Life in Provence is exceptional.

Lu Shaofan not only owns a lavender estate here, but also has a winery nearby.

The most famous here is lavender and red wine.

Lu Shaofan gave up his domestic career, but was busy with the red wine business here.

However, life here is different from that in China, most of him is quite leisurely, and most of the things in the winery are handed over to the employees below.

During the 10 months of pregnancy, I was terrified almost every day, and I often had nightmares in the middle of the night during thunderstorms.

Because I lost a child, I still have a big shadow in my heart, and I'm afraid that my child will not be saved.

Every time I have nightmares, I wake up screaming.

Lu Shaofan's sleep is very light, whenever he hears my movement here, he will come over to talk to me and comfort me to sleep.

But my situation is getting worse and worse, not only is it easy to have nightmares at night, but even during the day, I often fall into a state of depression, and my whole person has lost weight.

"Wei Ran, no matter how thin you are, you won't be able to eat much, I'm worried that the child won't be able to absorb nutrients, I helped you make an appointment with a psychiatrist, if you also want to be good for the child, listen to me, the psychiatrist will come over tomorrow, take a good look, okay?"

Lu Shaofan felt that my emotions were wrong these days, in fact, I also felt that I was avoiding seeing a psychiatrist, but Lu Shaofan reminded me.

For the sake of the baby in my belly, I think I still need to watch it.

I looked at Lu Shaofan and smiled faintly.

"Good. ”

It's just a very short word, but I don't want to say anything superfluous.

Seeing me like this, Lu Shaofan's eyes were full of worry.

I actually didn't want Lu Shaofan to worry, but I couldn't get better.

In the evening, I couldn't eat a few mouthfuls of porridge, and my stomach kept tumbling.

Seeing me like this, Lu Shaofan's face was full of anxiety.

After I vomited all the food I ate that night, Lu Shaofan helped me sit on the sofa.

"The child is still young, it is normal to have such a reaction, but, Wei Ran, you must promise me, don't always think cranky, and don't always get along with yourself, now you can live the life you want, if you can't get out of the past, then all your efforts to escape from him are in vain. ”

Lu Shaofan, he can see everything.

Indeed, even though I have come here, I still can't let go of the past in my heart.

In particular, I still have Mo Yunqian's child in my belly, the existence of this child reminds me all the time, reminds me all the time, and I have such a person hidden in my heart, which I can't forget.

When I think of him, my eyes can't help but turn red.

There is resentment and hatred in my heart.

But these resentments did not exist before I left Miancheng, but after coming to Provence, the emotions in my heart were gradually amplified, and my mentality gradually became pessimistic.

I was silent and didn't speak, seeing me like this, Lu Shaofan pursed his lips tightly, and finally sighed and hugged me in his arms.

"I sometimes really hate myself, why am I a brother with him, but I don't have that way to make you fall in love with me, if you love me, then you must be happy now. ”

Suddenly hearing these words, I couldn't help but turn my head to look at Lu Shaofan.

"Shaofan, it's not your fault, it's just that love has never been forced. ”

The next day, early in the morning, Lu Shaofan helped me make an appointment with a psychiatrist.

After asking me some questions and asking me to do a few multiple-choice questions, the doctor told me that my current state tends to be mild depression because it is during pregnancy, and it is indeed easy for pregnant women to induce depression during this period.

When I heard these words, I was confused, but I soon understood.

That's true, since I left Miancheng and came here, I haven't really been happy from the bottom of my heart.

When Lu Shaofan heard these words, he held my hand tightly.

"Wei Ran, I'm sorry, I originally wanted to bring you here to live a free life, but I didn't expect you to become like this......"

Seeing Lu Shaofan say this, I shook my head gently.

"None of this has anything to do with you, I know, it's because I'm always immersed in the past. ”

Soon, the psychiatrist said: "Mr. Lu, it is recommended that you take Miss Su out for a walk every day, Miss Su happens to be pregnant, you can go out for a walk from time to time, buy some baby products together, and focus on the child, as long as Miss Su can still have hope for anything, then the situation will not continue to deteriorate, and it will slowly improve." ”

After the psychiatrist left, Lu Shaofan did not shy away from me, and directly took my hand.

"What for?"

I looked at him puzzled, but when I saw him, he smiled and said, "Didn't you hear what the doctor just said? Of course, it will take you shopping, shopping, and relaxing." ”

I originally wanted to refuse, I just wanted to stay alone in the room, but when my eyes touched Lu Shaofan's smiling face, I still agreed to him.

Soon, Lu Shaofan drove me to a large shopping mall.

Then, he took me to buy some clothes and shoes, bought these, and dragged me to the baby spot to buy a lot of baby products.

"You know what? I've been thinking a lot lately about what to give my child a name. ”

Suddenly hearing Lu Shaofan say this, I raised my head and looked at Lu Shaofan in surprise.

"Are you thinking about the child's name?"

Hearing me ask, Lu Shaofan shook his head amusedly.

"Isn't that weird? Not only do I have to think of a name for him, but I also have to think about what kind of babysitter I want to take him, and I have to think about what ......school he will go to when he grows up."

Listening to Lu Shaofan's words, I couldn't help but touch my stomach and laughed immediately.

"yes, there's so much more to think about, I haven't even thought of it yet. ”

I chatted with Lu Shaofan while choosing what to buy for the child in my belly, which was enough to buy a large cart of things, and it was considered to be finished.

On the way back, my mood is really much better, if Lu Shaofan didn't help me find a psychiatrist, if he didn't take me out for a walk, I think, I will always think about the past, I have never been able to come out of the past, naturally, just a time to go out for a walk, and at night, I will still fall into endless loneliness and nostalgia for the past.

It's just that just when I felt lonely, Lu Shaofan suddenly knocked on my door.

I opened the door, but I saw him holding the quilt in his hands.

"What are you?"

Hearing me ask, Lu Shaofan smiled and said: "Your state is a little wrong these days, don't worry, I'm a self-disciplined person, I won't do anything to you, I'm just making a bunk in your room." ”