"If I'm not mistaken, it's a dream. I'm in a dream, right?" Fu Zekai asked.

"Yes, it's your dream. After all this time, you finally realize that you are in a dream. The priest said.

"If I'm guessing correctly, the priest I dreamed about a few years ago is you, telling me those strange things. ”

"That's right, I just wanted to stop your idea, but I failed. You still told her. ”

"What the hell are you, God?" Fu Zekai said.

"It should be said that I am a calm part of your heart that will not be easily influenced by the outside world, which is different from Fu Zekai, who loves impulsiveness and does things with enthusiasm alone. The priest came down and sat down across from him. In an instant, he changed back to his own face, or rather, he tore off the priest's mask.

"To be honest, the first time I looked at myself, I really felt ugly. ”

"If you are impulsive, you should consider plastic surgery with this idea, you seem to be indisputable, in fact, your competitiveness is stronger than everyone else, otherwise you will not say that you want to donate 200 yuan in the first year of junior high school, because you want to be the first. There are many things where you have to be the best and get the best, even though most of the time you don't say it. And, because this girl is the best girl you know, that's why you want to get her heart. ”

"Don't go too far, since this is my dream, then I should wake up too. I'm not interested in playing with myself, I'll have class tomorrow. ”

"Fu Zekai, have you really let go? So many dreams, in fact, you have looked at them again and again as if you had lost your soul, and there has not been a single trace of you standing up and shouting for yourself, just like you love her, humble and pitiful. ”

"I don't know what I should do, I'm really tired, but I don't have the courage to face that fate, and I don't have the confidence to be the enemy of the world, I just want to live quietly. ”

Actually, how to get liberated, the answer lies in your heart. Obviously, you just don't want to admit it and you don't want to do it. ”

"Go to her, go and say what you didn't say in person back then?"

"Fu Zekai, this is your inner demon, the demon is easy to grow, but it is difficult to get rid of. Now, you've been trapped by the demons you've raised yourself, but you haven't really gone to death yet, so you still have a chance to break free. You've lived thirteen years for her, that's enough. In the future life, you should live for yourself, be yourself, be the real Fu Zekai, don't be the Fu Zekai who loves Jiang Nanchu anymore. That girl doesn't deserve you to love her that long. ”

"Okay, I'm going to talk to her. ”

"You're not kidding?" Lin Ming was surprised.

"You think I'm joking?"

"No, what do you want to tell her?"

"It's not a confession, don't worry. I just want to say a lot of it. ”

"Well, as long as you can get out, then I don't need to make a trip. ”

"What do you want to do?"

"Beat you to the point of amnesia, forget her, and better forget about my atrocities. ”

“。。。。。。 You have to be cautious, I still owe you 200 yuan that I haven't repaid, and if I have amnesia, then I won't remember it, and I won't admit it then. ”

"I'm going to tell your cousin. Fu Zekai thought about it, but decided to tell Zhou Yu, who is also Jiang Nanchu's cousin.

"Master, you're not kidding, are you?"

"Calm, I just want to make it clear, not to chase her. I'm too deep to just pull it out. ”

"Oh, but no matter what the outcome is, sir, I support you. /Come on/Come on/Come on" Zhou Yu also seemed to support his idea.

"Ginger. Either way, it's nice to have your back. ”

I'm sorry, all the courage to face you, the moment I saw you, all gone.

Perhaps, when I faced you, I was still thirteen years ago, and I fell in love with your little boy when I saw you crying.

June 18th.

To go, or not to go?

Actually, I can not go at all, anyway, the weather is hot, I go out and come back sweaty, and besides, she may not know that I really like her for so long, and as my ex-girlfriend said, now we have our own rhythm of life, and going to her to say those words is a bit like disturbing her life.

However, if you don't go, those words will rot in your heart, and you may never have the possibility of saying them. Could it be that in the future, when I really want to see her marry someone else, and I regret it for not saying those words?

I can accept the fact that you are married to someone else, and I will bless you, because I know that the person you like is not destined to be me, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life regretting my cowardice for not saying those words in time.

I, Fu Zekai, have never thought of regretting my life!

Go!

“whe

I come he

e, what ca

I get" After arriving at Shayuan Station, Fu Zekai posted a circle of friends to locate himself while waiting for the subway on the Guangfo Line.

yes, what do I get, is it an accident, or blood, or something else?

However, I don't ask for results, because I know the results, I only want the process, I only hope that I can say all the things I want to say in the past ten years and have not said it to her at one time. Whether it's a happy day or a sad time, I just want to leave her world without regrets. From now on, I want to pursue my own happiness, and that's it, everyone has to live their own lives.

"Pujun North Road Station has arrived, please get off the train early to the door to get ready. ”

Bus No. 114, Bus No. 114, Bus No. 114.

Where are you?

It seems that the bus is eh, and I can't see the numbers clearly.

Forget it, I've been standing in the subway for so long, I'm too lazy to move, wait for it to come, and if it is, I'll go up again.

However, the master of the No. 114 bus did not understand what Fu Zekai was thinking, and after driving over, he did not stop again, but drove away.

EXM？

Driver, don't you stop for a moment, let me go up?

Now, it seems like we'll have to wait another ten to fifteen minutes before the next one is available.

Forget it, wait, I'm not in a hurry now anyway, and I'm not going to die or live, so I'm not in a hurry.

Ten minutes later, the next bus No. 114 finally arrived.

Fu Zekai didn't miss the No. 114 bus again this time, trotted all the way, went up to find a place to sit down.

I don't know what's going to happen ahead, and I know very well that it's up to man to do things and things to be done, I just need to do what I need to do well, and the rest is up to God.

"Pujunxu has arrived, Pujunxu has arrived. Fu Zekai looked at the name of the station, and there were several more stations to get to the campus of the Medical College of the Buddhist Academy.

I don't know why, there's always something wrong, but I can't think of anything wrong.

Well, I know something is wrong because she came up.

？？？？？？

She doesn't seem to see me, should I say hello?

“hi。 Fu Zekai took his mobile phone and raised it in front of her.

Hand, I'll chop you up when I get back.

She looked at Fu Zekai for a few seconds, and didn't remember who this strange-looking young man was.

"You won't forget about me so soon, Nan Chu. Fu Zekai couldn't cry or laugh.

"Oh, it's you, you've changed so much, I don't even recognize you. Nan Chu sat next to him.

"Why did you come here?" Nan Chu asked him.

"I was entrusted by the new principal of the school to come to the Buddhist Academy to learn from the scriptures in order to build a state-of-the-art campus. Fu Zekai teased her.

"Huh?"

"I'm just trying to play with you, because I've never been to Foshan. ”

"I've changed a lot, but you haven't changed at all. Fu Zekai smiled.

In fact, you have also changed, and time has erased some of the immaturity of your middle and high school years. Now you are a beautiful big girl, I think, if any guy becomes your boyfriend, or even the role of husband in the future, he should be the happiest man in the world.

After a while, he couldn't find other topics, Fu Zekai felt very embarrassed, so he had to look at his phone.

Do you want to tell her now, but there are not only the two of them in the car, there are other people there, what if you say it makes her feel embarrassed?

I don't want her to have any unnecessary illusions, but I don't want to feel remorse.

Actually, it's good to look at her once in a while, as if she's never going to leave me.

It's just that every car has an end point, no matter how much you drive, it will go to its end, and there will be a stop, and the car will stop.

How I want to think that time stops at this moment.

"Aren't you going in with me?" After Nan Chu got out of the car and was about to enter the school, he saw that Fu Zekai didn't follow, just stood there and looked at her.

"No, you go in, I'll go in later. Fu Zekai shook his head.

"Oh well. ”

It's so cowardly.

Let's go.

Anyway, I don't have the courage to talk to her, how can I say those words.

Pujun North Road Station.

Fu Zekai took out his mobile phone and stopped at the dialing interface.

It's hilarious to think about.

I missed the opportunity to make it clear again and again, and in the end, I had to rely on my mobile phone to help solve it.

Fu Zekai took a deep breath and dialed the number.

Toot toot.

"Hey, hello, are you?" a familiar voice came from the other end.

"It's me, Fu Zekai. ”

"Ah, it's you, where are you now?"

"I'm going back, and I'm here at Pujun North Road Station, ready to take the subway back. ”

"So fast?"

"Listen, Nan Chu, there are some things that I have wanted to talk to you about for a long time. I was going to look for you today, but I want to tell you, not to learn from the scriptures or anything. But I didn't say it, and I don't want to regret not saying it later. So next, I'll say these things myself, you don't care what I say, I'll hang up anyway. You're going to be treated as if you're having a nervous disorder. ”

"Oh. Nan Chu's voice was a lot lower when he said this.

"I've liked you for a long time, starting in the third grade and going all the way to now, thirteen years. I know that during the summer vacation of my junior year of high school, you told me to forget my feelings for you, and I worked hard for a few years to forget you and have my own life. But I'm really useless, I still can't forget you. I still think of you a lot of the time. Fu Zekai said very slowly, he just wanted the other party to hear clearly what he wanted to say.

"At that time in June 2015, I knew that you seemed to be with Xian Baiqiang, at that time I really felt abandoned by the world, and my heart was extremely cold, I blocked you, and I wanted to have no contact with you again. I know I'm really stupid and useless, and you don't like me, but I still refuse to let go, like a fool. Because I think things will take a turn for the better, otherwise you wouldn't have liked it in my QQ signature and some ticket circles. At that time, I didn't think you had any feelings for me. ”

"But I really don't dare to think of these anymore, I saw your avatar a few days ago, and you seem to be holding someone. That's why I found out you're in love. I don't dare to think about how good you were at the beginning, I have to think about forgetting you. As a result, the more I wanted to forget you, the more I dreamed of you in my dreams again and again. ”

"It's my heart disease, although it's very middle two, the word. But I'm really trapped in my feelings for you, and I don't want to spend the rest of my life in such a day, it's torture and cruelty to me. I want to love a girl who loves me too, that's all. ”

"That's it, I'm done with what I need to say. You're going to have a better life. ”

"Goodbye. ”

He hung up his phone and walked into the subway car where the door had just been opened.

In that moment, I felt that the burden that had accumulated in my heart for more than ten years was so let go, and there was an indescribable ease and liberation in my heart.

I've been doing better and better for you over the past decade or so, and I don't know if you saw my efforts, but I didn't know until much later that it wasn't what you wanted. I'm not just getting better and better.

I know that you are not destined to be my girl, and I am not your boy. However, I am still very grateful to Jiang, in the past ten years, you have become my spiritual support, without you, I would not have done so well.

Today, I say these words just to let you understand my heart, the truth that I have not said in the past and will never tell you again.

I hope to be able to leave you spiritually and be the real Fu Zekai.

That's all, that's it.

"Would you like to come to me and have lunch with you? Before she arrived at Chao'an Station, she sent a text message asking about him.

"No, I'll go back and eat again. ”

"I know what you're trying to say, so you don't have to say it anymore. ”

Actually, I've made it clear, and I don't think I need to go back to see you. I'm not a stingy person, but I don't have to face to face with disappointments that don't belong to me.

As soon as the car left Guicheng Station, the familiar music of "The Ace Pitcher Without a Back Number" in the headphones was interrupted by an incoming call.

It was her call.

Pick it up or not?

Let's take it, it's all clear anyway, in his opinion, everyone is just ordinary friends now. What is there to dare not face.

"Hey, it's me. Fu Zekai answered the phone.

"Hmm. ”

"What do you want to say?" Fu Zekai said.

"What do you mean by that? I don't understand. Nan Chu's voice came weakly from the headphones.

Women are really women, very different from men.

I imagined countless possible scenarios in which she could reply, but found that none of them worked.

Because, the girl I have loved for more than ten years, said that she couldn't understand what I was saying.

"Hey, are you still there?" Nan Chu's voice was still weak, as if he was very unsure of what Fu Zekai meant.

"Then I'll say it again. Nangui Road Station arrived, Fu Zekai chose to leave the carriage and stayed on the platform.

"I've liked you for thirteen years, except for a two-month relationship in my sophomore year, and I put you in a very important place in my heart at other times, so to speak, only behind my parents and my grandfather. ”

"When I was in high school, I dreamed about what our wedding was like when we got married, and how I proposed to you. But you don't like me, do you? I've dreamed of you so many times this month, and a lot of the time it's a nightmare. It's been a long dream, and when I see you again, I'm really afraid that I can't tell the difference between dreams and reality. ”

"So, today, I came to you just to tell you the truth that I haven't said for many years. Because, you don't think about it, and I won't think about the possibility that we still have a chance to be together. ”

"There are a lot of things that I don't really die until I say them myself. ”

"That's it. ”

"You mean, you've liked me for a long time, more than ten years?" Nan Chu asked him.

"Yes. We met in third grade, right? I remember on our first day, Jiang Feilong and I made you cry, and you were so angry that you went to complain. When you came back and cried on the table, I admit it, I liked you, or rather, the dim and ignorant love of my youth. But at that time, who knew love. ”

"You've liked me for so long? I remember you said it a long time ago. ”

"Yes, I officially confessed to you in my junior year of high school, and I told you about those things, but you directly refused at that time. Therefore, there is no follow-up. Later, when I was a freshman, I thought you were with Xian Baiqiang, but I thought I was really desperate, so I didn't want to contact you. It wasn't until later that he told me that you weren't together and asked me to chase you again. I told him at the time that it was impossible, Nan Chu didn't like me. ”

"I lied to him, or my heart lied to him. But by the time I found out, it was a long time later. Later, I realized that I didn't want to miss out on any of the possibilities. So, I haven't really given up on the desire to chase you as my girlfriend. ”

"That's why I gave you those gifts, I like every one of your moments, I do everything you want us to do for you in your circle of friends, I really hope you can know my heart. And as many people say, we should be together. Why can't we be together?"

"But it's also very similar, as many other friends say, it's enough for me to like you, and it's enough for me to live for more than ten years. We don't have to be together. It wasn't until I saw you and your boyfriend hugging each other, your WeChat profile picture, that I really understood the truth of what they said. I like you, I'm not a person I haven't really liked in the past ten years, that's enough. ”

"Are you listening?" the other party fell silent, which made Fu Zekai start to fidget.

"I'm listening. Actually, the person in my WeChat profile picture is not a boy, but just a female friend of mine. Nan Chu began to speak.

"I didn't know you liked me for so long and did so many things for me. I thought you were treating me as a normal friend, so I just saw you as a friend. ”

"You said you've been in love once?"

"Yes, in my sophomore year, we split up two months later. To be honest, I was quite sorry for her because I didn't want anyone to get involved in our relationship, and I thought I had really found the girl I loved and loved me. But the truth doesn't seem to be, after a long time, I found out that I was with her because I saw your shadow in her. In other words, subconsciously, I see her as you. ”

"Are you familiar with each other?"

"It's familiar, we're classmates. I've known each other for almost three years now, and they've all worked in the same department. ”

"Then we don't know each other, although we used to be classmates and friends, but I really don't know much about you, on the contrary, you are too. So why do you think we can be together?"

"I used to think the same way, but I think time can move everything. In the past, I hope you can give me a chance, we get to know each other and know if the other party is the right person for you. I wonder if the object of my love affair for more than ten years is not suitable for me. Now, however, I don't dare to think so. ”

"I'm a very nervous girl, always very straightforward in my speech, and very slow to react in many ways. So I may not be as perfect as you think, and I don't deserve you to like me for so many years. ”

"Perhaps, no one is perfect. Maybe what I like is just the Jiang Nanchu I imagined, gentle and virtuous, intellectual and generous, elegant and beautiful, and occasionally have a little temper with my boyfriend. But who's for sure?"

"Are you still listening?" Fu Zekai asked.

"Then what do you mean by saying these words now?" Nan Chu spoke after a long silence.

"I've made it clear what I want to say from the bottom of my heart. Now it's time for me to leave. What do you think?"

"I don't know what I'm thinking right now, I'm just, suddenly really wanting to see you. I'm in a mess right now, I don't know what to say. ”

"If you're messy, I'm sorry I said that. I don't want to disturb your life, but I have to say this. I hope you can understand the pain in my heart. ”

"Hmm. ”

"Then do you think it's possible for us to be together?" Nan Chu suddenly asked.

"What are you talking about?" Fu Zekai was a little surprised. He hadn't thought she would say that now, and he wasn't prepared for it at all.

"Yes. You've liked me for so many years, and I don't think it's fair to you. Then we weren't really together, and I don't know if it's a good fit. Then we might as well try it together. ”

"Are you kidding me?" Fu Zekai had a wry smile in his heart, but he couldn't laugh.

"I'm not kidding you, really, we've never really been together, so you can believe it once, let's try it together for a while. Since you have been obsessed with it for more than ten years, I don't expect that in the end, your feelings will all turn into bubbles. ”

"I hope that you are serious about what you say and that you and I are responsible for. ”

"Really, hey, what the hell do you think, I gave you a chance, you should give me a chance too. You believed we could be together, and now I do, so what do you think?"

"If you say okay, if you can't, then let's say goodbye!" At the end of the words, Nan Chu put down such a "cruel word".

How did this happen?

I just came to Foshan to say what I wanted to say, but I didn't expect the situation to become like this, it seems to be starting to get out of control.

But in the last sentence, her tone was so cute, it was like being coquettish with me.

Should I say yes or no?

Hey, the other party is a girl you've liked for more than ten years!

"Together, together, together!" came the voices of several girls in the headphones, and they seemed to be excited.

"Your roommate?"

"Well, I turned on hands-free and they were all listening. I want them to help me analyze it. ”

"What about you, what the hell do you think? After thinking about it for so long, it's time to get back to me. Nan Chu urged him.

"Since you believe me, then I believe in your heart that you are willing to be with me. Let's be together for a while. I hope that we have all made the right choice and that we can spend more time together. ”

"yes! Congratulations, congratulations, red envelopes, red envelopes!" Her roommates were all boiling. I can't even hear the girl's voice anymore.

It's as simple as that?

Inexplicably, this girl I have loved for more than ten years has become my girlfriend?

Although, many times before, I thought about the arrival of this moment, and even I thought about what style of clothes to wear to face it. But when it did, I wasn't prepared for it.

But since you believe in me and can give you happiness, then I will try to do it.

"Do you want to come to our school now, we can have lunch, I want to see you?" Nan Chu asked him.

"No, I have something to do, I want to go back first, and I'll come back to you next Saturday. ”

It's not that I'm wrong, it's just that I haven't figured out how I'm going to face you. For me, your identity suddenly changed.

But I promise I'll surprise you when we meet again next week.

"Master, aren't you kidding, are you?

"Well, of course I'm serious. ”

"Master, you're still lying to me, you're not going to confess?/Swearing"

"I really didn't expect your cousin to say that in the end, saying that everyone should give each other a chance. And then I said yes. ”

"I feel like I'm going to be fed dog food for a long time to come, cousin-in-law?/sneer/sneer"

"The eight characters have just been skimmed, what are you anxious about? What if it's not me in the future?"

"Well, I believe that when you are together, you will not be separated so easily. You've loved my cousin for so long. You're sure to be very attentive to her. ”

"Take your words / think / think / think. ”

"So, you're here to stuff dog food for my single dog?!" Fu Zekai felt that Lin Ming was so indignant that he thought of Guangwai killing him.

"Yes, or no. ”

"Seriously, I don't have a friend like you. Said that the two of us will be single together until we are old. But you got off early. Now I am the only single dog left in Gaozhou. ”

"Hahaha, go to my sister-in-law. ”

The first one, failure.

The second, failed.

The third, failure.

……

After Fu Zekai came back, he thought about what gift to give when he went to see her next Saturday.

Roses, it's good to send roses to your girlfriend.

However, real roses are very expensive, difficult to maintain, and do not seem to be sincere.

So, it's better to send paper roses.

Paper roses have real sincerity, and at the same time, there is no problem of maintenance and high cost.

How romantic it would be if 999 roses were folded and packaged in a bouquet.

The premise is that you need to be able to fold the first paper rose. There may be a second, a third, and a fourth...... Nine hundred and ninety-nine.

I'm really going to die as a crippled man.

Who invented the method of origami roses, I have to drag him out and beat him with a hundred sticks, it's just torture me.

Knowing that someone will have a crippled hand, you don't have to be specific about your steps.

Forget it, it's still not broken.

If we're still together in a year's time, I'll fold it then.

Give her 999 roses in the hope that we can stay with us forever.

"Good night. ”

"Hmm. ”

"Don't stay up late, it's not good for your health. ”

"I know. ”

On the morning of the 19th, at 7:25.

"Good morning, hey. ”

At 8:00, she did not reply.

Maybe it's because I haven't woken up yet.

At 11:00, there was still no reply.

Maybe it's an exam, she said she wants to take a final exam.

15:00, still no reply.

Maybe I went to the library, it's normal not to look at my phone.

At 17:00, the last message was that he said good morning to her, but she still didn't reply.

Could something be wrong? Would you like to make sure you call?

But will this make her think that I look at her too closely, and love is to give both parties freedom.

Forget it, let's wait a while. Maybe she'll see the news when she goes to dinner.

18:25。

"I don't know where you've been today, but if you see my message, get back to me as soon as possible. I'm really worried about you today. ”

18:29。

"It's okay, I'm just going to Guangzhou today. Don't worry, I'll be fine. After nearly twelve hours of waiting, she finally got back to her message.

Fu Zekai breathed a sigh of relief and hurriedly replied: "It's okay, it almost scared me." ”

"It's going to be fine. You don't have to worry about me. ”

"Hmm. ”

23:08 p.m.

"I'll go to bed first, good night. Fu Zekai added a good night expression at the end.

"You go to sleep first, I still have some things. ”

“OK。 ”

20th, 23:12 p.m.

"I'm asleep, you should go to bed early. Don't stay up late and don't hurt your body. ”

"Well, good night!!"

"What's wrong?"

"It's fine. ”

"It's okay, why do you put a few exclamation points after goodnight?"

"Ah, it's really fine. Don't worry about me. ”

"Oh, well. ”

"Uh-huh. ”

21st, 23:21 p.m.

"I slept, good night. ”

"Uh-huh. ”

"Aren't you going to sleep yet?"

"I'll wait until the makeup on my face is finished before I go to sleep. ”

"Oh. ”

Actually, in my heart, you can be a beautiful girl without makeup.

22nd, 23:10 p.m.

"I'm going to sleep, good night. ”

"Well, I'm going to sleep too, good night. ”

23rd, 23:05 p.m.

"I'll go to sleep first, good night. ”

"Mmmm, my eyes are so sleepy that I can't open them. ”

"Then go to bed early, I'll look for you at your school tomorrow. ”

No matter how beautiful and colorful the foam under the sun is, there will be a time to break.

Fu Zekai wiped the sweat on his forehead with a tissue, it had been almost ten minutes since she arrived here, and she hadn't replied to the message, and the sentence "I'm almost there/smiley" stopped at the last line of the chat interface so awkwardly, as if she was sarcastically saying something about the person who said this.

He took a deep breath, pulled out the call recording interface, pulled down a few times, and saw that her number was staying there, and the last call was on Sunday last week, 29 minutes and 12 seconds, at Nangui Road Station. It was also that call that changed their identities with each other.

Frankly speaking, if you really have the heart, it is easy to remember an 11-digit number, and even if you remember it, you will never forget it for the rest of your life. Just like the previous number she had used, he hadn't forgotten it until now.

Why don't you call your girlfriend for a week? No one believes you when you say it.

Fu Zekai took a deep breath, she is your girlfriend now, how can you not take the initiative to make a phone call.

He pressed the dial button, and a beep sound came from the Bluetooth headphones. Fu Zekai walked a few steps and walked back, waiting for the phone to be connected.

"Hello?"

"I'm at your school, where are you now?"

"Oh, sorry, I just got back to my dorm after dinner. Have you eaten? Or I'll come to you now. ”

"I'll eat, just come. I have something for you, and I'm waiting for you here in your school playground. ”

"Okay, wait for me a while. ”

The phone hung up, Fu Zekai let out a long breath, look, it's not difficult to call his girlfriend.

The uncle on the opposite side glanced at him a few times, Fu Zekai turned his head to look at other places, maybe it was really because of the relationship between the four campuses of this school, this campus seemed to be very crowded.

It's been almost twenty minutes, and it really takes a long time for a girl to dress up.

Isn't it just to meet and then go back again?

"Hey. ”

The girl finally arrived, wearing a peaked cap and her hair scattered, without the good student feeling she had when she had last seen her with all her hair combed back.

"Have you really eaten? If you haven't already, I can take you to the dining hall. Jiang Nanchu asked him.

"No, I came over after breakfast at nine o'clock, and I'm not hungry yet. By the way, I have something for you. Fu Zekai said, untying his backpack.

"What is it?"

"Rings. Fu Zekai smiled.

"Forget it, I can't afford it. Nan Chu shook his head and smiled bitterly.

"Tease you, it's a bamboo flute. Fu Zekai handed her the gift box containing the bamboo flute.

"Jiang Jiang, although I don't know how to play the bamboo flute very well. But still ginger ginger you. ”

"By the way, there's something I want to ask you, and I want to hear your answer. Fu Zekai stopped laughing.

"Okay, but don't do it here, it's a little hot here, let's go over there, there's a little kiosk over there. There was a feeling of crying and laughing in Nan Chu's tone.

Fu Zekai followed behind her, looking at her, and already felt it in his heart.

"What's the problem?" Jiang Nanchu asked.

"I wonder if you regret what you said last Sunday?"

"Yes, you're actually really nice, and I don't know why you've liked me for so long. You don't know me well enough to be sure you've liked me for so long. Jiang Nanchu's eyes didn't look at him, although he was looking at her. The girl's eyes, all the time looking into the distance, were clear and bright.

"I know, I'm afraid you'll regret it, so I'm going to ask you now. He was not unprepared for this answer, but when she said it herself, her voice was still a little hoarse.

"Well, do you have time in August? Go out with me for a trip, and I'll give you a chance to get to know me, and I hope you give me a chance to get to know you. Fu Zekai asked her.

"I can't go. I also have to work part-time during the summer vacation to make money. Now is the time for the family to use money. The girl directly refused.

After a few seconds of silence, "My dad has a tumor in his body, and it costs more than 300,000 yuan in medical expenses." I have to work part-time on my own, and I have to provide for my brother, who is now in his first year of high school. When he was a senior in high school, I was a senior. I'm going to pay for his college days. ”

"I'm going home in mid-August to take care of my dad. I don't know how long he can last now, but I can only spend one more day with him. ”

"To be honest, I'm having a problem eating now. I don't even go on class tours, so traveling is already a luxury for me. I kid you not, I don't have more than 1,000 yuan in my body right now. The teachers and classmates in my class knew about me, and they were very willing to help me. But I still have to find a way to make money, otherwise my dad won't have the money to buy medicine. ”

"I didn't reply to your WeChat on Monday because I was in Guangzhou all day, asking doctors to buy medicine, and I didn't have time to look at my phone. That's when it worries you."

When the girl said these words, her tone was very calm, and her eyes still didn't look at Fu Zekai.

"I'm sorry, then let's put aside the matter of our travel for now. Then what are you going to do now?" Fu Zekai turned his head to see if there was anyone else on the school road when he said this.

"Maybe we're really not fit together. I was very touched and surprised that there would be a guy who liked me for so long. But you really don't know much about me. It's like on a Tuesday night when I say goodnight to you and you add an exclamation point and you think something is wrong with me. Actually, I didn't have much at that time. It's that you're thinking too much. Last Sunday, when we met on the bus, you recognized me, but I didn't recognize you. We didn't have much to say on the bus, so we just sat there until we got off the bus at school. Our thinking point is on two different channels, and we can't do anything to get back to the same channel. Do you understand?"

"I also thought about falling in love, I saw those couples in school, and I was also envious of those girls who had boyfriends to accompany them to eat, go shopping, and watch movies. But I'm really conflicted, I'm a very nervous person, I don't think about things in the long run, I have a very low emotional intelligence, and I will lose a lot of things. If I really fall in love, my boyfriend should be very powerful, with high EQ and high IQ, otherwise how will he take care of me?"

"That's an IQ problem. Fu Zekai interjected.

"Anyway, after you said it at the time, I really can't find the words to reply to you. Even when you promised me, I didn't show any joy. My roommates suspected that I had handed in a fake male ticket. ”

"I have a senior brother who is very good to me and he chases me. But I don't really have any feelings for him, I just treat him as a friend. He rarely came to me after that. Our relationship has been awkward since then. ”

"I've always considered you a friend, and for me, the more friends the better. I don't want to lose your friend because of these things, just like that brother. I don't want our relationship to be so awkward too. ”

"Actually, at that time, I didn't call you to confess, but to tell you a lot of unspoken things, and I will go back after speaking. My feelings for you have bound me for more than ten years, and that is already my heart disease. Only when I speak up will I be truly liberated. I wish you had just thought you were a fool and talking nonsense on the other side of the phone. After that, I'll hang up and leave your life completely. Fu Zekai spoke, and his right hand reached over to hold her hand, which was warm and soft. Nan Chu looked at him, a little surprise flashed on his face, but he didn't pull it out, he didn't say anything, and his eyes continued to look elsewhere.

"But then you gave me hope, and I was thinking, after thirteen years, there is finally a chance for us to go on together. So when you said that on the phone, when your roommate was heckling, I was very happy, and I was thinking that God had finally opened up the truth. ”

"I think a friend of mine was right that I care too much about the future. I care too much about my happiness in the future, so I want to learn to cherish the present and cherish every day with you. So, even if you don't like me now, I think if we are together, after a long time, you will always find that I am different from other people, and maybe you will like me. Now is not the time for us to be apart, we should give each other a little time together. If it does come, it will never be too late for us to separate. But before that, why do you have so little faith in us being together, and if you will eventually fall in love with someone, why is that person certainly, and 100 percent probable, not me?"

"But no matter what, you have the decision. Whatever you decide, I respect your choice. Fu Zekai's voice lowered, and the hand holding her was released.

At that moment, he really wished that the girl would nod her head and say what he wanted to hear.

"I'm sorry, let's separate. I don't want to drag you down. ”

"I didn't know how to reply to you at the time, but then that phone call was made by my roommate. I'm in turmoil. There are some things that I am very confused about, and I follow the thinking of my roommate. ”

"I've heard Zhou Yu say that girls know that if a boy likes her for so long, she will be a little moved. Then were you moved at the time?" Fu Zekai asked softly.

"Yes. ”

"When you said those words, was it because you were more moved, or were you instigated by your roommates?"

After a moment of silence, the girl spoke: "Moved." ”

"I see. Fu Zekai took a long breath.

The bugs around are screaming noisily and seem to have endless energy. Although it was very hot, the wind blew from time to time, and the sweat on Fu Zekai's body was almost dry.