I looked at his eyes that looked at me seriously, Shen Xuanhan, this man who is very affectionate to me, he is gentle and elegant, he is suave and suave, for my sake I would rather give up the opportunity to severely punish Lin Momo, no matter when and where, always put me first and think about me......

I stared at him deeply and hugged Shen Xuanhan tightly, "Thank you, Xuanhan, thank you very much." ”

I looked up at Shen Xuanhan's eyes, "However, I can't go back with you, you are so good now, your life can't be disrupted because of me, I can't be so selfish and drag you down." ”

"What drags down or not, Lan Lan, I'm not afraid of your drag! Lan Lan ...... I like you!"

Shen Xuanhan hugged me tightly in his arms, like a treasure, and he was afraid that he would lose it. I couldn't be happy, and in the face of Shen Xuanhan, I always felt guilty.

Yes, he is very good to me, and I am grateful to him, but gratitude is not love after all, I can't dominate his love for me, he deserves better people to love him.

"I'm sorry, Shen Xuanhan ......" I gently pushed him away, "I can't go back with you, and I can't accept you, the person I love is a poplar, and it has been a poplar from beginning to end......"

Shen Xuanhan's hand slowly slid off my shoulder, "Yes......" He sat down in the sand.

I slowly squatted down in front of him, "Xuan Han, I am no longer the little girl I used to be, I am no longer full of wind and snow, the years have polished my sharpness and brought me precipitation." I also have a daughter who is very cute, and I want to take my daughter with me every day in the future, so that she can live a happy life. ”

"You have a daughter, and ...... is the father of that child?"

"Well, I have a daughter, but I've divorced her father a long time ago. I'm doing well with my daughter on my own, at least safely, and the people I love are by my side. ”

Thinking of my daughter Xiaoxue, my whole body became softer, and I smiled and stretched out my hand to pull Shen Xuanhan up.

"It's late at night, let's go outside for a coffee and have a good chat. Shen Xuanhan took advantage of the situation and took my hand and walked outside the school.

The streets at night are still so crowded with people, the lights are so colorful, the streets, the roadsides, shops, and the signboards on the buildings are changing colors from time to time, red like fire, orange like xia, yellow and soft, green and bright, green and green, blue like innocence, purple is romantic, white and pure, black and calm...... Endless, graceful and self-indulgent, adding a touch of color and sparkle to the night.

This street, how many times we walked through, I don't remember.

However, I still remember so many bits and pieces that were sprinkled on the streets.

"Alright then, I'm not going to appeal anymore, so you and they can have a settlement. ”

Shen Xuanhan took me to a coffee shop, this coffee shop is my first time, the decoration is very simple, but it makes people feel very comfortable, we sit by the window, outside the window, pedestrians are in a hurry, they are in a hurry to go home.

"But I still hope you can go back with me, a woman's family, how hard it must be to be alone with a child!"

Shen Xuanhan's sudden voice pulled back my thoughts, I really like to wander more and more recently.

I picked up the cappuccino in front of me and took a sip, huh...... The sweetness was just right, and he remembered that I liked to put a piece of candy in it.

"Xuan Han, I thank you very much for your kindness, but I really don't have the confidence that I can live with you with Xiaoxue in peace and stability. It's really hard to be alone with a child, if it's not you now, there is another responsible and responsible person who is willing to take care of our mother and son, maybe I agreed, but it's you, I already owe you too much, I don't want the rest of your life to be spent on our mother and daughter. ”

"I don't care!" Shen Xuan replied sharply, a pair of eyes looking straight at me, as if they wanted to see me through.

"I know you don't care, but I do! I can't go against my conscience, you've done enough for me, but I'm not sure I can bring you happiness......"

I paused, "I'm a person who has been divorced twice, and I don't qualify for happiness......"

Lan Lan ...... You don't want that...... Why are you not qualified! I say you are qualified, you are qualified. Shen Xuanhan obviously didn't want to continue to listen to my rejection of him, so he interrupted me.

"Xuan Han, over the years, I've been tired of this kind of life, Lin Momo snatched my daughter at the beginning, and now I finally found her, I just want to take my daughter well, so that she can grow up healthy and happy.

If I were still with you, Lin Momo wouldn't let me go, and she would just torture me, but if she poisoned my daughter again, I think I would really go crazy. ”

I calmed down my mood and said calmly to Shen Xuanhan: "Xuanhan, I know that you are good to me, then you should fulfill me, don't force me to go back with you......"

There are some things that can only be experienced in a heart-piercing experience.

The four of us, who have been entangled for so many years, should have let go a long time ago, greedy, hateful, and stupid, but we just couldn't pass our own level.

I once loved someone so hard, but failed, and since then the door of my heart has been locked, and then I have lost the key with all my strength.

I can't redeem myself, and who can save me.

"I have been divorced twice, and at the beginning, I loved the poplar tree and loved it back and forth, and even the marriage partner came according to the shadow of the poplar tree. ”

Speaking of this, I laughed self-deprecatingly, "Now that I talk to you about these things, I have nothing to be sad about, I brought it all on myself." ”

Shen Xuanhan kept looking at me, although I didn't look up at him, but I could feel his gaze, following me all the time.

"I remember when my daughter was just lost, I went like crazy and went looking for her. My daughter is only so old, and I worry day and night, whether she eats well and dresses warmly? Now that I am with my daughter, I rarely think about what happened between the four of us in the past, and I am very grateful to God that my daughter is safe and sound. ”

People come and go in the coffee shop, and now there are only a few young couples drinking coffee together, talking and laughing.

They are so nice, young and energetic, and their lives have just begun.

Unlike me, it seems to be over before it starts.

Suddenly I feel like I'm getting a little old, and I've been through so much over the years.

Shen Xuanhan kept persuading me on the other side, I understood what he said, but I just couldn't pass my own level.

Maybe it's like he said, I'm just stupid, Poplar uses me like this, I still can't forget him.

"Lan Lan, you can go back with me......" Listening to Shen Xuanhan's bitter persuasion of me, I couldn't bear it.

I kept saying to myself in my heart, Gao Lanlan, you have already harmed others badly, do you still want to drag them down now? Do you still have a little conscience!

"Shen Xuanhan, don't say it again, I won't go back with you, the person I love is Yangshu, I can't pass this level by myself, I can't help but be with you against my will just because I want to be better, Shen Xuanhan, I'm really sorry......"

Shen Xuanhan sighed helplessly, "You, you're just too stubborn!"

He shook his head, and continued, "Since you are so reluctant to go back with me, that's it, and I won't force you." But you have to take care of yourself. ”

He paused, and then said, "Lin Momo, this woman is really terrible, Yang Shu, I think I may not be able to look at her, if she goes to you again, or does something that threatens you and embarrasses you, you must tell me!"

Also, if you have any difficult things in life, don't carry them alone, I can help you. Don't be too reckless......"

"Okay, okay, I know, I didn't expect our handsome guy Shen to be so verbose. ”

I interrupted Shen Xuanhan's words with a smile. I know he's all for my good, he takes such good care of me, there's so little I can do for him.

"Don't interrupt me in a hurry, I haven't finished yet!" Shen Xuanhan touched his nose, looked out the window and said, "When have you figured it out, remember to call me, I will always be waiting for you"

"Thank you, Xuan Han...... "Really I don't know what to say except thank you, I owe Shen Xuanhan too much......

"Well, it's getting late, I'll send you back. ”

After speaking, Shen Xuanhan got up, he picked up the coat on the chair, "I'll go pick up the car first, you wait for me here." ”

"Waiter, pay the bill~~ I'll be back soon, you wait for me." ”

"Alright, alright, you can go. I'm waiting for you right here. I smiled as Shen Xuanhan walked out of the café.

It didn't take long for Shen Xuanhan to come back. I sat in his passenger seat, and he kept amusing me the whole time, but I wasn't very tall.

I can only let him concentrate on driving, and I just talk to him casually.

Downstairs from the hotel

"It's so late, I won't invite you to sit upstairs. I smiled and turned to Shen Xuanhan and said.

Shen Xuanhan looked upstairs, and then looked at me, "Okay, then, it's always okay to hug, just treat it as a separate hug." ”

Looking at Shen Xuanhan and smiling, I stretched out my hand and hugged him.

"Good night! Have a good dream!" Shen Xuanhan waved at me in a good mood.

"You too!Bye!" I turned to leave, Shen Xuanhan was still looking at me, I couldn't turn back.

I can't go back on what I've decided......

The night was already deep, the silver moonlight was sprinkled on the ground, and the trees were still singing, and the fragrance of the night filled the air, weaving a soft net that covered all the scenes.

All the eyes come into contact with is something covered with this soft net, and no grass or tree is as realistic as it is in the daytime.

They all have vague and ethereal colors, each of which hides its subtleties and keeps its secrets, giving people a dreamlike feeling.

Tomorrow is another day.