Chapter 100: Enduring the pain and remembering the past
Seeing Luo Haoning's face, Yun Mengxue's pretended smile was a little stiff.
"Brother Haoning, after everything has been discussed with you, you are no longer willing to always smile at me like before?
Luo Haoning was slightly stunned, and Yun Mengxue stepped forward and squatted in front of Luo Haoning.
"Brother Haoning, I really want to be your friend, I want to listen to your heart and share your sadness. People do not live to wear masks, but need to confide, and only by speaking out the anguish in their hearts will the whole heart become relaxed without burden. ”
Luo Haoning looked at Yun Mengxue's eyes steadily, listening to her persistent persuasion to open her heart, and suddenly laughed softly.
"Like, really like. ”
"Like?"
Yun Mengxue raised her eyebrows a little puzzled, what was Luo Haoning saying she looked like?
"Brother Haoning, you ......"
Without waiting for Yun Mengxue to finish speaking, Luo Haoning slowly raised his hand and stroked her face, Yun Mengxue was surprised, what was Luo Haoning doing?
"Brother Haoning......"
"Don't move. ”
Luo Haoning's voice was very soft, although his actions were a little weird, but Yun Mengxue was still obedient and did not move.
Luo Haoning's slender fingers gently touched Yun Mengxue's eyebrow arch, and her fingertips wandered to the corners of her eyes, as if a paintbrush was delicately carriing, carefully depicting her outline.
"Do you know why Haochen hates me?"
Yun Mengxue's eyes suddenly enlarged, does Luo Haoning have begun to open his heart like this?
"Isn't it...... It's not because of my aunt's business, so ...... Also, Chu Mengyao ...... ...... with you."
It's really embarrassing to say this kind of thing, Yun Mengxue is embarrassed, that's what she knows.
"Between Haochen and Meng Yao, I was originally a third party who suddenly entered, Meng Yao met Haochen first, they have a very good relationship, and they are also a pair recognized by everyone, but they are just ......"
The third party, the recognized couple, just?
Yun Mengxue is messy, what kind of relationship is this? Could it be that Chu Mengyao's original boyfriend was Luo Haochen instead of Luo Haoning? So it was because of her splitting her legs that caused such a relationship?
Luo Haoning read the thoughts in Yun Mengxue's eyes, he shook his head, and silently denied Yun Mengxue's speculation.
"Although this is the case, and Haochen does think so, but Meng Yao didn't think so much in his heart, when the relationship between the two of them was very close and harmonious, I was not known by Meng Yao because I had been in the studio for a long time. Until that day, she came to the studio by chance because she was hiding with Haochen, and that was the first time the two of us met. ”
Recalling the past, Luo Haoning's eyes revealed a lot of tenderness, this gentleness is not a disguise, but the exposure of true feelings.
Time goes backwards, and thoughts go back to memories of many years ago-
"Brother Haoning, don't you feel bored when you lock yourself in the studio every day?"
Chu Mengyao blinked a pair of big eyes full of agility, and asked Luo Haoning with both hands on her cheeks.
"I like it, because it's a hobby, so I never feel bored. ”
Luo Haoning's answer didn't have much emotion, he stopped his pen and turned his head slightly.
"If you are idle and bored, go out and play with Haochen, my atmosphere here is not suitable for you at all. ”
"Why?"
Chu Mengyao flattened her mouth and asked questions, but Luo Haoning didn't answer, turned her head and continued to paint. He didn't like people watching from his side, especially Chu Mengyao always talking and disturbing him.
"Brother Haoning, do you think I'm annoying?"
was said by Luo Haoning like that, Chu Mengyao didn't get angry, but jumped up to Luo Haoning's side, tilted his head to look at her and smiled, such an innocent and lively appearance, it was really hard for Luo Haoning to say something with a cold face.
"I know, Brother Haoning, why are you doing this to me, in fact, I know. ”
"You know?
Luo Haoning asked in surprise, and suddenly found that he had asked too much, he frowned and retracted his gaze.
"Brother Haoning, don't feel embarrassed because of your identity, anyway, you are also a child in this family, why can't you play with Meng Yao like Brother Haochen?"
Embarrassed because of his identity? Luo Haoning's hand trembled, and a not very beautiful color slashed diagonally on the picture, he suddenly felt irritable, threw away the brush, and turned to look at Chu Mengyao angrily.
"What do you know? What do you know? The eldest lady of the Chu family, I am not your playground here, please leave. ”
Luo Haoning gave Chu Mengyao an eviction order, although her expression was a little sad, she didn't want to leave at all.
"I'm not leaving! Brother Haoning, I've known you for so long, you haven't talked to anyone much, I like to see you draw, people just like it! Besides, with me by your side, you won't feel bored, no one to talk to is pitiful, don't you think that after I leave, you will feel very lonely?"
"Lonely?huh!"
Luo Haoning smiled coldly, he glanced at Chu Mengyao with cold eyes, grabbed her wrist and walked out.
"Eh, Brother Haoning!"
Chu Mengyao was pushed out of the studio by Luo Haoning not very gently, and the door slammed shut!
At first, Chu Mengyao could still hear the voice of Chu Mengyao knocking on the door and calling Luo Haoning, but after a while, it became extremely quiet outside the door.
Already gone?
Luo Haoning looked back at the door of the studio, and then a sarcastic smile flashed on his face.
"It's nice to say, but it's just talk. ”
In Luo Haoning's heart, he always believed that he was the illegitimate son of the Luo family, and such an embarrassing identity made him at a loss.
Looking around at the studio that suddenly became silent, Luo Haoning actually felt a little lonely, could it be that because of Chu Mengyao's frequent appearance, he was really used to the feeling of having that person around him?
How could it be?!
"Brother Haoning, are you thinking about me?"
Chu Mengyao suddenly opened the door and asked with a smile, interrupting Luo Haoning's somewhat sad thoughts, and he couldn't help but be stunned.
Seeing Luo Haoning's reaction, Chu Mengyao risked being treated coldly or driven out again, and walked quickly in front of Luo Haoning with a smile that she didn't know why.
"Brother Haoning, you just admit it! Actually, you really think that I am right to me? Say it, you have to say all the words that are holding back in your heart, so that you will be happy every day like me! If you tell me, then I will also tell you some secrets!"
Luo Haoning looked at Chu Mengyao who was talking to herself in a daze, this girl didn't seem to have any worries, and she loved to talk, why did she stay so happy all the time?
"I don't have much to say. ”
Deliberately ignoring the feelings in his heart, Luo Haoning turned around and returned to the painting, picked up the brush and prepared to continue painting.
"It's not easy for people to live, we should be grateful for the dawn of every day, because when we open our eyes, we can see the sunrise, which means that we have successfully survived another day, and we can see the sun the next day, what a happy thing it is!"
Seeing the sunrise the next day is something to be thankful about?
Chu Mengyao's words made Luo Haoning feel a little confused, what did she mean by what she wanted to express? Do you think that Luo Haoning is always so depressed and closed, and finally has depression and autism and the like to commit suicide, right?
This was Luo Haoning's thoughts, Chu Mengyao saw it, and she laughed out loud.
"Brother Haoning, if you don't want to say it's okay, then I'll tell you my secret. ”
Chu Mengyao was quite generous, she moved the chair to Luo Haoning's side by herself, and sat there smiling at him.
"Actually, I'm talking about myself when I say that, because ......"
Chu Mengyao's expression suddenly became a little lonely, and such an emotional contrast attracted Luo Haoning's attention.
"Because of what?"
Luo Haoning couldn't help but ask Chu Mengyao, and she laughed again when she left.
"It's nothing! I don't want to tell you again! Unless Brother Hao Ning tells me what is in his heart, otherwise, ...... You should never think that I can tell you the secret!"
After Chu Mengyao finished speaking, she walked outside the studio without waiting for Luo Haoning to drive her away, and before closing the door, she looked back at Luo Haoning.
"Brother Haoning, I hope that one day, you can take the initiative to really open up with me, I believe that day will come soon, I really look forward to it!"
Luo Haoning was left alone in the studio again, but this was the feeling, but it was completely different from before.
Chu Mengyao's words unconsciously opened the lock that Luo Haoning closed his heart, although it was not completely opened, but the key had been inserted into the lock cylinder, and it was only necessary to twist it when it was opened.
"Open your heart? huh...... When pigs fly. ”
Luo Haoning tried his best to calm the ripples in his heart, he Luo Haoning should not have such an emotional response, he can't and won't allow it!
For a long time, Luo Haoning has been deliberately avoiding the outside world, because of the problem of identity, he doesn't want his talent to be exposed, for fear that his edge will be as strong as Luo Haochen, and he may even surpass him.
The Chu family is the first friend of the Luo family, and Chu Mengyao often comes to the Luo family to play, but before that chance meeting, she never knew that the Luo family had another child, Luo Haoning.
Chu Mengyao had a great affection for this brother who had always closed herself, she was already a sixteen-year-old girl at that time, and her youth was silently sending a signal to her heart.
Maybe it's because he and Luo Haochen have known each other too well since he was a child, so he can't have so many extra feelings, Chu Mengyao just treats him as an older brother. And the chance acquaintance with Luo Haoning, as well as his indifference and innate melancholy temperament, deeply touched Chu Mengyao's heart.
From then on, Chu Mengyao would still come to the studio to watch Luo Haoning paint, but she suddenly became silent, just looked at Luo Haoning quietly with a smile on her face, and watched silently...... Silent ......
One day
"Haoning, Meng Yao seems to like playing with you lately. ”
Xu Yeli's words made Luo Haoning's eyes light up, and then he looked away.
"But I met by chance, and I didn't like it in particular. ”
Xu Yeli smiled slightly, and her tone was gentle and kind.
"Don't always have a cold face on Meng Yao, that kid...... Actually, it's quite pitiful, I didn't have a mother since I was a child, and I had congenital heart disease, and I heard that I had two major surgeries shortly after birth, so you ......"
"What?"
Luo Haoning looked at Xu Yeli in surprise, Chu Mengyao actually ......
"What a joy to be able to see the sun the next day!"
"If you tell me, I'll tell you some secrets!"
Suddenly learning of such a thing, Chu Mengyao's words began to hover in Luo Haoning's mind.
"Original...... That's what she said......"
Luo Haoning finally knew Chu Mengyao's thoughts, and also understood the meaning of her words.