Chapter 112: Where Did the Monologue Come From?
She wanted to say no, but when she thought of Aunt Ye, who had been suffering from illness all the year round, she had to bow her head again, maybe she could sacrifice something in exchange for Aunt Ye's life, then of course she was willing.
But at this time she did not dare to look up into his eyes, she knew that if she answered like that, he would be disappointed.
She always felt that her nose was sour when her eyes were closed. She doesn't have much ability to compete with the world, she just wants to do her best to stay with Aunt Ye.
Mr. Shen saw that she had been silent for so long, was she willing in her heart?
"If it were me, I would be willing to turn my back on the whole family. Mr. Shen said lightly, without a little hesitation in his eyes.
She didn't dare to look up even more, she didn't dare to stand up for herself. She knew that her power was limited, and she knew even more about the consequences if she didn't.
He stood quietly beside her, always vaguely feeling as if there was something going on in her heart. Otherwise, how could the expression on her face be so complicated?
"Actually, you don't have to answer me, I already understand. I know whether you are good or bad, and if you like it too, I will not hesitate to give you the best life. ”
"For me, having money is not necessarily a good life. She said, her tone a little unconvinced.
Mr. Shen still thought that he had said something wrong again, he looked at her expression, "Do you think you are good now? If you don't compromise, life will torment you, are you really willing?"
"I don't want to, but I don't want to be with you for money. ”
"Then you are willing to be with another man for money? Anyway, you are only marrying for money, so why don't you marry me? I think I am richer than the person you are going to marry. ”
"Me!"
Yun Qing was finally willing to look up at him, the entanglement in her eyes was so obvious, and she felt that her throat was very clogged at this time.
When will pure love also be bargained?
She smiled, always feeling a little bitter in her smile. And she felt so cold, like a wall of ice around her, and she was the one trapped here.
Mr. Shen didn't hold her hand, he just looked at her, wanting to know what she thought. Didn't she say that she could marry someone she didn't like for the sake of her family?
Yun Qing gritted her teeth, she actually felt her heart turmoil at this moment.
She pushed Mr. Shen away, and then walked back. At this time, Shen Wangxi was chatting with Uncle Shen, and the two of them were not loud, but when they saw Yunqing, they were instantly silent.
"Uncle Shen, thank you for calling me over for dinner tonight. I'm sorry that I've got something to go now, though. Yun Qing said.
"It's okay, it's okay, I'll come back next time. Don't take it to heart, how about I let Yuenan send you back?" Shen Wangxi said.
"No, I'll just take the bus back by myself. Excuse me Uncle Shen. Yun Qing said again.
Shen Wangxi wanted to say something, but he felt that Yunqing was not in a good mood, so he didn't say more.
Uncle Shen on the side obviously didn't want to see Yun Qing, and when he saw Yun Qing, his face was full of disgust. I don't know, I think he hates Yun Qingna!
Yunqing doesn't think it's strange that Uncle Shen can eat people's gaze, anyway, she is used to it, as for whether your Uncle Shen will be good to me or not, what difference does it make? Good or bad, I have nothing to do with you!
Yun Qing walked all the way out of Shen's house, and when she arrived at the door, she saw Mr. Shen standing there. She suddenly had a bad premonition in her heart, could Mr. Shen be waiting for her?
It's better to make some things clear, Yun Qing walked quickly in front of Mr. Shen, and said softly: "I know that you can't let go of your liking for me for a while, but you have to understand that it is impossible for me to be with you." I can bear it just because of one Uncle Shen in your family, if there are a few more Uncle Shen, won't I die?"
"That's you...... Why won't you like me?"
"No, I just don't care about these things. If you really like me, then please respect me. ”
"Good. Mr. Shen nodded, but he always felt that he looked a little lost.
Obviously, this method will not work!
Yun Qing was afraid that she would hurt Mr. Shen's self-esteem, so she looked up and said to him again: "I don't talk about falling in love, my family background doesn't allow me to fall in love." Moreover, I don't have a favorite either. ”
Mr. Shen put his hand on her forehead, as if he was looking at a little pet of his own.
"Should I trust you?"
"You should believe me, I really don't have anyone I like. I just want to make money and go home, this is not my hometown. ”
"However, the reason you rejected me last time was that you liked that Wang Ziyu. The reason why you rejected me this time is that you don't have someone you like, so which one should I believe?" Mr. Shen looked thoughtful, as if he had never thought about the problem so seriously.
Yun Qing stood stupidly, she tried to remember the last time she rejected him, she seemed to be quite ruthless. But after a few days, she forgot that she had used a reason to lie to him, and she was slightly embarrassed.
It was a white lie, but now it seems so ridiculous.
She tugged at her purple sleeves and looked at the clean ground without a single leaf. She finally has no other reason, what can she do at this time?
Mr. Shen couldn't bear to see her so embarrassed, so he whispered to her again: "I know, in fact, you don't have someone you like, do you?"
"Hmm. ”
"And how about you think about me?"
"Uh. ”
She shrugged, she didn't dare to like Mr. Shen. People have high education, good qualifications, and good-looking figures, if you count them carefully, she doesn't deserve to like Mr. Shen at all, right?
Mr. Shen pinched her heart-shaped little face, this naughty ghost, when will she be able to tell the truth, and when will she be able to think about herself?
"Do you think falling in a relationship makes you selfish?"
Yun Qing thought for a moment, she shook her head and said, "I don't know. "She really didn't know what to say about it, but she was quite upset.
But Mr. Shen didn't think so, he seemed to be able to see through the little thoughts in her heart at a glance. But he was helpless, he couldn't change her mind, and he couldn't make her like him.
"You are very attentive to your family, and you are afraid that you will be useless to them, so you don't even dare to touch your own emotions, because you are afraid of losing their love for you, right?"
"I don't understand!"
"You have to understand that your family and your personal feelings are not the same thing. What are you still afraid of, and what can destroy you?" Mr. Shen continued to ask.
She took two steps back one after another, she really wanted to tell him that Aunt Ye had worked hard to save money to raise herself, how could she let go of Aunt Ye and think about other things?
She looked at Mr. Shen, and she wanted to tell him again that it was not that she had no ideas, but that she wanted to take care of Aunt Ye. She has been with Aunt Ye since she was a child, if she leaves, what should Aunt Ye do?
When it came to her mouth, she swallowed it back, she tried her best to squeeze out a smile, and said to Mr. Shen: "Thank you for liking me, but I still won't do it." ”
Mr. Shen had already been mentally prepared, and he also knew that she would not easily jump out of the original circle. Just seeing her so stubborn alone, he was faintly uneasy in his heart.
She can think about her family wholeheartedly, which means that she will not think about herself, and she will not think about herself.
A breeze blew, and the city's landscape trees finally landed on a small yellow leaf.
Yunqing stood at the bus stop waiting for the bus home, and Mr. Shen stood beside her and waited with her.
"Mr. Shen, why don't you go back? Aren't you afraid that Uncle Shen will talk about you?"
"My dad can't wait for me to take you home!"
"Oh well. ”
Yun Qing's gaze drifted into the distance again, as if the colorful white clouds on the horizon were quite good. One by one, they floated, just like that, as if the whole world was gone.
The vehicles coming and going were so dazzling, she felt that time was so fast, a week had passed in the blink of an eye, and she had found a place to live in Liangqi City, and she had met so many interesting people.
Mr. Shen beside her is no longer cold, the corners of her mouth are slightly pursed, as if she still feels a little funny, what is the reason for him to like herself?
"What do you like about me?" she asked, looking back.
"Loved both. ”
Mr. Shen's serious answer made her feel that the people in Liangqi City are all so frivolous? If you like it, you can say it casually? If you like it, you can like many people and many things?
She asked again, "And who else do you like?"
Mr. Shen glanced at her faintly, hoping that she could understand her eyes. But obviously, Yun Qing still couldn't understand her.
"I want to pry your head open and see what kind of structure it's in!"
"Don't!"
"Yunqing, are you afraid?"
"I'm afraid, I don't want to die yet. And Mr. Shen, it's no good for you to die at your hands!" Yun Qing said again.
Mr. Shen no longer looked at her little face, and his eyes were slightly sad.
Why doesn't she understand herself? Or does she not understand her? Maybe Yun Qing will look at him again and find that Mr. Shen is about to become a man with a grudge.
He didn't know what was wrong with him, and he always hoped that she would be able to open up and talk to herself. But all this seems to be delusional.
He thinks it's nonsense when other women say a bunch of things, but he is so helpless about Yunqing, who cherishes words like gold. Can you, Yunqing, say a few more words to me?
He stared at the cars on the highway in a daze, as if what he saw was markedly different from what she saw. It's all the same in front of her, but her eyes are so confused, like a layer of white mist covering the scenery.
At this time, Mr. Shen's mobile phone rang. As soon as he picked it up and saw that it was his uncle calling, he didn't want to take it, and just as he waited for the ringtone to stop and then put the phone away, the ringtone continued to ring again.
This low and quiet music is like a crow in the valley singing, perhaps there is no light in the heaven and earth in his heart, only quiet night, and boundless stars.
"Mr. Shen, why don't you answer the phone?"
"Hmm. ”
Mr. Shen finally pressed the answer, and Uncle Shen's slightly hoarse voice came from the other end of the phone.
"Yuenan, where have you been? What about your female doll? Why are you so hypocritical!"
"Uncle, I'll be back later. ”
"If your dad hadn't told me I wouldn't know, your kid would still like her. Well, my uncle has nothing to say. In fact, it's good for a woman like her to be An'an, so I'll bring it back for dinner next time. ”
"Uncle, I'll hang up first. ”
Mr. Shen hung up the phone before Uncle Shen finished speaking, and he also looked at Yun Qing's expression with his spare eyes.