Overeating is a disease, and I know very well that during this time, when I have something to do, I will search for some information about overeating on the Internet.

For example, that day I accidentally turned to a video about some overeating girls interviewed by Lu Yu and Lu Yu.

Among them, there is a girl, so thin that only the skeleton is left in the body, the skinny looks very scary, her name is Xiaoshuang, she told the host that she can't eat these days, because of overeating, she has severe anorexia.

On TV, Xiaoshuang said that her boyfriend, because her boyfriend dislikes her and doesn't eat, the two of them are together, and they don't even have the joy of eating, because every time they eat, either she sits and watches her boyfriend eat, or she only eats a few bites of green vegetables.

Her boyfriend broke up with her because of this.

Xiaoshuang lived alone, even when she was receiving an infusion, she was also afraid that the infusion would make her fat.

There is also a girl who has short haircuts, looks very energetic, her figure is not fat or thin, she is very well-proportioned, and she is also a serious overeating, during this time his mood will be very gloomy, and he has the psychology of suicide.

Xiaoshuang said that she once spent a few hundred yuan, bought a lot of snacks to eat, and ate until it was swollen, I thought to myself, aren't these symptoms of Xiaoshuang like mine!

We are so similar and all our roots are due to weight loss.

It's really a fat to ruin everything, fat, the world has abandoned you, with such thoughts, you also hate fat, so you don't dare to eat at all.

I think of the time when I was overeating, I really didn't eat much pasta in a month, and I lost seven or eight pounds that month, just because I couldn't eat every day, and second, I thought it would look better if I was thin.

Every day, when I see the weight of the scale drop, my heart is extremely happy.

However, because of not eating pasta for a long time, the body has this need, always has to eat a lot of things, and the stomach also has problems, and I don't feel hungry at all, and when I feel full, I have eaten a lot, and I spend it day after day, in self-blame and regret.

The next day it was even worse, overeating is a vicious circle, and it seems that there are many girls like me in the world.

The last girl came out, called Xiaobai, Xiaobai was a little chubby, but very beautiful, her long hair was very flowing, her smile was very peaceful, her eyes were round, she said that she painted her eyelashes, wore lipstick, and said that she was very beautiful now, because she also came from overeating, Xiaobai began to tell her experience.

Because at that time I felt thin, the whole world will carry you, and will carry you, open the way, professor, you will be very beautiful, only thin, you will succeed, and fat, is simply an enemy of mine, I am particularly afraid, and I am also very serious, some time ago I lost weight to, seventy pounds, you must know that I have 1.65 meters tall.

What is the concept of seventy pounds? There is only a handful of bones left, just like her, Xiaobai pointed to the female guest next to her, and continued, really, in fact, I overeat a lot of times, and one of the most fundamental reasons is that I am not confident, I always feel that losing weight will increase my self-confidence.

When Xiaobai said this, I remembered my high school days, at that time, you didn't wash your hair, you felt that you were disgraced all day, and you didn't dare to meet people.

But as soon as he washed his hair, he felt that his spirit was wonderful, and he was confident all day, and he might overeat, which is such a psychology, but he is even more perverted, because he is joking with his body.

I remembered that because of overeating, I ate a lot every day, and if I couldn't vomit, my stomach was very uncomfortable, so I would take a lot of laxatives, and there were several times when I took more than double the dosage of laxatives, but it didn't work, so I increased the dosage.

The next day, I was dizzy and blue-faced, and now I think about it, really, what did my body have been ruined by me?

This kind of show gave me a lot of determination, I looked at the post again, and the people below were talking about overeating, wanting to lose weight, losing weight, and so on.

Because losing weight is not scientific, because you don't eat pasta for a long time, in order to get rid of the weight on your body, you will do whatever it takes, this is our current girl, it is not all for beauty, is it really beautiful when you lose weight?

If I think about this problem deeply, in fact, it is also related to some of our current advertisements, because in movies and television, those stars, those beautiful women of successful people, they are all skinny.

It's also dozens of pounds, and I don't know how they live.

So it gives us a misleading, we think that thin is good-looking, and if we think thin, wearing clothes is beautiful, but is this really the case? In reality, I have seen a girl whose cheeks are sunken, and her face is completely a skin, with only big bones left, can it be said that she is good-looking?

Only health is the most beautiful, I really hope that the current media can call the world, although I once read a report that now, the famous top models no longer want those skinny models, but you now look at those clothing exhibitions are still thin and boundless models.

What's wrong with this society?

What about us girls? What did we pursue when we were young, to be thin as beauty, to pursue success, and to sacrifice our own health, and even our own lives.

Either thin or die, use this to motivate yourself, this is our moment, I must not sink anymore, I warned myself, I must overcome overeating, from today onwards eat normally, eat steamed buns, eat noodles and drink, can not go on like this, I have to have a reconciliation with myself.

Thinking like this, I put it into action, and I will no longer blame myself for eating an extra steamed bun for lunch, and I will no longer be happy because I am hungry in the afternoon.

I ate every meal, but never overdid it, and when I felt comfortable in my stomach, I stopped, and after a month, I lost weight and slowly returned to normal.

Although I haven't lost as much weight as before, I still like this state very much, because everything in life is regular, and my mood is slowly getting better.

It's time for my marriage to have a showdown with my mother.

One day, my mother's sister, that is, my aunts, came to my house as a guest, my mother was in a very good mood, they chatted about some trivial things all over the world, and my grandmother was also there, everyone was happy, very happy, I was also very polite to pour water and wash fruits for them, and I was very busy.

In the course of the conversation, my aunts were again critical of my attire.

"Lan Lan, look at your dress, no one wants it in the whole stall, you said that you also earn a salary a month, how can you be on the stage when you wear this dress?"

"Oh, third aunt, this dress is not very good, I like it. ”

"What do you look like? You don't have any vision? You see that the girls now come out one by one and are all glamorous, look at you, your hair has never been neat, it has always been hairy, like a girl?" "Is there a girl's appearance? The fourth aunt began to help again, and they all began to quarrel with me continuously, and I was a little at a loss.

In fact, I also understand that these aunts of mine are also for my good, because seeing that I am getting older, they are a little worried and afraid that I will become an old girl and will not be able to get married, so they hope that I will dress up every day, dress up more, and be more beautiful, so that the chance of marrying out will be greater?

After seeing off the guests, my mother was in a good mood, and I took this opportunity to say to her, I have something to discuss with you.

Mom looked at me suspiciously, "What's the matter?"

"Mom, I've decided to get married. ”

As I stared intently, my mother looked at me quizzically and asked, "Who?"

"Mom, it's that Ma Tengyu, the one you've seen is the one who sends me home every time. "I don't want to say it.

"Ma Tengyu, Lan Lan, don't joke with me," the mother said bitterly, "I don't know that Ma Tengyu?

"Mom, don't worry about it so much, it's my business, and I don't have to worry about his child letting his parents watch it. ”

"Lan Lan, you are too naïve, do you say that you don't care? This is his own flesh and blood, you have to take care of everything when you marry into his family, besides, how embarrassing it is for you to find a second marriage," the mother said angrily.

It seems that I can't make my mother angry, but I can't help it, I stubbornly said: "When I get married, I'm always afraid of the east and the west, and I can't get married." ”

The mother continued to persuade: "Lan Lan, you continue to go on a blind date, don't be so anxious to marry yourself, didn't your aunt just tell you about a forestry bureau?

I shook my head, "Mom, I'm really tired, I have picked flowers every day on a blind date, oops, I'm not young, I can get married." ”

"Lan Lan, you must not be angry about this!" my mother persuaded me.

But I have no heart and mind, yes, these days I pick and choose, and I use them as spare tires.

As a result, I became the biggest spare tire, and it became a joke, and now I used to look down on those people, they all live happy lives, have children, wives, and hot kang heads. As for me, I'm still alone.

Thinking of this, my heart was irritable: "Mom, don't say it, let it be decided like this, I will decide my affairs." ”

As soon as I said this, my mother stopped talking, and she didn't know what to say, because she knew that the district was because of her obstruction, and I was still alone.

Mom's heart is always a little guilty because of this incident, and when I say this now, it reminds her of the past, and Mom said apologetically, "Lan Lan, I advise you to be cautious, no matter what, after all, if a woman is divorced, it will be difficult to find," Mother said earnestly.

"Mom, I know all this, you don't need to say it anymore," I comforted, "By the way, Ma Tengyu and I have already set a date, just next month, the 9th of next month, just a good day." ”

"It won't be so soon, is it engaged or married?"

"No, let's get married," I said.

"Oh my God, Gao Lanlan, she has wronged you so much when she finds a second marriage!"

"Oh Mom, you're wrong, this is my decision, Ma Tengyu originally said that he would get engaged first, and then get married, but I don't want to delay it for so long, let's get engaged and get married, anyway, the money won't be less when the time comes." ”

"But why are you going to make a note on this wedding day?

"Oh, I originally thought it was me, when his parents came over, if you say this date, you can agree, anyway, Dad's health is not good, I also want to get married early, don't let him worry about it. ”

When my mother saw that I was resolute, she said no more, but for many days I heard her sighing, and she couldn't sleep at night, and her temper became more and more irritable.

One day when I was feeding my father, my mother complained and said: "You said that you are an old ghost, you want you to drag you down, Lan Lan's marriage is also so sloppy, I originally wanted to find a good one for Lan Lan, you see how I have time now, now she is looking for a second marriage, my mood can't be said, how to be a mother!"

Next to him was his sick father, who stopped talking because his father was in poor health.

He couldn't even care about himself now, he just waved his hand and said to his mother, "What can I do?"

Listening to the sighs of my parents, my heart was like a knife.

But now, there is no suitable candidate around, especially in this small city, 26 years old is already considered an older woman, what can I do?

Anyway, I'm just a little teacher, and the situation at home is so difficult.

Forget it, even if there is a tiger's mouth and wolf's den in front of me, I jumped in, I accepted my fate.