yumo's almost crazy voice inside, "Where is she? Where did she go?"

As if she hadn't heard, Ou Jinyu put the phone on the table and let Jiang Yumo scream inside.

Ou Jinyu's eyes couldn't help but focus on the safe, he suddenly ran over, knelt on the ground, he couldn't know what was inside, and now ??????

The cartoon-like band-aids were gone, but there were two more things, and he shook his head as if he was running away, no, not like that, but the crystal swan that he remembered so much really appeared in front of his eyes.

His hands trembled too much to hold the light knick-knack, one messy number after another slowly arranged in front of his eyes, and he watched as the code of memory cruelly opened in front of his eyes as if waiting for the death penalty, and he was so afraid in his heart, and he thought that in his heart, wondering what was wrong with all this.

He picked up the letter under the crystal swan, he hadn't received a handwritten letter in years, he never knew that her handwriting would be like this, the envelope he couldn't open for a long time, and finally tore off a corner of the letter.

His eyes were fixed on it, as if they had been carried to the past by her memories.

"Ou Jinyu, I never thought I would write you such a letter, maybe it is very long, but I hope you can read it calmly, because this is a long letter that can penetrate all the sufferings of you and me.

I thought I'd hate you at this point, but alas, I couldn't.

But I don't have the courage to stay anymore, because I'm afraid, because of your pride, you're always so high, maybe I'm just a woman in your heart in exchange for money, that's why you signed that contract with me in the first place, and your subtext is that it's my price tag, that's my weight in your heart.

You may think that there is no one who is qualified to really enter your heart, but do you know that there is a person who has always loved you for so many years?

I used to be so jealous of Yu Lingxuan, I used to think that the biggest mistake between us was that I wasn't the first woman you cared about.

Yu Lingxuan, I was madly jealous that she possessed your beautiful youth, but when I suddenly found those yellowed band-aids that could barely see the patterns, I realized that I arrived before her, and I was 12 years old at that time.

At that time, I didn't know what I was going to do in the future, I just obediently obeyed my parents' arrangement, they asked me to practice the piano, I practiced the piano, there was no reason, I just wanted them to be happy, I had long been used to being a good girl.

But the first thing I did against their will in my life happened during the winter break when I met you.

The first time I saw you, not by Sister Ling Xuan's side, but on the stage of the Children's Palace, on which you played Chopin's prelude fluently, your slender fingers seemed to be jumping on my young heartstrings instead of flowing on the smoky keys.

I looked at you stupidly, from top to bottom, and from bottom to top, I don't know if that almost nymphomaniac gaze is called liking, but I just like to see you play the piano with something hidden between your eyebrows that I can't understand, and after many years, I understand why your music is so exciting, because you are emotional, and at that time I didn't understand what love was, I just thought you were the best-looking boy I had ever seen.

I love looking at your face, your starry eyes, and your lips that are softer than a girl.

I never expected to be anxious about you, because that perfect boy is like a dream, and how can the person in the dream see my existence.

When you pursed your lips tightly and said the first thing to me, I was blindfolded, I couldn't understand it, and I couldn't answer.

I don't know how my first reaction was to run away, in my panic I actually pulled over the backstage shelf supporting the curtain, that shelf everyone knew it was broken, and I knew it, but at that moment I forgot everything, watching it fall, I just stood there stupidly, I closed my eyes and thought I was done, now I was going to die.

The shelf fell, but it wasn't me, you snorted and blocked the smashed iron shelf with your arm, I was so scared that I couldn't do it, I would just look at you stupidly, I would only look at your bloody arm and cry, I actually wanted to say, I didn't mean to, I didn't know it would be pulled down by me, I didn't know you would be hurt for me.

Unfortunately, I didn't say a word, just looked at the culprit, the long steel pipe.

It took me a long time to grab your hand in embarrassment, and I didn't even notice that you were grinning at being caught by me, but instead of blaming me, you smiled even better, smiling at me and sticking all the Band-Aids that I had managed to turn out of my bag on your hand.

Those band-aids are my treasures, they were just brought back from the United States by my aunt, they are full of Disney characters, I numbered them one by one, and wrote them one by one, Mickey Mouse is CX1, Donald Duck is CX2, CX is the abbreviation of my name, they are the babies that belong to early summer, and at that moment I would like to share them with you.

I remember you said to me, "Don't be afraid, I'm ??????"

I was stunned, this sentence, I have been buried in the bottom of my heart, hidden in a corner that only I have the right to touch, that year, I was 12 years old.

Many years later, when you unconsciously said this sentence again, I didn't know that the boy at that time was you, so I bewitched my heart just for this sentence, and forgive you for all the harm you did to me, because this sentence has been buried in the heart of a little girl for so many years.

Your injuries are recovering very slowly, and the number of times you go on stage has decreased a lot, and I always follow you to piano lessons in a haunt, and I really thank you for not choosing transportation because you are rich, so that I have the opportunity to follow you, and I later learned that you like to walk, so that you can forget everything for a while.

Actually, I would say that I also like to walk, but the difference is that it makes me remember a lot.

I remember you standing in front of the plaque of the Music High School and looking at it for a long time, I thought it would be your ideal, so I said to myself that I would also be admitted to the High School, just to be in the same space with you.

For the first time in my life, I talked back to my parents, and I said, "I want to take the music high school." ”

My mother thought I was crazy, so crazy that I wanted to give up the opportunity to be sent to the city's key middle school, and I didn't want the honor at my fingertips, but I wanted to pursue an illusory future with an uncertain future.

I cried and went on a hunger strike, as if I wanted to dedicate myself to art, but only I knew that it was only because of you.

I was admitted to the high school as I wished, and I was destined to miss you, I wouldn't have known that your hand would be so affected by that injury, and when I didn't see you in the crowd of high school freshmen, I was disappointed to remember that you and I didn't have an agreement, it was my wishful thinking, it was a silly girl's one-man show.

I'm tired of living without you, I hate the campus without you, but I don't have the right to be willing to fall, because I put a heavy financial burden on my family, and I let my father come home later and later, I looked at him distressed and said to me: "It's okay, Xiaoxia, it's nothing that this old bone is hard, it's not for you." ”

I held back my tears and swore to work hard, I had to be the first in everything, I did my best in everything, just to repay the guilt in my heart, to repay the mistakes I made because of willfulness, but unfortunately, I didn't understand, the cause at that time had already doomed the consequences of his day.

I was destined to lose my father and you at that moment, and that year, I was 12 years old.

Goodbye you, you are Yu Lingxuan's boyfriend, I don't know why I always feel that you are so familiar, I am infatuated with you, but I only dare to secretly look at you in the corner, because the prince in the fairy tale world will wait for his princess, not to mention this cruel reality, I am not a princess, I am just an ugly duckling, you have your white swan, but when she flies away from your world, I still can't help but approach you.

That night, I gave myself, and I have never regretted it until now, the first man who is a woman will make her very profound, it is not only a physical imprint, but also a spiritual baptism, when the seeds of passion are planted in my body, I have your taste, your breath.

But I know, you won't care, because you only left me a crystal swan, and the most important thing is that you forgot to have your names engraved on it, Ou Jinyu, Yu Lingxuan.

From then on, you and I forgot about this accidental moment, I dare not expect you to love me, I only hope that you can remember me, remember that there is such a girl who is obsessed with you.

Five years later, we met again in that noisy traffic, you don't remember me, but I can't forget, your unreasonable contract was signed by me willingly, because it is a wonderful thing to be by your side, but unfortunately, we started wrong, so it can only be a wrong ending. ”

Ou Jinyu closed her eyes in pain, how could it be her?

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