130. Can't afford to gamble, can't love, can't afford to lose, can't afford to pay back
Thinking of this, I no longer hesitate in my heart, rather than sinking deep and then quitting, it is better to get early. So in one go, the resignation report was written, in fact, this is also a formatted thing, resignation is similar to divorce, there can be countless real reasons, but it can be written, nothing more than a handful of personality discord, other development, etc.
Looking back at this office that I have been in for four years, I really feel a little reluctant in my heart. Next to the computer desk is a pot that Xiao Xu brought from home, with green leaves lined with white edges. Next to it is the cute little pen holder made by Sister Fang's daughter in the office, and the mobile phone pendant is handmade by Mrs. Liu in the past...... I thought that I was just passing by this place, but I didn't think that in the past four years, it has unconsciously left a warm trace in my life.
Looking up at Xiao Xu next to him, the little girl was gnawing on a pencil and fighting with the report. I just remembered that it is now the end of the month, Xiao Xu is in close contact with the monthly report, I think when I first entered the purchasing department, this used to be my job, and then Xiao Xu came in and handed it over to me, for this reason, Xiao Xu has not bothered me.
Suddenly, with a little hesitation, I quietly folded the printed resignation report and put it in an envelope and put it in a drawer.
At this moment, the door of Yu Xinzhi's office opened, and he leaned out half of his body and shouted to me: "Xiao Du, come here!"
I quickly stood up and walked over.
Yu Xinzhi sat in the office with a solemn face, his desk was a mess of documents and papers, and he was rummaging through the world for something. As soon as he saw me come in, he stopped.
"Xiao Du, now the equipment of our purchasing department in Tianjin has begun to produce, we have to send people over to keep an eye on it, most of our people here are dragging their families, because this time it is longer to go, and it is a little difficult for other people to go, you look at the work in your hands, if there is no problem, you can go......" Yu Xinzhi's mother-in-law explained a lot.
I understood, it turned out to be to go to the supplier to check the progress and quality supervision, because the time is too long, it takes about three months, I don't want to go to the family, only me and Xiao Xu are selected, but Xiao Xu's work experience is shorter, so only I am the most suitable.
Just thinking about it, Yu Xinzhi would be wrong, thinking that I was also unhappy to go like others, and added: "Actually, it doesn't have to be that long, if there is time on my side, it will pass, and you can come back then....."
My heart suddenly lightened, and this should be the best solution for me. Three months is not a long time, but it should make that person break his mind.
So I readily agreed, so happy that Yu Xinzhi was a little surprised.
After a journey of more than two hours, the plane finally arrived in Tianjin.
I just walked out of the airport building with my luggage, took out my mobile phone and turned it on, and as soon as I opened the mobile phone, it rang, and at first glance, it was Qin Jun's number.
"How about I invite you to dinner in the evening?" is still the usual strong style.
I couldn't help but laugh, I was thousands of miles away from him now. Outside the general, the military order is still acceptable, let alone not necessarily a military order.
"I'd love to go, but," I paused deliberately, "but I can't ......."
This kind of rejection was originally expected by Qin Jun, but what he didn't expect was that it sounded like I was rejecting him in a very relaxed tone.
"Why not, can you work overtime, I can apply for your time with Yu Xinzhi!" he said with some reason.
I couldn't help but roll my eyes at the sky, this person is a little unreasonable with confidence.
"It's not overtime, it's that I can't go to ......the appointment at all," I said, "We're too far away, Mr. Qin", I can even imagine Qin Jun stunned, and couldn't help it for a while.
"What......." Qin Jun's voice was probably elongated from his face.
"You... Where?" I heard a hint of anger.
"I'm on a business trip to Tianjin right now....hehe...."I said in a relaxed tone.
Qin Jun didn't say anything for a long time.
"I didn't know you were on a business trip!!" seemed to be annoyed and angry as I expected.
"Hehe, a small soldier like me will not need your approval if he is a little deserted...... General Manager" I stuck out my tongue.
This is the truth, in the company, the business trip of the general staff only needs to be approved by the department manager, and then reported to the personnel department for the record, and it is normal for Qin Jun, the general manager, not to know.
"Alright then, I'll ask you another day, I don't believe you'll stay so far away from me all the time......"
Qin Jun suddenly changed his words and ended the phone with a pun.
I was stunned.
This is always the case in this world, the more people you don't want to face, the more you have to face them.
Yu Xinzhi seems to be very satisfied with my fearless attitude towards my work this time, and my trip to Tianjin is quite thoughtful. I booked a room for a long time in a four-star hotel not far from the supplier's factory, and the supplier in Tianjin was even more cautious about the attitude of the company I worked for, probably thinking that I was some kind of ambassador sent by the company, and specially sent a car to transport me back and forth between the factory and the hotel every day.
The driver is a 40-year-old master, surnamed Liang, he looks very honest and honest, I saw him and had a very good impression of him, of course, he had to say a lot of kind words, although it is a customer relationship, but people are so thoughtful, I was worried about the life and life of the things clearly, I actually sincerely expressed my gratitude.
Tianjin is a city far more beautiful than I had imagined, and it has a rich history. In my memory, the understanding of Tianjin is only the description of Tianjin in the middle school history textbook, in the Qing Dynasty and the Western powers signed many unequal treaties always seem to be the city of Tianjin, now think about it, since the Western powers value this city so much, it is not easy to think about it.
Two days after I arrived in Tianjin, I received a call from Xiaofeng. Xiao Feng is my roommate in college, after graduation, he went to Tianjin without hesitation, and finally had a lover with his boyfriend who had been in love for 11 years, and finally became a family member, and took root in this foreign place, and the flower of love also bore fruitful fruits. Now Xiaofeng is already an expectant mother who is five months pregnant, and as soon as she heard the news that I was coming to Tianjin, it was probably because she was too bored to be pregnant, and she completely ignored her big belly, so she began to call around her classmates near Tianjin to prepare for the party.
I know Xiaofeng's temper, what I want to do is imperative, otherwise the consequences will be serious, the small is like Tang Sanzang's continuous nagging, and the big one is earth-shattering. Therefore, Xiao Feng mentioned that he wanted to have a class reunion, although I hesitated, but I didn't express any objections, and Xiao Feng's current state is a top two, I don't dare to brush off the kindness of the beauty.
The party was chosen on Saturday night, and Xiao Feng began to urge me from noon, telling me to be like the protagonist of this party. In fact, I understand, according to Xiaofeng's psychology of fearing that the world will not be chaotic, it was me who originally wanted to party, but her childhood sweetheart's husband was afraid that I would miss my pregnancy, so he kept dissuading it, and now my arrival has given me enough reason and motivation, and my husband is embarrassed to dissuade me again, so I was pushed to the forefront of the class reunion by Xiaofeng step by step for the camp.
When I arrived at the door of the hotel, Xiao Feng was already shouting there, her husband Du Qingyuan was next to me like a personal bodyguard to escort me, for fear that a mistake would affect the crystallization of the two people, Xiao Feng is not only articulate, but also very agile, although it has been clearly visible, you can still see the previous vigorous demeanor.
I saw that there were more than 20 classmates here, and I couldn't help but marvel at Xiaofeng's methods, not only gathered a lot of classmates from Tianjin and Beijing, but even called two classmates from Changchun over.
Most of these classmates have not seen each other since graduation, and it has been five years in a flash, and after graduation, everyone has gone their separate ways, and there is a lot less contact. Especially Xiaofeng, almost every time he sees his classmates, he has to give a warm hug, which scares the face of the husband who is escorting him green, and also makes the atmosphere of the party more and more enthusiastic.
After greetings, I started to eat, I calmed down, looked at the classmates around me who had been classmates for four years, and sighed in my heart, after five years, many of the original young people have already had successful careers and started a family, and the former flower girl is now also a mother, and even Xiaofeng's crazy girl who yelled all day now has become an expectant mother.
Turning his head to look over, Xiao Feng was holding Liu Sisi's hand in the same dormitory building before, and said something excitedly, and then looked at Du Qingyuan next to me, I strangely found that Du Qingyuan at this time seemed to be sitting there as if he had withdrawn from his real body, and his expression was very alienated, like a stranger.
In fact, Du Qingyuan is not our classmate, but his name and appearance are well-known in our dormitory back then, Xiao Feng has read the three words Du Qingyuan on his lips since the first day of college, and I even regard my four years in college as a process of God testing my love, and the end of all processes is Du Qingyuan. The beginning of Du Qingyuan and Xiao Feng, his kindness to Xiao Feng, his thoughts about Xiao Feng, Hongxin continues, and many details are clear to us. At that time, Du Qingyuan and Xiaofeng were tantamount to a love myth on campus. But our familiarity with Du Qingyuan does not mean that Du Qingyuan is also familiar with us, after all, there were thousands of miles between him and Xiaofeng back then, and I and we were just Xiaofeng's classmates.
At this point, I was relieved. I feel that the two of them have finally achieved a positive result, and I think there should be no regrets.
After more than two hours, several male classmates were a little drunk. I am now cautious about wine, and I now clearly realize that there is absolutely no trend of improvement in my alcohol consumption in the past few years, especially after meeting Qin Jun.
Thinking of this name, I don't feel that my heart moves slightly, and I don't know why there is a bittersweet pain that seems to flow through my heart. Whoever is missing in this world can live well, at this moment, he thinks he should be doing well, right?
I was a little distracted, but Liu Sisi sat next to me, holding a glass of red wine in his hand.
My heart tightened, this Liu Sisi is not the person I want to face. But this is always the case in this world, the more people you don't want to face, the more you have to face them.
Liu Sisi took the wine and toasted me, so I had to take a sip as well, which was considered a salute in return.
"Do you remember Su Yan?" asked Liu Sisi straightforwardly, smiling.
This name, even after five years, from other people's mouths, I still feel as sharp as iron and sword, I took a light breath and laughed,
"Well, of course, he's doing now?" I said with a smile, as if I were talking about an unrelated person.
Liu Sisi was a little stunned, paused, and said, "He and Xiaolu are married!"
Even though it was the expected answer, I felt like I had been stabbed somewhere deep in my heart. This can be regarded as a lover who eventually becomes a family, I, to him, is just a passerby, maybe not even a passerby.
Liu Sisi didn't miss the gloom on my face, but he didn't have the sense of schadenfreude in his heart, but felt a little more compassionate. In fact, I know very well that although Su Yan and Yu Lu are married, they can talk about happiness. For this unhappy ending in the end, I was also a fuel to the fire, for the sake of friendship and favor, I knew that there were some things that I shouldn't do but still did it. It's okay if you really ask for benevolence, but the final result is that I didn't see Yu Lu getting happiness. How can my friend be at ease?
"However, in fact, they are not doing very well...... Liu Sisi shook the wine in the glass and said softly.
I was stunned for a moment, a little surprised. At this moment, Xiao Feng next to me called out my name over there.
"I, come on, come on, I succeeded in coercing a confession! Haha, the old party admits that he had a crush on you......" After that, he let out a burst of Xiaofeng-style weird laughter.
I stood up, smiled at Liu Sisi, and said, "Next time you meet them, say hello to them on my behalf!" After speaking, he walked over to Xiao Feng.
I have to admit that Xiaofeng not only has extraordinary organizational skills, but also has greatly developed his ability to be a matchmaker. On the night of the class reunion, I don't know how Xiao Feng and several other classmates summed it up, anyway, in the end, they dragged me and Lao Fang's classmates together. When I went back, everyone pushed me into the car of Lao Fang's classmates in unison, and Lao Fang, who has always been known for his stability, actually smiled silently, and cooperated with everyone to carry out this matching show to the end.
I think about it, I also think that those who come to the class reunion are not married, only me and Lao Fang are still alone, according to the Chinese thinking, it is strange not to tie two people together. So I honestly got into Lao Fang's car.
Finally, he left the hotel in the eyes of everyone's joy. I turned around and apologized to the old man.
"I'm sorry, these people are messing around......" I explained a little embarrassed, and then hurriedly proved: "Don't worry, I will never believe them!"
The old man drove the car steadily, and his voice was also steady.
"Actually, they didn't say anything. ”
I was stunned for a moment, not understanding what he was saying. After a while, I roughly understood the meaning of his words, and my face turned a little red. This old party turned out to be not as wooden as he looked.
In the four years of college, I didn't have much intersection with Lao Fang, and I had the impression that he was an old and stable person. Besides, there were not a few people who wanted to come and see and hear about Su Yan back then, and he probably should know about it.
Speechless all the way, Lao Fang's words made the two of them fall into silence strangely, and they sat in the car with their own thoughts. After a while, Lao Fang turned on the music, and it was actually "this killer is not too cold" that I liked.
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I closed my eyes, and my heart couldn't help but feel sour. In this world, there are more than one or two things that have no fate, who can say clearly, life or death, which is more painful?
Finally arrived at the hotel where I was staying. The old man opened the door for me very gentlemanly, I got out of the car, stretched out my hand to the old man, and thanked him generously.
The old man still returned the salute with a calm face, and I turned around to walk into the hotel lobby, when he called out to me behind me:
"I, what they say is true, you might as well consider me. ”
I laughed all the way, what's wrong, did I finally finish running the lintel of these years, and I also started to walk the peach blossom luck this year?
It was already the middle of the night after washing up. I couldn't sleep. It was a wonderful night, but I still felt tired, tired for no reason. Lao Fang's words surprised me, but my heart was still unfazed, in addition to calm, there was also a bit of boredom that I couldn't explain.
Walking in front of the mirror, I took a closer look at myself in the mirror. At twenty-seven, I still have a delicate face, but there is an indescribable loneliness and haggard in my expression. Su Yan, Su Yan, he and Yu Lu got married as they wished, and I am nothing, but I tried my best to be someone else's supporting role, and in the end, I retreated in a hurry, in addition to being scarred, maybe I am not as good as a gently floating cloud in his heart. His eyes suddenly soured, and a hot liquid slashed uncontrollably.
"Ring.........." The sound of the mobile phone suddenly rang, startling me.
"Hey......" I said with bated breath.
There was silence for a while, and after a while, a low male voice came:
"I'm Qin Jun, have you slept?"