"I should be with them, I should go with them? Didn't I say they would go first? Didn't I say I was going to Disney together?"

I sat on the sofa and cried for a long, long time, and Zhuge Yu said, "Isn't it that I haven't found it yet? You don't have to worry too much, what if nothing happens?"

"I, I'll go first. ”

"I'll give it to you!"

"No, I want to be alone. ”

He was afraid that something would wrong with me, so he followed me quietly. I know, but I can't say anything right now. Why did life do this to me? Why did everything I cherish disappear and those I cherished leave me? I glanced up at the sky and just fell.

When I opened my eyes again, I was already in the hospital.

"Are you awake? Do you want to drink saliva?"

"No need. ”

"Brother Yu, buy me a plane ticket to the United States. Tomorrow to go. ”

Seeing that my eyes were so empty, he wanted to persuade me again.

"Brother Yu. I shook my head at him, but he didn't say a word.

I didn't want to turn on my phone, because I knew that the news that was flooding right now must be about the two of them.

I still chose to go to the United States to fulfill the promise that could never be fulfilled. I went to the whole Disneyland by myself. I've played through everything in it. Including roller coasters that I didn't dare to try. In the dead of night, I still think of those two people. The two who left me without fulfilling their promise.

"When are you going to return to China?" The person who called was Ouyang Bei.

"Come on, in a few days!"

"I've always wanted to give you the keys to the house, but I don't have time, I'll give it to you when you come back. "The house he said, I only found out about recently. It was next door to my house in Beijing, which was bought by Gongsun Xiaohe at that time, and it has been fully renovated. It's a pity that the host hasn't moved in yet.

"Okay, I see. ”

Osno has developed very well in the past two years, and he has come here several times to see it. He did not continue to stay in South Korea to develop, but moved to the Chinese mainland.

Personally, I still think acting is more suitable for him than singing. He and Yang Zixuan have already been confirmed to be together, and no one expected that the girl who was like a gangster would go to film for him. Now these two people are the same as before, childhood sweethearts. Seeing the two of them like this now also makes me feel relieved. I haven't been making friends of the opposite sex around me in the past few years. But I think it's a fulfilling life. It is true that people do not love only one person, but she may lose the courage to love everyone because of one person.

Xie Sun Haoye and Zhuang Nie Yunan finally reconciled again, and Zhuge Zeyan was also with the girl he met at the door of the toilet in the inner library.

Gongsun Xiaohe, thank you, thank you for meeting me when I was the most down, for tolerating me and loving me, and for bringing me the most ordinary and extraordinary love. Thank you for making me understand the beauty of life, I have been sad and uncomfortable for you, but I have never hated you for leaving me like this. You are a stroke in my life that can never be erased, maybe I will get married and have children in the future, but I love you. I'm glad I have you in my life. I can't thank you enough for the love you have brought me!

"What's wrong with me in the hospital?" I heard the voice a little anxious. "That's... That..."

"What's that,,Don't be fussy, just say something!" I see her like this, it's really uncomfortable, and when I have music, I don't think it's that simple, but now I can only listen to him all day long.

"Oh, you didn't say it!" Nie Yunan, who was anxious, snatched her phone.

"Zhou Zhengyou Ran and Zhang Chenyu have a relationship. ”

This sentence was like thunder, and the words smashed into my heart, like a hammer hitting my heart one by one. My mouth opened and closed again, for there was no word that could express my inner emotions now.

If this person was someone else and not Zhang Chenyu, I wouldn't be so overwhelmed. Zhang Yuchen, my very good friend, I even always talk to her about my feelings. Including all the details between us. She would always say to me, "Don't worry, persistence is the most precious." "Well, we only met the other day.

Is it me who has a crush on Zhou Zhengyouran? No, it's Minglian! These are things that everyone knows. Including him, Zhou Zheng Youran. He didn't say anything, you think I'm a very good and worthwhile friend, and the second is that he and Moosno are very good friends, so he keeps pretending that he doesn't know anything, doesn't understand anything.

That feeling was really super uncomfortable, I don't know why, I felt a little breathless, and the Kong Ming lantern that I gave up outside the window is now not hope, but despair in my eyes, because I don't know which of these lamps is written in the wishes of the two of them.

The New Year's Lantern Festival was supposed to be a happy day, but I didn't sleep all night.

I recall that the thing I regret the most is that I worked hard to break off contact with Zhou Zhengyouran after that. Because it was simply impossible, I did no doubt to push him away as a friend.

Since then, I have had her best friend turned into one of the best friends. Later became his friend and even a classmate. It's ridiculous! I brought it all on myself. Everyone has a cause and must have an effect, and it seems that this is my retribution.

We no longer chat in class, no longer tutoring, secretly pass small notes, I no longer help him with homework, more listen to him and his friends.

He deleted my QQ, stopped calling me every day to chat, and no longer made harassing phone calls to me in the early hours of the morning when he couldn't sleep. I should be happy, shouldn't I!

I was really confused at the time, and they always took turns talking to me.

"Do you think he doesn't know?

"Don't be sad about him, you still have a lot of good life!"

"Actually, he doesn't have anything good!"

“...”

There are too many words to persuade me. But seriously, I didn't listen to a word.

She never told me to stop contacting me. Everything he did and everything he said pushed me outward in my heart. Actually, this makes me sad more than a sentence, let's not get in touch anymore. That's when I learned to smoke, drink, and put on makeup. Those months were really debauched. Smoke and drink every day and meet new people. Then smoke and drink again and meet new people. I like to have fun on days like this. I even went to fight with others, but I didn't go to her once, because I knew that if I went to her, Zhou Zhengyou Ran would definitely come to me. I knew he wouldn't ask me why I went to her, but I already knew in my heart that he wouldn't believe me.

During the day, in front of my family and teachers, I tried to pretend to be a good girl, and at night I became a demon, a demon who fought against the world, and some people said that I had changed anything that could destroy you if it was enough to confuse you. When you fall, someone is supporting, someone is distressed, and someone is laughing on the side, people are everywhere, people who look at jokes are everywhere, sometimes you turn your head and see people who say they are good friends, standing in the pile of people, laughing at you as if nothing happened, you feel sad, you see the wrong person, they are all friends of wine and meat, it doesn't matter, just look at them clearly, just stay away from them, don't believe that there are true friends in this world because of them

Well, I know these are friends who drink and meat. But I don't really like this life now.

Am I fallen? Probably.

My results are still the envy of many. Until one day Zhuge Zeyan found me in a bar.

"Yan Mai, I'll only take a few minutes of your time, and I'll leave when I'm done. Looking at his serious face, I knew what he was going to say to me! It was nothing more than to persuade me not to do this! But I couldn't listen to anyone, and if I did, Moosno would have persuaded me to get back on track, but I was still unrepentant by the bloody dogs he scolded every day. Later, he and Nie Yunan stopped trying to persuade me. Because we basically quarrel every day for a month.

"Don't joke with yourself, look at the way you are now, will he change anything? I told you, nothing, look at the present, how many people are standing with the road! Come back! You are too young! You can go and beat her, it's okay, as long as you are comfortable, as long as you don't believe it, in this case, wrong, count it as mine, okay, I'll just talk about it here!" Although his words were done in one go, I knew that he must have thought it through. He left, I went back to the bar, picked up the couch, backpack and clothes and turned to leave.

As I stood on the road, I suddenly felt a sense of sadness, the city is so big, but I don't know where to go? Is this a kind of sadness! I shouldn't have had much hope for feelings. I'm not happy now, but I want to live with a smile, people should always have some pursuits, life shouldn't be like this.

"Boss, a box of Nanjing, a bundle of beer. Under the surprised eyes of the boss, I took a box of cigarettes and beer and walked away. I didn't want to know what the boss said about me! I walked and walked and walked alone, walked to the river, picked up a lighter, and lit a cigarette. Looking at the smoke rings he spit out in the dark night, he couldn't stop shaking his head and sighing. He's the first person I've fallen in love with!

[Diary: Then I realized that love is just a few bottles of spleen wine and a few cigarettes, and it is addictive because of the accumulation of time. I used to feel that I always felt that love was a must. Now I find out I was wrong. So just quit the obsession. No more sleepless nights for him. In fact, there is no such thing as today, and there is no time to change. The road we have traveled is not too long, and we are still too young]

"Hey!" I picked up the phone suddenly, but I didn't know who to call, I hadn't been in touch with Nie Yunan for a long time. "You big fool, you finally know to call me, where are you?" The voice on the phone was the same as before, not gentle, but at this moment, I felt very warm.

My heart overflowed, like a faucet that I couldn't stop, and all I spewed out were unknown grievances and loneliness! I didn't know how to brew my emotions, and when the tears flowed down so uncontrollably, I didn't cry, I didn't cry for months, I kept warning myself, thinking that I would hold back.

Zhuge Zeyan miscalculated my sentence, and my defeat broke through the psychological defense line that I had worked so hard to manage.

"Riverside, come on!"

I picked up a can of beer and took out a nanjing. Began to swallow the clouds and spit fog again.

"If he didn't give me hope, I wouldn't be so uncomfortable! You don't know how many people are waiting to bless us! Nie Yunan, is there something wrong with me that makes him angry! Nie Yunan, am I too clingy, I can change it, I can really change it!" In the past, we always laughed at those women who wore makeup and cried into panda eyes, but now I understand. They are all people with stories. It may be a staggering relationship, but you must know that he must have been genuinely engaged when he cried.

Nie Yunan didn't say a word, just hugged me, at this time, compared to comforting words, I need a hug with you. I went from sobbing to crying loudly, and then slowly to sobbing quietly.

If I say what growth is, I will tell you that growth is about muting the long tone of crying. We did this all night by the river, and watched the night leak a piece of fish belly over the mountain. Watch as day replaces night. I love watching the sunrise because it feels like a new day has begun, and it always brings new hope.

The next day, I walked into school with a pair of swollen eyes. Continued to start a boring life. But my life is no longer without him.

We are like two parallel railroad tracks, each in its own world, without intrusion into each other.

"Don't worry, help me write my homework!"

"Don't worry, what class is today!"

"Don't worry, I'll sleep secretly for a while, you can help me take a look at the teacher. ”

I tried my best to hold back, telling myself no. Until one day.

"Hey, what's wrong Sun Haoye!"

"We're in the cabaret, the old place, come on!"

On the other end of the phone was a cabaret that was unique to a cabaret.

"I'm not going, you guys can play!"

"Inside, Youran is looking for you. "It turns out that he will still look for me.

I thought to myself, don't go, don't go. But my legs and feet did not obey the call and went to the door of the closet, took out my clothes and changed them.

In autumn, the temperature difference between morning and evening is very large, I only wore a shirt, and when I went out, I saw that the dark clouds in the sky began to gather, I am afraid that it is about to rain, and I don't care if I have an umbrella or not.

I got into a cab and headed for the Red Rose Cabaret. As I expected, just a few minutes after the car was driven, it started to rain, and the rain came very quickly, and when I got to the door of the song hall, the rain outside was too heavy, but I couldn't care about it so much. When I entered the private room, I was wet.

"Yan Mai!" Osno and Zeyan stood up when they saw me.

"Who called her. Osno asked Luo Junhang next to him.

"I asked her to come!"

"You also heard it, You Ran kept calling her. I just can't help it. "Sun Haoye has never twisted. Shrugged at them. Said helplessly.

"What's the matter!" I looked at Zhou Zhengyouran, who was sitting alone on the sofa in the south, and I didn't know what it felt, and I was a little sad. I haven't gotten a good look at him in months. Looking into his eyes, I didn't know what to do. Looking into his eyes, I suddenly remembered a sentence, in fact, you know that no one at this age will be anyone's life.

"You ran, you ran. I walked up to him and shook his shoulder with my hand, and he looked up at me, and there was something drunk in his tone.

"Yan Mai, you're here!Come, let's drink!" he said as he staggered to his feet and reached for the wine on the table.

"What the hell is wrong with him!" still no one spoke. "Oops. You guys really, I can't help it. You don't say I'll talk about it. Sun Haoye was choked by the low pressure around him, and he couldn't stand it.

"She and Zhang Chenyu are angry!" I didn't know how to persuade him, I just cleared my throat, took a deep breath, and then picked up a bottle to brave the world, "Come on Youran, I'll drink with you, if you don't get drunk today, you won't return!"

"Good. ”

The two of us sat on the couch and drank non-stop. At the end of the day, I didn't even know how much I drank. It is said that I am not drunk for a thousand glasses, but sometimes it is better to be drunk than not to be drunk.

"You have to be sober, don't shed tears easily, right and wrong, you have to be brave to face it, let it go, don't let yourself be so tired......"

Osno picked up the microphone and began to sing slowly, I knew he was singing this song to me. I understand. He's angry, and there's probably nothing he can do about me.

I kept drinking and singing him, from "Exaggerated" to "Your Backpack", from "Love is Jealousy" to "Don't Talk" because he knew that I loved the doctor named Eason Chan.

There are 100 ways for people to get drunk, some people drink too much and go crazy, some people drink too much and keep throwing up, some people drink too much and fall asleep, and he just sits all the time and doesn't say anything, if he doesn't throw up, I don't even know he's drunk.

We drank for over an hour about the same. The singing suddenly stopped, and Zhou Zhengyou stopped sending a wine glass to his mouth. I followed his gaze towards the door. I smiled, it was Zhang Chenyu, I stood up consciously, and left without saying a word, my back was chic and arrogant.

As soon as I closed the door of the private room, tears fell from my eyes.

It's that I'm too angry.

It's still raining outside, and I'm easily satisfied, but you're not willing to give at all, like now. "Oops!" I was splashed with water from my bicycle. The shoes were already soaked.

"You're a person—" Before I could finish speaking, the perpetrator was already gone, but his student ID card fell to the ground. Fifth Middle School, Class 28, Ouyang Yuzhe. Okay, good, I remember you.

When I got home, I opened my diary and started writing. Put down the pen and see the last sentence in the journal. "I just

Remember, the day you came, spring also came, and the scenery was just right. "I don't know which song it is, but it's true.

Later, revisiting the past was like the wind in his ears, not panicked, and later, he was more regretful than his lover, more plump than his friends, and then the dream shrunk like words, and then we all cried.

After this time, he didn't talk to me anymore, so how could I forget what he said, "Yan Mai, persistence can move people's hearts the most!"

I saw a sentence and liked it very much, and wrote him down in my diary again. You shouldn't trust any man, unless he has loved you for several years, seen you the ugliest, knows your character best, knows your likes and dislikes best, likes to sing to you the most, has changed for you, and paid for you at any cost. But a woman who does these things will not redeem a man.

He is like the wind. It's up to me to come and go.

I don't know why, I've been suffering from insomnia lately, and my eyes hurt so much

It's so cold outside the window

What about you

How are you doing?

Is there someone who has taken my place?

May you be all right

"You really want to go!" Nie Yunan actually shouted loudly. The geography teacher stared at the two of us with a murderous gaze.

We bowed our heads in embarrassment. I glared at her viciously. Warn her not to speak again.

Classes are over. Ze Yan and Sun Haoye came to my desk, and I suddenly found that the two of them had grown taller than when they were freshmen in high school. "Where are you going?" Sun Haoye looked really angry. Don't smile at me anymore.

"Sun Haoye!" Ze Yan scolded him, meaning not to let him have a seizure.

"Me, I'm going to change schools. "I'm talking about light clouds, maybe a different environment can help me start a new life.

"Do you know!" Sun Haoye couldn't yell at me, but seeing that Osno didn't speak, he knew that Mo Osno also knew.

"You know that, right. Why not say. You just let her go!"

"I'm not going to let her go on her own because I'm going to go with her. ”

With that, Moosno stood up. Walked to my side.

"Alright, stop arguing. I'm not leaving the city either, I'm just changing schools. And you, go to Korea, don't have to accompany me. "Moosno is really leaving, but not to the fifth middle school, but to South Korea. Moosno's parents came to a company in a coastal city and are now moving to South Korea. With Moosno, of course. And Moosno is vehemently opposed. Because this matter has been quarreled with the family several times. The worst one was to run away from home. If it weren't for the fact that we grew up together, we would really be said to be in early love!

"What's going on, see you tonight, don't let any of you want to leave. Sun Haoye said indignantly, although his temper looked bad, but you must know that he showed everything on his face. He cares about me and Osno.

I don't know if I should be happy or sad to see him. My relationship is not about love, but also try to have a wonderful life.

I looked at Zhou Zhengyouran, who was sitting diagonally across from me, his eyes were always drifting towards us, and I knew he was listening. It's just that I tried to restrain myself, so that I tried not to look at him and stop thinking about it.

"So, both of you are leaving!" Luo Junhang was very disappointed. It even manifests itself on the face. The anger at the dinner table was so embarrassing for the first time. Everyone just sat and watched the waiters finish the dishes one by one, and none of us moved their chopsticks.

"Okay, come on, I'll talk first!" Seeing that the atmosphere was so awkward, I got up to play a round.

"Come on, it's nice to meet all of you, I think you're all my best friends in life. It's not that I'm never going to see you again, it's just that the number of times is less, and in the future, you won't have to be noisy with me every day. I don't have to go to class to buy me snacks. "Thinking about my life in the past two years is indeed imprinted in my heart. Every time, a scene that I didn't pay attention to before now clearly appears in front of my eyes. It's very happy to look at, but it really makes people feel sour now.

I raised my glass. "Come on, dry this glass. "I didn't clink glasses with anyone, and I drank a glass of wine in one gulp.

This time we didn't shout as loudly as before, and the meal was peaceful. The drink was also very calming. Even others thought that this private room was empty.